Love Aint Always Pretty

Pag-ibig

Translation: Love

Origin: Filipino

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"I love Savannah, sir. I can't stay away from her." Nick added.

I have never heard such beautiful words coming from Nick's lips. I have never thought he would say that. I never expected he'd say that in front of me and in front of my dad. I couldn't even look away from his gaze because I felt it when he said that he loved me. I know he means it. I know he loves me.

"Go to bed, Savannah. I've had enough for tonight. We'll talk tomorrow." My dad tells me but didn't say anything to Nick.

I watch my dad walk away from us and headed out of the kitchen. My heart is pounding harder and harder inside my chest now that I'm alone with Nick. Both of us were quiet. Both of us were still standing next to each other. Both of us obviously didn't know what to say and how to react to what he just said out. I wanna ask him if he means it. I wanna ask him he does love me and he didn't just say it cos he needs to cover up for that kiss.

"Let me walk you up to your room?"

I moved my head to Nick and he was looking at me. His blue eyes is so beautiful and I wanna kiss him again.

"Did you... Mean it Nick?" I finally asked.

He bent his head down. "Let me walk you up to your room Savannah."

I sigh. I'm sad about what he answered me cos now it's clear to me that he just said that out cos my dad caught us kissing. He obviously doesn't love me. He can never learn to love me. Nick will never ever fall in love again.

Both of us went out of the kitchen and he walked me to my room. I was quiet and so was he. We both didn't talk to each other until we reached outside of my room. I opened the door and he didn't even tell me goodnight. He just watched me go inside and once he made sure I was in, he started walking back to his room. I wanted him to sleep with me. I wanted to wake up the following morning with him by my side. I wanted to make sure that he won't leave tomorrow. I slowly closed the door and threw myself to bed. I'm so mad at him. I'm super mad.

Why does he need to say it when I'm around, knowing that it will only hurt me if he didn't mean it anyways.

I tried to go to sleep but I can't. I kept closing my eyes but I really can't sleep. I lay on my bed for twenty goddamn minutes straight, forcing myself to sleep but it's no use. My mind is filled with Nick and those words he said. He sounded like he did mean it but why can't he say it to me? All of a sudden my tears were streaming out from the corners of my eyes without me knowing it. I hate it when I cry for some same reason. I know Nick couldn't love me but why am I still hoping that he can and that he will? And why does he always make my hopes up?

My phone suddenly vibrated on top of my side table drawer. I reached for it. A message from Nick. I wanted to ignore it but a part of me wants to read it now.

I gave in anyways.

Are you still up? - Nick

I wanted to reply but then I don't want to face him right now. I'm crying again and I don't want him to know that I still cry cos of him cos even if I cry a thousand times, I know for sure nothing will change. Even if my eyes will dry up and tears won't fall anymore, I'm sure as hell that he will never ever learn to love me.

My phone vibrated on my hand again.

I'm outside your room. Open your door. Please. - Nick

My heart skipped a beat. I quickly pulled myself up and headed to my door silently. I stood right before door as I reach for the knob. I was in doubts but I wanna know what he came here for. I wanna hear him out even if this will hurt me. I know what he's gonna say. I know he will tell me he's sorry for what he said to my dad and that he didn't mean to say it.

I sigh.

What are you doing Savannah? Why do you always let Nick hurt you?

My phone vibrated once more.

Please. We need to talk. - Nick

I finally twisted the knob and took a deep breath in before finally opening the door. Nick's height hovers over me while his head was bent down low. His arm was resting on my doorway while his shirt was pulled up, showing his v. He was barefoot. Slowly, he pulled his head up to me and looked into my eyes.

"What do you want Nick?" I asked, as if I'm not distracted by his v-line.

"Did I wake you up?"

I shake my head.

you let me in?" He

door for him. He walks inside the room and I headed to the foot of my bed. I watch him

while ago, I just wanna

off. "I know you didn't mean it. And if you just came here to tell me you're sorry, please don't. You really

even look at him in his eyes cos I feel my tears gathering around my eyelids again. All of a sudden he was already standing before me. He's already hugging me. He's already wrapping his arms around me. My tears are falling... And more tears are coming out. It's not stopping. I was holding it back a while

you crying?" He

know you didn't mean to say it Nick.

out of the blue, cutting me off of what I was gonna say to him. He's kissing me deeply but passionately, I let him kiss me. I didn't move but

say

resting on my

said I loved you."

Oh my god.

him and I couldn't believe what I just heard. My tears

Savannah." He says while

my lungs out. I wanna run around the house. I wanna pull my hair. I wanna

again." I tell

"I love you with all that's

I could. His arms are now holding around my body. His hands on my

Nick. I love you." I

me back down as I pulled my head up to him. He pushed

I am around you, the things I would feel would terribly frighten me cos I always end up thinking about the future and how we would end up, how you would end up

to

heart. I thought nothing could ever hurt me again after what I had with Catherine. I thought I won't fall for anyone anymore. I thought I was capable of not falling in love again and I was sure I won't. Though it was hard being me, I tried my hardest. Then you came along. You changed my game plan. You

as my tears filled my eyes. I couldn't help but hear these words from Nick. I have been expecting

love with you but that's when I also push you away or I'll be gone for

He sighs heavily.

you away. It's what I do when I'm afraid."

you afraid of

when I found out your brother was Cameron. He came from an extremely

you deserve happiness again. You deserve me. I don't care if you had a criminal record or you went to jail. I don't care about your past.

don't see what

closer and kissed my

you about this. I just wanted to

I smiled at him.

words Nick." I

what we have was so ugly and you didn't gave up on us even after all those times I hurt you. All those times I

smile creeps into my

all yours now Savannah. Me and my horrible past are all yours."

lips longer while he kisses me back. "I love you

smiles at me. "I

on top of the

parents house." He reminds me with a smile

It's Christmas anyways. I need my Christmas gift. You need

He laughs.

promise I won't scream." I

off nose. "I

kissed again while we start pulling off our clothes and threw it to the floor. He tears the foil open and placed the condom on his hard length while he keeps kissing on my neck. I feel his tip swirling on my entrance before putting it inside of him. I moaned softly as I hear him

I gasp.

movement is slow and sensual that I could feel his tip until the last end of his length inside me. He looks at me as I loose control beneath him. His eyes doesn't look away, he's looking at me eagerly as if

me like that." I say as I control

He says while

right now. It's making me...

my forehead while he's still thrusting

make love to you now that you're