In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

When I arrive home, there is another

My brother Frank Noyes.

is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him

of snacks and fruits on the tea table. I know

come back? Aren't you studying abroad?” I ask

me. He is

“I'm tired of studying. I don't want to study. And I don't have as much money as other students, so I can't go out to play every day. It’s boring. I might as well come back.”

he says. Although the relationship there is found by Andrew Malan, his expenses abroad have been borne by me. My parents have

Have you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by

Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on the tea

and hands it to him again, “he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then

parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard to see them

whole family are living with me, it is clear that I should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself alive. How can I feed them?!

want to go to school, then go to work. You

dad and mon would support me.” Frank Noyes fights me back.

It’s me who would support you

My mom feels unpleasant. She stops me and tells me that Frank Noyes is going to sleep in the main room tonight. My dad and she are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a bed on the floor or go to a friend’s house, and then I have to

Suddenly, there is only desperation lest in my heart.