Life After the Storm

As I am waking up, I then realize I am no longer outside but inside on the couch. I am not really sure how I got here, I jumped up and ran to Jayden's room. Wanting to check on him to make sure that he is ok, promising him that I would be there first thing in the morning, not wanting to break my promise.

When I approach his room, I see Landon with his head down on Jayden's bed, they are still sleeping. I leave the bedroom quietly, trying not to wake them. I hear someone in the kitchen I go to, and I see it's Dean.

“Good morning Dean, how did you sleep? I wanted to tell you thank you for carrying me in last night. I didn't mean to fall asleep.”

“Good morning to you also Lilly but I am not sure what you are talking about I did not carry you anywhere.”

“Oh, I had fallen asleep outside on the step last night I think I did anyway, but when I woke up this morning I was on the couch. I thought that you came out and carried me in.”

“Sorry Lilly It wasn't me last night I thought you went home.”

“I was going to go home, but I could not bring myself to leave Jayden, so I just stayed and accidentally fell asleep.”

“Well, would you like some coffee, then?”

“I would love some, thank you so much.”

As I get myself some coffee I stand there wondering did Landon carry me in last night. He was so mad at me. I honestly think he was just looking for someone to blame. I am not sure of his history and what all has happened to him, I just hope in time he will tell me. 

I then hear footsteps as I look to see who it is, and I notice it's Landon walking down the hall to the kitchen. I want to say good morning how did you sleep, but the words can't escape my mouth. I want to ask him if he carried me in last night, but I don't. I am just silent. I want to avoid upsetting him already this morning. 

Dean looks at Landon “good morning, would you like some coffee Alpha,” he asked him?

“Thank you, that would be great. I would love some coffee,” he responds.

I am surprised that he's not asking me to get out. He was so angry with me yesterday, but it wasn't my fault. He should be more worried about how the rouges are getting into his territory. If the attack didn't happen to Jayden, it could have happened to anyone in his pack. He needs to put out more guards to protect his pack. I know his pack is not a very big pack, which isn't good at all. If his pack members need help on the learning defense, I could always assist in training them. I am not sure if I should even say something I want to avoid offending him.

say. I want to tell Landon that it was not my fault. I then start to wonder if Sam and I weren't together. Maybe I could have protected Jayden from all of this. No, this is not my fault his territory should have

is a pack meeting this morning. I want to understand how rouges are getting into our territory without

you want to ask a question like that pack members might think that

close to our territory they should have been detected there's no excuse for this attack it

they might think that his life is more

me, his life is he's a child

want to butt in, but I do. “Instead of trying to find someone to

trained that would have

guards, what about the people who aren't your guards if they could defend themselves against them? Maybe they could take the rouge out themselves or even if it's just to train them to protect themselves or how

can't just focus on training now, I need to

training my father taught me I could teach them if you allow it. You could even make it voluntary, so you're not forcing them to do anything they

help my

be a part of this pack, I want to

talk it over with my pack members and see what their opinion is if they want training, then

to strengthen them. This is something I can do even being pregnant; this won't put me in harm's way training other wolves to help themselves. Training them to build confidence in themselves to make them believe they can do anything. I know

Jayden should train with Me Too! If kids want training, they should

will mention it to the parents and

training to fight this is training to defend yourself from being killed to fight your attacker off. You can't make it like I'm training

also can't talk their parents into doing something that they don't

wrong, you are the alpha. You need to talk them in to doing training so that their kids can defend themselves, so this does

that this is my fault because I didn't train my son to

I am not saying that at all I want to help with defense training. I know it's

're more welcome

could encourage them, it is important