In My Desperate Time

At that instance, I feel that Frances may be crazy otherwise how can he say something like this?

He wants to get married? I really find that extremely amusing!

I can’t think of any other reason except for him to toy with me!

“Stop fooling around, Mr. Louis. You love Whitney so much and will never divorce her. Furthermore, even if you really divorce her, you will not want to marry me. At least I know what my limitations are and I am realistic about it.”

I smile brilliantly at Frances and only I am aware of how bitter I feel inside. I love him more than myself like a moth flying to the fire. But I never dare to think about the possibility of being married to him.

I can only think of one possibility of Frances saying this. Which is he is testing me. He is testing me to see if I am considering this possibility that I shouldn’t have. I deeply understand that Frances is a poison that I cannot touch. So even if the love has taken hold deeply, I can only let the love rot in my heart.

I am not even clear about this, then I

comprehend his expression and becomes strangely flustered. He gently feels

it’s for real? If one day I’m

have no future together. Actually, you know better than me, don’t you? If I really start to have any

I know full well what is happening, when I say them out loud, I feel that it’s as if I am repeatedly

day you will know whether it’s real or fake.” Frances’s hand pauses and his eyes seem to see through me, “But, I don’t like you to be a fatalist. You should have dreams and hopes. What

point, Frances goes upstairs on

marries her. Except that now my heart is in a mess after he dumps this joke on me and he still hasn’t said what the terms are. It is now impossible for me to leave since my mother is in Virginia and now that Frances has his

on and I go to the office the