I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

never forget the way her lavender eyes were full of

head drops as I feel the stinging in my

did I always fuck up even when all I

snarl makes me look towards

stand up, silently making my way to the door and open it. They’re probably watching me in

try to be careful, but I also know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his fist into the wall as Zade growls at

We can’t let…” he

to them, and shoving my hands into

don’t need to fucking know. Aren’t you meant to

healed,” I reply coldly, although due to the poison in the bullet, I am

fuck off.”

the fuck is going on,” I

listen, this doesn’t involve

all fucking times

don’t react, cocking a brow.

they understood the message.

will help them get a step ahead instead of being spied on all the

Gaultier snarls about to shove me when Zade

him.

him and I’m doing my fucking all to stop myself

when I hear it, the extremely silent footsteps of Lawrence. He was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I can sense him and that is something

no small matter. If something has happened with the cameras, then we need to let

they can

stopped,

yeah? What are we going to tell him? That somehow, they found out?” Gaultier

think they’ve discovered

do you mean?”

mean our people in that pack. Maybe we do need to

I say, just

comes from

course…” Zade says, lowering his

he

got this, Zaia… destroy

Ms Agatha. All the cameras have been

Agatha?

sharply, my heart

Mom?

must be some

mind is spinning as Lawrence sighs

go to the borders of the pack. See if you can mind link

mind link her, and is this my mother?” I ask. The words are like

Lawrence looks at me.

is and Gaultier’s so he can mind link her as they are family.” He says, almost as if wanting to see how I react

What?

that a surprise to

although her betrayal feels like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs

good.”

she do this?

is a fucking storm as I try

her near the children. She’s been in the safe house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t risk her

his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two of us

I say. “I do have a question. If Mom is

The Novel will be updated daily. Come back and continue reading tomorrow, everyone!

Comments ()

0/255