In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

another man except my mom and dad.

brother Frank Noyes.

is on the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him and the

There are full of snacks and fruits on the tea table. I know these are bought with my money

do you come back? Aren't you studying abroad?” I ask Frank Noyes.

is

I don't have as much money as other students, so I can't go out to play every

abroad have been borne by me. My parents have always given him much money. Other people go abroad would work while studying, but he

Have you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by me. And now you1 just

I get really mad. I grab Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on the tea table, and yell

hands it to him again, “he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then he can just quit. He lives faraway, and

parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard to

Now the whole family are living with me, it is clear that I should be able to support a large

want to go to school, then go to work.

and mon would support me.” Frank Noyes fights me back.

“What dad and mon? It’s me who would support you at

me and tells me that Frank Noyes is going to sleep in the main room tonight. My dad and she are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a bed on the floor or go to a friend’s house, and then I have to rent a bigger house

only desperation lest in my heart.