My Secret, My Bully, My Mates

It does not take any time for me to fall asleep. I think I might have been out before my head hit the pillow, but for the first time in a really long time, I had no dreams. Zero. I always slept better when I was with the guys and now I know it's because more than half of them were my mates. But, this is different. I am aware that I'm asleep and not dreaming, but I don't seem able to wake myself up or move. I wonder if I am recovering? Do mates normally have s*x for hours and hours on end when they first mate? I guess if Xander and Oscar are any indicator, they could barely keep their hands off each other. When they finally found Mina, they stopped pretending all together.

I can't talk to my wolf, but maybe I can't do that when I'm sleeping either. Who knows. I'm done trying to figure me out.

"I don't have long, Sweet Girl. I can already feel her trying to push past your barriers."

"Huh? Who are you, random voice in my head?" There is nothing to see or look at, but the voice is melodic and safe. I guess I can only go with it right now.

"You know you are in danger. She wants you just as bad as he does. Use that against them. They both think they are the one in control, but neither of them can gain what they want without the other."

"Is there any possible way that I could get a straight answer about something...anything, that is going on right now? I am so lost and confused and it actually sucks. I know people want to kill me or sacrifice me or both maybe and I kind of understand that dimented thinking, but what could I be doing to protect the people around me from getting hurt in the process? How do I keep everyone safe? Am I strong enough to survive what is coming for me?"

"You were born for this. You are coming into your powers now. Many of which you have already started to unlock. I am so proud of you. I'm sorry it has not been an easy journey, but you would not be the warrior and Alpha that's needed without your struggles and strength to overcome them."

"We don't need to talk about that, because if you made any of that happen on purpose, I am done here. I get that my training and experiences led me here and all of that fluffy sh*t, but no one deserves to be purposely put through the things I went through. I can't wish my past away, but I don't want to hear 'it was for my own good,' or 'it made you stronger.'

"I did not orchestrate the bad situations, but I did influence the reactions and lack of actions towards your situations. I am sorry, but I needed to know if you were worthy."

You can take your disembodied

might be more harsh towards me, but do know that my intentions have always been good. I want to save as many of my innocent pups as I can and you are the only way." "Are you going to tell me how to win in this war that we have been flying blind in for years. Or do

explain anything, you will know what to do when the time comes. For

in the hell is going on?" That question is gravely as it comes out of my

thank the Goddess! I don't think l could have

try to roll over, but I am being held in place

Love." I tilt my head and can see Cam seated in a chair next to the bed. I appear to be in the

day you broke out in a sweat and had the kind of fever that made your whole body turn red." Dakota continues the story. “We even carried you to the bath and dunked your body in an ice bath, you didn't move a muscle. We only knew you were okay because your breathing never changed."

so you decided to turn into a glowstick." Oliver grumbles into

that

notice my muscles still don't want to work

you were supposed to get

us all collapsed