53. Insecurity
YILEYNA
I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.
Alone.
I was alone.
My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.
Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…
No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!
I had to prove their innocence! I had to…
Goddess…
I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.
Focus.
Breathe…
What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?
‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.
I won’t cry.
I can’t.
But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.
It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.
left my lips, and I curled up, dropping onto my side. The memories of that night, the
Stop. Stop, Yileyna…
Think of something else…
have these odd abilities? How was it possible? The daughter of two
unknown terrified me and I wanted it all to just go away. The bedroom door opened, and I quickly tried to cover
to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess as if he had run his fingers through it
see the tears
“What happened?”
husky and low, but it was missing the coldness
weak, I hated him seeing me like this. “Nothing. Nothing happened.” I whispered, trying to pull free from his hold, but he refused to let me go, pulling
wrong, little storm?” He whispered, stroking
unable to control the sob that
back on the ground with me straddling him. My breasts were crushed against his chest, and his arms felt like a shield, protecting me from the world as he gently rocked me in his
sure he was comforting, but the emotions and concern that seemed to be in his eyes and touch… Maybe it was the alcohol in his system, but I didn’t care, I needed something to keep me tethered from drowning in my pain, and he was here for me. He rubbed my back, sending sparks of pleasure through me, burying his head in my neck. We remained like that for a while, his scent and touch giving me the strength I
“Talk to me, Yileyna.”
to him. I was tired of keeping it
pulling back so I could
eyes shadowed and
“I know…”
of them or both are not my blood,
my world.”
had only triggered these emotions within me, but
Instead, he reached up and cupped my neck, his thumbs brushing away my tears, only for more to fall in
being snatched from my grasp… I know you deserve to be Beta… But when it was taken away from me, I felt like
so vulnerable, but I wasn’t able to control these emotions. I was breaking and I needed to
my memories twisting within me. “I’m scared of losing everything I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes. I’m scared of losing
by acting so vulnerable and needy? I wasn’t sure, but I couldn’t keep it inside of me any longer. It hurt
to say but he took a deep breath, looking at me sharply, and I knew he had changed his mind. “They were traitors. Let the pain go.” I shook
parents, they would never do this.” I said desperately. How can he say
head up slightly. “You might regret
won’t, because I
reply,
Yileyna… Even when the world turns its back on you, I know you’ll be ok.” He said
“I will.”
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