My Secret, My Bully, My Mates

It does not take any time for me to fall asleep. I think I might have been out before my head hit the pillow, but for the first time in a really long time, I had no dreams. Zero. I always slept better when I was with the guys and now I know it's because more than half of them were my mates. But, this is different. I am aware that I'm asleep and not dreaming, but I don't seem able to wake myself up or move. I wonder if I am recovering? Do mates normally have s*x for hours and hours on end when they first mate? I guess if Xander and Oscar are any indicator, they could barely keep their hands off each other. When they finally found Mina, they stopped pretending all together.

I can't talk to my wolf, but maybe I can't do that when I'm sleeping either. Who knows. I'm done trying to figure me out.

"I don't have long, Sweet Girl. I can already feel her trying to push past your barriers."

"Huh? Who are you, random voice in my head?" There is nothing to see or look at, but the voice is melodic and safe. I guess I can only go with it right now.

"You know you are in danger. She wants you just as bad as he does. Use that against them. They both think they are the one in control, but neither of them can gain what they want without the other."

"Is there any possible way that I could get a straight answer about something...anything, that is going on right now? I am so lost and confused and it actually sucks. I know people want to kill me or sacrifice me or both maybe and I kind of understand that dimented thinking, but what could I be doing to protect the people around me from getting hurt in the process? How do I keep everyone safe? Am I strong enough to survive what is coming for me?"

"You were born for this. You are coming into your powers now. Many of which you have already started to unlock. I am so proud of you. I'm sorry it has not been an easy journey, but you would not be the warrior and Alpha that's needed without your struggles and strength to overcome them."

"We don't need to talk about that, because if you made any of that happen on purpose, I am done here. I get that my training and experiences led me here and all of that fluffy sh*t, but no one deserves to be purposely put through the things I went through. I can't wish my past away, but I don't want to hear 'it was for my own good,' or 'it made you stronger.'

"I did not orchestrate the bad situations, but I did influence the reactions and lack of actions towards your situations. I am sorry, but I needed to know if you were worthy."

disembodied voice and f*ck right the f*ck

pups as I can and you are the only way." "Are you going to tell me how to win in this war that we have

won't need to explain anything, you will know what to do when the time comes. For now, your mates are getting worried and they need to see that you are alright. I will speak to you

going on?" That question is

thank the Goddess! I don't think l could have taken another

to roll over, but I am being held in place

head and can see Cam seated in a chair next to the bed. I appear to be in the center, with Oliver wrapped around me like a twist tie. "You were fine the first day and we just let you sleep, taking turns to stay

out in a sweat and had the kind of fever that made your whole body turn red." Dakota continues the story. “We even carried you to the bath and dunked your body in an

so you

does that even

me and I notice my muscles still don't want to work right. He

that your body started to glow, but from under your skin. Gentry said it was probably whatever enhancements you were supposed to get when you mated. So we waited and worried. You did

three of us all collapsed and when we came to, there were some differences."