In My Desperate Time

It wasn’t by chance?

Recalling how Frances and I got to know each other, I feel that Steven might have worried too much about it.

“He didn’t come to me. Actually, I got to know him by accident.” I explain.

I don’t even know why I am so anxious to refute Steven’s words, as if I’m afraid that it may harm our relationship, which has been twisted from the beginning. And I don’t believe that the man I love is like what Steven said.

Many years later, I am wondering whether my life would be different, if I didn’t get on Frances’ car.

Steven stares at me for a long time.

Then he says, “Jane, no matter what I tell you, you still choose to believe him. Do you fall in love with Frances?”

I panic as he sees through me. I hurriedly explained, “I’m not speaking for him. You should find evidence if you think he did that. You can’t just blame it on him.”

Steven’s expression changes. He says somewhat awkwardly, “I do not have any evidence right now, but I will investigate it. Jane, if your parents’ car accident is really related to Frances, would you leave him?”

He looks at me with an extremely serious gaze and a hint of anticipation.

know that Steven

him and say, “Even if the accident has nothing to do with him, I will leave him sooner or later. We are too different. And it’s dangerous for

to do that by myself. Last time, Steven helped me to hide from Frances. I

me once, so I think I can turn to him

but

“Steven, I’m pregnant.”

stunned and forgets to take the phone

you going to keep the child?” Steven

nod without saying

won’t allow me to keep the child. So I hope that

answers

be careful. Don’t let him know.

return to Frances’ house, but the images in the

tell myself not to think so badly of him,

been mad at me these days. Every day at home, he ignores me. The stranger

For several times, I hear his steps