53. Insecurity

YILEYNA

I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.

Alone.

I was alone.

My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.

Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…

No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!

I had to prove their innocence! I had to…

Goddess…

I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.

Focus.

Breathe…

What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?

‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.

I won’t cry.

I can’t.

But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.

It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.

sob left my lips, and I curled up, dropping onto my side. The memories of that night, the wolves… the bodies… the fire… they played before my eyes

Stop. Stop, Yileyna…

Think of something else…

was it possible? The daughter of

look like them. The fear of the unknown terrified me and I wanted it all to just go away. The bedroom door opened, and

to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess as if he had run his fingers through it repeatedly, and the distinct

not wanting him to see the tears that were streaming down my

“What happened?”

but it was missing the coldness it usually held, almost

me like this. “Nothing. Nothing happened.” I whispered, trying to pull free from his hold, but he refused to let me go, pulling me

storm?” He

was unable to control the

back on the ground with me straddling

concern that seemed to be in his eyes and touch… Maybe it was the alcohol in his system, but I didn’t care, I needed something to keep me tethered from drowning in my pain, and he was here for me. He rubbed my

“Talk to me, Yileyna.”

was

whispered, pulling back so I could look into those amber eyes that

and

“I know…”

I don’t care if one of them or both are not

were my world.” I said

from earlier had only triggered these emotions within me, but I couldn’t

Instead, he reached up and cupped my neck, his thumbs brushing away my tears, only for more to fall

deserve to be Beta… But when it was taken away from me, I felt like the last part of

vulnerable, but I wasn’t able to control these emotions.

memories twisting within me. “I’m scared of losing everything I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes. I’m

away by acting so vulnerable and needy? I wasn’t sure, but I couldn’t keep it inside of me any longer. It hurt so

to say but he took a deep breath, looking at me sharply, and I knew he had changed his mind. “They were traitors. Let the pain

this. I knew my parents, they would never do this.”

his eyes sharp as he tilted my head up slightly. “You might

I know they

reply, before clenching his jaw and

back on you, I know you’ll be ok.” He said quietly, almost as if he was speaking to himself over me.

“I will.”

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