I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

way her lavender eyes

I feel the stinging in my eyes

did I always fuck up even when all I want is the best for those

is going on?!” Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me

stand up, silently making my way to the door and open it. They’re probably watching me in this

but I also know they will never fully trust me, regardless.

down. We can’t let…” he

what?” I ask, walking over to them, and shoving my hands into the pockets of my

to fucking know. Aren’t you meant

I reply coldly, although due to the poison in the bullet, I am still not

fuck off.” Gaultier

on,” I shoot back coldly, about to turn away

this doesn’t involve

you think it’s strangely fucking coincidental that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?” He spits,

cocking a brow. “Cameras? What are

understood the message.

get a step ahead instead of being

Gaultier snarls about to shove

him.

and I’m doing my fucking all

I hear it, the extremely silent footsteps of Lawrence. He was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and

this? It’s no small

that they can do

stopped,

are we going to tell him?

you think they’ve discovered them?” Zade says

you mean?” I

we do need to tell Gerard and Father right now,” Zade

maybe, we do,” I say, just as

voice comes from

Zade

what’s happened?” he asks

this,

cameras have been pulled.” Zade says, making my blood run

Agatha?

look up sharply, my heart thudding as

Mom?

it must be some

spinning as

See if you can mind link her.” He commands,

is this my mother?”

Lawrence looks at me.

as they are family.” He

What?

surprise to you, Sebastian?” Lawrence

like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side. She’s always been my greatest cheerleader, to know

good.”

fucking doesn’t. How could she do this?

is a fucking storm as I try to

stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t risk

and places his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two of

I say. “I do have a question. If Mom is captured, then what? Will

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