In My Desperate Time

Noah murmurs after looking at me in disbelief for a long time, "Jane, what are you talking about?"

He looks devastated.

I can’t stand to say anything hurtful. And I almost fail to say the next words.

But I know that this may be my last chance to say it.

"I have to tell you very clearly that things between us doesn’t work. There are too many people stopping us from being together. Your parents, Frances, and the past that I don’t want to mention anymore. I don’t deserve you. I will hurt you. You are too good be ruined by me. The most important thing is, I don’t love you, Noah.”

I feel a touch of sadness in my heart when I say it out loud.

I used to believe that I would never forget my first love. I would keep him in mind for the rest of my life. But he is gradually being washed away. I don't know if it is because of the cruelty of time, or another person is taking over his place in my heart.

Noah takes two steps back, squeezing words from his throat with difficulty.

"You don’t love me anymore? Are you in love with him?"

He is not stupid. He is able to see through some things, but he is reluctant to face it. I know that he must have seen some clues judging from his escape in the past few days.

consent to him by not saying a word.

for Frances. I fall in love with him

life. A man like Frances is not suitable for you

Just then tears fall.

man in front of me, I

am moved

I can’t stop crying.

my rejection, so his hug is very tender. But it gives me a

Noah."

tomorrow, Jane? I want to accompany you again

cannot refuse this

Paris. He would take pictures at every stop. He says that this is the

exhausted physically and mentally because I force myself to be

the hotel, I hand the

have booked a room

at me, but

sleep with you tonight, Jane? I just want to hug you all night. Don't worry, I