In My Desperate Time

At that instance, I feel that Frances may be crazy otherwise how can he say something like this?

He wants to get married? I really find that extremely amusing!

I can’t think of any other reason except for him to toy with me!

“Stop fooling around, Mr. Louis. You love Whitney so much and will never divorce her. Furthermore, even if you really divorce her, you will not want to marry me. At least I know what my limitations are and I am realistic about it.”

I smile brilliantly at Frances and only I am aware of how bitter I feel inside. I love him more than myself like a moth flying to the fire. But I never dare to think about the possibility of being married to him.

I can only think of one possibility of Frances saying this. Which is he is testing me. He is testing me to see if I am considering this possibility that I shouldn’t have. I deeply understand that Frances is a poison that I cannot touch. So even if the love has taken hold deeply, I can only let the love rot in my heart.

not even clear about this, then I believe

but I cannot comprehend his expression and becomes strangely flustered. He gently feels my

one day I’m divorced with Whitney?” He gently plays with my hair and

you know better than me, don’t you? If I really start to have any expectations of you, I’m afraid that I don’t even know how I ended up dead. That’s why I don’t think that you are

what is happening, when I say them out loud, I feel that

it’s real or fake.” Frances’s hand pauses and his eyes seem to see through me, “But, I don’t like you to be a fatalist. You should have dreams and hopes.

point, Frances goes

marries her. Except that now my heart is in a mess after he dumps this joke on me and he still hasn’t said what the terms are. It is now impossible for me

on and I go