Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate

you have been with me through this difficult time, but I can’t

I can never shake off the fact that I caused That pain was a permanent fixture

there was nothing left to salvage,”

hurt because, other than being my

thought Casper was my best friend,

and

was always there to lift me up; she had my back and

of her

so alone in my

by people, I

arms around me and

irony was that she was the cause of my

have to forgive

she has found love.” She said

the hug, wiped away my tears, and looked into

know this?” I asked

schooled in

about the soon-to-be lady

madly

presides over council

do whatever she

the west unaccompanied to discuss peace with

on Leo, and she

can’t we do the same?”

around, and she did not bother to come and see me so

has let you go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said, and

will see them at the all-region games; I

me, I am going

come around, but until you get the closure you want, I know you won’t come around,” She said,

will be due soon,” I said and placed my hand on her

do not want to miss out

want to be

hold your hand through it, Amanda,” I said, and she shook her head, wiping away

do not get to pick

said, and I understood

stay and give me

make it right.” I pleaded with her, and

her all the

call her name in your sleep,

to endure? I never wanted

to fit into her

training since

have studied hard and am a work in progress, but you are not

are not

through

face in her neck close to my mark and sucked gently,

knew I was playing dirty, but I

give me time,

her,

and kissed her

her and I

said and

defences, and

mate, and we were trying to make her

to someone

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

looked at the clock,

wondered who would be knocking on my door

asked her to go

bigger bed for her room so she could roll comfortably

to the room I shared with Tamia, and I doubt I

way forward, but I would wait until after the

get Tamia back this time; I just wanted

was being forced by the wolf lord, I planned to help Devin take her from

to be happy, even if it wasn’t with

my shorts and advanced toward the

to see it

was drunk and

let him

swollen and red, and I wondered why he would run in wolf form from his territory

out of his mind? I went to get him joggers, and he wore them and sat on

is the matter with you?

to get

the woods,” He said, and I knew that was the only explanation for how

taken over from Linda and become the new

the matter with you?” I

shouldn’t have let my Linda go,

a

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