Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate

have been with me through this difficult time, but I can’t

before those men attacked, and I can never shake off the fact that I caused That pain was a permanent fixture since the dinner party

her every single time until there was nothing left to salvage,” I

had to let out my hurt because, other than

best friend, but I

along, and

lift me up; she

of her way to

so

was surrounded by people, I

around

cause of my pain and

to

said with a definite tone,

wiped away my

this?” I asked her, and she

forget I schooled in the

is talking about the

Wolf Lord is madly

presides over council

do

west unaccompanied to discuss peace

has moved on Leo, and

we do the

was free to move around, and she did not bother to come and see me so we could talk things

Leo; you should do

am lying to you, you will see them at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,” she said and stood

for me, I

hoped you would come around, but until you get the closure you want, I

said and placed my hand

not want to miss out

to be

I said,

to

in or not,” she said, and I understood what

and give me

will try to make it right.” I pleaded with

me to her all the

talk about her; you call her name in your sleep, even when

me to

done everything to fit into her

have been training since they

progress, but you are not encouraging me or

not

going through the transition

this.” She said, and I buried my face in her neck

knew I was playing dirty, but I was

me

I pleaded with her,

and kissed

and I

I said and

let down her defences, and Black took

mate, and we were trying

woke up to someone banging on my front

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

looked at the clock, and it was

wondered who would be knocking on my door

and I asked her to go

her room so she could roll comfortably on

move her to the room I shared with Tamia, and

way forward, but I would wait until

hoping to get Tamia back this time; I just wanted to be sure she was genuinely

the wolf lord,

be happy, even if it wasn’t

my shorts and advanced toward the main

shocked to see it

was drunk and

let him

swollen and red, and I wondered why he would run in

of his mind? I went to get him joggers, and he

with you? It is

take you to get here?”

knew that was the only explanation for how he could get here in

had taken over from Linda and become the

matter with you?” I asked him, and he began to

shouldn’t have let my Linda

was a

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