Im -perfect

By the time I'm out of class and down the corridor,far away from Jacob and his sadism , the adrenalin washes away , and my smile slowly dims as I just realised what in the frickity frick I just did .

I kicked Jacob Knight .

I kicked Jacob fucking Knight in his fucking balls .

I groan .I crouch down hiding my face in my hands and groan out , what was wrong with me , that guy was a fucking psycho and I had a first class experience of it , when he set me against the odds and i t was when I only slapped him , now what will happen to me, with me kicking him in his balls ?

My hands are sweaty , I can feel that much against my face .

I'm still busy with the aftermaths of my adrenalin rush but then I hear voices coming out from not too far away and from the sound o f it , It looks like a lovers quarrel .

Not wanting to trespass on something so private , I rise but then the voice of the girl drifts over to me and instead of walking back inside, I step down the stairs of the backyard of the school , hiding behind a wall and look over to where the sounds were coming from .

And Lo and behold , I catch the familiar brunette hair , streaked with pink highlights .

It was Selina , my best friend, my soul mate and my freaking everything in this damn school , With none other than Conan fucking Salvador.

"I didn't do it " she yells at him trying to break free from his grip a t her wrist , and it takes all my self control to rush down and help her out because I knew that she wouldn't like it Sel liked to fight her battles alone and this fight was her's not mine , it will do real good to me if I were to step in it .

"So you mean to say , she is lying ?"bites Conan , with a sneer worthy of Knight .

"I don't know anything! I know that I didn't steal shit from her !" she says sounding close to tears

I grip the wall hard, I knew that she is speaking the truth .No matter how much Sel struggled financially , she will never stoop so low as to steal and whatever, allegations , Conan just accused her o f was driving to her edge.Because Sel doesn't cry , she is one of the bravest girl I have ever met .

i knew that Sel will hate me for this but I steel myself to walk down and go all Mumma bear on Conan Salvador , even though I knew he was well capable of ruining my life even more but my pace falters when Sel, breaks free of his grip and rush past me not even noticing me standing there .

But that doesn't mean that someone else didn't , I feel a cold penetrating gaze directed at the back of my head but I don't look back instead I tore after Sel .Conan can go to hell for all I care , with Jacob right on my ass , I don't think it will be too bad to have Conan as well .

Finding Sel wasn't difficult all I had to was to walk after the sounds of someone sobbing and I find her sitting on the bleachers , crying her eyes out .It looked too personal to me when I stop in front of her as if I have just intruded something private .But I couldn't leave her alone , not anymore .Ever since the third year started , I feel like as if my best friend was getting out of my grasp , somewhere ,I couldn't reach her anymore .

"Sel?" I call her tentatively .

And as I expected she stiffens , The sobs come to an abrupt stop .

"Are you okay? " I knew that she didn't like it when I intrude on her private time but she looks so out of it , I can barely care about her getting angry at me.

"I'm fine " she says in a small voice .

"Did - Did Salvador hurt you ?" I ask hesitantly , and by the glare she throws my way , I knew she was wishing me to drop dead for asking that.

"He didn't " her eyebrows scrunches up and lips form a thin line always a danger sign but maybe after what I just had to deal with Jacob, maybe I was feeling a little too suicidal because I ask her what I shouldn't have at all .

"Did you steal something from him?" the question blurts out of m y mouth before I can stop it .

And as I expected , Sel straighten up , glaring hard at me she says "do you take me for a thief ? I will never - how can you even say that ?"

The hurt in her voice is too much for me to handle and I regret the words wishing , they never left my damn mouth.

can't let my small mistake fuck up our friendship "I mean , did you

stupidest thing I could come up with but Sel was too wrung up that

"No , I didn't".

her , now that she want glowering at me anymore,I guessed it was safe to ask

" she smiles at me , a smile that

don't worry about me".

interrogating her it didn't looked anywhere near to a misunderstandings but not wanting to hurt her anymore , I didn't say those words

and I knew that

drop , she will eventually tell me

all I can do is try

will be fine , this year is ours , we will nail it " rubbing her shoulder I say

stares at me , her gaze blank

but she didn't seem that she had heard me a t all because all of sudden , she continues in the same void , cold voice We can't stop them.We can only bow our head and accept whatever they throw at us and pray they don't miss so we don't have to endure it again.They can't be

shock , she was the one who told me to keep my head high and ignore everything when shit went down with Jacob " how can you say

tired , Bella" tears shining in her eyes she chokes out ona sob "I'm not as strong as you think I'm, I can't do it anymore .I want it to end, all of this .For years , I'm going through with it

it was a mistake Just How long do they will make

by they Sel didn't mean the four this time

when she said , she had enough because Sel never cries nor does she ever snap

with whole lot of guts than me , if something can make her snap like that .It

stole from her ? I had no answer to these questions and I suddenly came to realisation that maybe I don't

wanted to shake her demand answers to my questions but before I can even do that , There was loud 'Smash ‘followed by an

sprawled , face front on the grass with pages flying everywhere .We rush to him , grabbing pages on

Are you okay ?" kneeling down I ask

' Ron looked throughly disoriented and Iwas certainly getting

, Bella" I tell

looks up "What's up short

my head ,

 "What the

"It’s Selina "

thought I missed something , your hair is not that soft as Bells " still grinning

and come to a rather obvious conclusion , Ron

just drunk he

okay , did you

, he doesn't seem that hurt but one can never be sure

then dumped m y sorry ass on that

.And by it I literally means that the only sane person in his family was his big brother .His mother married his father only for money and then ran away with on of her drug dealer of a lovers and his father, the head of a famous law firm, wasn't exactly super daddy of the world .Apart from dumping huge stacks of money in his sons pockets , he cared nothing about them .So all in all , Ron 's big brother was the

muttered Selina under her

know " I

what's

him , taking His history assignment from

and lanky as he was , I was surprised with how heavy he was

be alright

we didn't share History together , which meant that