Once Upon Series

“No, sweetheart, that’s not what I’m saying. I am telling you that I was not a perfect mother. Katie, I have made thousands of mistakes, literally, and continue to do so. You don’t know how many times I have cried until my head ached or prayed that my son would thrive with the worst mother alive. I’m saying that if you choose to keep this baby, you will feel these same feelings and more. I am saying that even though it will be the hardest thing you may ever do, it’s worth it. I wouldn’t go back and change a thing. I love being a mother, and I think you would be an incredible mother. You just need to decide if that is what is right for you, at this point in your life. But no matter what you choose, I know that you have two young men in there that will support you one hundred percent. Not every young mother has that.”

Katie wiped at her eyes. “I worry that I’m ruining their lives. They shouldn’t have to take care of me.”

Mrs. A smiled, “I have seen so much growth out of both Liam and Cole. Don’t worry about them, Katie. If they didn’t want to be there, they wouldn’t. They love you, and so do I.”

“Thanks, Mrs. A,” Katie said softly. “I think I am going to go outside for a little bit.”

“Oh honey, I didn’t mean to upset you.”

Katie nodded. “I know, I just need some air.”

Katie knew that Mrs. A was looking on with concern as she crossed the house and went into the backyard. After closing the sliding glass door, Katie blew out the breath she had been holding. Tears began to slip down her face, and she knew that she needed to get away from the house.

Mrs. A wasn’t the only one bringing up adoption. Her therapist Dr. Franklin had also been advocating for that choice, not to mention the school counselor. Much of what they said about adoption made sense to Katie.

Yes, the baby would likely have opportunities that she couldn’t give it. She was young, inexperienced, and until recently not very trustworthy.

Katie closed her eyes as she thought about the drinking and partying, and even sometimes drugs. Images flashed through her mind. Things that she wished she could unsee, or better yet undo.

When her parents were alive things were different. She had friends. She got good grades, and even managed to stay on the honor roll. But after their unexpected deaths, everything was too much. She felt too hard, needed a release from the pain that wouldn’t stop no matter how hard she tried.

That’s what started the drinking. She would slip downstairs while Liam was asleep and break into their parent’s liquor cabinet. It wasn’t like they were going to use it. At least that’s what she had told herself.

Then when Liam found out, she began to lie about it. He must have remembered wrong, she’d snap angrily. Then the waterworks came, followed by a screaming match and would eventually wear her out and she would promise never ever to get into it again.

But it did happen again, and again.

started soon after that. There it was completely acceptable to drink your worries away. Hell, it was encouraged. If your drink was close to being

escape. Her first time had been terrible, nothing that she wanted to

yard where Mrs. A’s fence met her

her heart was breaking, but she wouldn’t fall back into those old habits, she couldn’t. Dr. Franklin had been

What hurt the most was that she wasn’t trying to

you okay?”

if she had conjured him up with

keep her face averted. She knew that she wasn’t a pretty crier. Cole

“Um, we didn’t have any tissues. I

a basketball. Katie couldn’t help the laugh that

elbow and Katie

was surprised her was how serious he looked. A moment of panic gripped her. Was he trying to find a way to let her down easy?

last night,”

deal,” she interjected. “Don’t worry about it.”

looking

“Yeah, don’t worry about it.”

he started again.

Katie couldn’t hear him say it. The last thing she wanted from Cole was pity. It would literally shatter her. She couldn’t take it.

it ruin

looked pained. “I don’t either.”

“Can we just not talk about it?” she

words. It was a big deal to her. He meant everything to her. As much as she wanted to say this and so much more, Katie remained silent.

suddenly she felt a sharp thump

exclaimed. “Are you alright?”

her belly. “Yeah, I think the baby just moved.”