In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

I arrive home, there is another man except my mom and

brother Frank Noyes.

My parents sit beside him, one is on the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him and the other massages his

There are full of snacks and fruits on the tea table. I

Aren't you studying abroad?” I ask Frank Noyes.

He is still playing a hand game with

money as other students, so I can't go out to play every day. It’s boring. I

says. Although the relationship there is found by Andrew Malan, his expenses abroad have been borne by me. My parents have always given him much money. Other people go abroad would work while studying, but he only wants to enjoy!

you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by me. And now you1 just quit study. Do you think money just grows on trees?!”

I get really mad. I grab Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on

hands it to him again, “he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If

I know my parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard to

it is clear that I should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself alive. How can I feed them?!

Noyes and say coldly, “since you don't want to go to school, then go to work. You are 22 anyway.”

support me.” Frank Noyes fights me

dad and mon? It’s me who would support you at last!”

She stops me and tells me that Frank Noyes is going to sleep in the main room tonight. My dad and she are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a bed

desperation lest in my heart.