SEBASTIAN.
All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.
I’ve lost her.
She will never forgive me, and why should she?
I brought this on myself…
The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.
Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.
I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.
All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.
I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.
I deserved that.
There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.
How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.
I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…
The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.
She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1
I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.
the way her lavender
I feel the stinging in my eyes as my
I always fuck up even when all I want is the best for
Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me
silently making my way to the door and open it. They’re probably watching
know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his fist into
down. We can’t let…” he trails
can’t what?” I ask, walking over to them, and shoving my
you meant
due to the poison in the bullet, I am still not fully recovered, but I
so fuck
what the fuck is going on,” I shoot back coldly, about to
this doesn’t
Don’t you think it’s strangely fucking coincidental that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?”
cocking a brow. “Cameras? What
they understood
instead of being spied on all
in your shitty pack!” Gaultier snarls about to shove me when
him.
calm the fuck down.” He warns him and I’m doing my fucking all to stop myself from bashing his fucking face
his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I can sense him and that is something I don’t
It’s no small matter. If something has happened with
they
has stopped,
What are we going to tell him? That
you think they’ve discovered them?”
you mean?” I
pack. Maybe we do need to tell Gerard and Father right now,”
I say,
is no maybe to it.” hist voice comes from to the left, making both men tense as he steps into
course…” Zade
what’s happened?” he asks
got this, Zaia…
Agatha. All the cameras have been pulled.” Zade says,
Agatha?
look up sharply, my heart
Mom?
it must be some
mind is spinning
to the borders of the pack. See if you can mind link her.” He commands, and he
her, and is this my mother?” I ask. The words are like poison in
Lawrence looks at me.
are family.” He says, almost
What?
that a surprise to
her betrayal feels like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom
good.”
it fucking doesn’t. How could she do this? Everything was a
a fucking storm as I try to
her near the children. She’s been in the safe house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray
places his hands on my shoulder.
If Mom is captured, then what? Will she
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