Love Aint Always Pretty

Kophard

- when someone cuts you out of their life for good.

72

That night, I was on my bed inside my new apartment. I have transferred the minute I graduated and I moved to a bigger one. I bought it with my own savings with no help from my parents' cash which made me feel so proud of myself. I headed down to the kitchen and grabbed a can of beer from the fridge as I sit down on a chair. I gazed at my phone, it's already two twenty six in the morning.

I wonder if Nick is already sleeping on the same bed with Dakota. Well they are married. Damn, how the things changed between me and Nick so fast. It's like, I didn't even notice he could get married. Well I can't blame him. He's already twenty eight, he should be getting married. It's like the marrying age. Maybe I was still hoping he'll come back to me after everything, that's why it hurts so much now. I expected so much from Nick that he couldn't and wasn't willing to give me and I guess this beer is the answer, it still fucking hurts me though it's been almost 3 years.

As I look back and try to reminisce everything that happened to us as I try to think of a certain explanation why it still hurts me, I think the most definite reason is cos we didn't end well. We just lost track. Love was there but at the same time it wasn't and I guess what we had wasn't something normal people would do. What we had two years ago was special to me no matter how hideous it was. It's been so long and it's funny how it still bothers me.

You know, right now, I honestly wanna try texting him up again after a year. I wanna try if he still didn't change his number. I was still hoping if he didn't change his number, he might have been waiting for me to text him up. But his wife might kill me once I text her husband late at night and Dakota is my boss. I wouldn't want to get fired on my second day and I just need to stay cos they give good salary. I need to set limits now, he's already a married man.

Everything will change.

•••••

I have survived the entire week here in the publishing house perfectly fine. I did my job right, I turned in my 800-word article before the deadline and my seniors loved me cos I was being polite, kind and responsive to them. I work at my best when I'm told and I give all I could to make it perfect. I was doing fine cos Nick wasn't around anymore and no distraction. I heard his main office is at the Devaloines Enterprises, three blocks from here. Dakota seems to be really really nice too, I think that's why Nick liked her and married her.

I grabbed my stuff from my desk and headed out of my office. I took the elevator ride alongside the other employees from the other department and once I reached the lobby, I saw four people waiting on the lobby's couch and my smile reached to the ends of my face. They're here. They made it.

"Savannah!!"

I ran to them and I couldn't believe it that they're actually here. I just threw myself at Tracy first, then hugged Clyde then Alec and then Aries. I missed these guys so much and I'm glad to see them again. It has been a very long time and I wonder how they were after all these years.

"Happy birthday!" Tracy chirped.

I smiled. "Thank you! I'm so glad you guys made it here in New York!"

"Of course, we missed you angel and I think it's time for us to have a get together. Perfect time on your 22nd birthday too." Aries smiled at me.

"Is Channing coming over tonight?" Tracy asked me. I'm happy to see her getting fatter now though she still looks thin but at least she's gaining a little than the last time I saw her.

"No. He couldn't make it. He said he has a business trip to Rome but he already sent me his gift last Monday." I said.

As I look at my WSU friends, I guess the five of us had finally grew up. Looking at us now, we're all wearing something formal, suits, blazers, and ties. We weren't in our casual teenage style of clothing anymore, no more university jacket or fraternity shirts or even sneaks. Right now, as I look at us in our business attire or even an edgier grown up look, I feel so old too but it was a good feeling knowing that I still have them with me after a long time of not seeing each other.

"Let's grab dinner?" I offered.

All of us headed out and I got inside Aries' car cos mine was still for painting change. I lead the way for them and we arrived inside a restaurant. When we arrived and settled ourselves on our table, it still feels the same. It felt like we aged but we were still the same people from the past. Too bad Nick wasn't here. Tracy said he invited Nick but he didn't answer on her invitation.

We continued eating anyways and just talked about our lives now. I'm glad that Alec is engaged to a woman named Sara. Aries also had a girlfriend back in Seattle, he said she's not the permanent one. The usual Aries. Clyde and Tracy were still going strong together and they're also planning on settling down soon.

"Where's your boyfriend, angel?" Aries asked.

"He's in Vegas with his dad for work. He said he'll make it up to me once he's back home." I say.

Tracy holds my hand and smiled at me happily. "I'm glad you've found someone."

"Yeah. But working on your ex's company isn't really helping." I snorted.

The men laughed together.

"And you guys didn't even tell me he was already married. Nobody dared to." I say.

"We are terribly sorry." Clyde blurted.

"We couldn't tell you." Alec says.

shotgun wedding. Only

moved my head to Tracy. "To be honest, I asked Nick if he was sure about it and he said he was. He said he had to. He had reasons of doing so. I don't know why he married Dakota either, he won't tell me. They eventually got married two months after Mrs. Devaloines'

think of is money after he accepted that money from my father. Did he really want money

Nick. I mean, he did stuff that terribly hurt you and

both moved on. He's

he's happy." Tracy

to be a lovely woman." I

something more about her nice and sweet image." Tracy says right

have work tomorrow, it's time for a get together. It's time to celebrate for my birthday, have fun and get drunk. We settled ourselves on the VIP

with

having

needed to finish a report in Monday."

bad, I wanted to meet them."

who came." Tracy nudge her

looking and a view of Nick walking towards our table, made my heart skip a beat. He came. I quickly looked away while everyone's eyes were looking at me.

good to see you man." Alec says as they

"Same Alec." Nick answered.

bar. I tried to act normal even though I was tensed up. It's been a week since I saw Nick and he still makes me feel like this all the time he is around me. I should be getting used to this but I think Nick will always have this affect

Nick called out to

my name. I moved my head to him and he's looking at me intently as the music Stay The Night by Zedd

"Yeah?" I answered.

"Happy birthday." He smiled.

I nod. "Thanks."

corner. I ignored them and just finished my cocktail. I

bottle?" Alec

together. I moved my eyes to Nick and he was just looking at me so I

on, just one

too old

let

play spin the bottle when we were younger but Nick was just looking at me. Damn it, I looked away

this music

"Let's dance." Aries asked.

asked the rest of them but I didn't

go enjoy."

you Tracy?" I

"I'll pass. Maybe later."

always has been my dance partner before in their frat parties. Aries stands as he holds my hand while we leave the table. We joined the people on the second floor's dance floor and just started dancing. Aries and I weren't close enough but we were just having fun dancing along the music. I grind sexily like a little college bitch while Aries was holding my waist so no other

I gazed at my watch, already midnight. I looked over at Nick who was starting to loosen his tie. Naked by Dev

the alcohol is getting into. The words are spilling out of my

heads turned to me while I looked at Nick intently. "You already want me to

"Your wife." I spit.

Nick stayed quiet.

for you now Mr. President." Damn it I need to control my mouth. Shut up Savannah. Shut up now.

had a flight an hour ago to Paris

him. I

"More drinks!" I exclaimed.

•••••

into a car. I know it was Aries' cos I came with him here so I settled myself on the passenger

"Heeeey." I slurred.

"Sweetheart?"

Hiiiii Damon!" I

do you sound funny?

"Just had a couple of drinks sweetie. Don't worry about me a single bit. Im on my way

I hiccuped.