Klempner - Twenty-Six Years Ago

The air is glacial, but although the breeze whips through my hair, I’m not cold. Instead, invigorated, I feel strong and ready for anything.

Standing by the frozen sea, I watch the wind drawing snow across the ice in a whirling dervish of frozen granules that lash around my feet. And I think of the last time I did this, here, with her.

Valentine’s Day coming up… I’ll be back in time.

Get her a present…

What would she like?

Something regional? She loved Helsinki…

Some of the local food?

Then I remember her bending over the porcelain, throwing up gravlax and vodka in equal measure…

Maybe not…

Jewellery?

Still persuading her to wear the emeralds I gave her…

A piece of art?

?

?

Perfect.

I head for the town centre, searching for galleries and craft shops, not knowing just what I’m looking for.

But I’ll know it when I see it…

Most are full of the kind of useless knick-knacks that are met with an ‘Oh, how lovely. You shouldn’t have.” greeting, then get pushed to the back of the cupboard: I-Heart-Helsinki fridge-magnets, overpriced chocolates and tee-shirts, dolls in fake Laplander costumes.

Weirdly, some of the gift shops are stocked with mementoes which seem to me completely out of place. Who comes to Helsinki to buy posters of London buses or ‘New York They named it twice’ tee-shirts?

Am I missing something?

Nope…

And then, there it is.

Beautifully painted by some local artist with more Js and Ks in the name than English allows: a scene of the frozen sea, painted from almost where I stood only a couple of hours ago with ice grit-blasting my clothes. A couple stand hand-in-hand looking out over a glinting scene of white and blue, and in the distance, a lone figure sits fishing.

The price, like everything in Helsinki, is horrendous, but who cares? Money is nothing. Mitch is…

… Mitch.

Padded and carefully gift-wrapped, I tuck the package under my arm and head back for the ferry port.

Time to go home…

Home?

When did I ever think of home before?

She’s waiting.

*****

Michael

“How is she?”

past denial, but I almost wish she’d cry… Get it out of her system. Instead,

mourning the loss of

over gaining

Both bereft…

What a fucking mess.

is probably the right word…” I say. “… Discovering she has a psychopath for a parent. It’s

of the problem is that not

perfect father who never

at the back of his head.

of her funk. However…” I

“Like?”

have a bath? Or a

can get down her, but first, we have to get her attention.” He jerks his chin towards the lounge. “You want to

on the table. “No, I don't think so. Not this time. On this occasion, I

to mine.

carrying this one. She needs knocking back into reality.” James straightens up, plucks at a lip. “You

He stares into nothing for a long second, then, “Come on then. You’d better be there too but stay in the background

sits on the couch, hugging her knees,

What’s she thinking...?

… Feeling….?

Fear?

Loss?

?

?

Humiliation?

There’s no softness

maintaining her vigil of

straight, his arms folded, “I expect you to look at

hunches, then turns to face him.

“Come here.”

shuffles across the room to stand before him. “Yes, Master?” But she doesn’t meet his eyes. Head low, her fingers wind and twist together,

Yes… humiliation…

her face is sallow. Clothes are creased, spotted with what look like tomato stains, and she’s still carrying traces of makeup she put

Doesn’t smell great either…

we speak. Your face

Her voice chokes. “Master…”

“Listen to me, Charlotte. Nothing has changed. Nothing. You are exactly the

him. “But I’m not. I…” The words choke

Finally crying?

Good…

sake let

that is any different is inside your head. You are not Jenny, the child victim. You are Charlotte, the woman who reinvented herself, who knew what she wanted and took

it. I saw you auction yourself to the highest bidder; to me; because doing so would take you where you wanted to go. Even

saw you face down the man who terrorised your childhood and who threatened you with assault and gang-rape. And just because that man might be, genetically, your sire… I don’t say father… that does not mean

Charlotte does. And one of those choices is whether or not she lets something that is part of her past control her present

swallows, her sobs subsiding

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