In My Desperate Time

Steven Song tells me to be ruthless and ignore my mother, and I do according to his words.

My mom is stopped at the gate by a security guard, and I go upstairs with Steven Song. My phone is vibrating all the time. I know it is mom calling.

I don’t answer it. When I arrive at the door, I receive a message from my mother.

“If you don’t help your brother. I will be always knel down here util you say yes.”

She spells “kneel” wrongly. My mother doesn’t receive much education. It must cost her much energy to send a message like this.

I go to the window and see my mother kneeling at the gate of the apartment.

The security guard tries to pull up her several times, but she wouldn't leave. People stop by and point at my mother, but she just ignores them.

“What can I do?” I turn to Steven Song disappointedly.

My mother’s bone was broken before, and she hasn't been able to walk well since then. She can't kneel down like this.

Just ignore her. If you relent, things will be in more trouble than they are now. Go and cook.” Steven Song says to me.

downstairs, sigh and go to cook.

after dinner, I hear the rain

It’s raining.

I go to the window and see that my mother is kneeling there, not even

mercy of your family all the

Once again, I listen to Steven Song and go to bed.

But I have always been worried about

sees the rain is too heavy and she has gone back. I comfort myself like this but can’t be restless. I don’t sleep well, and get up early in the morning.

to the window to look at her. I see my mother is still kneeling there. Pale face, the shaking body, to which I feel so

Steven Song also comes over. He takes

see that your mother takes your brother more important than you. So, your sacrifice is not worth it. If you

I can't change the fact that blood is thicker than water. Seeing my mother suffering really makes me feel bad.

my mother sways to the ground, which breaks my last line

“Mom!”

much and run

“Jane Noyes. Don't go down. It's a

Behind me, Steven Song is trying to dissuade me, but I couldn't