In Love, Never Say Never

In love, never say never chapter 626

I nodded and pointed towards the hugging couple. I teased, “You’ve never told me about your past relationships.”

I paused as Rebecca abruptly came to mind. He did say that he had never loved Rebecca.

As we made our way through the crowds, he stuck closer to me and replied, “I didn’t date when I was younger.”

Shocked by his reply, I stared at him in disbelief. “No! You’re pulling my leg, right?”

“Back then, I was swamped with classes and essays every day. Grandpa also arranged for me to take extra law classes, so I basically didn’t have time for anything else.”

His explanation seems pretty reasonable. Pouting, I continued to prod him for an answer. “Didn’t you have any crushes then?”

His eyes bored into mine as he replied, “I had a crush on you the moment I saw you at J University.”

Stunned, I began to blush furiously.

We continued walking at a leisurely pace. Suddenly he asked, “Don’t you have questions for me?”

“What questions?” Confused, I stared back at him.

“A few days ago, Flora told me that there was a lipstick mark on my shirt. Why aren’t you asking me about it?”

This caught me by surprise, though I quickly recovered myself and said, “There’s nothing to ask. I trust you!”

I could see that my answer had stunned him into silence. He appeared to be deep in thought, though I didn’t have the mental energy to try and guess what was on his mind. I just wanted to enjoy my walk with him before his imminent return to the office.

At the doors to the office, I waved goodbye to him and didn’t follow him in. I gestured for him to head on up without me.

He didn’t leave but stood there, staring at me. “You go first. I’ll go in after you leave.”

I didn’t argue with him but merely smiled at him. I felt a twinge of regret at our somewhat anti-climactic separation.

I’d only taken a few steps before I turned and ran towards him, giving him a tight hug. I said hoarsely, “Take care.”

He frowned, puzzled at my behavior. “What’s wrong? You don’t want to go home?”

I shook my head with my arms wrapped firmly around him. “I just want to hug you.”

I heard his chuckle before he replied, “Why don’t you stay here with me then? We can head home together later tonight.”

At this, I finally loosened my arms. I straightened out his tie with a small smile on my face. “It’s fine, I’m going back now.”

Lingering is a luxury I can no longer afford. This is goodbye, forever.

I initially thought of taking a plane, but eventually decided on a train ride.

The journey’s going to be tedious, but I’ll get to enjoy some nice views.

The train pulled away from the station. I took out my phone, knowing it would be a big mistake if I didn’t at least say goodbye.

I guess texts are handy now when I can’t bring myself to utter these words.

I began typing: Ashton, I’m sorry that I’m leaving without saying goodbye. I thought I’d recovered after returning from R Province. I thought I could stay by your side and have a happy life with you. But I should’ve known the world would be much more complicated than I imagined. I paused in the middle of typing, struck by a painful reminder. Cuts and bruises may heal over time, but they leave behind scars that will never allow us to forget the pain.

Steeling myself, I continued the message: I got myself checked at the hospital. The doctors confirmed that I can never become pregnant again. That stillborn baby cost me my dreams of bearing my own child. I can’t blame you, nor can I blame Cameron. You are the people I love, and the people I call my family. I can only call this suffering my own.

Marcus told me that the baby didn’t die of suffocation; it was actually deformed. What kind of a mother am I to give my baby such a painful fate? Maybe he was too eager to be my child and forgot to bring along some things with him in his rush. He fought so hard to meet me, yet I couldn’t save him in the end. Ashton, I hope you can forgive me for leaving like this yet again. And I hope that you can take care of Summer for me.

This is me tapping out. I used to think that revenge could help us find peace, but I’ve come to realize that the only thing we gain in return is suffering. I don’t want to take revenge or wish ill upon anyone, so I’m turning in the towel on my happy ending.

The train moved at a fast speed. Pristine views of the countryside flew past in a blur; the beauty was almost suffocating.

I spent a couple of slow days on the train. The journey brought me past the glittering lights of unfamiliar cities and the lush greenery of thick forests. Once in a while, we passed by a small town. Each sighting was, however, fleeting.

I thought about how my life had panned out over the past few years. Upon closer scrutiny, everything felt more like a dream.

I was but a bystander in this dream.

I reached Q City at dawn, and I got a night’s rest at a hotel near the train station.

I fell into a deep sleep. It was already noon when I woke up. The first thing on my agenda was to change my phone number.

I went to Speed Mobile and got a local number.

I decided to come to Q City in the end because someone once told me that it was the best place to get away from the hustle and bustle of the big city.

This is a much better place for me to lay down my roots than R Province.

I’d never sold Macy’s house in Q City. It was still registered under Summer’s name.

I changed the locks and tidied up the house before moving in. A wave of nostalgia came over me. It seemed like just yesterday when Macy and I came to Q City together.

Marcus said he buried the baby at Q City Cemetery. I wondered if it was because I once said in my sleep that I’d like to raise him in Q City.

That had been a long time ago, and I could no longer remember the situation clearly.

In love, never say never chapter 627

It was May and the temperature had begun to rise.

On our way to the cemetery, we saw many people offering flowers to the deceased.

Q City was relatively small, with a slow pace of life. Most citizens of the city were born and raised there.

Many still hold their local traditions close to heart.

Marcus named the child North and decided not to give the child a surname.

The photo of North had already faded, and his grave was covered with weed.

I kneeled to pluck the weeds and tidied the area around it.

After that, I leaned toward his grave and said with a weak smile, “I’m sorry to have only come now, my dear child.”

I had been avoiding him for so long in hopes of letting go, but it was impossible.

Next to us was a lady in her thirties sobbing quietly.

I glanced over at the tombstone and saw that it was a middle-aged lady. My first thought was that the grave probably belonged to the lady’s mother.

There was no point in consoling her, so I kept silent. I felt empty as I watched her crying her heart out in pain. I wonder why am I not tearing up like her?

Sometime later, the lady stopped crying. She was startled when she noticed me and spoke with her hoarse voice. “You…”

I gave a slight smile and replied, “I’m here to see my child.”

She gave the blurry photo on the tombstone a side glance. Even though it was a blurred photo, anyone could tell it was a baby.

She stared blankly for a moment and asked, “How old is he?”

full gestation month old.”

looked at me with her eyes still

and slowly lowered my gaze

I was about to leave the cemetery, the lady was still around, seemingly unwilling to

story about an eight-year-old girl. That girl was born into a blissful family with her mother,

periods of joy tend to end with sorrow. A disaster occurred and took her father away. Her mother was unable to withstand the pain, so she brought along her brother and

that job for a living. She did not earn much and the girl’s presence was an

the pain and suffering she had gone through into verbal and physical abuse. Eventually, the young girl chose

when

did not wish

not a resident of Q City, and my

apartment, I took a long nap and

in tears and could

as

to buy breakfast, I overheard the conversation between the steamed buns’ stall owner

that a young lady killed herself at the cemetery last night. Such a pity,” the stall

listen to those rumors blindly!” her husband

raised her voice and retaliated, “I wasn’t listening blindly! I saw it on my social media

husband let out a deep sigh, probably assuming that

one packs the buns, another collects money from the customer,

of the young lady’s suicide when I returned

I gasped as they uncovered the face of the

reminded me of the story that I heard. But… why

role did she undertake in that

to find out. Regardless, I had no regrets. After all, I had achieved

a cemetery called Sedan on the outskirts of Q City. The people there were devoted Buddhists. I went there before, and the road there was

the mountains to find their peace of mind, and also

traffic, had been flattened by countless believers. Regardless, people still went to get

pilgrimage group and kneeled with them without chanting

and suffering to

my awkward movements advised, “Young lady, do wear some knee

say never

at the elderly, who had a pair of bright eyes

in response. “It’s okay. The more pain I feel, the more burden I could lift from

to Buddhism, for every kneel a mortal being makes with

warned, the long journey had

my hands together to pray. “I pray to god for the living to live in health

chants, I kneeled in the temple while staring at the statue of the deity. The deity had a kind face, with a pair of long and slightly upward-tilted

Let it go!

pass. We can only gain a sense of relief by letting

be resolved. All the pain and miseries are just a part of

that the road to reincarnation was similar to the rotation of a rosary, going through each misery with

in A

from Animus Corporation brought a bunch of documents to me. “These are the documents for

work, and glanced at him. “Oh, then I’m not going

a company gathering for all colleagues. It’s not a good idea for you to

let out a sigh. “I’m currently swamped by

You can arrange them tomorrow morning. Scarlett, you have to socialize more with people,”

anti-social, nor am I trying

with any of your colleagues yet? If you really want a fresh start, you should

and looked at him. “What is a

people. To

responded and

with his advice. “The gathering is at Oasis Hotel. Don’t

“You’ll need to bring along this card with

in understanding. “There’s even an invitation

desk. “The company has already paid in full, so y’all can directly head in for

thought was that

the card, Savini was

I wanted to apply for leave for the next few days. I called out, “Savini, I

his brows. “Are

nodded. “I need to settle some

“Missing your kid?”

I realized he was too chatty, so I did not elaborate on

can go together, then. I’m heading there

about to reject his offer, he interrupted, “Alright, hurry now, you need

fell silent as he already turned to leave. I glanced at the clock and saw that

had to go even if I did not want to. So,

other female colleagues at the hotel entrance and chatted a

us politely, “Kindly change into the clothes

aback. Has the service in

been there before, explained, “This is a hot spring hotel, where

headed up to the game area. It was exactly like what the ladies

dining area

thought that it was a normal gathering, where everyone would sit together over

say

hotel had many guests. When we occasionally bump into some colleagues, we would greet each other and continue enjoying our

I found a seat

there anyone

I turned to take a look and what greeted my sight was a familiar face,

meter eighty-five in height with a slender figure and a cool

I was staring at him blankly, he raised his brows and asked,

I shook my

seat beside me while

could not help myself but took a few glances. It felt weird yet

looking and asked,

in embarrassment and replied, “No, thank

the place. Logically speaking, people would usually drink either a glass of hard liquor or a cocktail in such an environment. As

it was probably normal since the place caters to people of all ages, from kids to adults. Even

through the main hall. The main singer stood on stage and was ready to sing a

filled with so much emotion that I found myself engrossed in

up and left, only to return a

placed a cup of juice beside me. I stared at him with a blank expression as I was

lightly and

identity. He was the man that stood in front of Grandma’s tombstone. Once again,

pause, I

raised his brows and

shook my

then we don’t know each other,”

casual response, so I thought for a moment and asked again, “No, I

and knowing someone were two different

lightly. “Since we don’t know each other,

I uttered, “Just because we don’t know each

was impenetrable, even

then said, “Since we’ve met before, let’s get to know each

my hand

slightly and shook my hand. “I’m Armond

Armond Murphy?