In My Desperate Time

For the first time, I take Frances Louis' hand and walk out of NewFun with him. His car is parked on the right side of the door. It is the car that he drove when I first met him. How could I be so blind that don’t see it when I came in?

Being blew by the wind outdoor makes me sober. Suddenly I regret choosing to leave with Frances Louis, am I courting death?

Frances Louis pulls me into the car, but doesn’t start it. Some of those people, standing at the door of NewFun, are still looking at us, unwilling to give up.

“Don’t try to do anything to me. I won't allow you to do it.” I define my position seriously.

Probably Frances Louis thinks I look funny by talking like this. He fumbles out a cigarette and light it. I watch his movements with a kind of ecstasy.

I choke on his words and heard him continuing saying, “I, Frances Louis, will never take a girl’s advantage.”

“Don’t feel embarrassed to say it? Last time, in the hotel…”

but feel shame to say more.

trying to say immediately, but he just

Didn’t touch me? How

and my legs are so weak. How could I be like that if

looks significantly at his

Hand?

night, just like

seductive under the influence of the

Is it true that I can't get men interested?

am suddenly frightened by my thoughts. I look at Frances Louis and couldn't speak

said, if you want to know if I am impotent or not, you can try it by yourself. It’s not late to change your mind now.” He turns to me and looks at

of his words is obvious that