In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

home, there is another man except my mom and dad.

brother Frank Noyes.

the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him and the other massages his shoulders.

There are full of snacks and fruits on the tea table. I know these are bought with my money even thinking with my toes.

Aren't you studying abroad?”

He doesn’t even look at me. He is still playing a hand game with his phone.

much money as other students,

abroad have been borne by me. My parents have always given him much money. Other people go abroad would work while studying, but he only wants to enjoy!

my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by me. And now you1 just

Noyes's phone, throw it on the tea table, and yell at him.

your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then he can just quit. He lives faraway, and I can’t often see him. It’s better

parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard to see them being

family are living with me, it is clear that I should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself alive.

don't want to go to school, then go to

“No, dad and mon would support me.” Frank

“What dad and mon? It’s me who would support you at last!”

to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a bed on the floor or go to

is only desperation lest in my