Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate or

you have been with me through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what I

attacked, and I can never shake off the fact that I caused That pain was a permanent

time until there was nothing left to salvage,”

to let out my hurt because, other than being my wife, Tamia was

best friend,

and

up; she had

me happy and went out of her way to put a

felt so alone in my

by people,

her arms around me

irony was that she was the cause of my pain and was trying to

have to forgive yourself,

found love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning she knew something I

my tears, and looked into her

know this?” I

I schooled in the

is talking about the soon-to-be lady of

is madly

presides over

can do whatever she

unaccompanied to discuss

Leo,

we do

Tamia was free to move around, and she did not bother to come and see me so we could

you go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said, and I shook

at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,” she said and stood

I am

you want, I know you won’t come around,”

soon,” I said and placed my hand

want to

want to

I said, and she shook her head, wiping away her

do not get to pick

she said, and I

stay and give

make it right.” I pleaded with

her all the

name in your sleep, even when

me to

have done everything to

have been training

a work in progress, but you are

not

going through the

continue like this.” She said, and I buried my face in

I was playing dirty, but

me

I pleaded with her, and she refused

and

growled, wanting her and I let him

I said and kissed

down her defences, and Black

mate, and we were trying to make her

someone banging

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

looked at the clock, and it was twelve

on my door

woke up, and I asked her to go

had bought a bigger bed for her room so she could roll comfortably

was yet to move her to the room I shared with Tamia, and I doubt I could

way forward, but

hoping to get Tamia back this time; I just wanted to be sure she was

forced by the wolf lord, I planned to help

happy, even if it wasn’t

my shorts and advanced toward

to see it was

drunk and

let him into my

swollen and red, and I wondered why he would run in wolf form

him

matter with you? It

it take you to get here?” I asked him, and he

woods,” He said, and I knew that was the only explanation for how he could get here in wolf form,

Kyle had taken over from Linda and become the new drunk of

is the matter with you?” I asked him, and he began

let my Linda

was a horrible

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