Not Your Mate Anymore

"Everything is great! Max is amazing. He's just been busy with pack work right now." I say to Josey and her mates through Facetime.

It was all lies. Max wasn't busy with anything. Max has been the exact opposite of amazing.

I have been pretending with everyone in my family. Not one of them knew what was going on. They had no idea what I was going through. That under all the heavy make up was an under fed, unloved Sabrina who was left to fend for herself for 5 whole months.

"Keep safe Sabrina! See you next month for the sip and see.." Josey says to me. We exchange 'I love yous' and then the line goes dead.

I repeat the same thing with my dad and Cj before I go take a shower to remove all this make up.

I have not seen Max in months and everyone had moved out of this pack house to live in the newly built one. Everyone except for me. Max moved out and made it clear I was to stay here as nobody wanted to live with a traitor who had almost half the pack's men slaughtered.

Yes. My fears have manifested. They all blamed me for new uncles behavior. It was all his doing. Turns out, he had the same mind controlling power as me. He got to the warriors and finally to Max. I did not have my nana or mama's guidance on how to reverse it. I tried so hard but nothing. Nana has gone missing and now new uncle too. After creating all of this mess, he ran off. The moon goddess was silent too, go figure! I should've known she only makes herself known if she wants something in return. Besides, she told me to kill him and my stupid morals got in the way

Like I said, I was all alone.

Tristan was the only one new uncle didn't get to as he was away and only came back after. I explained the whole situation to him and he's been making sure I'm okay and he takes me to human territory for my pregnancy check ups as the pack doctor refused to see me. He's all I have left in this pack. Uncle Deacon was with my dad helping Cj with his alpha duties so I couldn't exactly tell Uncle Deacon of Max's behavior without alerting my family.

Max has taken a new girl. They make love every night and if it wasn't for my strength and healing powers, the baby wouldn't have survived. Athena has gone off to the back of my mind and I don't blame her. He took a new Luna and marked her. We are all linked now and she makes it a point to share her thoughts with me. I can see her memories.

Memories of her with Max making love. Memories of her and Max running in their wolves. Memories of Max feeding her as she sits on his lap in the new dining hall. Memories of her with my man.

The man I loved.

I cried every night. You'd think I'd run out of tears but every night my pillowcase would be soaked as I endure yet another night of pain thanks to their non stop shagging. I was alone in this. Yes I had Tristan but he had his own life. He also had his duties to the new Luna who kept him busy enough not to spend too much time with me. By the time he gets to me, he's so exhausted, I just let him sleep it off.

Today, I decided to go for a run.

I decided not to link Tristan as there was yet another pack meeting and I was not invited. I took that time to put on my gym gear and go out for a run. I ran around the house and into the woods for that much needed fresh air. Athena needed it since we couldn't shift. She took comfort in knowing that since Max chose a new mate, it hasn't rained. Which meant that they weren't blessed with child and I always remind her of how Cj was born.

The goddess can do no wrong in Athena's eyes.

I ran to clear my head. Clear my head of worrying about Percy who was exiled from the pack and I had to watch from the window in my room as Max smiled up at me.

Percy surviving as a rogue? 

Unlikely.

I just hope my grandfather received my message in time to help set him up in human territory. He hurt me but I'm a forgiving person. Everyone deserves a second chance at life.

I ran because even though I couldn't train, it was imperative that I stay fit so I'm prepared for anything. Max can decide to banish me too and I needed to stay strong so I can protect my son.

I thought of running away? Yes.

chose someone else, I couldn't bring myself to run. I wanted to face my demons this time. I stopped by the lake that leads to my grandfather's house and sat down to catch my breath. It was too hot so I decided to strip and swim a bit in the lake. I swam for what felt like hours until I decided I needed to get

to swim towards the house when I got tired and decided to float while I caught my breath. One of the

happy to have someone help me

we made it to shore, I felt that shooting pain again. They were having sex again. This time, New Luna let me see what she was experiencing and that threw me over

My mate.

I gave my heart

mended my heart and promised to

me as I promised to protect

was putting me through exactly what Percy

be this way. To be evil and hate me but deep down I knew that it was all

where I was. Thankfully, he was home and he rushed to my aid. He carried me to the

a healthy baby boy, even though he was a month early. I still couldn't reach Max to let him know about the birth of his first born son and his new Luna

going on Sabrina?" My

but I knew what he meant. Max wasn't here. I had lost weight and I didn't look

stern look and I caved.

because they wouldn't bring me food in the house I was staying in all alone. How I had slept in the woods from exhaustion after my hunt. How nobody came looking for me when I was sleeping outside in the cold.  I told him that's when it dawned on me that I was alone in this. Max didn't care but being the fool that I am, I never lost hope in the mate bond. Clearly I haven't learnt anything from

of that all this time? I'm so sorry we were so caught up

yet again with another mate. Not until I can break the mind control

eventually push him towards you. He's doing this all on his own." My grandfather said. He looked upset. He sat by my side as that revelation sinked

came in not long after to ask my grandfather to give me space so I can rest my body. He left and said he would get the family here as soon as possible ignoring my protest at alerting them of my situation. The lactation nurse came in, helped with the release of my breastmilk and

in the moment. Watching my baby boy, I brought this little pup in to the world, that I didn't catch his

beat at seeing how good he looked. He wasn't

throat as if knowing what I was thinking. Making sure he had

moment, you are banished from Green Forrest Pack. You are never to set foot in it ever again. I reject you as my Luna and chosen mate. I reject that demon child. Goodbye Kimberley." He said to me. Before he could

heartbreaking of it all, I saw that he wasn't manipulated to take a new mate. He wasn't manipulated to leave me. The resentment towards

let go of his

man that wants nothing to do with me to stay by my side. My grandfather was right. The mate bond would've snapped him out of mind control and deep down I knew that. This

Again!

enough to find the words." I said to him. He didn't respond. He just

is the last time you see this face." I say and he blushed

stormed out of the room

Goddess Why me?

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mentioned Max or his pack. I was grateful grandfather told them the news because I don't think I'd be able to tell them without breaking down. I was already drained and all cried out. I've tried and tried numerous times to heal the mark on my

got home,

the next room to mine. They turned the other room

walked in to my room. Surprised? Most definitely. He wasn't brainwashed but he is Max's father so I don't know. I just thought he'd stand

and I'll be gone." He said. I

him, a tear drop

my son but I promise to fix it. You know I don't blame you for what transpired right? You are just a kid!

made it clear where him and I stand. I'm not going to stick around like a lost puppy. This time I will take that rejection and move on without holding on to hope. Last time, I chose to leave when Percy broke my heart but I still carried a torch for him. This time, I was kicked

life. At least allow me to be a part of it."

I say to him as I let him hold my

be honest I was struggling to name him. This was the boy they said would be king but look at the circumstances he's brought into. Hated before he can even defend himself from his own father. A mother that failed at giving him a home