I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

the way her lavender eyes were

as I feel the stinging in my eyes as my

always fuck up even when all

makes me look

way to the door and open

they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams

down. We can’t let…” he trails off when

over to them, and shoving my hands into the

need to fucking know. Aren’t you meant to be resting?”

poison in the bullet, I am still not fully

so fuck

going on,” I shoot back coldly, about to

doesn’t involve you,” Zade

coincidental that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?” He spits, now looking at

a brow. “Cameras? What are we

understood the

will help them get a step ahead instead of being spied on all the damn

Gaultier snarls about to shove

him.

and I’m doing my fucking

He was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises

of this? It’s no small matter. If something has happened with the cameras, then

that they can

has stopped, he’s

tell him? That

they’ve discovered them?” Zade

do you

do need to tell Gerard and Father right now,”

maybe, we do,” I say,

from to the left, making both men tense as

of course…” Zade says, lowering his

what’s happened?” he

got this, Zaia… destroy

the cameras have been pulled.” Zade says, making

Agatha?

look up sharply, my heart thudding as I stare

Mom?

must

spinning as Lawrence sighs

can mind link

do you mean mind link her, and is this my mother?” I ask. The

Lawrence looks at me.

her as they are family.” He says, almost as if wanting to see how I

What?

that a surprise to

like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side. She’s always been my greatest cheerleader, to know that even now I am making her proud

good.”

could she do this? Everything was a fucking

as I

children. She’s been in the safe house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t risk her

his hands on

“I do have a question. If Mom

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