I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

her lavender

the stinging in

up even when all I want is the best for those I

on?!” Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me look towards the doors. Something

up, silently making my way to the door and open it. They’re probably watching me in this room,

never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his fist

We can’t let…” he trails off

and shoving

Aren’t you meant to be

although due to the poison in the bullet, I am still not fully recovered, but I am getting

so fuck off.”

fuck is going on,” I shoot

listen, this doesn’t involve

coincidental that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?” He

react, cocking a brow. “Cameras? What are we

they understood the message.

a step ahead instead of being spied on

snarls about to shove me

him.

man, calm the fuck down.” He warns him and I’m doing my fucking

of Lawrence. He was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I can sense him and that is something I don’t plan to let

and have any of you notified Gerard of this? It’s no small matter. If something has happened with

that they can

has stopped,

him? That somehow,

think they’ve

you mean?” I

mean our people in that pack. Maybe we do need to tell Gerard and

maybe, we do,” I say, just

voice comes from to the left,

of course…” Zade says, lowering

he asks them

this,

possibly discovered Ms Agatha. All the cameras have been

Agatha?

heart thudding as

Mom?

it must be

spinning as Lawrence sighs

See if you can mind link her.” He commands, and he nods before he

this my mother?” I

Lawrence looks at me.

they are family.” He says, almost as if wanting to see

What?

that a surprise to you, Sebastian?”

I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side. She’s

good.”

it fucking doesn’t. How could she do this? Everything was

as I try

safe house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been.

places his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two of

a question. If Mom is captured,

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