My Secret, My Bully, My Mates

Chapter 0148

A single tear escaped. Deep down I know they all care and this is punishing everyone, but I can 't back down, I need to get out of here and the soone

the better. I la-low I am not weak or useless, but that little voice in the back of my head that sounds suspiciously like Kaley likes to tell me otherwise. I

just feel the absolute need to prove myself and my worth. No amount of words from them will make me believe I am good enough until I do.

I finally conceded and went to the door and grabbed the food he brought up after I was completely sure he and everyone else was out of my house. I

eat slowly, not hungry, but I am tired of hearing how small I am from too much training and not eating enough. I leave the empty dishes outside my

door, to show him I took the offering and appreciate the gesture.

After the most fitful sleep, I got up groggily and dressed half asleep. I was so tired I forgot to use the window and headed to my patrol spot out the

front door. It shocked me for a minute when I bumped into a solid mass as I was walking down the sidewalk lost in my thoughts.

Cam cleared his throat and let go of me as quickly as he grabbed me. He tried for a smile, but it didn't

for patrol." I just nodded my head and looked away. I couldn't take the

"Uh, nevermind. Okay, I'll see you at school later. Training isn't going to be the same without you, you

agree." I gave him a small smile, but couldn't look him in the eye. "I'll see you later."

thought. I hurry faster

run I took in the different shades of greens and browns of the forest and the earthy smell that always calms my

everyone checks in before their patrol starts, a full ten minutes before Gamma Brett did, which

school my emotions.

get here before us." He smiles at me and I

us? "1100k at

yesterday and had to reorganize some of the groups. We figured

and Marnie is behind him looking worse for wear. Her hair is in

put it on in a hurry and maybe in the dark The

you want to wear out in the woods like this, unless you want