Love Aint Always Pretty

Abulia

- abnormal lack of ability to act or to make decisions

Origin: English

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I watch Tracy and Clyde talk to each other on another table, right across us while I was sitting down on the same spot where I was right next to Nick. I just kept sipping my juice, little by little so I would avoid talking to Nick. I don't want to talk to him right now. I'm not allowed to get hurt but now that I found out that he's still visiting and seeing Catherine, I feel so downgraded. I can't blame him for using me when he's here. The real thing that I'm bugged about is his real current relationship with Catherine. I wonder what they are now.

"How you've been?" He finally speaks after eating his steak. He grabs a tissue and wiped his outer lips.

"Good. Busy." I said without looking at him as I put my lips back on my straw.

We were quiet again. I see Tracy and Clyde walking back to our table with smile on their faces, I think they've patched up everything now. I smiled at them.

"You two are relationship savers. We're both okay now." Tracy says.

"That's good to hear Trace." I say.

"We're going some place where it's only me and Tracy. I've been a douche for getting jealous over nothing. So, I guess we'll go ahead of you two?" Clyde gazed at Nick then at me.

Nick nods. "Alright. And if you fight again don't call me."

Tracy giggles. "We'll be going now. Bye. Oh, and we'll get on that drinking session we promised a while ago this Friday Savannah. Would that be ok?"

"That would be lovely." I said.

She smiles and hugs me. "You're the best."

"Could you drop her off the dorm for me, Nick?" Tracy asked him as she pulls herself away from me.

Nick nods.

"We'll go ahead now." Clyde puts his arm back on Tracy's shoulders as I watch them exiting the diner.

"Drinking session?" Nick asked.

I glanced at him.

"Just you and her?" He asked again.

"Yeah." I answered then cleared my throat.

I pulled myself up from my seat and his head moves along with me. He looks up to me but I didn't want to look back at him.

"You don't need to drop me off the dorm. I'll just take a walk." I said.

I started walking away and I know I've been acting weird in front of him but I'm hurt. And I'm even more hurt cos I can't tell him I'm hurt knowing the fact that he was with Catherine for almost three days and two nights. All of a sudden he grabs my elbow and he was already standing right behind me.

"Is something wrong?" He asked.

I gently pulled my hand back. "No. Is there something wrong about just wanting to take a walk back to the dorm?"

"I'll be driving you there. It's not safe for you to be alone walking on the streets Savannah." He says.

He pulled me out of the diner and both of us headed to his car. Neither of us said a word to each other when we climbed inside. He starts the engine and starts driving away from the diner. I kept chewing on my lower lip cos I feel like crying. What if he had sex with Catherine? They could've had, since they were together for three days. There's a huge possibility to that. What if she's better than me in bed?

I sigh.

"What's bugging you?" He blurted out of the blue.

at him but then I looked back

You.

You're bugging me Nick.

You and Catherine.

I shake my head.

were you lately?" I finally

him when he answers me. I wanted to see his face if ever he's lying or now. His eyes were glued on

visited someone."

cos the look

"Nick." I called out.

glanced at me.

me to your room and

shocked by myself when I said

brake and looks at

"My place?" He asked.

there another

Ok. Let's go." He starts

down inside, I know I'm doing this to prove to him that I'm better than Catherine in bed. Im doing this to let him see that I can do better than her. I'm also doing this to prove to myself that we'll be nothing more and he's just using me to satisfy his needs. I'm doing this to teach myself to realize that

was thinking if we keep doing it, he'll also feel some sort of attachment towards me too, the way I feel towards him. I still

him. Every time we fuck, the more I feel

this way but this makes me happy. What we have makes me happy. What I am

I can't let him

some cheering and there I saw in the backyard, they were having games by the pool. Both of us headed up to his room and when I got inside, I headed to his bed and sat down on the

exhausted."

"School." I answered.

must be tired. How about we kiss for a while

No sex?

life that thoughtfulness could be such

you to have

his

my hair behind my ear. "I'll just grab some

on pill. Don't

His brows creasing.

lips. I made my tongue move into his mouth. He kisses me right back and damn it I've missed them even though it's only three days since the last time I tasted him. He starts pulling out my shirt while I wasted no time unbuttoning his

"Argh.." I moaned.

I'm so wet now. I feel the tip of his tongue moving rapidly against my clit. My fingers tugging

and pulls down his pants. "I

Oh god that was

as I

get a condom."

Please Nick. I want to

He didn't answer.

while closing my

"Damn it." He curses.

slams into me so unexpectedly that I screamed and leaped forward. My hands were grasping the covers of his bed into my balls of fists. His hand was

"Shh." He warns.

his lips on my neck, giving me a

holds still while he gives himself a quick moment to adjust inside me. He pulls out again and slams into me that made me scream once more against his hand that was cupping my

once again but faster and harder this time. He's grunting with every push. He's pressing three fingers against my clit and keeps rubbing them at the same time pulling himself in and out of me.

This animalistic.

my right foot moving up but he pushes it back down on

I close my eyes.

him

let him