In My Desperate Time

Frances Louis seems determined to torture me. He doesn’t let me go all night.

Now I know that he was tenderhearted to me before.

His power is more amazing than I thought.

By the time it is all over, I am too tired to turn over.

But I have to go to work later. I am not a boss like Frances Louis. I would struggle to get to work even if I were to die.

I get out of bed, take a pill from the bedside table and swallow it.

This is the long-term birth control pills I have been taking, which I used to take behind Frances Louis’s back. Now he knows, it doesn't matter for me to take pills in front of him.

Frances Louis suddenly comes over and pours all medicine in the drawer into the dustbin.

"Don’t take it in the future." He says in a low voice.

I look at the pills lying in a pile of tissue and don’t have the courage to pick them up.

"What if I got pregnant? I will buy medicines after work." I say quietly.

Frances Louis behaves so strangely. He doesn't like to wear a condom, and he doesn't like me to take medicine. The only way to avoid having a baby is to have a ligation.

I will throw

Then he goes back

"You…"

to argue with him, but

it secretly. Or try to persuade him to wear a

myself briefly

and says these need to

a year's work of the design department. How could

wants to make trouble

Even if you want to redesign, you should go

to

I would be leaking trade secrets if I gave it to him now. Everyone else is working on other projects. You are

that I have no excuse

understand the designer's original design philosophy. I

come up with ideas very quickly, and soon

the time. It’s 4 pm. I can finish these drawings before getting

elation and pride in my heart. Maybe I am born to

this file to

to do other things. I can only put down the drawings and go