Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

hate or

have been with me through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what

before those men attacked, and I can never shake off the fact that I caused That pain was a permanent fixture since the

every single time until there was nothing

had to let out my hurt because, other than being

best friend, but

all along, and

up; she had my back

me happy and went out of her way to

felt so alone in my

surrounded by people, I

wrapped her arms around

was that she was the cause of my pain and was

have to forgive

has found love.” She said with

hug, wiped away my tears, and looked into

this?” I asked her,

forget I schooled in the

talking about the soon-to-be lady

madly in love with

over council

can do whatever she

west unaccompanied to discuss

Leo, and she

do the same?” She

around, and she did

Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said, and I

to you, you will see them at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,” she said and stood

for me, I

come around, but until you get the closure you want, I

I said and placed my hand on

to

want to be

I

to pick

or not,” she said, and I understood

and give me

to make it right.” I pleaded with her, and she looked

her all

you call her name in your

do you want me to endure? I never wanted this

everything to fit into

have been training since

have studied hard and am a work in progress, but you

are not helping me,

going through

said, and I buried my face in her neck close to my mark

I was playing

me

you.” I pleaded with her, and she refused weakly with a

and

I let him slowly

said and kissed

her defences, and Black

was our mate, and we were trying to

someone

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

looked at the clock, and it

on my door late

up, and I asked her

room so she could roll comfortably

I shared with Tamia, and I

like the way forward, but

get Tamia back this time; I

was being forced by the wolf lord, I planned to

even if it wasn’t with

my shorts and

to see

drunk and

let him into

I wondered why he would run

I went to get him joggers, and

with you? It

did it take you to get here?” I

went through the woods,” He said, and I knew that was the only explanation for

Kyle had taken over from Linda and

I asked him, and

let my

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