53. Insecurity
YILEYNA
I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.
Alone.
I was alone.
My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.
Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…
No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!
I had to prove their innocence! I had to…
Goddess…
I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.
Focus.
Breathe…
What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?
‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.
I won’t cry.
I can’t.
But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.
It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.
side. The memories of that night, the wolves… the bodies… the fire… they played before my eyes like a horror show on
Stop. Stop, Yileyna…
Think of something else…
odd abilities? How was it possible? The daughter of two werewolves having
wanted it all to just go away. The bedroom door opened, and I quickly tried to cover my face, hoping Theon thought
my arms and forcing me to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess as if he had run his fingers
to see the tears that
“What happened?”
but it was missing the
to pull free from his hold, but he refused to let me go, pulling me upright and straight into his arms. My breath hitched, I fought to control my emotions as
He whispered,
was unable to control the sob that left my
all control of my emotions. I locked my arms around his neck and he instantly pulled me closer, sitting back on the ground with me straddling him. My breasts were crushed against his chest, and his arms felt like a shield, protecting me from the world as he gently rocked me
to be in his eyes and touch… Maybe it was the alcohol in his system, but I didn’t care, I needed something to keep me tethered from drowning in my pain, and
“Talk to me, Yileyna.”
was ready to open up to him. I was tired of keeping it
pulling back so I could look into those amber eyes that
eyes shadowed and he
“I know…”
or both are not my
world.” I
knew the revelation from earlier had only triggered these emotions within me, but I couldn’t
reached up and cupped my neck, his
was taken away from me, I felt like the last part of Mom and Dad I had was taken from me too.” I couldn’t look into his
vulnerable, but I wasn’t able to control these emotions. I
pain of my memories twisting within me. “I’m scared of losing everything I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes. I’m scared of losing you. I love you. I didn’t
push him away by acting so vulnerable and needy? I wasn’t sure, but I couldn’t keep it inside of
to say but he took a deep breath, looking at me sharply, and I knew he had changed
parents, they would never do this.” I said desperately. How can he say that? He knew my
eyes sharp as he tilted my head up slightly. “You might regret what
won’t, because I know they were
reply, before
the world turns its back on you, I know you’ll be ok.” He said
“I will.”
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