I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

forget the way her lavender eyes

I feel the stinging in my eyes as my

all I want is the

me look towards the doors. Something must have

my way to the door and open it. They’re probably watching me in this

try to be careful, but I also know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his fist into

the fuck down. We can’t let…”

walking over to them, and shoving my hands into

to fucking know. Aren’t you meant to be

coldly, although due to the poison in the bullet, I am still not fully recovered, but I

fuck off.”

on,” I shoot back coldly, about to turn away when

doesn’t involve you,” Zade

now of all fucking times they figured

a brow.

they understood

get a step ahead instead of

snarls about to shove me

him.

warns him and I’m doing my fucking all to stop myself from bashing his

it, the extremely silent footsteps of Lawrence. He was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent

It’s no small matter. If something has happened with

that they can

has stopped, he’s

we going to tell him? That somehow, they found out?”

do you think they’ve discovered them?”

you mean?”

in that pack. Maybe we do need to

maybe, we do,” I say, just

to it.” hist voice comes from to the left, making both men tense as he steps into the

Zade says,

what’s happened?” he asks

this, Zaia… destroy

have been

Agatha?

up sharply, my heart

Mom?

it must

spinning

the pack. See if you can mind link her.” He commands, and he nods before he walks

mind link her, and is this my mother?” I ask. The

Lawrence looks at me.

they are family.” He says, almost as if wanting to see how I

What?

surprise to you, Sebastian?”

although her betrayal feels like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side. She’s always been my greatest cheerleader, to know that even now I am making

good.”

fucking doesn’t. How could she do this?

storm as I try

all not to react. I fucking pray she has

me and places his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two of us have a little

have a question. If Mom is captured, then what?

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