SEBASTIAN.
All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.
I’ve lost her.
She will never forgive me, and why should she?
I brought this on myself…
The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.
Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.
I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.
All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.
I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.
I deserved that.
There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.
How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.
I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…
The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.
She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1
I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.
the way her lavender eyes were
feel the stinging in my eyes as
all I want is
makes me look towards the doors. Something
my way to the door and open it. They’re probably watching me in
trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his fist into the wall as Zade
We can’t let…” he trails off when he sees
I ask, walking over to them, and shoving my hands into the
don’t need to fucking know. Aren’t you
coldly, although due to the poison in the bullet, I am
fuck
what the fuck is going on,” I shoot back coldly, about to turn away when Zade
listen, this doesn’t involve you,”
all fucking times they figured out the cameras?” He spits, now looking at
don’t react, cocking a brow. “Cameras? What are we talking
understood the message.
a step ahead instead of being spied on all the damn time.
cameras in your shitty pack!” Gaultier snarls about to
him.
doing my fucking
the extremely silent footsteps of Lawrence. He was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and
any of you notified Gerard of this? It’s no small matter. If
they
stopped, he’s
yeah? What are we going to tell him? That somehow, they found
think they’ve discovered
you
we do need to tell Gerard and
say, just
comes from to the left, making
course…” Zade says, lowering
what’s happened?” he asks
this,
the cameras have been
Agatha?
my heart thudding as I
Mom?
it must be
spinning as
the pack. See if you can mind link her.” He commands, and he nods before he
mind link her, and is this my mother?” I ask. The
Lawrence looks at me.
and Gaultier’s so he can mind link her as they are family.” He says,
What?
a surprise to you, Sebastian?” Lawrence
her betrayal feels like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side. She’s always been
good.”
How could she do this? Everything was a fucking
fucking storm as I try to
the children. She’s been in the safe house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t
and places his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two of us have a
If Mom is captured, then what? Will she be
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