Not Your Mate Anymore

I walked out of my room, heading for the stairs when our house helper, Carol stopped in front of me. Carol had been our cook and cleaner since before I was born. She even helped raise my dad.

Carol was my father's Ralyn. She was an honest and caring lady but disrespect her and feel a mothers wrath.

"Good morning little moon. I'm so happy to see you out of bed” Carol said as she grabbed my hand.

"Morning Aunt Carol. I had to get up at some point right? You can thank Josie and mom for that.” I only responded to her because I was raised it is polite to do so. I had no energy to make conversation but its Auntie Carol.

"I found this in your mother's study while I was cleaning in there today. Wear it, it will give you the strength it gave her when this pack didn't recognize her as Christopher's mate. It was a gift from your father.” Carol put a golden cross with an infinity symbol in my hand. It was simple yet beautiful.

In that moment, I remembered my mothers words and hugged Carol. My mother might be gone but her ghost sure knows when to show up I thought

to myself.

"Thank you Carol. Three generations of females in this family, the pack giving us problems. Only this time I am a full blooded wolf and still they take my mate from me." I say trying hold back the tears.

I chuckle nervously looking anywhere but at Aunt Carol and when my eyes land on her she looks at me with pity.

"Not you too Auntie. Don't give me that look. I don't need you looking at me like that. I can't stand it.” I cracked. A single tear drop escaped from eye.

"I'm sorry little moon. I've just been around to see your grandmother get the ill treatment and then your mother. It breaks my heart seeing it happen to you when our alpha often said how happy he was that you were mated to his son." Carol said.

"If we keep talking about this, I'll burst and we don't want Josey to kill you for ruining my face now. Let me get this over with. Can you help me with this?” I handed her the necklace to put around my hair as I lifted my hair.

"There. Now you look just like her.” Carol said with a twinkle in her eye as she wiped the stray tear from my face.

"She was a very beautiful woman that Kimberly”

"Thank you Aunt Carol. It is beautiful” I gave her one last hug.

"All your bags are packed and loaded into the car. I hope you use the time to find the strength your mother found even when she was in pain. She is after all your mother, you should take after her.” Carol pointed out.

"I will. See you soon Auntie. I will send pictures” I hold her hand again and kiss her cheek. "Bye old moon" I giggled because I haven't called her that in ages. That was what I called her when she called me little moon. It only made sense. I shake my head laughing as I descend the stairs sniffing the air for my mates scent. I followed it all the way to my dad's office. I knocked 3 times signaling to my dad my arrival in case he didn't catch my scent which is impossible but it's happened once.

"Come in Sabrina’ my dad calls out in his ‘all business tone’.

I take one final deep breath, roll my shoulders and then I walk in. First I notice Josey sitting on our kiddie couch to my left and Cj standing next to her. Straight ahead I see my father sitting in his chair and mom standing next to him rubbing his arm in circles. It must be hard for him with me locking myself up in my room and my mate looking just peachy. No weight loss, not an eye bag in sight. My mate, to my right, his eyes turning dark when they reached my chest. Men.

The alpha seated right across the table from my dad. He turned around to give me a smile, I didn't return it. I had no intention to exchange sweet words and forced smiles with my betrayers. I was here out of respect for my dad.

"Alpha Charley, Percy.” I give them each a nod in their direction as I make my way to greet my father and kiss him on the cheek.

"You look beautiful Sab.” Percy said as if questioning himself, still giving me the once over again.

"Yes Sabrina. You look like you're going somewhere. " the alpha said sending a glare to his son.

I chose to ignore Percy. I would ignore him because if I didn't tears will fall and I will not cry in front of him. I won't show him what he's doing to my heart.

"Yes Alpha Charley. I'm visiting my grandfather for a few weeks, maybe months. Would be nice to go get some fresh air, away from here." I say..

Percy's scent was driving Athena mad and she kept trying to take control and mark Percy in our human skin but we couldn't show them that. I was also fighting the urge to fall to my knees and cry in front of Percy. I looked at my father pleading him to let me go as my eyes flicked colors showing him my internal battle.

"I did not know about this but I think it is an excellent idea. It will allow you the time to fight the bond while Percy spends time with his chosen mate.” Alpha Charley said.

A growl came from Percy's side and we all looked at him but he was looking at me. His eyes looked glassy and for a minute maybe even a second I thought he felt a fraction of what I was feeling. He closed his eyes and when he opened them he had a calm manner to him.

"I agree with father. I can't have my wolf fighting me on this. See Sabrina, my wolf recognizes you as his mate but I don't. I think it's best you allow my wolf the time to get to know Ralyn without your scent lingering around.” Percy spat out.

My brother and father growled. Loud gasps from my sister and Remi were heard too. I think something was even dropped right outside my father's office door. I can't blame them really. If I wasn't me, I'd also want to be a fly in the wall of my dad's office . I knew then if my heart wasn't broken, it broke right there. On the floor for all of them to see. Shattered. Stepped on. Crushed to even tinier pieces. This is that subtle rejection. His human side rejecting me.

My face kept a calm tone. Void of any emotion just as my dad trained me when facing an enemy, not to show that I was in pain. I used that training

now because I needed to. Percy was not going to embarrass me in front of my father, my mom and my siblings. He will not win. I straightened my posture and cleared my throat because I knew if I didn't do that they'd be able to hear the crack in my voice. I didn't trust myself not to break down.

"That makes sense.." I said. “I will be gone for some time, giving you the much needed time to bond with your chosen mate. I will be back for your ceremony and I expect you to reject me before then, which I will gladly accept.’ I said looking at Percy who looked alarmed like he wasn't expecting me to say that.

sure you understand that I need him to reject me so I won't feel it when he consummates their union with his chosen mate. I have done no wrong to this pack to receive such treatment and if he could reject me now even.." looking back at Percy, "Wouldn't it be so much easier to bond with Ralyn without your wolf turning on you?" I said to Percy with a stern look on my

if Percy rejects you, his wolf will turn on him regardless.” Alpha said to

wolf sees me as his mate, what makes you think he will gladly mark his chosen

not sit back and have my wolf go mad, see she's a problem and right now she wants blood. If it has to be Percy's, it very well could be and that is why I'm going away.’

being unable to even put a scratch on him.

this union between Percy and Ralyn is for the good of the pack. Ralyn is of alpha blood, if she mates with Percy, they will have strong pups and we need that. You are

the first time since the pack meeting I laughed. Everybody was looking at me like I grew a second head but I didn't care. My mate was doing his daddy's bidding. It all makes sense now. What a spineless tooth of a ballsack. This is who the moon paired

law. It is how we are all raised. It is drilled into us to live for

will do well to remember your place pup. You are in the

scared for my safety. If anything, they should stand so I don't rip this alpha to

a few breaths. Once calm, I opened them and

first.” I say nonchalantly. I turn around to look at Josey, "We need to leave if we are to make it to human territory to catch the train. Stay well

get into the car to

aren't you having warriors escort you to your grandfather's?”

hurt me. What do you want

with the rogue situation. I need you to

mating with Ralyn?” I ask with

or he will wage war on our lands. My father won't risk pack lives for us. I won't ask the pack to fight for me either when I can keep them safe. He has a 1000 warriors Sab. We are only 500 with 300 warriors. People will die. I can't ask that of them.

We knew we were more powerful than our mate but we had no idea we were mated

even rogues know mates are sacred. It a gift even rogues accept wholeheartedly.

brother throws his hands in the air looking at my mate in shock. “Is

your words, I can very well pick

don't have another beta family in this pack. Something's fishy here and it has Ralyn written

to have her father

I shared a look. I looked at Remi who also looked

he looked ashamed? Was

never...” Percy said grabbing my hand in his large ones.

that promise until my father asked this of me. You must know the pack will always come first.” Percy said as I pulled my hand from his. I knew Percy was no virgin. He had slept with a few girls before we found

greener grass it snows. She'll understand.” See, Ralyn knew I was a white wolf.

shift at 13 and she

a plan to get to that side. Now since my wolf is white as

488. "Oh and Percy?" I call out to him as I close my door and roll down my window, “out of my way’ I roll up my window revving my car. Looking at Josey who was playing Rihanna's needed me, I turned it up and sped off our driveway. The need to be far away from Percy was so strong that I almost forgot my plan before we passed the pack border. I

don't tell me you're having second thoughts” Josey said panic evident in her

I'm leaving, I just want to make it for good.’ I say as I get Out of my car. Josey's eyes bulge out still trying to register what i said and before she could stop me,

my new position as a rogue from this moment on.” When I felt a headache come on and go away just like that, I knew it was my dad and he was

I was having none of it. I will not sit idly by and watch my mate marry another.

with Ralyn, yes I'd feel it but it's better when I'm far away so I don't go hunting

phone kept ringing and I knew it was Percy because he had not accepted my rejection because I would've felt the pain in my chest. Athena felt powerful, she was ready to take

need to answer it. He's only worried about you.”

know.... I just can't talk about Percy right now. I'm on a power trip and I'm enjoying this high for now. I want to enjoy this moment because I know it will be short lived.” I say

and this time i decide to answer by putting it on speaker

had a crush on Max forever. She's a confident girl but in front of Max? A complete klutz. She is clumsy and flimsy and all the sy's you

call me Kim, says it makes him feel special that

mother.

stench that's probably taking over your scent right now. I'd be happy to, always said you could be my luna...” I roll my eyes at that. "Pass by my pack before you go to lakeside. My warriors know you're coming.” He drops the line before

he was your mate? He is hotter than Percy..." Josey said while I kept throwing glares at her still trying to keep

look at Max when we get there? Just really look at him. Also try to sniff the air when he's around women. You'll understand. Even I get aroused by the

now! I can't believe what I'm hearing.” I say in

heard Percy sneak in to

never got intimate. Never even kissed actually and now I'll never get to taste my mate. I'll never get to smell like him and feel his pups move inside me...” I whisper but Josey heard me as

took a little detour but I'm bringing us back to Max! Max Sabrina. He's hot and you'd be stupid not to get some of that! If you don't want him then tell him so he can give us a chance. Sheesh I'm no prude, I welcome some dirty action. Here here daddy Max..” we

sore from sitting for so long so I decided to make a pit stop to fuel up and stretch my legs. Josey ran into the shops to get some snacks while I waited outside just walking around

group of men, about 6 of them walked out of the bar opposite the gas station and they had that stench of

healing capabilities made sure of that and that's why when we drink, we take

488 engine. My goodess.” The guy in the middle said then

the taking. You have no scent babydoll, are you recently banished? Haven't had the time to relish in your

in a bored tone. I really don't have the

me show you what this old man can do. Who knows, maybe the moon will bless us with