SEBASTIAN.
All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.
I’ve lost her.
She will never forgive me, and why should she?
I brought this on myself…
The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.
Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.
I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.
All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.
I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.
I deserved that.
There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.
How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.
I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…
The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.
She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1
I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.
the way her lavender eyes were full
the stinging in my eyes as my vision
always fuck up even when all I
snarl makes me look towards the doors. Something must
the door and open
to be careful, but I also know they will never fully trust me, regardless.
the fuck down. We can’t let…” he trails off
walking over to them, and shoving my hands
need to fucking know. Aren’t you
to the poison in the bullet, I am still not
so fuck
fuck is going on,” I shoot back coldly, about to turn away when Zade grabs
this doesn’t involve you,” Zade
it does. Don’t you think it’s strangely fucking coincidental that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?” He spits,
react, cocking a brow.
they understood the message.
a step ahead instead
Gaultier snarls
him.
doing my
freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I can sense him and that is something I don’t plan to
notified Gerard of this? It’s no small matter. If something has happened with the cameras,
that they
has stopped,
to tell him? That
do you think they’ve discovered them?” Zade says
do you
do need to tell Gerard and
say,
it.” hist voice comes from to the left, making both men tense
Zade says, lowering his
happened?” he
got this,
Agatha. All the cameras have been pulled.” Zade says, making my
Agatha?
sharply, my heart thudding as
Mom?
must be some
mind is spinning as
can
is this my mother?” I ask. The words are
Lawrence looks at me.
they are
What?
surprise to you,
her betrayal feels like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side.
good.”
it fucking doesn’t. How could she do this?
mind is a fucking storm as I try to keep
her near the children. She’s been in the safe house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t risk her near the children
me and places his
question. If Mom is captured, then what? Will she
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