In My Desperate Time

As usual, Frances has been out when I go downstairs.

That’s good. If he asked where I go, I would have no idea what to say.

I don’t dare to lie in front of him. He’s so horrible. Every time I even haven’t opened my mouth he’s already known it.

I make an appointment with Mindy at eight o’clock in the hospital. After changing clothes, I leave for the hospital.

When I arrive, Mindy has registered for me.

And to my surprise, she comes here alone. David should let her return from abroad alone. It doesn’t look like the deed he would do. This is unusual.

“You come back alone? Where is David?” I ask.

Mindy shakes her head and says quietly, “Shh, don’t be so loud. He objected to me coming back. He said you should go to Frances for help. Frances can handle this. His suggestion sucks. You must be insane if you come to Frances, aren’t you? So I snuck back myself.”

Though David is at the other side of the ocean where it is tens of thousands of kilometers away from us, I can imagine his gloomy face now when he found out that Mindy had snuck back alone. When I thought this, a shudder comes through me.

“You are so bold.” I sigh to her.

“I don’t care how David would think! The pregnant woman is the boss!” Mindy rolls her eyes and says, “Let’s go. I’ve registered. It’s still early and there are not many people. We can get the surgery done early so I will also be relieved.”

“Hmm.”

and walk with her towards

patients in front of me so it soon comes to my turn. Mindy accompanies me inside the

doctor asks me in a deep voice, even

I reply with

tested it yourself?” the doctor raises her head and takes a look

I nod to her.

“The last menstrual period?”

I

keep the baby or not?” the doctor continues

seen the loss of so many babies, maternity

“No.”

thirty days and we can’t check if it’s in the uterus or out yet. You’ll have to come back to have an examination in about a week or

to wait.

will be all right in a week, or that

no choice but to wait as the

I intends to

Perhaps I partly

must cherish the last few days when my little baby are

should we do now?” Mindy turns to

Frances know it. Any clues must be destroyed.” as I say, I quickly tear