I Am The Luna

ZAIA.

He shrugs, looking at me as if I had just accused him wrongly.

“I don’t know,” he says, feigning innocence as he turns when Sia comes into view. “Sia is causing problems.”

Mhmm, I’m sure that is as far from the truth as possible.

Her long auburn hair is in a high ponytail, and she’s all dressed and ready for the journey. She’s wearing a tweed white dress with black collars and tights. On top of it, she’s wearing a white fur coat with a matching hat.

“Mommy, he real-” she begins, but just then the doorbell rings, interrupting her. “Dad!” Sia turns her eyes, lighting up with excitement.

She runs to the door and so does Xander and I smile at Zion, who remains in his spot, despite the excitement in his eyes.

“I’ll go get your bags.”

He takes hold of my arm and tilts his head. “It’s Christmas. You should say hi at least, Mom.”

My heart skips a beat as I look into his piercing blue eyes, and I nod. “True, I will, don’t you worry.”

I don’t avoid him, but I need a moment to gather my emotions.

It’s hard though. Looking at Sebastian makes my heart become a frenzy, surging with powerful and intense emotions. I haven’t seen him in a while, but I’ve noticed over the last two years, that every time I see him, the pain and the bad memories no longer come to mind and that scares me because I don’t know how to react to that.

have forgiven

lot of time to get to where I am now. After what happened, I was more closed off and

sending the children to school made me so anxious, although they had trusted guards on the school premises throughout the day. Yet, I was still panicking

always double-checking the locks and the windows several times before bed. The entire thing took a toll on me, but as the years passed, it

doing ok. With

late-night walks… playing the

missed the man who has kept my heart captive all these years; I have found the me that I can be proud of. The door is pulled open by Sia and the biting cold of the

“Daddy! I missed you!”

Sebastian’s deep husky voice responds. My stomach flutters and I dare look up at the

year? His black hair is brushed back, with a single strand falling in front of his face. There are a few streaks of grey which were there the last time I saw him, but they only add

mine, those piercing blue eyes take my breath away. They flash silver as they look me over, head to toe, then back up until he’s gazing into my eyes

me feel weak. I swallow hard, trying to remain

with grey fur around the hood. I can see he’s in black pants and black boots

are all packed!” Xander says, not wasting any time, eagerly wanting to leave as Sebastian looks away from me, smiling faintly at our youngest. He kisses Sia’s forehead then kneels

will leave soon, but the flight has been

Dad,” Zion says as he

and I can’t help but smile, seeing the three look up at their dad with

does a lot for them. I am so proud of

piece of cake.” Zion winks, “I

joined in on a winter competition

okay, he placed first,” I say, making them all

thuds, wishing I didn’t speak as Sebastian tilts his head, walking past

he says, his voice dropping a few octaves.

lips tremble slightly, trying not to focus on

myself at how breathless I sound.

smirks arrogantly, almost as if he knows exactly how he affects

better now,”

wrap my arms around my waist and try to squash

his phone and nods. “I’m afraid so, but there’s a snowstorm. I don’t even know

Xander exclaims,

Sebastian says. ”

it’s ok, maybe we’ll get to celebrate Christmas together, here.” She winks at Zion,

of course, if the snow just gets worse,” he

These two…

work something out,” Sebastian

Sebastian will stay here? Panic rises in me, and I run my fingers through my hair. How

It’s going to be fine,

haven’t been alone with just the kids with