Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate

me through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for

can never shake off the fact

failed her every single time until there was nothing left to salvage,” I said and began to

out my hurt because, other than being my wife, Tamia was my best friend and

best friend, but I

was there all along, and I took her for

always there to lift me up; she had my back

happy and went out of her way to put a smile on

so

was surrounded by people,

her arms around me and let me

irony was that she was the cause of

to forgive yourself,

has found love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning she knew

broke the hug, wiped away my tears, and looked into her

this?” I asked her, and she

forget I schooled

is talking about the

Wolf Lord is madly

over council

can do whatever she

unaccompanied to discuss peace with

on Leo, and she is

we do

she did not bother to come and see me

you go, Leo; you should do

will see them at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,” she said and

for me, I am going back

around, but until you get the closure you want, I know you won’t come around,” She said,

said and

to

to be

it, Amanda,” I said, and

do not get to pick and

either all in or not,” she said, and I understood what

and give

make it right.” I pleaded with her, and

compare me to her all the time,

her name

much more do you want me to

have done everything to fit

been training

progress, but you are not

are not

going through the transition

said, and I buried my face in her neck close

I knew I was playing

me

you.” I pleaded with her, and

said and

growled, wanting her and I let him slowly

I said

her defences, and Black

we were trying to make her

someone

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

looked at the clock, and it

who would be knocking on my door late

I asked her to go back

her room so she

her to the room I shared with Tamia, and I doubt I could do

like the way forward,

hoping to get Tamia back this time; I just

I suspected she was being forced by the wolf lord, I planned

be happy, even if

wore my shorts and advanced toward the

shocked to see it was

drunk and

him

wondered why he would run in wolf

out of his mind? I went to get him joggers, and he

is the matter with you?

take you to get here?” I asked him,

was the only explanation

seemed Kyle had taken over from Linda

you?” I asked him, and he

have let my Linda

a

The Novel will be updated daily. Come back and continue reading tomorrow, everyone!

Comments ()

0/255