I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

the way her lavender eyes were

head drops as I feel the stinging

when all I want is the best for

is going on?!” Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me look towards the doors. Something must have

to the door and open it. They’re probably watching me

know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his

We can’t let…” he trails off when he sees

and shoving my hands into the pockets

don’t need to fucking know. Aren’t you meant to be resting?” he

due to the poison in the bullet, I am still not fully recovered, but I am

so fuck off.”

the fuck is going on,” I shoot back

doesn’t involve you,” Zade

Don’t you think it’s strangely fucking coincidental that now of all fucking

a brow. “Cameras?

understood

will help them get a step ahead instead of

Gaultier snarls about to

him.

fuck down.” He warns him and I’m doing my fucking all to stop myself

He was freaking silent, even more than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I can sense him and that is something

and have any of you notified Gerard of this? It’s no small matter. If something has

they

stopped,

him? That somehow, they

they’ve discovered them?” Zade

you mean?”

that pack. Maybe we do need to tell Gerard and Father right now,” Zade says

I say, just

to it.” hist voice comes from to the left, making both

course…” Zade

he asks them

got this, Zaia…

All the cameras have been pulled.”

Agatha?

look up sharply, my heart thudding as I stare

Mom?

must be

is spinning

if you can mind link her.” He commands, and he nods

my mother?” I ask. The words

Lawrence looks at me.

and Gaultier’s so he can mind link her as they are family.” He says, almost as if wanting to see how I react to

What?

surprise to you, Sebastian?”

betrayal feels like a punch in the gut. “No, I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on

good.”

doesn’t. How could she do this? Everything was a fucking

is a fucking storm as I try

all not to react. I fucking pray

good cause,” Lawrence says as he walks over to me and places his

I say. “I do have a question. If Mom is captured, then what? Will she

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