In My Desperate Time

As usual, Frances has been out when I go downstairs.

That’s good. If he asked where I go, I would have no idea what to say.

I don’t dare to lie in front of him. He’s so horrible. Every time I even haven’t opened my mouth he’s already known it.

I make an appointment with Mindy at eight o’clock in the hospital. After changing clothes, I leave for the hospital.

When I arrive, Mindy has registered for me.

And to my surprise, she comes here alone. David should let her return from abroad alone. It doesn’t look like the deed he would do. This is unusual.

“You come back alone? Where is David?” I ask.

Mindy shakes her head and says quietly, “Shh, don’t be so loud. He objected to me coming back. He said you should go to Frances for help. Frances can handle this. His suggestion sucks. You must be insane if you come to Frances, aren’t you? So I snuck back myself.”

Though David is at the other side of the ocean where it is tens of thousands of kilometers away from us, I can imagine his gloomy face now when he found out that Mindy had snuck back alone. When I thought this, a shudder comes through me.

“You are so bold.” I sigh to her.

“I don’t care how David would think! The pregnant woman is the boss!” Mindy rolls her eyes and says, “Let’s go. I’ve registered. It’s still early and there are not many people. We can get the surgery done early so I will also be relieved.”

“Hmm.”

walk with her towards to

me so it soon comes to my turn.

the doctor asks me in a deep voice, even not looking

reply with a low

the doctor raises her head and takes

I nod to her.

“The last menstrual period?”

I reply

to keep the baby or not?” the doctor continues her

Perhaps having seen the loss of so many babies, maternity doctors are

“No.”

thirty days and we can’t check if it’s in the uterus or out yet. You’ll have to come back to have

to wait. My eye

everything will be all right in a week, or that Frances won’t

choice but to wait as

intends

relieved than coming to hospital. Perhaps I partly want to

the last few days when my

turns to me,

destroyed.” as I say,