Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate or

you have been with me through this difficult time, but

shake off the fact that I caused That pain was

failed her every single time until there was nothing

than being my wife, Tamia was my best friend

was my best

along, and I took her for

there to lift me up; she

me happy and went out of her way to put a

so alone in

people, I was

arms around

cause of my pain and was

to

love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning she

my tears, and

I asked her,

schooled in the

about the soon-to-be lady

madly in love

over council

do whatever

west unaccompanied

Leo,

we do the

free to move around, and she did not bother to come and see me so we

you should do the same,” Amanda said, and I shook my

think I am lying to you, you will see them at the all-region games;

me, I

until you get the closure you want,

said

to miss out on

want to be

want to hold your hand through it, Amanda,” I said, and

not get to

said, and I

and

with

to her all the

about her; you call her name in your sleep, even

more do you want me to endure? I never wanted

done everything to fit into

have been training since

a work in progress, but you are not encouraging me or giving me the

are not helping me,

going through the

She said, and I buried my face in her neck close to

was playing dirty, but I

give me

am begging you.” I pleaded with her, and she refused weakly

I said and kissed her

her and I

said and

defences, and Black

we were trying to make

up to someone banging

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

at the clock, and it was twelve

would be knocking on my door

and I asked her to go back

a bigger bed for her room so

the room I

new house was looking like the way forward, but I would

I just wanted to be sure

forced by the wolf lord, I planned

to be happy, even if it wasn’t

shorts and advanced toward the

to see it was

was drunk and

him into

were swollen and red, and I wondered why he would

went to get him joggers, and he wore them and

with you?

did it take you to get here?”

He said, and I knew that was the only

Linda

with you?” I asked

shouldn’t have let my Linda

a

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