I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

never forget the way her

head drops as I feel the stinging

did I always fuck up even when all I want is

Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me look towards the doors. Something must have

up, silently making my way to the door and open it. They’re probably watching

careful, but I also know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his fist into the wall as

can’t let…” he trails off when

and shoving my hands into the pockets of my

fucking know. Aren’t you meant to

the bullet, I am still

fuck off.”

going on,” I shoot back coldly, about to turn away

this doesn’t involve you,” Zade

it does. Don’t you think it’s strangely fucking coincidental that now of all fucking times they

react, cocking a brow. “Cameras? What are we

understood

instead of being

Gaultier snarls about

him.

fuck down.” He warns him and I’m doing my

even more than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I

you notified Gerard of this? It’s no small matter. If something has happened with the

that they

stopped,

tell him? That somehow, they

they’ve discovered them?” Zade says

you mean?” I

we do need to tell Gerard and Father right

do,” I say, just as Lawrence begins

right, there is no maybe to it.” hist voice comes from to the left, making both

course…” Zade

he

got this, Zaia…

discovered Ms Agatha. All the cameras have been pulled.” Zade says, making my blood run

Agatha?

sharply, my heart thudding as I stare

Mom?

must be

spinning as Lawrence

borders of the pack. See if you can mind link

link her, and is this my mother?” I ask. The words are like poison

Lawrence looks at me.

link her as they are family.” He says, almost

What?

surprise to you, Sebastian?”

although her betrayal feels like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs

good.”

How could she

mind is a fucking storm as I try to keep

churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t risk her near the

walks over to me and places his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two of us have

“I do have a question. If Mom is captured, then what? Will

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