In My Desperate Time

As usual, Frances has been out when I go downstairs.

That’s good. If he asked where I go, I would have no idea what to say.

I don’t dare to lie in front of him. He’s so horrible. Every time I even haven’t opened my mouth he’s already known it.

I make an appointment with Mindy at eight o’clock in the hospital. After changing clothes, I leave for the hospital.

When I arrive, Mindy has registered for me.

And to my surprise, she comes here alone. David should let her return from abroad alone. It doesn’t look like the deed he would do. This is unusual.

“You come back alone? Where is David?” I ask.

Mindy shakes her head and says quietly, “Shh, don’t be so loud. He objected to me coming back. He said you should go to Frances for help. Frances can handle this. His suggestion sucks. You must be insane if you come to Frances, aren’t you? So I snuck back myself.”

Though David is at the other side of the ocean where it is tens of thousands of kilometers away from us, I can imagine his gloomy face now when he found out that Mindy had snuck back alone. When I thought this, a shudder comes through me.

“You are so bold.” I sigh to her.

“I don’t care how David would think! The pregnant woman is the boss!” Mindy rolls her eyes and says, “Let’s go. I’ve registered. It’s still early and there are not many people. We can get the surgery done early so I will also be relieved.”

“Hmm.”

and walk with her towards to

of me so it soon comes to

doctor asks me in a

pregnant.” I reply with a low

tested it yourself?” the doctor raises her

I nod to her.

“The last menstrual period?”

I reply

to keep the baby or

Perhaps having seen the loss of so many babies, maternity doctors are all

“No.”

days and we can’t check if it’s in the uterus or out yet. You’ll have to come

days to wait. My eye brows

sure that everything will be all right in a week, or that

I have no choice but to wait

intends to

more relieved than coming to hospital. Perhaps I partly want

few days when my little baby

turns to me, wearing

let Frances know it. Any clues must be destroyed.” as I say, I quickly