In My Desperate Time

Instantly...

I seem to have heard that gunshot again.

And this time, the bullet has shot right in my heart.

Does he really hate me that much?

Even though I've seen this coming, when I hear it, I still feel extremely painful.

"OK. I see."

After saying that to Hilda, I walk towards the door.

The moment the door is closed, tears fall down like beads from a broken thread.

I slowly curl up with my arms tightly holding my legs, wailing.

"Frances, Frances, Frances..."

I mumble his name over and over again, as if it'll never be enough.

Despair floods me, and I've collapsed.

Frances and I, we fail to make it to the end.

After crying for a long time, I'm brought into the detention center by the prison guards.

I'm still waiting for my trial. Before the trial, I need to stay in detention.

corner of the dark and gloomy room sits

come in, she only glances at me lightly

surroundings and can't help but

a six-person room with bunk beds, just like the dormitories in

on the bed except

on the bed, which is so hard that it

not a spoiled and picky lady, I still have

staying in

the trial is over, I'll be

don't even dare to think about what kind of life it

feel

thought of before, is now right

feel panicky and

feel like there is no future

worried about Earl. I miss Frances. I want to live with the

is aching like

night, sitting alone in bed. And the

I have

bed, I cover myself with the thin blanket, not wanting to tell anyone

having a fever is a good thing

I won't think

I'm asleep, and sometimes, I'm awake, but most

freezing, and sometimes, I'm

I feel terrible.

somehow makes me

my heart doesn't hurt

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