Shadows of Destiny

Affirmations Tamia- Things got intense between Sylvester and me, and I found myself completely in love.

with him. I was afraid that I would repeat history, but my heart was beyond my control.

He knew how to act, what to say and what to He made me feel like the most important person in his world, and I slowly found myself saying, ‘this is it’ but I had said that before, not so long ago, and I came out burnt and broken.

I wasn’t willing to make that jump again.

It was a scary situation to be in.

I tried to fight my feelings and kept telling myself it was casual.

I tried to think through the situation to guard my heart.

The fact that Sylvester and I weren’t fated scared the shit out of me.

Questions of the future plagued my mind.

What if she shows up one day just like Amanda? Where will that leave me? He had never told me he loved me.

This could be a fun and exciting thing for him.

I scolded myself for catching feelings.

Every day we would wake up, eat, and train together.

I let him go and handle his duties, and then we met in the evening and did whatever we liked.

1 It was fun and scary because I had fallen in love with him.

When I decided to speak to Sylvester about my fears, we were lying on the grass in the western garden, a part of the estate people rarely visited.

“Sylvester,” I said gently; we were lying side by side and looking at the stars that graced the night sky.

It was a beautiful sight and a lovely moment.

I was afraid that I might ruin it.

“Yes,” he replied, and I exhaled.

“Do you ever let your prisoners go?” I asked him, and he chuckled.

“Which of the prisoner’s, green eyes? The ones in the cell or the trophies?” he asked, making light the question.

“Your trophies,” I asked, and he exhaled too.

“They have nowhere to go back to, I am their Alpha, and they are connected to me; I am not keeping them here as prisoners; they are here because this is their only home for now.

They are free to leave, but they only leave if they find love or want to move to Lucland or another part of the north.

They are all here of their own volition.

I am a lord, not a monster.

I expect the women to fall in love eventually and move on.

know they

I asked him

I overheard some ladies talking about how you threw out the five women in

woman called Arya that you do not plan

if it is true,”

am not worried

I understand.

marriage, I can understand, and I am okay where we are; that way, if you find your fated,

to his side

he

said those things, and I meant

pending war, I doubt I would want to tie

He said, and his words hurt because

fated, I do

I make my destiny.

do not care

lose my shit or betray a woman that

thin, because

reject her in a heartbeat and risk being

I knew it was easier

my face gently and

eyes were already welling up with tears because I was a

love with someone that did not plan on having anything serious with

am nothing

prisoners: they are free, but I

here, and you aren’t a trophy; you are my woman,” he said, and I smiled at

sat up and asked

on mine, “I want to make love to the woman I love under the stars,” he said, tugging on my clothes gently, and I could

my lips

he linked me, sucking on the spot on my neck, and my body came apart; he moved to the crook of my neck and

to expose my breasts.

aren’t my

them,” He linked me and sucked my nipples one at

he rubbed the other between his thumb and index

started moaning, and he

rolled down my panties and spread my legs

grass, looking

moaned, my vision blurry and

this be it; I prayed while I writhed, moaning in pleasure, running my fingers through his

senses were alive, and I felt

and

did not stop until I

over me and stared into

troubled my heart all along

for me, Tamia,” He said, pumping

sat up and pulled me

on top, hugging him

and my body

an orgasm was coming,

stilled and released