I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

her

the stinging in my eyes as

fuck up even when all I want is the best for those I

going on?!” Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me look towards

way to the door and open it.

but I also know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his

can’t let…” he trails

can’t what?” I ask, walking over to them, and

need to fucking know. Aren’t you meant to be resting?” he says

in the bullet, I am still not fully

fuck off.” Gaultier

going on,” I shoot back coldly, about

listen, this doesn’t

Don’t you think it’s strangely fucking coincidental that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?” He spits, now looking at

cocking a brow. “Cameras? What are

they understood the

get a step ahead instead of being spied on all the

snarls about to

him.

doing my fucking all to stop myself from bashing his fucking

it, the extremely silent footsteps of Lawrence. He was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I

no small matter. If something has happened

that they

has stopped,

him? That somehow, they found out?”

they’ve discovered them?” Zade says

you mean?”

do need to tell Gerard and Father right now,”

I say, just as

no maybe to it.” hist voice comes from to the left, making both men tense as

of course…” Zade

he

this, Zaia… destroy

possibly discovered Ms Agatha. All the cameras have been pulled.”

Agatha?

my heart thudding as

Mom?

must be

is spinning

you can

is this my mother?” I ask. The words are

Lawrence looks at me.

can mind link her as they are family.” He says, almost as if wanting to see how I react to

What?

a surprise to you, Sebastian?” Lawrence asks

punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our

good.”

doesn’t. How could she

a fucking storm as

churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t risk her near

his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about

I say. “I do have a question. If Mom

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