In My Desperate Time

Steven Song tells me to be ruthless and ignore my mother, and I do according to his words.

My mom is stopped at the gate by a security guard, and I go upstairs with Steven Song. My phone is vibrating all the time. I know it is mom calling.

I don’t answer it. When I arrive at the door, I receive a message from my mother.

“If you don’t help your brother. I will be always knel down here util you say yes.”

She spells “kneel” wrongly. My mother doesn’t receive much education. It must cost her much energy to send a message like this.

I go to the window and see my mother kneeling at the gate of the apartment.

The security guard tries to pull up her several times, but she wouldn't leave. People stop by and point at my mother, but she just ignores them.

“What can I do?” I turn to Steven Song disappointedly.

My mother’s bone was broken before, and she hasn't been able to walk well since then. She can't kneel down like this.

Just ignore her. If you relent, things will be in more trouble than they are now. Go and cook.” Steven Song says to me.

a deep look downstairs, sigh and go to cook.

take a bath after dinner, I hear the rain clattering.

It’s raining.

the window and see that my mother is kneeling there, not even moving.

your life at the mercy of your family all the time. Believe me, if you keep staying in the

Once again, I listen to Steven Song and go to bed.

I have always been worried about mom

sees the rain is too heavy and she has gone back. I comfort

mother is still kneeling there. Pale face, the shaking body,

over. He takes a look downstairs and sighs.

takes your brother more important than

I can't change the fact that blood is

Downstairs, my mother sways to the ground, which breaks my last line of defense.

“Mom!”

too much and run straight

“Jane Noyes. Don't go down. It's

Behind me, Steven Song is trying to dissuade me, but I couldn't listen to