In Love, Never Say Never

In love, never say never chapter 626

I nodded and pointed towards the hugging couple. I teased, “You’ve never told me about your past relationships.”

I paused as Rebecca abruptly came to mind. He did say that he had never loved Rebecca.

As we made our way through the crowds, he stuck closer to me and replied, “I didn’t date when I was younger.”

Shocked by his reply, I stared at him in disbelief. “No! You’re pulling my leg, right?”

“Back then, I was swamped with classes and essays every day. Grandpa also arranged for me to take extra law classes, so I basically didn’t have time for anything else.”

His explanation seems pretty reasonable. Pouting, I continued to prod him for an answer. “Didn’t you have any crushes then?”

His eyes bored into mine as he replied, “I had a crush on you the moment I saw you at J University.”

Stunned, I began to blush furiously.

We continued walking at a leisurely pace. Suddenly he asked, “Don’t you have questions for me?”

“What questions?” Confused, I stared back at him.

“A few days ago, Flora told me that there was a lipstick mark on my shirt. Why aren’t you asking me about it?”

This caught me by surprise, though I quickly recovered myself and said, “There’s nothing to ask. I trust you!”

I could see that my answer had stunned him into silence. He appeared to be deep in thought, though I didn’t have the mental energy to try and guess what was on his mind. I just wanted to enjoy my walk with him before his imminent return to the office.

At the doors to the office, I waved goodbye to him and didn’t follow him in. I gestured for him to head on up without me.

He didn’t leave but stood there, staring at me. “You go first. I’ll go in after you leave.”

I didn’t argue with him but merely smiled at him. I felt a twinge of regret at our somewhat anti-climactic separation.

I’d only taken a few steps before I turned and ran towards him, giving him a tight hug. I said hoarsely, “Take care.”

He frowned, puzzled at my behavior. “What’s wrong? You don’t want to go home?”

I shook my head with my arms wrapped firmly around him. “I just want to hug you.”

I heard his chuckle before he replied, “Why don’t you stay here with me then? We can head home together later tonight.”

At this, I finally loosened my arms. I straightened out his tie with a small smile on my face. “It’s fine, I’m going back now.”

Lingering is a luxury I can no longer afford. This is goodbye, forever.

I initially thought of taking a plane, but eventually decided on a train ride.

The journey’s going to be tedious, but I’ll get to enjoy some nice views.

The train pulled away from the station. I took out my phone, knowing it would be a big mistake if I didn’t at least say goodbye.

I guess texts are handy now when I can’t bring myself to utter these words.

I began typing: Ashton, I’m sorry that I’m leaving without saying goodbye. I thought I’d recovered after returning from R Province. I thought I could stay by your side and have a happy life with you. But I should’ve known the world would be much more complicated than I imagined. I paused in the middle of typing, struck by a painful reminder. Cuts and bruises may heal over time, but they leave behind scars that will never allow us to forget the pain.

Steeling myself, I continued the message: I got myself checked at the hospital. The doctors confirmed that I can never become pregnant again. That stillborn baby cost me my dreams of bearing my own child. I can’t blame you, nor can I blame Cameron. You are the people I love, and the people I call my family. I can only call this suffering my own.

Marcus told me that the baby didn’t die of suffocation; it was actually deformed. What kind of a mother am I to give my baby such a painful fate? Maybe he was too eager to be my child and forgot to bring along some things with him in his rush. He fought so hard to meet me, yet I couldn’t save him in the end. Ashton, I hope you can forgive me for leaving like this yet again. And I hope that you can take care of Summer for me.

This is me tapping out. I used to think that revenge could help us find peace, but I’ve come to realize that the only thing we gain in return is suffering. I don’t want to take revenge or wish ill upon anyone, so I’m turning in the towel on my happy ending.

The train moved at a fast speed. Pristine views of the countryside flew past in a blur; the beauty was almost suffocating.

I spent a couple of slow days on the train. The journey brought me past the glittering lights of unfamiliar cities and the lush greenery of thick forests. Once in a while, we passed by a small town. Each sighting was, however, fleeting.

I thought about how my life had panned out over the past few years. Upon closer scrutiny, everything felt more like a dream.

I was but a bystander in this dream.

I reached Q City at dawn, and I got a night’s rest at a hotel near the train station.

I fell into a deep sleep. It was already noon when I woke up. The first thing on my agenda was to change my phone number.

I went to Speed Mobile and got a local number.

I decided to come to Q City in the end because someone once told me that it was the best place to get away from the hustle and bustle of the big city.

This is a much better place for me to lay down my roots than R Province.

I’d never sold Macy’s house in Q City. It was still registered under Summer’s name.

I changed the locks and tidied up the house before moving in. A wave of nostalgia came over me. It seemed like just yesterday when Macy and I came to Q City together.

Marcus said he buried the baby at Q City Cemetery. I wondered if it was because I once said in my sleep that I’d like to raise him in Q City.

That had been a long time ago, and I could no longer remember the situation clearly.

In love, never say never chapter 627

It was May and the temperature had begun to rise.

On our way to the cemetery, we saw many people offering flowers to the deceased.

Q City was relatively small, with a slow pace of life. Most citizens of the city were born and raised there.

Many still hold their local traditions close to heart.

Marcus named the child North and decided not to give the child a surname.

The photo of North had already faded, and his grave was covered with weed.

I kneeled to pluck the weeds and tidied the area around it.

After that, I leaned toward his grave and said with a weak smile, “I’m sorry to have only come now, my dear child.”

I had been avoiding him for so long in hopes of letting go, but it was impossible.

Next to us was a lady in her thirties sobbing quietly.

I glanced over at the tombstone and saw that it was a middle-aged lady. My first thought was that the grave probably belonged to the lady’s mother.

There was no point in consoling her, so I kept silent. I felt empty as I watched her crying her heart out in pain. I wonder why am I not tearing up like her?

Sometime later, the lady stopped crying. She was startled when she noticed me and spoke with her hoarse voice. “You…”

I gave a slight smile and replied, “I’m here to see my child.”

She gave the blurry photo on the tombstone a side glance. Even though it was a blurred photo, anyone could tell it was a baby.

She stared blankly for a moment and asked, “How old is he?”

gestation month old.” Maybe

me with her eyes still red and swollen. “Life

remained silent and slowly lowered

leave the cemetery, the lady was still around, seemingly unwilling

story about an eight-year-old girl. That girl was born into a blissful family with her

mother was unable to withstand the pain, so she brought along her brother and remarried, leaving the

that job for a living. She did not earn much and

and suffering she had gone through into verbal and physical abuse. Eventually, the young girl chose to end her life in front of

found it a little weird when she told me, a

did not wish

Q City, and

at the apartment, I took a long nap and dreamt

tears and could

heart ached as

overheard the conversation

that a young lady killed herself at the cemetery last night. Such a pity,” the stall owner

those rumors blindly!” her husband

raised her voice and retaliated, “I wasn’t listening blindly! I saw it on my social media feed

deep sigh,

work. While one packs the

the young lady’s suicide

as they uncovered the face of the

that I heard. But… why did she choose

which role did she undertake in that

was no way for me to find out. Regardless, I had no regrets. After all, I had achieved what I

of Q City. The people there were devoted Buddhists. I went there before, and the road there was steep. It was a sacred place, filled

travel into the mountains to find their peace of

had been flattened by countless believers. Regardless, people still went to get closer to

in a red scarf, I followed the pilgrimage group and kneeled

suffering to be gone through

me who seemed to notice my awkward movements advised, “Young lady, do wear some knee guards or

never say

elderly, who had a pair of bright eyes and a

“It’s okay. The more pain I feel, the more burden I could lift from

mortal being makes with the deceased in

warned, the long journey had caused my knees to

my hands together to pray. “I pray

I kneeled in the temple while staring at the statue of the deity. The deity had a kind face, with a pair of long and slightly upward-tilted eyes that seemed

Let it go!

short and everything will pass. We can only

All

was similar to the rotation of a rosary, going through each misery with the heart of tenacity and warmth, following the path of light, and leaving

June in A

a bunch of documents to me. “These are the documents for the Marketing Department’s use tomorrow. You might need to work

glanced at him. “Oh, then I’m not

a good idea for

I let out a sigh.

them tomorrow

am I trying to avoid the gathering.

any of your colleagues

looked at him. “What is a fresh

with new people. To make new friends

responded and

agreed with his advice. “The gathering is

and said, “You’ll need

in understanding. “There’s even an invitation card?”

full, so y’all can directly head in for some

that the place

giving me the card,

for leave for the next few days. I called

his brows. “Are you heading

need

“Missing your kid?”

was too chatty, so I

I’m heading there too in

his offer, he interrupted, “Alright, hurry now, you need to pack your stuff and

turned to leave. I glanced at the clock and saw that it was time to get off

to go even if I did

other female colleagues at the hotel entrance and

us politely, “Kindly change

aback. Has the service in hotels always

a hot spring hotel, where the guests are here for

changing room. After changing, I headed up to the game

area, entertainment plaza, and dining area

thought that it was a normal gathering, where everyone would sit together over food

never say never

The hotel had many guests. When we occasionally bump into some colleagues, we would greet each other and

slightly lazy, I found a seat

anyone

I turned to take a look and what greeted

eighty-five in height with a slender figure and

he raised his brows

and I shook my head.

seat beside me while holding

glances. It felt weird yet normal at

me looking and asked,

my head in embarrassment and replied, “No, thank

glass of hard liquor or

all ages, from kids to adults. Even without such beverages, the

sounded through the main hall. The main singer stood on stage and was

much emotion that I found myself

beside me stood up and left, only to

cup of juice beside me. I stared at him with a blank expression as I was slightly

and said,

stood in front of Grandma’s tombstone.

I asked, “Have

and questioned, “Do you know

I shook my

then we don’t know each other,”

was taken aback by his casual response, so I thought for a moment and asked again,

someone were two

we don’t know each other, it could only mean we have

don’t know

coldness exuding from him was impenetrable,

before, let’s get to know

I put my hand forward

shook

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