53. Insecurity
YILEYNA
I awoke with a start, jolting upright in bed. I scanned the room frantically.
Alone.
I was alone.
My heart was pounding, and once again, the nightmare of the night my parents were killed was replaying in my mind. I ran my trembling hand through my hair, closing my eyes as the emotions that I tried to control hit me full force.
Focus Yileyna, it’s ok. It’s going to be ok…
No, it wasn’t ok… They died saving me and were marked as traitors. They were not traitors!
I had to prove their innocence! I had to…
Goddess…
I wrapped my arms around my legs, burying my head in my knees.
Focus.
Breathe…
What time was it? Where was Theon? Was he still not back?
‘They’re dead.’ Theon’s words from that night rang in my head, I felt the crushing agony in my chest break its restraint and hit me brutally. It was my fault. They died because of me.
I won’t cry.
I can’t.
But I was unable to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks as I pressed a fist against my chest, trying to control the pain that threatened to drown me.
It was my fault. They died because I was out there… Dad came to protect me.
up, dropping onto my side. The memories of that night, the wolves… the bodies… the fire… they played before my eyes
Stop. Stop, Yileyna…
Think of something else…
I have these odd abilities? How was it possible? The daughter of
look like them. The fear of the unknown terrified me and I wanted it all to just go away. The bedroom door opened, and I quickly tried to cover my face, hoping
to turn away, not wanting him to see my tears, but he was stronger than me, taking hold of my arms and forcing me to turn towards him. A frown creased his brow, his shirt was hanging open, his hair was a mess as
wanting him to see the tears that were streaming down my
“What happened?”
was missing the coldness it usually held, almost sounding
weak, I hated him seeing me like this. “Nothing. Nothing happened.” I whispered, trying to pull free from his hold, but he refused to let
storm?” He whispered, stroking my
unable to control the
me closer, sitting back on the ground with me
keep me tethered from drowning in my pain, and he
“Talk to me, Yileyna.”
to open up to him. I was tired of keeping it inside. But I couldn’t talk about them when they
miss them.” I whispered, pulling back so I could look into those amber
shadowed and
“I know…”
one of them or both are not my
my world.”
from earlier had only triggered these emotions within
but didn’t say anything. Instead, he reached up and cupped my neck, his thumbs brushing away my tears, only for more to fall in their
being snatched from my grasp… I know you deserve to be Beta… But when it was taken away from me, I felt like the last part of Mom
wasn’t able to control these
I love…” I said quietly, looking up into his shimmering eyes. I’m scared of losing you. I love you. I didn’t need
by acting so vulnerable and needy? I wasn’t sure, but I couldn’t keep
wasn’t sure what he was going to say but he took a deep breath, looking at me sharply, and I knew he had changed his
my parents, they would never do this.” I said desperately. How can he say that? He knew my father!
his eyes sharp as he tilted my head up slightly. “You might regret what you find
I know they were
he didn’t reply, before clenching his jaw and
ok.” He said quietly, almost as
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