I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

never forget the way her lavender eyes were full

the stinging

up even when all I

Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me look towards the doors. Something must

and open it. They’re probably watching me in

careful, but I also know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his fist into the wall as Zade growls at

let…” he trails

I ask, walking over to them, and shoving my hands into

to fucking know. Aren’t you meant to be resting?”

healed,” I reply coldly, although due to the poison in the bullet, I am still not

so fuck off.”

I’ll just go ask Gerard what the fuck is going on,” I shoot back coldly, about to turn away when

this doesn’t involve you,”

all fucking times

a brow. “Cameras? What are

understood the

get a step ahead instead of being spied on all the

cameras in your shitty pack!” Gaultier snarls about

him.

and I’m doing my

his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I can sense him and that is

notified Gerard of this? It’s no

they can do

has stopped, he’s

yeah? What are we going to tell him?

they’ve

you mean?” I

in that pack. Maybe we do need to tell Gerard

maybe, we do,” I say, just

is no maybe to it.” hist voice comes from

Zade

what’s happened?” he asks

got this, Zaia…

have been

Agatha?

sharply, my heart thudding as

Mom?

it must

mind is spinning as Lawrence sighs

the pack. See if you can mind link her.” He

link her, and is this my mother?” I

Lawrence looks at me.

Gaultier’s so he can mind link her as they are family.” He says, almost as if wanting to see how I react to

What?

that a surprise to

betrayal feels like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side. She’s always been my greatest cheerleader,

good.”

How could she

fucking storm as I try to keep

house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught.

over to me and places his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How

If Mom is captured, then what? Will

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