Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

hate

this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what I did

and I can never shake off the fact that I caused That pain was a permanent fixture

there was nothing left to salvage,” I said

to let out my hurt because, other than being my wife, Tamia was my

was my best friend, but

was there all along, and I

always there to lift me up; she

made me happy and went out of her way to put a

felt so alone

surrounded by people, I was lonely

around me

of my

to

love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning

broke the hug, wiped away my tears, and

this?” I asked her,

forget I schooled in

about the soon-to-be

is madly in

presides over council

do whatever

to the west unaccompanied to discuss peace with Alpha

moved on Leo, and she

we do the same?”

around, and she did not bother to come and see me so we could talk

has let you go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said, and I

them at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,” she said

me, I am

you get the closure you want, I know you

I said and placed

want to

want to be

hand through it, Amanda,” I said, and she shook her head,

get to

all in or not,” she said, and

stay and give me

I pleaded with her, and she

her all the time,

name in your sleep, even

more do you want me to endure? I never

to fit into

been training since they

work in progress, but you are not encouraging me or giving me the support

are not helping

through the transition

and I buried my face in her neck close to my mark and sucked gently,

knew I was playing

me time,

you.” I pleaded with her, and she refused

I said and kissed

and I let

I said

her defences, and Black took

we were trying to

woke up to someone banging on

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

at the clock, and it was

wondered who would be knocking on

asked her

a bigger bed for her room so she could roll comfortably on the

the room I shared with Tamia, and I doubt I could do

the way

I just wanted to be

the wolf lord, I planned to help

even if it wasn’t

shorts and advanced toward the

to

was drunk and

let him

why he would run in

to get him joggers, and he wore them and

matter with you? It is

you to get here?” I

went through the woods,” He said, and I knew that was the only explanation for how he could get here

over from Linda and

matter with you?” I asked him, and he

let

was a horrible

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