Love Aint Always Pretty

Abulia

- abnormal lack of ability to act or to make decisions

Origin: English

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I watch Tracy and Clyde talk to each other on another table, right across us while I was sitting down on the same spot where I was right next to Nick. I just kept sipping my juice, little by little so I would avoid talking to Nick. I don't want to talk to him right now. I'm not allowed to get hurt but now that I found out that he's still visiting and seeing Catherine, I feel so downgraded. I can't blame him for using me when he's here. The real thing that I'm bugged about is his real current relationship with Catherine. I wonder what they are now.

"How you've been?" He finally speaks after eating his steak. He grabs a tissue and wiped his outer lips.

"Good. Busy." I said without looking at him as I put my lips back on my straw.

We were quiet again. I see Tracy and Clyde walking back to our table with smile on their faces, I think they've patched up everything now. I smiled at them.

"You two are relationship savers. We're both okay now." Tracy says.

"That's good to hear Trace." I say.

"We're going some place where it's only me and Tracy. I've been a douche for getting jealous over nothing. So, I guess we'll go ahead of you two?" Clyde gazed at Nick then at me.

Nick nods. "Alright. And if you fight again don't call me."

Tracy giggles. "We'll be going now. Bye. Oh, and we'll get on that drinking session we promised a while ago this Friday Savannah. Would that be ok?"

"That would be lovely." I said.

She smiles and hugs me. "You're the best."

"Could you drop her off the dorm for me, Nick?" Tracy asked him as she pulls herself away from me.

Nick nods.

"We'll go ahead now." Clyde puts his arm back on Tracy's shoulders as I watch them exiting the diner.

"Drinking session?" Nick asked.

I glanced at him.

"Just you and her?" He asked again.

"Yeah." I answered then cleared my throat.

I pulled myself up from my seat and his head moves along with me. He looks up to me but I didn't want to look back at him.

"You don't need to drop me off the dorm. I'll just take a walk." I said.

I started walking away and I know I've been acting weird in front of him but I'm hurt. And I'm even more hurt cos I can't tell him I'm hurt knowing the fact that he was with Catherine for almost three days and two nights. All of a sudden he grabs my elbow and he was already standing right behind me.

"Is something wrong?" He asked.

I gently pulled my hand back. "No. Is there something wrong about just wanting to take a walk back to the dorm?"

"I'll be driving you there. It's not safe for you to be alone walking on the streets Savannah." He says.

He pulled me out of the diner and both of us headed to his car. Neither of us said a word to each other when we climbed inside. He starts the engine and starts driving away from the diner. I kept chewing on my lower lip cos I feel like crying. What if he had sex with Catherine? They could've had, since they were together for three days. There's a huge possibility to that. What if she's better than me in bed?

I sigh.

"What's bugging you?" He blurted out of the blue.

then I

You.

You're bugging me Nick.

You and Catherine.

I shake my head.

were you lately?"

at him when he answers me. I wanted to see his face if ever he's lying or now. His eyes were glued on the road, he's busy

someone."

broke me into littlest pieces cos the look on his eyes were telling the

"Nick." I called out.

at

room and fuck me." I said

was kind of shocked by myself when I said that

hits the brake and looks

"My place?" He asked.

nod. "Is there another party

Ok. Let's

see that I can do better than her. I'm also doing this to prove to myself that we'll be nothing more and he's just using me to satisfy his needs. I'm doing this to teach myself to realize that he's never gonna love

we keep doing it, he'll also feel some sort of attachment towards me too, the way I feel towards him. I still want this even

in love with him. Every time we fuck, the more I feel so neglected. Every

makes me happy. What we have makes me happy. What I am to Nick

good at this, I can't let him go just yet and I

saw in the backyard, they were having games by the pool. Both of us headed up to his room and when I got inside, I headed to his bed and sat down on the foot of it. I watch him close and lock the door and slowly turns to me. He walks towards me and stood right in between my thighs. He unexpectedly knelt down and holds both

look exhausted." He

"School." I answered.

we kiss

No sex?

imagined in my entire life that

you to have sex with

his lips.

my hair behind my ear. "I'll just grab some condom then

pill. Don't worry." I

His brows creasing.

three days since the last time I tasted him. He starts pulling

"Argh.." I moaned.

my clit. My fingers tugging his hair as I

he pulls his shirt off his head and pulls down his pants. "I wanna

said please. Oh god that was

I knelt down on his bed with

to get a condom."

Please Nick. I want to feel

He didn't answer.

begged while closing

"Damn it." He curses.

I screamed and leaped forward. My hands were grasping the covers of his bed into my balls of fists. His hand was on my sex then the other was

"Shh." He warns.

giving me a lick on my skin. "You're

he gives himself a quick moment to adjust inside me. He pulls out again and slams into me that made me scream once more against his

every push. He's pressing three fingers against my clit and keeps rubbing them at the same time pulling himself in

This animalistic.

feel my right foot moving up but he pushes

I close my eyes.

him fuck

let him