Shadows of Destiny

Affirmations Tamia- Things got intense between Sylvester and me, and I found myself completely in love.

with him. I was afraid that I would repeat history, but my heart was beyond my control.

He knew how to act, what to say and what to He made me feel like the most important person in his world, and I slowly found myself saying, ‘this is it’ but I had said that before, not so long ago, and I came out burnt and broken.

I wasn’t willing to make that jump again.

It was a scary situation to be in.

I tried to fight my feelings and kept telling myself it was casual.

I tried to think through the situation to guard my heart.

The fact that Sylvester and I weren’t fated scared the shit out of me.

Questions of the future plagued my mind.

What if she shows up one day just like Amanda? Where will that leave me? He had never told me he loved me.

This could be a fun and exciting thing for him.

I scolded myself for catching feelings.

Every day we would wake up, eat, and train together.

I let him go and handle his duties, and then we met in the evening and did whatever we liked.

1 It was fun and scary because I had fallen in love with him.

When I decided to speak to Sylvester about my fears, we were lying on the grass in the western garden, a part of the estate people rarely visited.

“Sylvester,” I said gently; we were lying side by side and looking at the stars that graced the night sky.

It was a beautiful sight and a lovely moment.

I was afraid that I might ruin it.

“Yes,” he replied, and I exhaled.

“Do you ever let your prisoners go?” I asked him, and he chuckled.

“Which of the prisoner’s, green eyes? The ones in the cell or the trophies?” he asked, making light the question.

“Your trophies,” I asked, and he exhaled too.

“They have nowhere to go back to, I am their Alpha, and they are connected to me; I am not keeping them here as prisoners; they are here because this is their only home for now.

They are free to leave, but they only leave if they find love or want to move to Lucland or another part of the north.

They are all here of their own volition.

I am a lord, not a monster.

I expect the women to fall in love eventually and move on.

know they have needs.”

settle down?” I asked him immediately, and

some ladies talking about how you threw out the five women in your

Arya that you do not plan

want to know if it

am not worried

I understand.

out of a failed marriage, I can understand, and I am okay where we are; that way, if you find your fated,

his side to

He said, and I did what he asked and made sure my face

said those things, and

lord of the north with a pending war, I doubt

forget about me,” He said, and his words hurt because it

my fated, I do not care about that shit,

I make my destiny.

do not care what

my shit or betray a woman that has been there for

thin, because fate said

risk being weak,” He said, and

it was easier said

touched my face gently and

said, and I nodded, but my eyes were already welling up with tears because I was a fool

in love with someone that did not plan

am nothing

trophies are not prisoners: they are free, but I won’t let

he said, and I smiled at him, but 5/10 tears were threatening

up and asked me

his lips on mine, “I want to make love to the woman I love under the

my

he linked me, sucking on the spot on my neck, and my body came apart; he moved to the crook of my neck and

to expose my breasts.

my trophy,

He linked me and

while he rubbed the other between his

started moaning, and

panties and spread my

laid back down on the grass, looking at the stars while

I moaned, my vision blurry and

be it; I prayed while I writhed, moaning in pleasure, running my fingers

alive, and

go, and it erupted

not stop until I came

he leaned over me and stared into my

what had troubled my heart all along and drove

it for me, Tamia,” He said, pumping

sat up and pulled me

top, hugging him and

my

orgasm

and released