53. Insecurity
YILEYNA
I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.
Alone.
I was alone.
My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.
Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…
No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!
I had to prove their innocence! I had to…
Goddess…
I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.
Focus.
Breathe…
What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?
‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.
I won’t cry.
I can’t.
But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.
It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.
dropping onto my side. The memories of that night, the
Stop. Stop, Yileyna…
Think of something else…
did I have these odd abilities? How was it possible? The daughter of
I wanted it all to just go away. The bedroom door opened, and
forcing me to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess as if he had run his fingers through it repeatedly, and the distinct smell of
wanting him to see
“What happened?”
but it was missing the coldness it usually held,
his hold, but he refused to let me go, pulling me upright and straight into his arms. My breath hitched, I fought to control my
wrong, little storm?” He whispered, stroking
the sob
I locked my arms around his neck and he instantly pulled me closer, sitting back on the ground with me straddling him. My breasts were crushed against
seemed to be in his eyes and touch… Maybe it was the alcohol in his system, but I didn’t care, I needed something to keep me tethered from drowning in my pain, and he was here for me. He rubbed my
“Talk to me, Yileyna.”
to him. I was tired of keeping it inside. But I couldn’t talk about them when they were branded
could look into those
shadowed and he
“I know…”
if one of them or both are not my blood, they
world.” I said
earlier had only triggered these emotions within me, but I couldn’t stop
cupped my neck, his thumbs brushing away my tears, only for more to
was being snatched from my grasp… I know you deserve to be Beta… But when it was taken away from me, I felt like the last
to control these emotions. I was
twisting within me. “I’m scared of losing everything I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes. I’m scared of losing you. I love you. I didn’t need to say it because I
wasn’t sure, but I couldn’t keep it inside of me any longer. It hurt so
me sharply, and I knew
do this.” I said desperately. How can he say that? He
sharp as he tilted my head up slightly. “You might regret what you find out.” He
I won’t, because I
he didn’t reply, before
Yileyna… Even when the world turns its back on you, I know you’ll be ok.” He said quietly, almost as if he was speaking
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