53. Insecurity
YILEYNA
I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.
Alone.
I was alone.
My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.
Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…
No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!
I had to prove their innocence! I had to…
Goddess…
I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.
Focus.
Breathe…
What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?
‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.
I won’t cry.
I can’t.
But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.
It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.
lips, and I curled up, dropping onto my side. The memories of that night,
Stop. Stop, Yileyna…
Think of something else…
How was it
look like them. The fear of the unknown terrified me and I wanted it all to just go away. The bedroom door opened, and I quickly tried to cover my face, hoping
my arms and forcing me to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess as if he had run his fingers through
wanting him to see the tears that were streaming down
“What happened?”
it was missing
I whispered, trying to pull free from his hold, but he refused to let me go, pulling me upright and straight into his arms.
He whispered, stroking
unable to control the
would lose all control of my emotions. I locked my arms around his neck and he instantly pulled me closer, sitting back on the ground with me straddling him. My breasts were crushed against his chest,
from drowning in my pain, and he was here for me. He rubbed my
“Talk to me, Yileyna.”
know we argued earlier, but I was ready to open up to him. I was tired of
pulling back so I could look into those amber eyes that I loved so
eyes shadowed and
“I know…”
care… I don’t care if one of them or both are not my blood,
were my world.” I
triggered these emotions within
cupped my neck, his
I felt like everything was being snatched from my grasp… I know you deserve to be Beta… But when it was taken away
able to control these emotions. I was breaking and I needed to tell
of losing everything I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes. I’m scared of losing you. I love you. I didn’t need to say it
by acting so vulnerable and needy? I wasn’t sure, but
parents…” I wasn’t sure what he was going to say but he took a deep breath, looking at me sharply,
Something or someone did this. I knew my parents, they would never do this.” I
eyes sharp as he tilted my head up slightly.
won’t, because I
and he didn’t reply, before clenching
Yileyna… Even when the world turns its back on you, I know you’ll be ok.” He said quietly, almost
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