In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

When I arrive home, there is another man

My brother

the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him and the other

There are full of snacks and fruits on the tea table. I know these are bought with my money even thinking with

Aren't you studying abroad?” I ask Frank Noyes.

me. He is still playing a hand game with

“I'm tired of studying. I don't want to study. And I don't have as much money as other students, so I can't go out to play every day. It’s boring. I might as well come back.”

the relationship there is found by Andrew Malan, his expenses abroad have been borne by me.

of your tuition have been paid by me. And now you1 just quit study. Do you think money

Noyes's phone, throw it on the tea table, and

“he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then he can just quit. He lives faraway, and I can’t often see him. It’s better for him to come back.”

I know my parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard

Now the whole family are living with me, it is clear that I should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself alive. How can I feed

you don't want to

dad and mon would support me.” Frank Noyes fights me

me who would support you at last!”

My mom feels unpleasant. She stops me and tells me that Frank Noyes is going to sleep in the main room tonight. My dad and she are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a bed on the floor or go to a

only desperation lest in my heart.