In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

home, there is another man

My brother Frank Noyes.

My parents sit beside him, one is on the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for him and the other massages his shoulders.

are full of snacks and fruits on the tea table. I know these are bought with my money even thinking with my toes.

back? Aren't you studying abroad?” I ask Frank Noyes.

me. He is still playing a

“I'm tired of studying. I don't want to study. And I don't have as much money as other students, so I can't go out to play every day. It’s boring. I might as

Andrew Malan, his expenses abroad have been borne by me. My parents have always given him much money. Other

can come back? Have you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by me. And now you1 just

I get really mad. I grab Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on the tea table, and yell at

up his mobile phone and hands it to him again, “he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then he can just quit. He lives faraway, and I can’t often see him. It’s better

I know my parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard to see them being so inconsiderate

clear that I should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself alive. How can I feed them?!

coldly, “since you don't want to go to school,

“No, dad and mon would support me.” Frank Noyes fights me

dad and mon? It’s me who would support you at last!”

My dad and she are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a bed on the floor or

Suddenly, there is only desperation