In My Desperate Time

I'm scared.

I'm so scared of the drug, but I'm more scared that Frances will get addicted to it.

If one of us must take it, then I'll be the one.

I take a deep breath and reach out to the bag of powder.

My entire body trembles involuntarily. I have foreseen how disgusting and desperate I will be.

But before my hand can touch it, Frances has clutched it. He smiles faintly and says, "Such a good opportunity, wouldn't it be a pity if I give it away?"

As he speaks, he opens it calmly.

"No! You can't do it!"

I shout inwardly over and over again, but no one can hear it.

"Good. I appreciate your bravery. It looks like Hilda has found a good husband."

Mike smiles and hands Frances a dollar bill.

Taking it over, Frances pours the powder onto it, and glowers at it.

internal struggle is going

grows more and more

his hesitancy, Hilda jabs him with her elbow, "Frances, hurry up. It's just

A little?

punch her

is far from a little. It is a

the issue here. He can die from

I do? What should I

I become more and more

my hands tied, I can't do anything but

efforts will be wasted. So I can only sit here like an outsider even though my heart tells me exactly the

I hate it.

I hate myself.

moved faster, the situation

does Frances do

I am right now. He doesn't need to help

deal to get solid evidence, then it will be

matter what, I don't want

now, it

on the bill