53. Insecurity
YILEYNA
I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.
Alone.
I was alone.
My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.
Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…
No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!
I had to prove their innocence! I had to…
Goddess…
I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.
Focus.
Breathe…
What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?
‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.
I won’t cry.
I can’t.
But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.
It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.
onto my side. The memories of that night, the wolves… the bodies… the fire… they played before my eyes like a
Stop. Stop, Yileyna…
Think of something else…
abilities? How was it possible? The
I wanted it all to just go away. The bedroom door opened, and I quickly tried to cover my face, hoping Theon
taking hold of my arms and forcing me to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess as if he had
to see the tears that were streaming down
“What happened?”
was husky and low, but it was missing the coldness it usually held,
from his hold, but he refused to let me go, pulling me upright
wrong, little storm?” He whispered, stroking
was unable to control the sob
the ground with me straddling him. My breasts were crushed against his chest, and his arms felt like a shield, protecting
comforting, but the emotions and concern that seemed to be in his eyes and touch… Maybe it was the alcohol in his system, but I didn’t care, I needed something to keep me tethered from drowning in my pain, and he was here for me. He rubbed my back, sending sparks of pleasure through me, burying his head in my neck.
“Talk to me, Yileyna.”
know we argued earlier, but I was ready to open up to him. I was tired of keeping it inside. But I couldn’t talk about them
them.” I whispered, pulling back so I could look
eyes shadowed and he looked
“I know…”
don’t care if one of them or both are not
my world.” I
had only triggered these emotions within me, but I
reached up and cupped my neck, his thumbs brushing away
everything was being snatched from my grasp… I know you deserve to be Beta… But when it was taken away from me, I felt like the last part of Mom and Dad
so vulnerable, but I wasn’t able to control these emotions. I was breaking and I needed to tell
twisting within me. “I’m scared of losing everything I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes.
I wasn’t sure, but I
sure what he was going to say but he took a deep breath, looking at me sharply, and I
traitors. Something or someone did this. I knew my parents, they would never do this.” I said desperately. How can he say that? He knew my father! “And I’m going to find
frowned; his eyes sharp as he tilted my head up slightly. “You might regret what you find out.” He said
I know they
eyes met, and he didn’t reply, before clenching
said quietly, almost as if he was speaking
“I will.”
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