SEBASTIAN.
All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.
I’ve lost her.
She will never forgive me, and why should she?
I brought this on myself…
The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.
Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.
I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.
All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.
I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.
I deserved that.
There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.
How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.
I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…
The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.
She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1
I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.
the way her lavender
as I feel the stinging in my eyes as my vision
always fuck up even when all I want
me look towards the doors. Something
stand up, silently making my way to the door and open it. They’re probably watching me in this room,
will never fully trust me, regardless.
down. We can’t let…” he trails
over to them, and shoving my
Aren’t you meant
to the poison in the
so fuck off.”
ask Gerard what the fuck is going on,” I shoot back coldly, about to turn away when Zade grabs my
this doesn’t involve you,” Zade
coincidental that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?”
brow. “Cameras? What are
they understood
them get a step ahead instead of being
cameras in your shitty pack!” Gaultier snarls about to shove me when Zade
him.
the fuck down.” He warns him and I’m doing my
than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I
him, and have any of you notified Gerard of this? It’s no small matter. If something has happened with the cameras, then we need
that they can do
has stopped,
tell him? That somehow,
they’ve discovered them?”
do you
in that pack. Maybe we do need to tell Gerard and Father right now,”
maybe, we do,” I say, just as Lawrence
maybe to it.” hist voice comes from to the left, making both
course…” Zade says,
he asks
got this, Zaia… destroy
All the cameras have been
Agatha?
look up sharply, my heart thudding as
Mom?
it must be
mind is spinning as
See if you can mind link her.” He commands, and he nods before he walks
link her, and is this my mother?” I ask. The
Lawrence looks at me.
can mind link her as they are family.” He says,
What?
that a surprise to
but Mom belongs on our side. She’s always been my greatest cheerleader, to
good.”
doesn’t. How could she
is a fucking storm as I
taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t risk
his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two
a question. If Mom is captured, then what? Will she
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