In My Desperate Time

As usual, Frances has been out when I go downstairs.

That’s good. If he asked where I go, I would have no idea what to say.

I don’t dare to lie in front of him. He’s so horrible. Every time I even haven’t opened my mouth he’s already known it.

I make an appointment with Mindy at eight o’clock in the hospital. After changing clothes, I leave for the hospital.

When I arrive, Mindy has registered for me.

And to my surprise, she comes here alone. David should let her return from abroad alone. It doesn’t look like the deed he would do. This is unusual.

“You come back alone? Where is David?” I ask.

Mindy shakes her head and says quietly, “Shh, don’t be so loud. He objected to me coming back. He said you should go to Frances for help. Frances can handle this. His suggestion sucks. You must be insane if you come to Frances, aren’t you? So I snuck back myself.”

Though David is at the other side of the ocean where it is tens of thousands of kilometers away from us, I can imagine his gloomy face now when he found out that Mindy had snuck back alone. When I thought this, a shudder comes through me.

“You are so bold.” I sigh to her.

“I don’t care how David would think! The pregnant woman is the boss!” Mindy rolls her eyes and says, “Let’s go. I’ve registered. It’s still early and there are not many people. We can get the surgery done early so I will also be relieved.”

“Hmm.”

with her

are only two patients in front of me so it soon comes to my

in a deep voice, even

with a low

it yourself?” the doctor raises her head and

I nod to her.

“The last menstrual period?”

15th.” I

or

belly! Perhaps having seen the loss of so many babies, maternity

“No.”

days and we can’t check if it’s in the uterus or out yet. You’ll have to come back to have an

wait. My

not sure that everything will be all right in a

no choice but to wait as

intends to leave the

than coming to hospital. Perhaps I

the last few days when my little baby are still with

now?” Mindy turns to

Any clues must be destroyed.” as I