My Secret, My Bully, My Mates

"She's not wrong."

"What do you mean? I ask questions all the time. I think I annoy people with how many questions I ask."

"Those are training questions or school questions. This is a boy question, otherwise you would have brought everyone in and gotten opinions." My jaw drops open. "Stop derailing the conversation and ask your question." She claps and jumps up on the bed motioning Jena to follow.

I start by telling them both what Ava and Lucas told me in the hospital about the witch, Adrielle, the deal and the vision with their 'daughter' and that they thought it might mean the boys' mate instead and that they thought I might be their mate. I told them how I felt when I found out about my dad and Elena and that the twins and Oliver came for me. Then I told them about my ramblings at the clearing and that I think I am in love with all three of them.

that mean for Oliver? He and I have even talked about being close, but not being mates.' I am looking between the two of them and

you, but he is super helpful and actually really nice. He spends most of his time staring at you

Elena called them all my 'guardians.' I sleep better when all three of them are close, their scents calm me down and the three of them clearly help me heal. That's all mate stuff, but I don't feel the romantic mate stuff. I mean Oliver has kissed me twice now and it was clearly enough to break me out of a trance and start a fight and I don't think

you do end up with three mates, your brain

for a little while longer and I reiterated that Oliver's was my first kiss and I was already nervous about the s*x stuff with one mate and the possibility of two, but three scares the sh*t out of me. My friends, being the amazing people they are, spend more time than necessary talking about positions and technique. Then they started to speculate positions and techniques for the four of us. They are clearly on the

out and ran to jump in the shower. As we were walking down stairs to grab some food before we head out I'm nervous to be around the guys. What do I do? What do I say? I don't know if I know how to act around them. I still can't feel any