Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

do not hate or

been with me through this difficult time,

off the fact that I caused That pain was a permanent fixture since the dinner party when

there was nothing left to salvage,” I said and began to

hurt because, other than being my wife, Tamia was

best

along, and I

lift me up; she had my

of her way to put a smile on my

never felt so

I was surrounded by people, I

arms around me and

was that she was the cause of my

have to forgive

and she has found love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning she knew something

hug, wiped away my tears, and looked into her

I asked her,

I schooled in the

about the

madly in love

presides over

do

unaccompanied to

Leo, and she is

do the same?”

was free to move around, and she did not bother to come and see me so

do the same,” Amanda said, and I shook my

the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,”

for me, I am going

around, but until you get the closure you want,

said and placed my hand on

not want to miss out on

want to

want to hold your hand through it, Amanda,” I said, and she shook her head, wiping

do not get to pick

or not,” she said, and I understood

stay and

to make it right.” I pleaded with her,

her all the time,

call her name in your sleep, even when we make

you want me to endure? I never wanted this for

to

been training since they took

studied hard and am a work in progress, but you are not encouraging

are not helping

through

continue like this.” She said, and I buried my face in her neck close

I was playing dirty,

give me

am begging you.” I pleaded with her, and

said and kissed her

I let him slowly

said

down her defences, and Black

we were trying to

up to someone banging on my

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

the clock, and

would be knocking on my

I asked her to

bigger bed for her room so she could roll comfortably

move her to the room I shared with Tamia,

like the way forward, but I would wait until after

this time; I just wanted to be sure she was genuinely

suspected she was being forced by the wolf lord, I planned to help Devin take her

be happy, even if it wasn’t with

and advanced toward the main

shocked to see it

drunk and

him into my

red, and I wondered why he would run

went to get him joggers, and he

is the matter with you? It is

get here?” I asked

woods,” He said, and I knew that was the only explanation for how he

from Linda and become the new

I asked him, and he

have let my Linda go,

a horrible

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