53. Insecurity
YILEYNA
I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.
Alone.
I was alone.
My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.
Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…
No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!
I had to prove their innocence! I had to…
Goddess…
I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.
Focus.
Breathe…
What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?
‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.
I won’t cry.
I can’t.
But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.
It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.
dropping onto my side. The memories of that night,
Stop. Stop, Yileyna…
Think of something else…
abilities? How was it possible? The daughter of two werewolves
look like them. The fear of the unknown terrified me and I wanted it all to just go away.
was stronger than me, taking hold of my arms and forcing me to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess as if he had run his fingers through it repeatedly,
wanting him to see the tears that were
“What happened?”
was husky and low, but it was missing the coldness it usually held,
hated him seeing me like this. “Nothing. Nothing happened.” I whispered, trying to pull free from his hold, but he refused to let me go, pulling me upright and straight into his arms. My breath hitched, I fought to control my emotions as he held
He whispered,
unable to control the sob that
all control of my emotions. I locked my arms around his neck and he instantly pulled me closer, sitting back on the
to keep me tethered from drowning in my pain, and he was here for me. He rubbed my back, sending
“Talk to me, Yileyna.”
earlier, but I was ready to open up to him. I was tired of keeping it inside. But I couldn’t talk about them when they
pulling back so I could look into those
shadowed and he looked
“I know…”
them or both
were my world.”
only triggered these emotions within me, but
and cupped my neck, his thumbs brushing away my tears, only
like everything was being snatched from my grasp… I know you deserve to be Beta… But when it was taken away from
control these emotions. I
“I’m scared of losing everything I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes. I’m scared of losing you. I love you. I didn’t need to say it because
vulnerable and needy? I wasn’t sure, but I couldn’t keep it inside of me
wasn’t sure what he was going to say but he took a deep breath, looking at me sharply, and I knew he had changed
this. I knew my parents, they would never do this.” I said desperately. How can
his eyes sharp as he tilted my head up slightly. “You might
won’t, because I know
he didn’t reply,
ok.” He said quietly, almost
“I will.”
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