Life After the Storm

I don't know what to think, as I'm waiting for him to barge into the bathroom. He never comes. I turn the water on. I let it warm as I feel the heat of the water on my hand, it feels so good. I step into the shower, I let the hot water pour over my body. I am shocked how satisfying it feels. As I look down, I see the water turn brown as it is cleaning all the dirt off my body. 

As I reach for the soap, it smells of coconut, loving the smell it is incredible. As I fill my hands with soap and rub it all over my body, god, how good it is making me feel. I haven't been this relaxed in a long time, and I don't want to get out of the shower. I could stay in here forever, loving the feeling. Of the heat on my body.

I then hear a door close. It makes me jump, thinking that he is coming in here. I open the shower curtain as my hands are shaking. I am trying to control my shaking hands, but I can't. Fuck I hate how I react to him, he frightens me so badly. I can't help but react this way. I shut the shower off, and I try to listen. To see if I hear anything but its dead silence.

I then go to step out of the shower and search for a towel. Once I find one, I wrap it around my body. When I go to open the door, I become scared, not sure what is happening. I don't want to open it, but I know I need to be strong. So, I make myself turn the handle to walk out of the bathroom. But when I walk out of the bathroom to the bedroom, no one is there. I'm surprised. Did he just leave really, is this all for real or is it a bad dream? I then open the closet and look for something to wear. I grab a pair of black leggings and an oversized sweatshirt. 

As I look around the room, I wonder where the hell he went. I'm so confused by what is happening. I need to figure out what is going on with Ivan. Before when I looked into his eyes, all I saw was darkness and evil, but not this time I saw empathy and love. I have never seen that side of him. I want to go find him just to see where he has gone. 

weak, I need not to be afraid and try to find a way to fight. I can't live a life in fear of my mate.

to be forgotten. You need to

the past but damn how do I move forward? Every time when I think of my life is finally on track, something explodes and throws it off track. What I do know is I can't stay here. I have to get out of

seems so different, but it has to be an act. I'm so confused as I'm running to Landon's house, I don't even know if he'll let

knock, waiting for him to answer. Hoping he doesn't ignore me and opens the door. As I hear the door knob turn and I watch it open, I'm so thankful when I see Landon. “Lilly, what are you

got back to check on Ivan. It was like

talking about, people just

help me, Ivan grabbed hold of Jayden. I panicked and, not thinking, I bit him on the neck in my human form, then realizing I marked him as mine. When He fell to the ground I took off with Jayden, I'm afraid of what he would do. I brought him to you so you could protect him. When I got back to Ivan,