SEBASTIAN.
All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.
I’ve lost her.
She will never forgive me, and why should she?
I brought this on myself…
The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.
Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.
I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.
All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.
I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.
I deserved that.
There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.
How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.
I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…
The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.
She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1
I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.
her lavender eyes
head drops as I feel the stinging in
I always fuck up even when all
Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me look
door and open it. They’re probably watching me in this room,
know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his
can’t let…” he
and
don’t need to fucking know. Aren’t you meant to be resting?”
I reply coldly, although due to the poison in the
fuck off.”
Gerard what the fuck is going on,” I shoot back
this doesn’t involve you,”
now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?”
react, cocking a brow. “Cameras?
they understood
ahead instead of being spied on
pack!” Gaultier snarls about to shove me when
him.
warns him and I’m doing my fucking all
was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and
him, and have any of you notified Gerard of this? It’s no small
that they can do
stopped, he’s
are we going to tell him? That somehow, they found out?” Gaultier
you think they’ve
you mean?” I
that pack. Maybe we do need to tell Gerard and
maybe, we do,” I say, just as
hist voice comes from to the left, making both
course…” Zade
what’s happened?” he asks
this, Zaia…
cameras have been pulled.” Zade
Agatha?
sharply, my heart thudding
Mom?
must
spinning as Lawrence
the pack. See if you can mind link her.” He commands, and he
and is this my mother?” I ask. The words
Lawrence looks at me.
they are family.” He says, almost as if wanting to see
What?
a surprise to you, Sebastian?”
punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side. She’s always been my greatest cheerleader, to know that even now I
good.”
doesn’t. How could she do this? Everything
storm as
near the children. She’s been in the safe house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray
to me and places his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two of
“I do have a question. If Mom is captured, then what? Will
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