In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

home, there is another man

My brother Frank Noyes.

They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him and the other massages his shoulders.

table. I know these are bought with my money even thinking with my toes.

you studying abroad?” I ask Frank Noyes.

He doesn’t even look at me. He is still playing a hand game with his phone.

as other students, so I can't

by me. My parents have

“Who permits you can come back? Have you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by me. And

grab Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on the

mom stares at me ruthlessly. She picks up his mobile phone and hands it to him again, “he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then he can just quit. He lives faraway, and I can’t often see him. It’s better for him to come

is still hard to see them being so inconsiderate of my feelings.

should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep

I turn to Frank Noyes and say coldly, “since you don't want to go

and mon would support

dad and mon? It’s me

she are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to

only desperation