In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

When I arrive home, there is another man except my mom and

My brother Frank Noyes.

My parents sit beside him, one is on the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him and the other massages his

tea table. I know these are

“Why do you come back? Aren't you studying abroad?”

He doesn’t even look at me. He is

“I'm tired of studying. I don't want to study. And I don't have as much money as other students, so I can't go out to play every day. It’s boring.

expenses abroad have been borne by me. My

“Who permits you can come back? Have you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by me. And now you1 just quit study. Do you think money

I get really mad. I grab Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on the tea table, and yell at

She picks up his mobile phone and hands it to him again, “he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then he can just quit. He lives faraway, and

my parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard to see them being so inconsiderate of my feelings.

able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself alive. How can I feed them?!

Noyes and say coldly, “since you don't want to go to school, then go to work. You are

“No, dad and mon would support

dad and mon? It’s me who would support

and tells me that Frank Noyes is going to sleep in the main room tonight. My dad and she are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need

desperation lest in my heart.