Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate or

been with me through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself

saw the pain in her eyes before those men attacked, and I can never shake off the fact that I caused That pain was

time until there was nothing left to salvage,” I said and began

because, other than being my wife, Tamia

thought Casper was my best

was there all along, and I

up; she had my back and looked out for

out of her way to

felt so

surrounded by people, I was lonely and

around me and

was the cause of my pain

have to forgive

she has found love.” She said

my tears, and looked into

do you know this?” I asked her,

schooled in the

about the soon-to-be lady

is madly in love

over

can do whatever

the west unaccompanied to

has moved on Leo, and she is

do

she did not bother to come and see me so we

Leo; you should do the same,”

lying to you, you will see them at the all-region games; I am

me, I

around, but until you get the closure you want, I know you won’t come around,” She

be due soon,” I said and placed my hand

do not want to miss

want to

your hand through it, Amanda,” I said, and she shook her head, wiping away her

get to pick

or not,” she said, and

stay and

make it right.” I pleaded with

to her all the time,

talk about her; you call her name in your sleep, even when

much more do you want me to endure?

have done everything to

been training since they

am a work in progress, but you are not encouraging me or giving

not helping me,

going through the

said, and I buried my face in her neck close to my mark and sucked gently, making her

playing dirty, but I

me time,

pleaded with her, and

I said and

I let

said and kissed

let down her defences,

was our mate, and we

woke up to someone

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

at the clock, and it

who would be knocking on my door late in

asked her

bigger bed for her room

her to the room I shared with Tamia, and

new house was looking like the way

I just wanted to be sure she

the wolf lord, I planned

deserved to be happy, even if

and advanced

shocked to see

drunk and

him into

and I wondered why he

he out of his mind? I went to get him

is the matter with you?

get here?” I asked

knew that was the only explanation for how he could

seemed Kyle had taken over from Linda and become the new drunk

matter with you?” I asked him, and he

shouldn’t have let

was a

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