Rejected Mate and Following Fate - Awakening Book

“Hey beautiful, how was your morning?” Colton slides up behind me and wraps his arms around my shoulder, kissing me on the back of the head before nuzzling in close and calming all my anxious energy with one touch. My grounding force that enables me to set my worries free and I almost melt into a warm puddle of soft limbs. It’s in these reunion moments I realize how badly I miss him all day when we aren’t together.

“Interesting. Carmen sought me out, long story, but I sent your mom to go visit with Tawna a while. She’s not doing so good and we thought it might help. I haven’t had much else to do today except eat, wander the village, be lavished with a ton of gifts I get every time they see me and felt the need to have a nap. I’m so tired today and I have no idea why.” I curl my arms over his and sink back, nestling my head in the crook of his throat and sigh heavily, closing my eyes as I submerge into my own personal heavenly space. Colton’s familiar seductive masculine scent and hot body temperature overpowers my skin and air and further pushes that feeling of being cocooned in paradise.

“Stress, maybe. Carmen, huh… and yet she still lives? Maybe you’re sick” He jests, pulling a hand up to cover my forehead in mock testing that I have a fever and I elbow jab him in the abs lightly.

“Ha, ha! I felt sorry for her…. She seems different.” I state blankly, so not ready to open the can of worms known as my emotions after my encounter with her earlier. I am not one hundred percent certain I even know how I feel about her being here at all.

“I wouldn’t know. I’ve avoided her like the plague since they arrived. I’ve been busy and I just don’t know how to navigate that mess. I’m being a coward.” He exhales against my temple and impulsively slides one of his hands over my breast for a quick grope and then heads for my waist to snuggle in tight. My body tingles at his touch and it ignites that never fading libido that exists between us.

“Stop avoiding her. She’s one of the pack! …. She’s not a threat. I won’t get mad at you for interacting with her because I know it has to happen sooner or later. I don’t think her focus lies with us anymore anyway, and she seems lost somehow. I got the impression that you and I are way low on her list of things to fuck up.” Sometimes I can’t fault my mate’s loyalty, and I know the only reason he’s avoiding her is in case it upsets me. He’s transparent as glass sometimes.

I trust him, trust our bond and I know he harbors no kind of romantic feelings for her anymore so really, logically, I shouldn’t have any kind of jealousy over her. She needs an alpha who cares, she needs to feel she belongs with these people and if Colton showing her a little kindness does that, then I am okay with it, I guess. I mean, I may feel weird at first but I’m sure as it happens more frequently I might normalize it and no longer care. I don’t doubt where his heart lies; he’s shown me for the last six months how much he loves me, and I have absolutely nothing to worry about in terms of his ex being on scene again. He’s mine, he always will be. Our bond is the strongest thing in this world. Just look at Sierra…. even when you don’t want it, it still doesn’t die.

“Well, you’ve certainly let it sink in since this morning, haven’t you? I won’t avoid her; I just think it’s better to not spend too much time around her. It’s only been a few months and I don’t want you feeling insecure or her getting any kind of wrong signals.” Colton nuzzles my neck expertly and my knees weaken with his attentions as he surrounds me with sexy affection in a bid to make the topic less tense.

“What’s her story anyway. I always took her for spoiled and conceited, but I don’t know… she seems so vulnerable now. It’s like I am seeing a different girl and I wonder if maybe it was always there, and I never noticed it before.” I push my butt into his groin to let him know his kisses down my neck are good, better than, and he slides my dress across my shoulder a little to access more skin, tracing his lips over my nape and across the skin gently. He sets me on fire, and I close my eyes and have to fight the moan deep in my throat as I surrender to tingles and goosebumps all over.

“Carmen has always been hard to read and figure out…. An enigma in a way. Her dad mated up for opportunity and not love which I guess started the whole mess of her family. Her mom isn’t exactly one of the strongest of femmes, or capable, but her bloodline is one of the oldest and the pairing put him in my father’s sights. Marco wanted a son, Tawna gave him a girl, and they have been a fractured dysfunctional family since. I know from things my father has said that he doesn’t put any effort into his own family; he feels they weigh him down and make him look bad.”

“Hmmm” I half answer, too focused on his breath trailing by my ear and my hair stands on end as he grazes his lip over the lobe.

“Carmen doesn’t really gel with others because of who her dad is; she was always just this kid in the shadows who tried so hard to be seen and accepted, but the pack avoided. Everyone knows he’s my dad’s beta so there was a fear of getting near her and I guess over the years she developed this tough hard outer shell like she didn’t really care. That she was better than everyone and she looked down on all of us. The attitude, the stroppy behavior, all of it to hide the fact she really hasn’t got anyone, but she’s not really a bad person, not when you get to know her more. She’s lonely and insecure and she keeps everyone at arm’s length.” Colton carries on, both with his words and his gentle assault on my senses, his hands skimming my waist and abdomen and he manages to somehow hug me even closer.

“She needs a friend, maybe? Someone to get through and really see her?” I try to stay on topic but he’s making it hard.

“I dated her for two years and I didn’t ever get past the mask, but I guess I was the closest other than her mom. I saw glimpses but no one gets in, I doubt they ever will.”

What he says makes my heart ache and instantly sobers my sizzling hormones as I think about the reality of her existence. I was like her once. Alone, keeping people out, and looking back, it was that saddest part of my life.

“I feel bad the way it went, how it ended and that I hurt her and walked away from it all. I think being your dad’s biggest disappointment in life has to have left its mark and I never gave a second thought to walking off with my new pack and leaving her behind. My focus was on you, I didn’t think what her staying would be like. I guess I didn’t think that without me and the subs, she was back to being alone.” Colton’s tone matches my newly found internal heaviness and he stops his slow tease and just hugs me tightly instead. His arms coming around my lower rib cage and his face is snuggled against my neck and shoulder.

“Did you ever think about marking her? Two years is a long time to be paired up without marking.” I ask curiously, not because I want to torture myself or anything, but I always wondered what held him back and thinking about it now, I want to know. It’s normal in a pairing for the male to make the move and ask to mate up, femmes don’t tend to do it or have a say until they are asked. Such is the old-world nature of our pairings. A world where men still rule, and females submit. He obviously cared about her, but yet he never made a move to mate with her properly.

“Honestly, as bad as this sounds… no. I couldn’t put my finger on it, but it felt like I was holding my breath, and something inside told me it wasn’t the right time. I didn’t realize it was my gut telling me it was the wrong femme, I just thought I wasn’t ready to be tied down. That we were young and immature, and I had so many more responsibilities. Looking back, I cared about her a lot, but I don’t think I loved her. I just didn’t know it until you and felt this way. With you, the need to mark you was a constant craving inside of me from the second we bonded.”

“Shame you took so long.” I sass him, lightening the mood a little and try to ignore the pangs of green-eyed monster when my man admits to caring for another femme in that way. I’m so stupid with this but I get my cute boy frown with full on dimples and a half smile in response as he brings his face up to mine from the side, to lock eyes. It helps ease my ruffled feelings.

“Baby, the best things come to those who wait.” He smirks at my mock outrage and bops his nose on the tip of mine.

“Never heard of ‘you lose, you snooze’…. You were almost eternally mateless, buddy.” I prod him in the arm getting a tight rib squeeze and a kiss to my nose for good measure.

“Never! I would have searched for you until the end of time. I wasn’t losing you, even if it took me years to find you. That….I was certain of.” Colton turns me in his arms, so I end up pressed frontally to his sexy physique and he leans in to kiss me properly. His lips grazing mine sensually as his hands find their way under my hair and he pulls me in for a full on make out session with tongues and lots of toe-curling mouth orgasms. I always loved that Colton’s kiss had the ability to turn me to putty in his hands and ignite every sensation, tingle and goosebump my skin is capable of. It’s his magical way of soothing whatever mood I have brewing and clears my rain of stress and worry almost instantly.

“We should get back to doing our job” I point out when he lets me loose and rubs his nose against mine. The intimacy between us is my favorite thing in the world, a bubble of content where I can inhale everything that’s him and my world feels whole. Sadly though, real life has responsibilities, duties and we are not even close to dinner yet.

“Or…. We could go upstairs and take a nap……. The energetic kind.” he winks, husky with his words and I eyeroll impulsively.

off, liking the fact that he hauls me straight back to him, always so eager to keep us joined by touch. Colton never likes to stray apart for long, the need to be beside me, hold me, overwhelms him and I guess it’s the same for me. Imprinting gives you this insane need to be together every second or else it doesn’t feel right. When we are close, or in the

the vampy in you, all seductive and dazzling with your special gifts and you make me want

respond drily. He makes this Vamp joke often enough. In the grimoires in the halls under the homestead we found a whole lot about vampires dazzling humans with a need to have sex with them. While under their spell the vamps could feed not only their urge for blood without humans resisting, but their sensual natures ad their craving to screw everyone. Vampires are apparently as horny as wolves and it explains why hybrids like mine exist. “You know, we have to go eat with your mom. It’s the highlight of her day that we take our meals with her. And I’m not going to her rooms looking like you just mauled me… again.” I attempt

found heaven and haven’t come back down from the clouds yet. I like how you look after sex… it’s my

forty-five minutes and I might pass out at any moment. I hate your mom knowing what we have been doing. So, No! Dinner first,

It’s kind of a perk of being paired up and it’s right there in the title.” He angles for a grope

may never make dinner. I’m not playing!” I push him away properly, aware of how easily he always bends me to his will when it comes to sexy play and somehow always manages to coerce me upstairs for random daytime quickies. Not that I don’t enjoy what he does to me, but as I feel tired most of my day because of him, it does dampen my motivation to be productive daily. I have to be more assertive and learn how to turn him down from time to time. My sleep pattern demands

hand sliding out my way to get me

raised brow and hold my hand aloft as he ignores my batting him again and goes for another boob caress. My breasts are apparently his favorite body part next to

with my mom, deal with the duties I have to deal with for this afternoon and then…you’re all mine. You may regret not giving me this little ten-minute tumble come bedtime though,

No daytime rolls upstairs means tonight he will take hours to get his fill. Not that I’m complaining, I just really need sleep at some point in my life. Lately it’s taking its toll and I’m tired all the

for a

You look kinda beat. Are you feeling okay?” he lifts the back of his palm to my head in seriousness this time and I

sick is cured with a turn. I’m fine, just really exhausted lately. I think with all the early morning

back into his

sometimes you don’t have as much stamina as me. Just tell me when you don’t want to, and we won’t. Sex isn’t everything. I like just being beside you in

think there’s a wolf alive that has your stamina. I’ll be fine after food and some down time with your mom. We can go to bed early so we can have both fun and sleep, leave everything else until morning…… I love you.” I lay my ear against the steady thump

endless. You know how much you mean to me, right? That I love

You give me security that we’re going to be okay. You’re the alpha we all needed, and you are the best for not just me, but everyone here. I hope you know how much they all respect and value you. How grateful they are that you took your place early and brought them out

his emotions mingled with mine, that well of happy ache and overemotional overwhelm. He may look solid and rough, but Colton is still that sweet boy inside and he carries so many insecurities thanks

homestead, being responsible for everyone here….. I hate to admit that sometimes, I want to run and hide and be a normal teen, for like a day.”

few weeks left so maybe you should reward yourself with a day off and go act like Colton pre alpha, pre mountain fight. Kick back and enjoy the last of your teens if only for a

maybe not…” He grins down at me and kisses me on top of my head when I giggle at him.

“You’re hopeless.”

wink and I eyeroll. So quick to go back to being that sex mad boy that I can’t get enough

worst chat up lines. Come on, Alpha Santo, we have your mom waiting for

He chuckles and I shove him in the abs. Sighing at his one-track mind and shove him backwards to

never think that your mom longs for another child. To make up for all those lost years of your childhood?”

another, maybe more than one, but we both know that’s not a possibility. The mate bond can’t be broken without death…. If it could, I would have done it for her already. Let her pick another

I ask warily, knowing that despite the rules being set in stone for all wolves, alphas can sometimes make exceptions and sway the

down at my face, his serious expression taking over, and he shakes his

lover, a non-mate to pup with, to live with …. she would never agree. My mom has always lived by the laws and her bond to my dad would always stand in her way. I’ve thought about it. Hell, I see the way she looks at Radar whenever he shows face, and with every part of my soul, I would happily let him romance her. Radar has been a father figure to me since he came back from the wars, but he too is strait laced and would never cross that line, so it’s not even worth pondering. He can’t even look her in the eye because she was once his Luna. It’s a nice thought, but completely hopeless and it will never happen on either side

guard, to shadow his Rema. She needs someone to spend her time with and Radar is besotted with her. He always

does speak to him he comes out with harsh abrasive responses that makes it sound like he doesn’t like her at all.” Colton sighs and ruffles my hair with a frown. “I get what you’re saying, I do. I don’t disagree, it’s just, those two are hopeless and as companions I think they would stand silently at each side of a room, avoiding eye contact and making painful stilted statements and never really relax. Radar sees his Luna, even still, and he can’t ever lower his respectful boundaries. Mom

no sense of romance” I point out with deflation, knowing what he’s saying is true, but isn’t it worth a try.

you enough?” his deadpan and way too serious tight tone makes me glance up, instantly shocked he would get that from our conversation and

my feet a million

he ducks and swoops his arm under my leg and hoists me up princess style while I give out a startled yelp at his lightning-fast

that sexy jaw and gaze at the most beautiful profile

from her own balcony every day. We didn’t want her to feel alone up here so we made sure she has around

the table by the balcony doors when we stroll in, overlooking the forest side of the homestead, into the dense darkness that is framed by the distant mountains. So many memories of being out there alone every time I see the view from