53. Insecurity

YILEYNA

I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.

Alone.

I was alone.

My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.

Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…

No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!

I had to prove their innocence! I had to…

Goddess…

I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.

Focus.

Breathe…

What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?

‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.

I won’t cry.

I can’t.

But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.

It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.

I curled up, dropping onto my side. The memories of that night, the wolves… the bodies… the fire… they played before my eyes like

Stop. Stop, Yileyna…

Think of something else…

these odd abilities? How was it possible?

like them. The fear of the unknown terrified me and I wanted it all to just go away. The bedroom door opened, and I quickly tried to cover my face, hoping Theon thought

to see my tears, but he was stronger than me, taking hold of my arms and forcing me to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess

not wanting him to see the tears that

“What happened?”

husky and low, but it was missing the coldness

happened.” I whispered, trying to pull free from his hold, but he refused to let me go, pulling me upright and straight into his

wrong, little storm?” He whispered, stroking

the sob that

emotions. I locked my arms around his neck and he instantly pulled me closer, sitting back on the ground with me straddling

seemed to be in his eyes and touch… Maybe it was the alcohol in his system, but I didn’t care, I needed something to keep me tethered from drowning

“Talk to me, Yileyna.”

argued earlier, but I was ready to open up to him. I was tired of keeping it

back so I could look into those amber

and

“I know…”

if one of them or both are not my blood, they are still

were my world.” I said

revelation from earlier had only triggered these emotions within me, but I couldn’t

didn’t say anything. Instead, he reached up and cupped my neck, his thumbs brushing away my

Then I felt like everything was being snatched from my grasp… I know you deserve to be Beta… But when it was taken away from

to control these emotions. I was breaking and I

gripped his wrists, the pain of my memories twisting within me. “I’m scared of losing everything I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes. I’m scared of losing you. I love you. I

needy? I wasn’t sure, but I couldn’t keep it inside of me

going to say but he took a deep breath, looking at me sharply,

knew my parents, they would never do this.” I said desperately. How can he say

tilted my head up slightly. “You might regret what you

won’t, because I know

eyes met, and he didn’t reply, before

its back on you, I know you’ll be ok.” He said quietly, almost as if he was speaking to himself over

“I will.”

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