In My Desperate Time

“Why? I’m not going back.”

I reject his proposal firmly.

My heart still hurts when the scene comes to my mind that he rushed to save Whitney only but ignored my call.

The man standing in front of me just doesn’t care about me, no matter how intimate and happy he is in bed with me. How can a woman that only gives him sexual pleasure be as important as his one-in-a-million wife? I’m his nothing. It’s ridiculous that I thought he would save me at that time.

I feel like tens of thousands of ants are taking the bite of my heart, so painful that I could hardly breathe.

“I’m not here to ask your consent. It’s an order.” Frances says coldly, giving me an impatient look.

“Who are you to order me around? Why should I listen to you! Please get out if there’s nothing else. I don’t want your wife to see you in my room, or I’ll be dead.”

I point towards the door and ask him to leave.

I don’t want to be controlled by him anymore, neither my mood nor my freedom.

because Donny just told me the prize for it is one million

Company. Though my heart tells me that I really don’t want to part from him, I have to make

how horrible Whitney is. She has

your good.” his tone softens a bit. But I don’t

For my good?

done

never dream that he would

know you’re afraid that I will leave if I win the prize, so you can’t control my life again. How can an arrogant man like you bear a woman abandon you? You think

“You’re right. How can you escape from me? I’ll watch

sharp look in his eyes will kill

your dear Whitney with all your heart? Why you have to disturb my life! Can you just let me go, I’m begging you?” I say in

All right! I’ll do

storms out of the room, and the door slams shut behind

on the bed, with holding tears streaming down on my

The heart hurts.

should I fall in love with