32. Limits

YILEYNA 

‘Obviously. There’s no way a wolf-less female would be worth anything more to me than to be an object to use and discard when I’m done.’

His words rang in my mind, and I sighed as I locked the door quietly behind me. I looked around my cabin, feeling exhausted, and dropped onto the bed. His scent still lingered. I closed my eyes, not wanting to think about anything, but I couldn’t stop the thoughts from swirling in my mind. At times, it was as if he cared… and then at others… I curled into a ball, taking deep, steady breaths.

I would not let it affect me.

A light knock on the door made me sigh.

“I’m trying to get some sleep. What is it?” I called out, really not wanting to talk to anyone, but I knew it was Charlene.

“Open up darling.” Her soft voice came.

Sighing, I got up, unlocking the door and getting back into bed. I heard the door open and Charlene sigh softly as she locked the door, then sat down on the bed. 

“I’m angry at you, Leyna.” Her soft voice came. I sighed, pulling the blanket down from my face and looked over at her, feeling guilty. 

“I know.” 

“Theon, want to share?” I sighed and sat up; this was a conversation I knew was going to happen at some point. 

“Not really.” I mumbled, keeping my arms hidden under the blanket. I didn’t need her worrying over my injuries.

 “Since when?” She asked quietly. 

“Since the festival.” I muttered, staring down at the blanket. I heard her gasp, and I looked up to see the wave of sadness in her eyes. 

“Since then and you didn’t tell me?”

“He didn’t want anyone to know,” I whispered, feeling ever so guilty. 

“But… not even me?” She asked, I don’t think I had ever felt worse. 

“I’m sorry, I truly am my queen.” I whispered.

 “When I told you he was interested in you, you vehemently denied it!” She exclaimed, as if suddenly remembering that and frowning at me.

“I know! But I’m sorry… Are you… Umm, are you ok with it?” I asked, knowing that she had liked Theon for ages too. “I know it’s stupid that I’m asking this now... After stuff happened…”

I felt awful.

“I want to say I am, I mean, I’m jealous too! But I’m just a bit concerned… Are you sure he’s serious? I don’t want you to get hurt.” She replied, ending hesitantly.

His words rang in my mind, and I lay back down. “We have an agreement, it’s just physical.” I replied quietly. Her eyes softened, and she sighed.

“You know, I would say go get it girl, and enjoy that piece of sexiness while you can, but why do I feel like you will get hurt?” She asked softly.

“I won’t, I know he considers me nothing more than trash.” I said, feeling my stomach twist at those words.

Then why was I allowing him to have me, when he couldn’t even respect me? I remembered our moment from down in the hold, the way he playfully tickled me and licked my foot. Do you do that to someone you consider trash? Maybe? I didn’t know.

Charlene moved over and wrapped her arms around me tightly as she slipped under the blanket beside me.

“Goddess, this bed smells of him!” She yelped.

I couldn’t resist the smile that cross my lips as I rested my head on her shoulder.

“Well, he did sleep here for a bit.” I giggled.

“Wait, did you do the deed in here?!”

“No, relax! We’ve only done it once.”

We didn’t do much on this bed, and what we did do, she didn’t need to know.

“Once? On the night of the festival?”

I nodded.

“Yeah…”

seems rough if your neck is

you have actually kissed Theon!”

admitted, staring

least you can do is share the details. Wait! Wait… is he big?” She whispered, I blushed and nodded.

thinking we had actually only fucked once… For someone who wanted to

then.” She replied with a gentle smile, brushing my hair off

I couldn’t help but

stayed in bed, saying I wasn’t feeling too great. Ailema had delivered some food, but aside from that, I had decided to stay in my room. I just needed a little space, if Patrick and Valentin

sure there were no splinters from the wooden crates stuck in my arms. Charlene had spent most of the afternoon with me, but I had lied that I was feeling a little under the weather, and she had left me when night had come. Raiden had popped in earlier to ask how I was doing, but I hadn’t entertained him for long,

ship was lulling me to sleep when I heard

all traces of sleep vanishing, and I sat up sharply. My eyebrows furrowed when I saw it was none other

to entertain you.” I said, trying to

don’t.” Came his short reply.

want to be alone.” I

smelled like coffee he was holding on a

in my head. He placed the two mugs down

well. What’s wrong with you? You look perfectly

him

and a vagina. That’s all you care about.” I

you can show yourself

my arms, and to my irritation, he took hold of them, twisting my arms in front of him so he could get a look at the injuries. He

this time.I yanked free from his

commanded coldly,

that were such a beautiful shade, look

“No.”

frowning as he looked down at it, this one was worse. “Why

to care.” I whispered, pulling out of his hold. His eyes met mine, but I

excruciating, but I wanted him gone. I heard the door open and shut. I kicked the blanket off, rushing to

I go get it back, or is that what he

utter dismay, he was back, holding a small box. He shut and locked the door, slipping the key into his pocket, only making me even angrier. He placed the box on the bed, then without a word, grabbed me by my upper arm and tugged me towards the

me.” I hissed, feeling my

the box and took out one of the bottles. Pouring some of the disinfectant or whatever it

glancing up at me as if waiting for permission to

it hurts or not. Why be so gentle when you are rather brutal

I was clenching my jaw

 “Yileyna!”

grabbed my wrist, stopping me from doing further damage to my arm. A flicker of

You’ve done

so angry at him

said earlier-”

on a daily basis, Theon, and we both know that I’m stupid enough to still put up with you, but to insult me like that to someone else? That, I won’t tolerate. I may have agreed to give myself to you, but I have not agreed

flashed and

you’re in, there’s no turning back.” He tossed the gauze on the bed and stood up. “Think what you want,

a snap. I cradled my sore arm, trying my best to control my emotions.He tried to help me… He was cleaning my injuries…No,

know, deep down, he had his hot and cold moments, but I couldn’t deal with it. Not right

box he had brought in onto the floor, not caring as its contents spilt across the floor and I glared at it in anger. I hate you,

threw myself down on the bed, refusing to cry. I turned on my side, my eyes falling on the coffee that stood on

For us…

sense of the havoc of emotions inside

days, I avoided being alone with Theon like a wolf avoiding silver and wolfsbane. I stayed with Charlene when I could, or locked myself away in my room after having to ask Ailema for

but I asked Raiden or Ryan to accompany me to watch as well. Theon would make one of the men train with Charlene, but he too didn’t talk to

feel his intense gaze upon me, but I didn’t entertain him. However, even then,

one I was consumed with. I knew if he tried, the chances that he would break my walls once more were high, and so I didn’t even

his sea shanty, I refused. Mom said my voice was beautiful, and she always asked me

too precious to share with others. It wasn’t that I didn’t enjoy singing, but it reminded me of Mom, and I didn’t want Theon

cabin most of the time due to being in dangerous waters, apart from the occasional moments when she was allowed to come above deck or to train, she was kept inside, and I

more time trying to talk to Theon. He would reply, but by

the dark waters beneath us, it felt good to not have

brutal training at the hands of Theon. I did see what she meant, that sometimes he seemed to look at her with hatred. But

believe he was just venting

to cater to

corset around my waist and pants. I enjoyed the wind blowing through my hair, which Charlene

it captured my attention. I swear this may sound weird, but my hearing seemed to be getting better

advise it.”

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