Chapter 37 Michelle
I barely know what is going on. My brain feels numb, and although things are happening, I’m too heavily medicated to understand what is going on around me. I remember being rushed to the hospital There was an ambulance, and then Maddox arguing with a doctor
Maddox yelled, “No, I’m not her husband, but I’m still the father of the unborn babies. I’m coming with you.” Yes, it’s coming back in bits and pieces…
Driving
Medication
A doctor asked me questions…
Oh!
My water broke, and there was something about one twin not growing normally inside me. I cried when the doctor said one of the babies had a higher survival rate than the other.
That’s it.
The rest is blurry. I wasn’t open enough and needed a c-section; now, I’m on painkillers. Right at this moment, the doctors are performing an emergency c-section, I think? Gosh, I should be sleeping, but I’m like half-awake. I hear monitors beeping and people talling. A smile fills my vision, the person is wearing a mask, but I see their eyes crinkling.
Definitely a smile. I decide that I like this person. Her voice is soothing when she speaks to me too. “Everything is going to be okay.” Somehow, I doubt her words, but I can’t respond. Everything turns into total darkness seconds later.
It’s like sleeping, but deeper, like I’m falling into a deep, deep hole from which my body tries climbing up but repeatedly fails. I sound crazy, but I can’t find a better way to describe it.
sort of vacuum. Pictures are coming
Maddox We are happy and smiling, enjoying the sun until Stephanie appears. Maddox releases my hand, then skitters off into the
Terrible drearn.
and staring into a pair of blue eyes — Maddox is here with me. But where are
my hospital bed. I
a terrible
this what dying feels
I manage words even though my
they both
NICU immediately, but don’t worry,” he squeezes my hand. “Everything will be alright. We will get
turns dark again. I’m in inner turmoil,
feels like I’ve been run over by a truck yet somehow miraculously survived
when I wake up the second time. Maddox is scrolling
“Michelle?” He tries.
eyes. My voice doesn’t sound like my own. It’s
body has been through hell. It
won’t recover,
in there.” I smile at him, for real this time. “I will.” Minutes later, I’m speaking to a
mom, but I like her strictness and the fact that she seems
not being ready. The news makes me cry because not being with my baby boys hurts me physically, but I know the NICU stay is what
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