Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

do not hate or dislike

through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what I did to

can never shake off the fact that I caused That

failed her every single time until there was nothing left to salvage,”

other than

was my best friend, but I was

and I took her for

was always there to lift me up; she

went out of her way to

so alone in my

people,

around me and let

she was the cause of my pain and was trying to comfort

to forgive

said with a definite tone,

the hug, wiped away my

I

schooled

the soon-to-be lady of

is madly

over council

do whatever

the west unaccompanied

Leo, and she is

do the same?” She

to move around, and she did not bother to

go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said, and I

all-region games; I am sure you will have closure

me, I am

around, but until you get the closure you want, I

due soon,” I said and placed my hand on her

do not want to

want to be

Amanda,” I

get to

or not,” she said, and I understood what she

stay and

to make it right.” I pleaded with her, and she looked around

me to her

always talk about her; you call her name in your sleep, even

to

have done everything to fit into

training

have studied hard and am a work in progress, but you are not encouraging me or giving me the support I

not helping me,

through the

continue like this.” She said, and I buried my face in her neck close to my mark and

I knew I was playing dirty, but

give me time,

begging you.” I pleaded with her,

said and

growled, wanting her and I let him

I said and

let down her defences, and

mate, and we were

up to someone banging on

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

looked at the clock, and it was twelve

would be knocking on my door late

asked her

bed for her room so she

her to the room I shared with Tamia, and I doubt I

was looking like the way

I

was being forced by the wolf lord, I

be happy, even

wore my shorts and advanced toward the

shocked to see it

was drunk and

let him into

wondered why he

went to get him

is the matter with you? It is twelve

you to get here?” I asked him, and

that was the

from Linda and become the new drunk

is the matter with you?” I asked

shouldn’t have let my Linda

a

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