Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

hate

me through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what I did

the pain in her eyes before those men attacked, and I can never shake off the fact that

there was nothing left to salvage,” I said

hurt because, other than being my wife,

best friend, but I

all along, and I

she had my back and looked

went out of her

so alone in

I was surrounded by people,

around

that she was the cause of my pain and was

to forgive

love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning she knew something I

away my tears, and looked into her

this?” I asked

forget I schooled in

about the

Lord is madly in

presides over

do

she went to the west unaccompanied to discuss

has moved on Leo, and

we do

around, and she did not bother to come and see me so

let you go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said, and I shook my

think I am lying to you, you will see them at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,” she said and

I am going

but until you get the closure you want, I know you won’t come around,” She said, and I stopped her

be due soon,” I said and placed

not want to miss

want to be

it, Amanda,” I said, and

get to pick

not,” she said, and I understood what she

stay and give

with her, and she looked

me to her all the

her; you call her name in your sleep, even when we make

you want me to endure? I never wanted this for

done everything to fit into

have been training since they took

work in progress, but you are not encouraging me

are not helping

am going through the transition

can’t continue like this.” She said, and I buried my face in

was playing dirty, but I

give me

her, and she refused

said and kissed

and I let him slowly

I said and kissed

down her defences,

was our mate, and we were trying to make her

someone banging

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

clock, and

would be knocking on my door late in the

woke up, and I asked her to go back

had bought a bigger bed for her room so she could roll

to the room I shared with Tamia, and I doubt

the way forward, but I

I

by the wolf lord, I planned to

happy, even if

my shorts and advanced

was shocked to

was drunk

him into

wondered why he

out of his mind? I went to get him joggers,

with you? It

did it take you to get here?” I

that was the only explanation for how

from Linda and

I asked him, and he

let my

a horrible

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