Pregnant And Rejected

Chapter 7 Bastien is Drunk

10 Days Until the Rejection Ceremony

Selene’s POV

The spinning blades of the ceiling fan whirl over my head, their swift revolutions mesmerize my senses, distracting me from all the unwelcome thoughts in my head.

Today is my three year anniversary, but instead of champagne and gifts, I lay alone in my bed while my husband is out doing Goddess knows what. I’ve been staring at the ceiling for the better part of an hour, and I don’t plan on going anywhere anytime soon.

When I lost Luna, I thought I’d lost the ability to love. I imagined that nothing could ever come close to the pain of her death, that my heart was incapable of feeling any deep emotions without her.

I wasn’t entirely wrong; I do feel things less intensely than I did before. But if I’d known there was an emotion so powerful that it could destroy me even when I can’t feel it completely, I would never have married Bastien.

My husband is going to reject me in ten days, and I can’t even be angry with him. Bastien sacrificed three years of his life for me; he put off his own dreams, his own happiness, to care for me. He doesn’t owe me anything, and to ask him to stay married to me when he doesn’t want to would be incredibly selfish.

It’s Bastien’s turn to start a new chapter, and as painful as it is to contemplate, I have to let him. I owe him that and so much more; it’s not his fault he doesn’t love me.

I’m still lying there when my phone rings.

Bastien’s name flashes across the screen, and I pause a moment before answering. There’s no reason to broadcast my desperation. “Hello?”

I do not hear my husband’s voice on the other end of the line. Instead a woman’s high, tinkling laugh filters through the receiver. “Oh Bastien you’re too much!”

I don’t recognize the voice, “Hello?” I try again, the call sounds very muffled. A pocket-dial perhaps?

“Bella, would you behave for once?” I know that voice only too well.

“Only if you make me.” I can practically hear her eyelashes batting through the phone. Some of the static fades, her voice suddenly sounding very clear. “Mmm,” She moans, “You remember just how I like it.”

I stab my finger into the ‘end call’ button, cutting off the exchange before the nausea rising in my throat can overwhelm me.

Arabella Winters has returned to Elysium, and Bastien is spending our anniversary with her instead of me. The she wolf disappeared after my mating ceremony, traveling around to other packs in search of adventure or a new beginning. But whatever Arabella had been looking for, she clearly hadn’t found. Perhaps because she already knew where it was, but it was simply out of reach.

Well, it won’t be out of reach for much longer.

As disgusted as I am by the phone call, I know I don’t really have a right to be angry with Bastien. Our marriage has always been one of convenience, and I don’t want to get in the way of his happiness. I wish he would wait until we are officially separated, but he’s given me everything. The least I can do is return the favor.

I don’t want to be an anchor chaining Bastien to the past when he deserves to forge his own future, but that’s exactly what I will become if I tell him about the baby.

He can’t know, not ever.

After the rejection ceremony I’ll take some time to get my affairs in order, and then I’ll leave. I’ll take a page out of Arabella’s book and search for a new beginning with a new pack. In some ways it’s freeing. The last time I started over I didn’t get to choose my path. I love Bastien, but even the most successful arranged marriage will always be tainted by its forced beginning.

Besides, I have a lot to look forward to as well. After all, I will be taking a piece of Bastien with me. I will have my baby; someone who I can love unconditionally and who will love me in return.

I slide my palm to my belly, resting it over the most precious secret I’ve ever held. I imagine this is how my mother must have felt when my father died the similarities between our journeys do not escape me, but I’m determined not to continue on her path.

My mother was running for her life when she left the Calypso pack, she didn’t have any resources or plans, she was in such dire straits she could not turn down an offer for help, no matter from whom it came. That will not be my story.

will be taking everything I possess with me, everything I need to start fresh. I will not need to indebt myself to a man in order

an hour later my phone rings again. This time it’s Aiden and I answer immediately; Bastien’s Beta

“Aiden?”

to call you like this, but we have a bit of a situation: Bastien is plastered and apparently determined to give himself

“Where are you?”

Garou,” Aiden shouts over the deafening background

my way.” I know the bar, though I’ve never been inside. I’ve gotten used to being

the undoubtedly unpleasant scene awaiting me. Some anniversary this is. It’s so late there’s not any traffic, so

the neon bar sign and imposing doorway with

must be a fire hazard. Second, Aiden is not Bastien’s only drinking buddy. Arabella stands close by his

from across the room, can read the barely concealed fury simmering closer and closer to its

enough his demons emerge to torment him. I’ve never known what happened in his past to inflict such agony, but

deeper into the malay. I would prefer to stay near an exit, I do not like the idea of not having a

appreciating how naturally it parts for me. Though no one bothers pretending they are not watching the unfolding

emotion in his eyes broadcasts his surprise once he does. My presence

as he closes the distance between us. If I didn’t know any better I’d think he’s scanning the

cage with his arms when he reaches me, wrapping his large body around

but I have to admit I feel infinitely calmer than I did a second ago. I’m also deeply relieved to find he is

into me for a long moment, “You could have called, I would have met you in

Bastien isn’t one for public scenes, and it occurs to me that he’s probably especially opposed to creating one in

responds instantly, “Of

but passed out. I circle around to the passenger seat

sound of my voice, blinking at me

bad wolf.” I tease,

eyes.

make good on the offer. “I meant your bed.” I finally answer,

potatoes, navigating to his bedroom and tossing me onto the bed. I yelp with surprise, then shiver with anticipation

Selene’s POV

Bastien with wide eyes, my heart racing in my chest, so loud I’m

I know I must be bright red. Lust, excitement and fear war for control of my body, swirling around each other in an intoxicating

the bed, leaning over my prone form and pinning my hands against the mattress on either side of my head. He swallows my startled gasp, his

tense as I was moments before, I immediately let go when Bastien takes control going soft and supple as he extracts kiss after kiss from my lips. I open myself to him, giving my body up for his conquest and letting him sweep me away from reality. I lose all sense of my surroundings, the ecstasy of

of times and made love to me in every way possible, but I’ve never felt such desperation to make us one. I am painfully aware that this kiss will be our

to brand his lips into my skin, I want to scorch the image of him, powerful and fierce above me, into my memory, I want to make it so I can

tongue assail me, melding pain and pleasure until I’m gasping and moaning in his arms. I arch my back, straining toward his body in a feverish attempt to find relief

give me the relief i need eventually, but it won’t be soon enough. Bastien knows my body better than his own, and he revels in taking me to the very limits of pleasure. He works me

with satisfaction. “Greedy little wolf.” He chuckles, dragging my lips from mine. He lays a trail of

to the soft spot behind my ear

know he’s laving the tender flesh where my neck meets my shoulder, tasting me. I can’t take it

my legs, fusing every inch of his body to mine. I writhe beneath

pulling back only far enough to meet my eyes. Flames engulf Bastien’s intense gaze, and I’m at a loss to determine whether he is sad or angry. “We were fated.” He declares, “We were mates but we never got

I freeze.

room. I push at Bastien’s shoulders until he rolls off me. There it is, the truth I’ve always known but he’s never spoken. Arabella is Bastien’s mate, and I took him from her. He sacrificed his destiny to

much, that I’m responsible for that tortured expression on his face I sit up slowly and glancing at Bastien over my shoulder. He’s laying on his back, looking at me with such pain and regret I feel sure he didn’t mean to reveal that secret. Or perhaps he