In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

When I arrive home, there is another man except my

My brother

the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him and the other massages his

I know these are bought with my money even thinking with my

back? Aren't you studying

even look at me. He is

I don't want to study. And I don't have as much money as other students, so I can't go out

Malan, his expenses abroad have been borne by me. My parents have always given him much money. Other people go abroad would work while studying, but he only wants

come back? Have you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by me. And now you1 just quit study. Do you

phone, throw it on the tea

If he doesn’t want to study, then he can

I know my parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard to see them being so

with me, it is clear that I should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself alive. How can I feed them?!

to Frank Noyes and say coldly, “since you don't want to go to school, then go to work. You

dad and mon would support me.” Frank Noyes fights me back.

“What dad and mon? It’s me who would support you at last!”

are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a

Suddenly, there is only desperation lest in my heart.