In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

I arrive home, there is another man except my

brother

him, one is on the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him and the other massages his shoulders.

on the tea table. I know these are bought with my money even

back? Aren't you studying

is still playing a hand game

“I'm tired of studying. I don't want to study. And I don't have as much money as other students, so I can't go out to play

abroad have been borne by me. My parents have always given him much money. Other people go abroad would work while studying,

come back? Have you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by me. And now you1 just quit study. Do you think money just grows

get really mad. I grab Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on

My mom stares at me ruthlessly. She picks up his mobile phone and hands it to him again, “he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then

I know my parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard

should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself alive. How can I feed them?!

to Frank Noyes and say coldly, “since you don't want to go

mon would support me.” Frank Noyes

It’s me who

dad and she are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a bed on the floor or go to a friend’s house, and then I have to rent a bigger house tomorrow.

Suddenly, there is only desperation lest in my heart.