In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

When I arrive home, there is another man except my mom and

brother Frank Noyes.

the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange

table. I know these are bought with my money even thinking with my toes.

Aren't you studying abroad?” I ask Frank Noyes.

He is still playing a hand game with his phone.

don't have as much money as other students, so I can't go out to play every day. It’s boring. I might as well

Malan, his expenses abroad have been borne by me. My parents have always given him much money.

“Who permits you can come back? Have you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been paid by me. And now you1 just quit study. Do you think

grab Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on the tea table, and yell at him.

picks up his mobile phone and hands it to him again, “he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then he can just quit. He lives faraway, and I can’t often see him. It’s better for

But it is still hard to see them being so inconsiderate of my feelings.

with me, it is clear that I should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself

want to go to school, then go to work. You are

support me.” Frank Noyes

me who would support you at last!”

in the main room tonight. My dad and she are going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a bed on the floor or

Suddenly, there is only desperation lest