Not Your Mate Anymore

I walked out of my room, heading for the stairs when our house helper, Carol stopped in front of me. Carol had been our cook and cleaner since before I was born. She even helped raise my dad.

Carol was my father's Ralyn. She was an honest and caring lady but disrespect her and feel a mothers wrath.

"Good morning little moon. I'm so happy to see you out of bed” Carol said as she grabbed my hand.

"Morning Aunt Carol. I had to get up at some point right? You can thank Josie and mom for that.” I only responded to her because I was raised it is polite to do so. I had no energy to make conversation but its Auntie Carol.

"I found this in your mother's study while I was cleaning in there today. Wear it, it will give you the strength it gave her when this pack didn't recognize her as Christopher's mate. It was a gift from your father.” Carol put a golden cross with an infinity symbol in my hand. It was simple yet beautiful.

In that moment, I remembered my mothers words and hugged Carol. My mother might be gone but her ghost sure knows when to show up I thought

to myself.

"Thank you Carol. Three generations of females in this family, the pack giving us problems. Only this time I am a full blooded wolf and still they take my mate from me." I say trying hold back the tears.

I chuckle nervously looking anywhere but at Aunt Carol and when my eyes land on her she looks at me with pity.

"Not you too Auntie. Don't give me that look. I don't need you looking at me like that. I can't stand it.” I cracked. A single tear drop escaped from eye.

"I'm sorry little moon. I've just been around to see your grandmother get the ill treatment and then your mother. It breaks my heart seeing it happen to you when our alpha often said how happy he was that you were mated to his son." Carol said.

"If we keep talking about this, I'll burst and we don't want Josey to kill you for ruining my face now. Let me get this over with. Can you help me with this?” I handed her the necklace to put around my hair as I lifted my hair.

"There. Now you look just like her.” Carol said with a twinkle in her eye as she wiped the stray tear from my face.

"She was a very beautiful woman that Kimberly”

"Thank you Aunt Carol. It is beautiful” I gave her one last hug.

"All your bags are packed and loaded into the car. I hope you use the time to find the strength your mother found even when she was in pain. She is after all your mother, you should take after her.” Carol pointed out.

"I will. See you soon Auntie. I will send pictures” I hold her hand again and kiss her cheek. "Bye old moon" I giggled because I haven't called her that in ages. That was what I called her when she called me little moon. It only made sense. I shake my head laughing as I descend the stairs sniffing the air for my mates scent. I followed it all the way to my dad's office. I knocked 3 times signaling to my dad my arrival in case he didn't catch my scent which is impossible but it's happened once.

"Come in Sabrina’ my dad calls out in his ‘all business tone’.

I take one final deep breath, roll my shoulders and then I walk in. First I notice Josey sitting on our kiddie couch to my left and Cj standing next to her. Straight ahead I see my father sitting in his chair and mom standing next to him rubbing his arm in circles. It must be hard for him with me locking myself up in my room and my mate looking just peachy. No weight loss, not an eye bag in sight. My mate, to my right, his eyes turning dark when they reached my chest. Men.

The alpha seated right across the table from my dad. He turned around to give me a smile, I didn't return it. I had no intention to exchange sweet words and forced smiles with my betrayers. I was here out of respect for my dad.

"Alpha Charley, Percy.” I give them each a nod in their direction as I make my way to greet my father and kiss him on the cheek.

"You look beautiful Sab.” Percy said as if questioning himself, still giving me the once over again.

"Yes Sabrina. You look like you're going somewhere. " the alpha said sending a glare to his son.

I chose to ignore Percy. I would ignore him because if I didn't tears will fall and I will not cry in front of him. I won't show him what he's doing to my heart.

"Yes Alpha Charley. I'm visiting my grandfather for a few weeks, maybe months. Would be nice to go get some fresh air, away from here." I say..

Percy's scent was driving Athena mad and she kept trying to take control and mark Percy in our human skin but we couldn't show them that. I was also fighting the urge to fall to my knees and cry in front of Percy. I looked at my father pleading him to let me go as my eyes flicked colors showing him my internal battle.

"I did not know about this but I think it is an excellent idea. It will allow you the time to fight the bond while Percy spends time with his chosen mate.” Alpha Charley said.

A growl came from Percy's side and we all looked at him but he was looking at me. His eyes looked glassy and for a minute maybe even a second I thought he felt a fraction of what I was feeling. He closed his eyes and when he opened them he had a calm manner to him.

"I agree with father. I can't have my wolf fighting me on this. See Sabrina, my wolf recognizes you as his mate but I don't. I think it's best you allow my wolf the time to get to know Ralyn without your scent lingering around.” Percy spat out.

My brother and father growled. Loud gasps from my sister and Remi were heard too. I think something was even dropped right outside my father's office door. I can't blame them really. If I wasn't me, I'd also want to be a fly in the wall of my dad's office . I knew then if my heart wasn't broken, it broke right there. On the floor for all of them to see. Shattered. Stepped on. Crushed to even tinier pieces. This is that subtle rejection. His human side rejecting me.

My face kept a calm tone. Void of any emotion just as my dad trained me when facing an enemy, not to show that I was in pain. I used that training

now because I needed to. Percy was not going to embarrass me in front of my father, my mom and my siblings. He will not win. I straightened my posture and cleared my throat because I knew if I didn't do that they'd be able to hear the crack in my voice. I didn't trust myself not to break down.

"That makes sense.." I said. “I will be gone for some time, giving you the much needed time to bond with your chosen mate. I will be back for your ceremony and I expect you to reject me before then, which I will gladly accept.’ I said looking at Percy who looked alarmed like he wasn't expecting me to say that.

Charley, I'm sure you understand that I need him to reject me so I won't feel it when he consummates their union with his chosen mate. I have done no wrong to this pack to receive such treatment and if he could reject me

wolf will turn on him

wolf won't even mark her if he doesn't reject me. You are all aware they need to be in wolf form to complete the mating. If his wolf sees me as his mate, what makes you think he will gladly mark his chosen mate over

you are being bias as he is your son? I will not sit back and have my wolf go mad, see she's a problem and right now she wants blood. If it has to be Percy's, it very well could be

me being unable to even put a scratch on him. I send a smirk

is for the good of the pack. Ralyn is of alpha blood, if she mates with Percy, they

I didn't care. My mate was doing

to live for our mates..” I said, a little irritation

will do well to remember your place pup. You are in the

safety. If

closed my eyes and took in a few breaths. Once calm, I opened them

Josey, "We need to leave if we are to make it

into the

having warriors escort you

do you want Percy?" I ask in

idea to be with Ralyn. You see, it was the only way to deal with the rogue situation. I need you to believe me please.”

have to do with you mating with Ralyn?” I ask with my eyebrow raised. Oh this ought to

wage war on our lands. My father won't risk pack lives for us. I won't ask the pack to fight for me either when I can keep them safe. He has a 1000 warriors Sab. We are only 500 with 300 warriors. People will die. I can't ask that of them. Please understand.”

furious. We knew we were more powerful than our mate but we had no idea we were mated to a coward. What we lack in numbers, we make up in reinforcements. We have the skills to fight the war, the weapons to disable them.

rogues know mates are sacred. It a gift even rogues accept wholeheartedly. The only law

My brother throws his hands in the air looking at my mate in shock. “Is that your excuse? Have you no

still a beta in training. Watch your words, I can very well pick someone else to take your

another beta family in this pack. Something's fishy here and it has Ralyn written all over it.

to have her father wage war on us” Cj said standing tall with his chest out to

a look. I looked

he looked ashamed? Was

just pack gossip. I did no such thing! Sabrina you have to believe me, I would never...” Percy said grabbing my hand in his large ones. He takes

Percy said as I pulled my hand from his. I knew Percy was no virgin. He had slept with a few girls before we found out we were mates. Maybe one of them

Ralyn, even on greener grass it snows. She'll understand.” See, Ralyn knew I was a

seen my shift at 13 and

how the grass is always greener on the other side and how she had a plan to get to that side. Now since my wolf is white as snow...

and Percy?" I call out to him as I close my door and roll down my window, “out of my way’ I roll up my window revving my car. Looking at Josey who was playing Rihanna's needed me, I turned it up and sped off our driveway. The need to be far away from Percy was so strong that I almost forgot my plan before we passed the pack border. I came to a halt

you're having

still trying to register

the Blue Woods pack and severe all ties relating to the pack. I accept my new position as a rogue from this moment on.” When I felt a headache come on and

was ordering us to return this instant but I was having none of it. I will not sit idly by and watch my

sleep with Ralyn,

uneasy. My phone kept ringing and I knew it was Percy because he had

calling you Sab. You need to answer it. He's only worried

I'm on a power trip and I'm enjoying this high for now. I want to enjoy this moment because I know it will be short lived.” I say to Josey who

phone rings again and this time i decide to answer

confident girl but in front of Max? A complete

call me Kim, says it makes him feel special

mother.

that's probably taking over your scent right now. I'd be happy to, always said you could be my luna...” I roll my eyes at that. "Pass by my pack before you go

Percy..." Josey said while I kept throwing glares at

mean obviously you don't see it with the mate bond and all but please just take a look at Max when we get there? Just really look at him. Also try to sniff the air when he's around women. You'll understand. Even I get aroused by the sight

Trent, you get your mind out of the gutter right now! I can't believe

I know you get wet dreams about Percy Schumrcey.. I've also heard Percy sneak in to the house to see you.

still intact, we never got intimate. Never even kissed actually and now I'll never get to taste my mate. I'll never get to smell like him and feel his pups move inside me...” I whisper but

tell him so he can give us a chance. Sheesh I'm no prude, I welcome some dirty action. Here here daddy Max..” we laugh. We laughed so hard I forgot about what I even said before then. I looked at Josey while she was sleeping and thanked the moon and my parents for her. This 15 year old put her life on hold so she could hold my hand. Comfort me. Cry with me and

stop to fuel up and stretch my legs. Josey ran into the shops to get some snacks while I waited

group of men, about 6 of them walked out of the bar opposite the gas station and they had that stench of a rogue mixed with

Our healing capabilities made sure of that and

488 engine. My goodess.” The guy in the middle said then

have no scent babydoll, are you recently banished? Haven't had the time to relish in your freedom? I can show

man. Keep it moving’ i say in a bored tone. I really don't have the energy to deal with these assholes

Who knows, maybe the moon will bless us with rain