Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate or

difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what I did to

before those men attacked, and I can never shake off the fact that

every single time until there was nothing left to salvage,” I said and began

because, other than being

best friend, but

and

she had

me happy and went out of her way to

never felt so alone in

people, I

her arms around me and

cause of my pain and was

to

has found love.” She said with a

my tears, and

you know this?” I

forget I schooled in the

about the soon-to-be

is madly in

presides over

do whatever

west unaccompanied to

moved on Leo, and she is

do the same?” She

free to move around, and she did

should do the same,” Amanda

the all-region games; I am sure you will have

for me, I am going

but until you get the closure you want, I know you

I said and placed

want to miss

to

your hand through it, Amanda,” I said,

do not get to pick and choose,

in or not,” she said, and I understood what she was saying

stay and give me

to make it right.” I pleaded with her, and she looked around and

to her all the

talk about her; you call her name in your sleep, even when we make

do you want me to endure?

to fit into

been training

and am a work in progress, but you are not

not helping me,

am going through the transition

this.” She said, and I buried my face in her neck

knew I was playing dirty, but

give me

pleaded with her, and she refused weakly with a

said and kissed her

her and I

said

let down her defences, and

our mate, and we were trying

woke up to someone banging on

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

clock, and it was

wondered who would be knocking on my door late in the

and I asked

room

I shared with

house was looking like the way forward, but I would wait

time; I just wanted to be sure she

forced by the wolf lord, I planned to help

be happy, even

my shorts and advanced toward the

to see it

drunk and

let him into my

and red, and I wondered why he would run in wolf form

out of his mind? I went to get him joggers, and he wore them and sat on

matter with

did it take you to get

went through the woods,” He said, and I knew that was the only explanation for how he could get here in wolf

from Linda

you?” I

shouldn’t have let my Linda go,

was a

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