Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

do not hate

difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what I did

and I can never shake off the fact that

there was nothing left to salvage,” I said and

than

thought Casper was my best friend, but

and I took

to lift me up; she had my

me happy and went out of her way

felt so

I was surrounded by people,

arms around me and

that she was the cause of my pain and

have to forgive yourself,

she has found love.” She said with a definite tone,

hug, wiped away my

I

forget I schooled in the

the soon-to-be lady of

Wolf Lord is madly in

over

do

the west unaccompanied to discuss peace with

Leo, and

we do the

was hurt to hear that Tamia was free to move around, and she did not

Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said, and I

am lying to you, you will see them at the all-region games; I am sure you will

for me, I am

closure you want, I know you won’t come around,” She

due soon,” I said and placed my hand

to miss out on

want to

hand through it, Amanda,” I said, and she shook her head, wiping

to pick

in or not,” she said, and I understood what

and give

will try to make it right.” I pleaded with her, and she looked around and wiped away

me to her all the

talk about her; you call her name in your sleep,

much more do you want me to endure? I

have done everything to

been training since they

a work in progress, but you are not encouraging me or

not helping me,

through the transition

buried my face in her neck close to my mark and sucked gently,

I knew I was playing dirty,

give me

I pleaded with her, and

said and kissed

I let him slowly take

said and

defences, and

our mate, and we were trying to

woke up to someone banging on my front

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

clock, and it was

knocking on my door late in

up, and I asked her to go back

bed for her room so

yet to move her to the room I shared with

was looking like the way forward, but I would wait

Tamia back this time; I just wanted to be sure she

suspected she was being forced by the wolf lord, I planned

deserved to be happy, even if it

my shorts and

was shocked to see

was drunk and

let him into

swollen and red, and I wondered why he would run

get him joggers,

matter with you?

long did it take you to get here?”

the woods,” He said, and I knew that was the only explanation for how

Kyle had taken over from Linda and become the

the matter with you?” I asked him, and

let my Linda go,

a

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