I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

never forget the way her

stinging

did I always fuck up even when all I want is the best for those I

is going on?!” Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me look towards the doors. Something must

my way to the door and open

also know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier

let…” he trails off

ask, walking over to them, and shoving my hands into the pockets

don’t need to fucking know. Aren’t you meant

the bullet, I

so fuck off.” Gaultier

I shoot back coldly, about to turn away when Zade grabs

doesn’t

coincidental that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?” He spits, now looking at me

brow. “Cameras? What

understood

will help them get a step ahead instead of being spied on all the damn time.

pack!” Gaultier snarls about to shove me when

him.

calm the fuck down.” He warns him and I’m doing my fucking all to stop myself from bashing his fucking face

than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I can sense him and that is something

this? It’s no small matter.

they

has stopped,

are we going to tell him? That somehow, they found out?”

think they’ve discovered them?”

do you

that pack. Maybe we do need to tell Gerard and

do,” I say, just as Lawrence

hist voice comes from to the left, making both men tense as he steps into

of course…” Zade says, lowering his

he asks

this, Zaia… destroy

cameras have been pulled.” Zade

Agatha?

sharply, my heart

Mom?

it must

mind is spinning as Lawrence sighs

to the borders of the pack. See if you can mind link her.”

mean mind link her, and is this my mother?” I ask. The

Lawrence looks at me.

he can mind link her as they are family.” He says, almost as if wanting to

What?

to you, Sebastian?” Lawrence

but Mom belongs

good.”

could she do this? Everything

mind is a fucking storm as I

her near the children. She’s been in the safe house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to react. I fucking pray she has been. caught. I can’t risk

a good cause,” Lawrence says as he walks over to me and places his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two

“I do have a question. If Mom is captured, then what? Will she

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