Love Aint Always Pretty

Abulia

- abnormal lack of ability to act or to make decisions

Origin: English

39

I watch Tracy and Clyde talk to each other on another table, right across us while I was sitting down on the same spot where I was right next to Nick. I just kept sipping my juice, little by little so I would avoid talking to Nick. I don't want to talk to him right now. I'm not allowed to get hurt but now that I found out that he's still visiting and seeing Catherine, I feel so downgraded. I can't blame him for using me when he's here. The real thing that I'm bugged about is his real current relationship with Catherine. I wonder what they are now.

"How you've been?" He finally speaks after eating his steak. He grabs a tissue and wiped his outer lips.

"Good. Busy." I said without looking at him as I put my lips back on my straw.

We were quiet again. I see Tracy and Clyde walking back to our table with smile on their faces, I think they've patched up everything now. I smiled at them.

"You two are relationship savers. We're both okay now." Tracy says.

"That's good to hear Trace." I say.

"We're going some place where it's only me and Tracy. I've been a douche for getting jealous over nothing. So, I guess we'll go ahead of you two?" Clyde gazed at Nick then at me.

Nick nods. "Alright. And if you fight again don't call me."

Tracy giggles. "We'll be going now. Bye. Oh, and we'll get on that drinking session we promised a while ago this Friday Savannah. Would that be ok?"

"That would be lovely." I said.

She smiles and hugs me. "You're the best."

"Could you drop her off the dorm for me, Nick?" Tracy asked him as she pulls herself away from me.

Nick nods.

"We'll go ahead now." Clyde puts his arm back on Tracy's shoulders as I watch them exiting the diner.

"Drinking session?" Nick asked.

I glanced at him.

"Just you and her?" He asked again.

"Yeah." I answered then cleared my throat.

I pulled myself up from my seat and his head moves along with me. He looks up to me but I didn't want to look back at him.

"You don't need to drop me off the dorm. I'll just take a walk." I said.

I started walking away and I know I've been acting weird in front of him but I'm hurt. And I'm even more hurt cos I can't tell him I'm hurt knowing the fact that he was with Catherine for almost three days and two nights. All of a sudden he grabs my elbow and he was already standing right behind me.

"Is something wrong?" He asked.

I gently pulled my hand back. "No. Is there something wrong about just wanting to take a walk back to the dorm?"

"I'll be driving you there. It's not safe for you to be alone walking on the streets Savannah." He says.

He pulled me out of the diner and both of us headed to his car. Neither of us said a word to each other when we climbed inside. He starts the engine and starts driving away from the diner. I kept chewing on my lower lip cos I feel like crying. What if he had sex with Catherine? They could've had, since they were together for three days. There's a huge possibility to that. What if she's better than me in bed?

I sigh.

"What's bugging you?" He blurted out of the blue.

then I looked back right

You.

You're bugging me Nick.

You and Catherine.

I shake my head.

were you lately?"

at him when he answers me. I wanted to see his face if ever he's lying

someone."

broke me into littlest pieces cos the look on his eyes were

"Nick." I called out.

glanced at

to your room and fuck me."

kind of shocked by myself when I said that and I know Nick

the brake and looks

"My place?" He asked.

nod. "Is there

Let's

I can do better than her. I'm also doing this to prove to myself that we'll be nothing more and he's just using me to satisfy his

doing it, he'll also feel some sort of attachment towards me too, the way I feel towards him. I still want this even though this will only

him. Every time we fuck, the more

I should find a man who could love me. I know I shouldn't be letting Nick treat me this way but this makes me happy. What we have makes me happy. What I am to Nick makes me feel satisfied, though not

good at this, I can't let him go just yet and

and there I saw in the backyard, they were having games by the pool. Both of us headed up to his room and when I got inside, I headed to his bed and sat down on the foot of it.

exhausted."

"School." I answered.

How about we kiss for

No sex?

ever imagined in my entire life that thoughtfulness could be such a turn

to have sex

his lips.

my ear. "I'll just grab some

pill. Don't worry."

His brows creasing.

tongue move into his mouth. He kisses me right back and damn it I've missed them even though it's only three days since the last time I tasted him. He starts pulling out my shirt while I wasted no time unbuttoning his pants and pulling his pants a little inches

"Argh.." I moaned.

now. I feel the tip of his tongue moving rapidly against my clit. My fingers tugging his hair as I feel him inserting one finger inside. I

he pulls his shirt off his head and pulls down his pants. "I

Oh god that was insanely

I knelt down

get

I want to feel you

He didn't answer.

begged while closing

"Damn it." He curses.

his bed into my

"Shh." He warns.

my neck, giving me a lick on my

moment to adjust inside me. He pulls out again and slams into me that

and harder this time. He's grunting with every push. He's pressing three fingers against my clit and keeps rubbing them at the

This animalistic.

my toes were curling. I feel my right foot moving up

I close my eyes.

let him fuck

him