Life After the Storm

IVAN'S POV

I can't stay here. I need to get out of here, the smell of my mate's blood is overwhelming me. I couldn't have hurt her. She has to be lying. I am not a monster or am I did I torture my mate. Why can't I remember what the fuck has happened? I need to get out of here. My head is full of confusion. 

I then began to think, what have I done to my mate. I'm so confused and uncertain about what has taken place. I don't remember ever even meeting her. But when I looked into her eyes, all I could see was her fear of me. I need to get out of here, I can't face her right now. I need to figure all this out. So, I decide not to tell her anything and leave while she is in the shower. I try to be quiet as I open the door and walk out of the bedroom.

I shift into my wolf once I get outside. I feel so much anger and pain, but I am uncertain why I even feel this way. I try to remember anything, but it's like I can't think. My mind is like a fog. Nothing is really coming back to me, and I need to figure out what all the hell has happened to me.

As I'm running my territory, it looks different, like we were under some attack, but I don't recall anything happening. I need to see my father, he will tell what the fuck is going on. I rush to where my father and mother live, when I approach there, house there are no lights. I go and begin knocking frantically, trying to wake them, but no one comes to the door. I become worried, wondering why they are not answering. It almost seems like the world I knew isn't the world I am in.

As I start frantically looking in every which direction, trying to figure out where they have gone. That's when I fall to the ground and begin to roll. I go into defense mode to find it's my brother, Sam. I am so relieved to see him that I shift back to my human and put my arms around his neck and hug him.

Sam pushes me off of him, “dude what the fuck you're naked and hugging me.”

“I am just so glad to see you. Where are our parents? What has happened to our territory?”

do not remember what all has

don't. I woke up next to my mate, not even knowing her but perceiving she is terrified of me. I'm not even sure what I did to make her

you want to remember the pain that you have

know what to say to him. How could I not remember being so cruel to the one that I am supposed to love? I don't remember any of it, or even how we met  before tonight. Will I ever be able to get my mate not to fear me? I begin to wonder if

you to take me to father, please, I'm not remembering where Father and mother are

stay at the same place. All the lights are off because they are not. Here, they went to try to make peace with another pack

do I not remember any of this? What the fuck has made me

looks at me with relief on his face. I wonder why he feels so relieved with me not remembering all that I have done. “Brother, sometimes it's better off not remembering the horrible things that you

that I have done no matter how

think it's better for you not

out if I'm not even

to try to make it up to your pack and your mate

been such a horrible Alpha and mate

our parents. You have