Rejected Mate and Following Fate - Awakening Book

The day passes like a blink and it feels like time is sand in my fingertips, that I can’t stop from filtering away no matter how hard I try. Clinging on with anxious determination, yet it slips right through. Like an awful countdown to something I don’t want but can’t run from, and I know this is inevitable and everything before was leading us back to this moment.

To the mountain that was once our home, to the man that started everything and the fight we have been avoiding, to stay alive. Fate really did make sure that we had no choice but to come full circle, ready to battle and put things to rights in the oddest turn of events. The wars, the prophecy, the people involved in everything that came before…. we are all convening in the place where it began. The mountain. The Santo Valley.

Jasper is coming back to the place that I watched him walk away from with my family a decade ago, to avenge their death, whether I want him to or not. Everything different to what it was on the day of my awakening, yet it all falls into place so neatly. Tonight, is the end, but also the beginning. Problems can be resolved so we can start a life that we hoped for but didn’t know how to achieve, minus the war, minus Juan’s lingering shadow.

We just need to get through, stay safe, hope for the best and try to protect as many of our pack as we can if we can’t stop the attack completely.

“You okay?” Colton’s voice pulls me out of my own head, sat in the balcony of our room where we came for some quiet time before we leave. The cool air trying to penetrate the consuming fire raging in my soul and doing little to calm it’s volcanic fury.

He spent hours downstairs earlier sorting things out, issuing commands, and sent me to nap. His overprotectiveness kicking in and it made me smile for a moment, amid the chaos. I wanted space and some time out while he got his thoughts in order, our details finalized after dinner with Sierra earlier, and as the time comes to go, my nerves are all over the place and my apprehension is almost choking me. I can’t verbalize the anxiety but the whole house is reverberating with the tension.

“Yup.” I clench my teeth trying to appear relaxed, but I know it’s pointless. He can feel it, shares the emotion, sees it, knows me well enough to hear it, as he comes at me from behind. He hugs me into him by leaning into the chair where I’m sat and buries his face in my neck. A warm and necessary contact that melts my body in an instant. Sighing against me and I physically feel his tension ease too at the touch he tells me always makes him feel better. When everything is stripped away and it’s only us like this, the world seems so much better.

“Nothing will get near you. I won’t leave your side and Radar and the Luna’s guard will flank you and my mom every step of the way. There won’t be a second that you’re not protected and not a single hair on your head will be harmed. It won’t be like before; I won’t leave you. I know you have to be there, and she wants to, but I honestly would rather you both stayed here where it’s safe.” Colton squeezes me to reinforce that he doesn’t intend to let me out of his sight, and I relax, still so needy for his touch after the last week without him. It still feels like a dream and I am scared I wake up and he’s not here. I close my eyes and savor every sensation that his presence brings me and find a kind of calm in knowing he’s my safety net.

“You know I can’t. If we have a chance of stopping Jasper and Lord Varro…. it’s on me to make it happen. He needs to see me there. Jasper too, and maybe with Carmen there, it’ll pull his focus and give me enough leverage to reason with him.”

Colton pauses for a second and I can tell the gears in his head are working. Thinking this through. His stillness is reassuring.

“You really think he will reject Carmen from now until the end? I gave the order that nothing happens to him, no matter what. His life is bound to hers and he’s your brother. They know he shouldn’t be harmed. For both their sakes.” He nuzzles against me again and traces a light kiss on my throat before pulling his fingers through my hair.

too, because nothing is ever simple. Carmen, the girl I never thought I would ever give a crap about,

to blame for your father, and neither are the pack. I don’t blame any of you anymore. They would have stopped him had they known; they’re good people. His loyal should pay for their sins but the not the rest of us and Jasper needs to see that. He needs to see that Carmen’s innocent too, she’s not involved, and until the second she told him she was Santo he wanted her. He accepted her and asked her to go with him. I don’t think he wants to reject her; I think he’s blinded and in turmoil and that when

mate, whether he accepts Santos or not. Carmen could do with a little good in her life. Not this… not rejection. Not after everything that she has gone through.” He sighs and his sadness for her tinge son my mood too. Colton knows about the baby; he saw it when I shared all my memories, and I felt the pain then

makes it feel like this is her karma for her sins of the past, but I really don’t want it to be. She’s not who I thought she was and in the past few days I’ve begun to understand her a little, see through the armor. I care

that held her down with her own weakness. She never sheltered her as a mother should. She left her at a time when she needed her most. Carmen’s in pain and I consider her my friend whether she agrees or not. Her actions when we went to find Leyanne showed me that there

him. Instead of spinning I get up and slide into his open arms as he pulls me close in a tight bear hug

closing my eyes automatically as I find my shelter, tucked under his chin and within that secure hold that can wipe away the darkest of days. Submerging and inhaling that familiar him. We haven’t even spent one night together since I got him back and I long to be laid in the dark, nestled

wave of deep emotion surges between us. Pain and need and a hint of regret. “I’m so sorry about everything…. not just this….. but every ounce of pain I’ve caused you since the moment we bonded. And then before… for everything you went through at the hands of my father.” His voice breaks and tears fill my eyes at this sudden apology that I never

soothe him, but

about it. I’ll do anything to protect you and my babies. I’ll do everything in my power to give you the life you all deserve with me. You make my life complete.” Colton pulls my chin up

any opportunity, by pulling back and cooling the

I can’t be mad at him for stopping this. His eyes glittering with emotion as he focuses on my face and that smile bringing out his dimples, radiating genuine happiness. Always protecting what’s his,

seen by the

time. We could go down now… we

as he tries to lasso me to move and pull him back a little aggressively. Instant tears hitting me for no apparent reason with his sudden need to get me downstairs to the med bay, and emotion overwhelms me so suddenly.

you here with me alone, for now. Just us, until it’s time! I missed you and I need you to stay here. I don’t want to go down there yet or deal with that…. not with this hanging over us, coloring it this way. After, I promise, but not now, please, Colton. When it’s done, when we can

look down at the life I know is growing in there with a soft sniff to catch my stupid tears back where they belong. Colton patient and quiet as he listens to me and strokes my hair as a way to say he’s not moving us. His eyes locked on mine and that

needed, and it feels special, not rushed. For right now, I just need you to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be okay, like you always do. That we can do this. That we will get through this.” It’s what I needed most when I didn’t have him. His dependency, his solid confidence, and ability to make everything right in my world. Colton always finds a way. I needed my protector and now

need. It’s my life’s mission to make you happy.” He soothes me, stroking back my hair and makes me feel like everything is safe once more. That he won’t slip away the second I close my eyes and that we’re

sure everyone knew the plan and talk to the pack, but it’s maybe because the sun is starting to fade, and I’m scared of