Not Your Mate Anymore

Two weeks have gone by since my heat started. Did I get my relief? Most definitely. 

Xander took special care of me. He listened to my body and knew just what it needed as if he'd been through this before. He was gentle when I needed him to be and rough when I asked for it. He imprinted on me and that's how he knew what I needed. 

Once my heat ended, I stayed a few days with him because of the imprint. His wolf was very possessive and would not let me leave. Did we continue to make love? Have sex? Fuck? 

No hour went wasted. 

Am I dying of guilt? Totally.

I'm guilty for neglecting my son for so long over an imprint. I was fully able to leave Max when I had his mark. 

I'm guilty for enjoying it. I enjoyed it even after my heat. Xander was different. He definitely was not Max.

His sex was totally different. For an 18 year old, he sure knew his way around a females body. Max was great but he was supposed to be as he was my first but now after tasting Xander, I'm not so sure if he was my best. 

I've been locked in my apartment for days now. Xander keeps coming to check on me but I asked him to give me space. This was all too quick for me. I have a newborn I need to raise. I'm not trying to draw attention to myself so Max won't find me. Being around Xander frees me in a way where I could risk it all and I have to think about my son more than anything. 

Maybe after some time, I'll try it out with him. Whatever it is that we are doing. 

Right now, the plan was to work on me. Being a mother first. That is my priority. My situation isn't ideal but I will make the most of it because my son deserves better from his parents. I will give him the world, whatever the cost. He will have a good upbringing and I will never neglect him again, especially for a man. 

The claw marks had faded, thank the goddess but I could still feel a slight longing for Xander. It was faint but still there. 

Am I pregnant? Thank the goddess not! I would've died. It didn't rain but I also paid the kind doctor a visit so I can rule out a CJ surprise. I could not handle another kid. 

Tomorrow I was going to face Xander. Tell him I am not with child, although I think the doctor probably beat me to it. I will tell him where I stand with him and hope he understands. 

from the outside, they'd legit call me a social climber. Alpha

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felt alive again. Felt like herself.

the imprint was able to break the soul tie between me and Max. If it did then Max will know that I found

had to find a seer to find out what an imprint can do. How extensive the damage

to do with the imprint than his seed trying to impregnate me. I mean I've showered enough times and the first day I was able to

myself of his scent. I

can really depress myself. I cleaned my apartment as if Dorothy doesn't do enough. She'd come in the morning to find the house smelling like chemicals but

go to school, pay attention in class and go straight home right after. I would avoid Xander and more so now because all the girls wanted to

he could feel the longing like I could. If that was the case then his wolf really pulled a number on us. I thought an imprint

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Xander's POV 

was avoiding me completely and I thought it would be okay to give her some

I wanted her.

every damn day I'm

changed me. I was a mess for her and yet I knew

get hard for any

and this doesn't feel the same but I'm wholeheartedly in to Sabrina and I just hope she feels something for me

days or weeks. I'll give her months or maybe even a year to heal but after that, I was going to win her heart. A woman so

know my father would want me to mate with someone from the pack but because my father is greedy, if he finds out about her power, he will arrange the wedding himself but I can't have him find out now. I had to let her heal, let her fall in love with me as I fell hard when she was in my arms.

attractive trait no other woman in my pack can compete with and I made that clear on the first day of training. I fell for the

knowledge on pack life was amazing and I'd learnt so much

If I was going to love her, I'll love her child.

is I've been sneaking visits with Dorothy so I can get to know the little guy. I will take care of the both of them from a distance until I feel like it is time to make my feelings known. Until then, I will take no female. I will work on being a better alpha for my mate to be. I will give her the happiness she deserves and I will never let her feel the heartbreak she felt from

won't ever hurt her feelings but I will spend most of my life making her happy. Starting with tjr surprises I have in

get some guys to pull it off. It will take a few months to pull all of them off but it will be worth it. I know