In My Desperate Time

“I don’t know his weakness. It seems that he has no weakness.”

I say to Steven.

“Besides, I haven’t been in Virginia for a long time, so now I know nearly nothing about Frances. I guess I should catch up the news about him.”

The expression on Steven’s face relaxes a bit, and he says with a smile, “Now you start to know that he who has a thorough knowledge of the enemy and himself is bound to win in all battles. So why were you so impulsive before?”

His words make me feel ashamed of myself, and in my heart I feel sorrier for him.

“I will arrange a place for you to live, as well as the work for you. I can still make sure that Frances can’t find you if you don’t want to show up.” Steven says in a deep voice.

I shake my head and say, “I think a place with the good and bad mixed together has the most information. If I want to know more Frances’s secrets, I have to work at that kind of places. I’m not afraid he will find me, and even if he does, I won’t admit my identity before I have a way to deal with him. As long as I insist that I’m not Jane, what can he do to me?”

Steven doesn’t object to my idea, and just says, “As long as you’re happy. I’ll send someone to secretly protect you at the bar where you work.”

“How do you know I’m going to work at a bar?” I ask him with surprise.

what else could it be? Is there a place more mixed and complicated than a bar?” he laughs and stands on his feet, walking towards

my heart can’t be at peace for

back what Frances owes me, but I’m afraid

days later, I get a job at Heartbeat, the largest bar

has a large scale and the best-known of it is the nightly pole dancing show. I know Frances. He always keeps a sense of pride

of flirtatious people here, so I can’t get away with being teased even though I’m

also told the

I get a little tired

the manager always turns a blind eye when he

men around the stage look

can fuck one of those pretties, it must feel like in

voice makes my whole body

Andrew!

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