In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

is another man except my mom and dad.

brother Frank

sit beside him, one is on the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange

are full of snacks and fruits on the tea table. I know these are bought with my money even thinking with my toes.

do you come back? Aren't you studying abroad?”

at me. He is still playing a hand game with his

“I'm tired of studying. I don't want to study. And I don't have as much money as other students, so I can't go out to play every day.

I feel really mad hearing what he says. Although the relationship there is found by Andrew Malan, his expenses abroad have been borne by me. My parents have

“Who permits you can come back? Have you asked my advice? All of your tuition have been

grab Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on the

If he doesn’t want to study, then he can just quit. He lives faraway, and I can’t often see him. It’s better for him to come back.”

I know my parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard to see them being so inconsiderate of my feelings.

Now the whole family are living with me, it is clear that I should be able to support a large family. I can't even keep myself

to Frank Noyes and say coldly, “since you don't want to go to school, then go to work. You

would support me.” Frank Noyes fights me

It’s me who would

tonight. My dad and she are going to squeeze on the couch,

there is only desperation