I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

the way her lavender eyes

drops as I feel the stinging in my eyes as my

up even when all I want

me look towards the

the door and open it. They’re probably watching me

trust me,

down. We can’t let…” he trails

what?” I ask, walking over to them, and shoving my hands into

know. Aren’t you

although due to the poison in the bullet, I am still

fuck

ask Gerard what the fuck is going on,” I shoot back coldly, about to turn away when Zade grabs my

this doesn’t involve you,”

fucking coincidental that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?”

react, cocking a brow. “Cameras? What are we

understood the message.

get a step ahead instead of being spied on

in your shitty pack!” Gaultier snarls about to shove me when Zade

him.

him and I’m doing my fucking all to stop myself from

the extremely silent footsteps of Lawrence. He was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I can sense him and that is something I don’t plan to

no small matter. If something has happened with the

they can

has stopped, he’s

to tell him?

you think they’ve discovered

you mean?”

mean our people in that pack. Maybe we do need to

say,

from to the left, making both men tense as he

of course…” Zade

happened?” he asks

this,

Ms Agatha. All the cameras have been pulled.” Zade says, making my blood

Agatha?

heart thudding as I

Mom?

it must be some

is spinning as

to the borders of the pack. See if you can mind

my

Lawrence looks at me.

he can mind link her as they are family.” He says, almost

What?

surprise to you, Sebastian?”

“No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side. She’s always been my greatest cheerleader, to know that even now I

good.”

fucking doesn’t. How could she do this? Everything

as I try

and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t risk

says as he walks over to me and places his hands on my

have a question. If Mom is captured,

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