53. Insecurity
YILEYNA
I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.
Alone.
I was alone.
My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.
Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…
No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!
I had to prove their innocence! I had to…
Goddess…
I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.
Focus.
Breathe…
What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?
‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.
I won’t cry.
I can’t.
But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.
It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.
my side. The memories of that night, the wolves… the bodies… the fire… they played
Stop. Stop, Yileyna…
Think of something else…
these odd abilities? How was it possible? The daughter
and I wanted it all to just go
and forcing me to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess as if he
wanting him to see the tears that were streaming
“What happened?”
but it was missing the coldness it usually held,
from his hold, but he refused to let me go, pulling
storm?” He
unable to control the sob
on the ground with me straddling him. My breasts were crushed against his
it was the alcohol in his system, but I didn’t care, I needed something to keep me tethered from drowning in my pain, and he was here for me. He rubbed my back, sending sparks of pleasure through me, burying his head in my neck. We remained like
“Talk to me, Yileyna.”
to him. I was tired of keeping it inside. But
I whispered, pulling back so I could look into those amber eyes that I loved
eyes shadowed and
“I know…”
of them or both are not my blood, they are still my
world.”
revelation from earlier had only triggered these emotions within
up and cupped my neck, his thumbs brushing away my tears, only for
know you deserve to be Beta… But when it was taken away from me, I felt like the last part of Mom and Dad I had was taken
able to control these
of my memories twisting within me. “I’m scared of losing everything I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes. I’m scared of losing you.
away by acting so vulnerable and needy? I wasn’t sure, but I couldn’t keep
looking at me sharply, and I knew he had changed his mind. “They were traitors. Let the pain
were framed. My parents are not traitors. Something or someone did this. I knew my parents, they would never do this.” I said desperately. How can he say that? He knew my father! “And
his eyes sharp as he tilted my head up slightly. “You might regret what you find out.”
I won’t, because I know they
reply,
its back on you, I know you’ll be ok.” He said quietly, almost as if he was speaking to himself
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