In My Desperate Time

Steven seems to have come all the way just to accompany me to the pregnancy check-up. After I am through, he leaves without even having lunch.

When he leaves, he stubbornly says, “Jane, no matter how you refuse, I will not miss every pregnancy check-up. From now on, I will not miss your birthday and the child’s birthday. You don’t need to do anything, and I’ll take care of everything.”

He doesn’t ask me for anything, but his words put a great deal of pressure on me.

After experiencing so much, I feel that I am not worthy of anyone in the world. Perhaps my best ending would be to bring up the baby and die alone.

After I get home, Mom starts to lecture me when she finds that Steven has left.

“What’s the matter with you, my girl? Steven is such a good man, and he likes you so much. Why do you refuse him stubbornly? I don’t know what you’ve been through before, and I don’t want to ask about your past. I can see that you are a good girl after we get along well these days. Why are you making things difficult for yourself? Why don’t you want happiness?”

I feel like crying.

She cares about me, more than my biological mother. She knows that I lack love and long for love, but she doesn’t know that I don’t dare to love anymore.

you don’t know what I’ve been

finally couldn’t restrain myself and tell

that, she looks at me with pity

her eyes. “I think that you need a man to love you, but I understand your pain, so I won’t force you anymore. You need to sort out your

since that day, Mom never asks me to

except that the

I take the

and ask someone to accompany me to the pregnancy check-up. There’s a young man living next door. I have chatted with him several times, and I feel he is a nice

stand at his door

I feel a shadow over

turn around and see what is going on, a hand quickly covers my

wrong. The next