Klempner - Twenty-Six Years Ago
The air is glacial, but although the breeze whips through my hair, I’m not cold. Instead, invigorated, I feel strong and ready for anything.
Standing by the frozen sea, I watch the wind drawing snow across the ice in a whirling dervish of frozen granules that lash around my feet. And I think of the last time I did this, here, with her.
Valentine’s Day coming up… I’ll be back in time.
Get her a present…
What would she like?
Something regional? She loved Helsinki…
Some of the local food?
Then I remember her bending over the porcelain, throwing up gravlax and vodka in equal measure…
Maybe not…
Jewellery?
Still persuading her to wear the emeralds I gave her…
A piece of art?
?
?
Perfect.
I head for the town centre, searching for galleries and craft shops, not knowing just what I’m looking for.
But I’ll know it when I see it…
Most are full of the kind of useless knick-knacks that are met with an ‘Oh, how lovely. You shouldn’t have.” greeting, then get pushed to the back of the cupboard: I-Heart-Helsinki fridge-magnets, overpriced chocolates and tee-shirts, dolls in fake Laplander costumes.
Weirdly, some of the gift shops are stocked with mementoes which seem to me completely out of place. Who comes to Helsinki to buy posters of London buses or ‘New York They named it twice’ tee-shirts?
Am I missing something?
Nope…
And then, there it is.
Beautifully painted by some local artist with more Js and Ks in the name than English allows: a scene of the frozen sea, painted from almost where I stood only a couple of hours ago with ice grit-blasting my clothes. A couple stand hand-in-hand looking out over a glinting scene of white and blue, and in the distance, a lone figure sits fishing.
The price, like everything in Helsinki, is horrendous, but who cares? Money is nothing. Mitch is…
… Mitch.
Padded and carefully gift-wrapped, I tuck the package under my arm and head back for the ferry port.
Time to go home…
Home?
When did I ever think of home before?
She’s waiting.
*****
Michael
“How is she?”
himself, both hands knuckled on the kitchen table, head bowed. “The same. Not good. I’d say she’s gotten past denial, but I almost wish she’d cry… Get
loss of
over
Both bereft…
…
What a fucking mess.
is probably the right word…” I say. “… Discovering she has a psychopath for a parent. It’s going to take time and support to
he says, “part of the problem is
father who never
at the back of his head. “How the hell do we deal with
wait for her to come out of her funk. However…” I raise a forefinger… “… What
“Like?”
when did she last have a
wallowing in pizza boxes and boil-in-a-minute noodles. I’m happy to cook anything we can get down her, but first, we have to get her attention.” He jerks his
I
to
James straightens up, plucks at a lip.
Ahhhs in silence, then, “Maybe you’re right.” He stares into nothing for a long second, then, “Come on then. You’d better be there too but stay in the background
through to the lounge. Charlotte sits on the couch, hugging her knees, gazing slack-faced into the fire. She doesn’t appear to notice
What’s she thinking...?
… Feeling….?
Fear?
Loss?
?
?
Humiliation?
speaks. “Charlotte?” There’s no softness in his
turn, maintaining her vigil of
expect you to look at me when
turns to face him.
“Come here.”
Master?” But she doesn’t meet
Yes… humiliation…
since God-knows-when, hangs in greasy rat-tails and her face is sallow. Clothes are creased, spotted with what look like tomato stains, and she’s still carrying traces of makeup
Doesn’t smell great either…
squares up to her. “Charlotte, I am your Master. You will behave appropriately when we speak. Your face lowered in submission
Her voice chokes. “Master…”
her. “Listen to me, Charlotte. Nothing has changed. Nothing. You are exactly the same person you were a few
she won’t look at him. “But I’m not. I…” The words choke into a
Finally crying?
Good…
God’s sake let
the woman who reinvented herself, who knew what she wanted and took on all
would take you where you wanted to go. Even though you knew it was dangerous. Even though your memories must have made that an appalling decision for you to take.” He’s still holding her, jolting her at the shoulders to punctuate his words. And each
man might be, genetically, your sire… I don’t say father… that does not mean he has any power over you. Klempner has no hold over you unless you
And one of those choices is whether or not she lets something that
her sobs
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