My Alpha's Betrayal: Burning In The Flames Of His Vengeance

32. Limits

YILEYNA 

‘Obviously. There’s no way a wolf-less female would be worth anything more to me than to be an object to use and discard when I’m done.’

His words rang in my mind, and I sighed as I locked the door quietly behind me. I looked around my cabin, feeling exhausted, and dropped onto the bed. His scent still lingered. I closed my eyes, not wanting to think about anything, but I couldn’t stop the thoughts from swirling in my mind. At times, it was as if he cared… and then at others… I curled into a ball, taking deep, steady breaths.

I would not let it affect me.

A light knock on the door made me sigh.

“I’m trying to get some sleep. What is it?” I called out, really not wanting to talk to anyone, but I knew it was Charlene.

“Open up darling.” Her soft voice came.

Sighing, I got up, unlocking the door and getting back into bed. I heard the door open and Charlene sigh softly as she locked the door, then sat down on the bed. 

“I’m angry at you, Leyna.” Her soft voice came. I sighed, pulling the blanket down from my face and looked over at her, feeling guilty. 

“I know.” 

“Theon, want to share?” I sighed and sat up; this was a conversation I knew was going to happen at some point. 

“Not really.” I mumbled, keeping my arms hidden under the blanket. I didn’t need her worrying over my injuries.

 “Since when?” She asked quietly. 

“Since the festival.” I muttered, staring down at the blanket. I heard her gasp, and I looked up to see the wave of sadness in her eyes. 

“Since then and you didn’t tell me?”

“He didn’t want anyone to know,” I whispered, feeling ever so guilty. 

“But… not even me?” She asked, I don’t think I had ever felt worse. 

“I’m sorry, I truly am my queen.” I whispered.

 “When I told you he was interested in you, you vehemently denied it!” She exclaimed, as if suddenly remembering that and frowning at me.

“I know! But I’m sorry… Are you… Umm, are you ok with it?” I asked, knowing that she had liked Theon for ages too. “I know it’s stupid that I’m asking this now... After stuff happened…”

I felt awful.

“I want to say I am, I mean, I’m jealous too! But I’m just a bit concerned… Are you sure he’s serious? I don’t want you to get hurt.” She replied, ending hesitantly.

His words rang in my mind, and I lay back down. “We have an agreement, it’s just physical.” I replied quietly. Her eyes softened, and she sighed.

“You know, I would say go get it girl, and enjoy that piece of sexiness while you can, but why do I feel like you will get hurt?” She asked softly.

“I won’t, I know he considers me nothing more than trash.” I said, feeling my stomach twist at those words.

Then why was I allowing him to have me, when he couldn’t even respect me? I remembered our moment from down in the hold, the way he playfully tickled me and licked my foot. Do you do that to someone you consider trash? Maybe? I didn’t know.

Charlene moved over and wrapped her arms around me tightly as she slipped under the blanket beside me.

“Goddess, this bed smells of him!” She yelped.

I couldn’t resist the smile that cross my lips as I rested my head on her shoulder.

“Well, he did sleep here for a bit.” I giggled.

“Wait, did you do the deed in here?!”

“No, relax! We’ve only done it once.”

We didn’t do much on this bed, and what we did do, she didn’t need to know.

“Once? On the night of the festival?”

I nodded.

“Yeah…”

He seems rough if your neck is anything

you have actually kissed Theon!”

is rough.” I admitted, staring at the

he is now claimed by my friend, the least you can do is share the details. Wait! Wait… is he big?” She whispered, I

much, it was all just so fast…” I frowned, thinking we had actually

with a gentle smile, brushing my hair off my face before we

whilst I couldn’t help but mull over

stay in my room. I just needed a little space, if Patrick and Valentin knew about us, then I was sure the rest of those

spent most of the afternoon with me, but I had lied that I was feeling a little under the weather, and she had left me when night had come. Raiden had popped in earlier to ask how I was doing, but I hadn’t entertained him

a bracket, the slight sway of the ship was lulling me to sleep when I heard the door open

sat up sharply. My eyebrows furrowed when I saw it

to entertain

don’t.” Came his short

to be alone.” I

two mugs of what smelled like coffee he was holding on

kept chanting that in my head. He placed the two mugs down and crossed

wrong with you? You look

him a withering

about.” I hissed, raising my arms and showing my arms

you can show yourself out, I’m

front of him so he could get a look at the injuries. He brushed his thumb gently over the part that had almost

this time.I yanked free from his

commanded coldly, glaring into his

eyes that were such a beautiful shade, look so

“No.”

took hold of my right arm, frowning as he looked down at it, this one was worse. “Why didn’t you get these

his hold. His eyes met mine, but

pulling the blanket over my head. The hollow emptiness in my chest was excruciating, but I wanted him gone. I heard the door open and shut. I kicked the blanket off, rushing to lock the door, only to see he

back, or is that what he

door, slipping the key into his pocket, only making me even angrier. He placed the box on the bed, then without a word, grabbed me by my upper arm and tugged me towards the

touching me.” I hissed,

the disinfectant or whatever it was onto the gauze, he dabbed it surprisingly gently over my partially healed injuries, making them

glancing up at me as

worry, I’m used to pain, I’m sure you don’t care if it hurts or not. Why be so gentle when you are rather brutal in general, aren’t you?” I snatched the gauze from his hand and roughly scrubbed it down my

as I reopened the injuries that were partially healed. I was clenching my jaw

 “Yileyna!”

me from doing further damage to my arm. A flicker of

leave. You’ve done enough.” I

felt so angry

I said earlier-”

up with you, but to insult me like that to someone else? That, I won’t tolerate. I may have agreed to give myself to you, but I have not agreed for you to ruin my reputation. Now get the fuck out, seriously, I think

flashed and

no turning back.” He tossed the gauze on the

sore arm, trying my best to control my emotions.He tried to help me… He was cleaning my injuries…No,

hot and cold moments, but I couldn’t

floor, not caring as its contents spilt across the floor and I

on my side, my eyes falling on

For us…

closed my eyes, trying to make sense of the havoc of emotions inside of me.I don’t know what I’m doing,

with Charlene when I could, or locked

the mornings, but I asked Raiden or Ryan to accompany me to watch as well. Theon would make one of

him watching me, at others I could feel his intense gaze upon me, but I didn’t entertain him. However, even then, the emotions

one I was consumed with. I knew if he tried, the chances that he would break my walls once more were high, and so I

to his sea shanty, I refused. Mom said my voice was beautiful, and she always asked me to sing

used to joke that my voice was too precious to share with others. It wasn’t that I didn’t enjoy singing, but it reminded me of

her cabin most of the time due to being in dangerous waters, apart from the occasional moments when she was allowed to come above deck or to

this, she spent a lot more time trying to talk to Theon. He would reply, but by the end of the first day, it was obvious he had grown tired of her and made

shining and, despite the dark waters beneath us, it felt good to not have to layer so many pieces of clothing on, although it was still

had gone through more brutal training at the hands of Theon. I did see what she meant, that sometimes he seemed to look at her with hatred. But it was fleeting and I often doubted if it

do believe he was just venting all his

to cater to his

around my waist and pants. I enjoyed the wind blowing through my hair, which Charlene

it captured my

wouldn’t advise it.”