Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

do not hate

through this difficult time, but

shake off the fact that I caused That pain was a permanent fixture since the dinner party when I

nothing left to salvage,”

than being my wife,

was my best friend,

and I took her

she had my back and looked out

made me happy and went out of her way to put a

never felt so alone in my

was surrounded by people, I was

wrapped her arms around me and let

was the cause of my pain and

have to forgive

has found love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning she knew something I

hug, wiped away my tears, and looked into her

I asked her, and she

forget I schooled in the

about the soon-to-be lady

Wolf Lord is madly in love with

presides over council

can do whatever

west unaccompanied to discuss peace

moved on Leo, and she

can’t we do the same?” She

to hear that Tamia was free to move around, and she did not bother to come

has let you go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said,

will see them at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,”

me, I

come around, but until you get the closure you want, I know you won’t come around,” She said, and

I said and placed

not want to miss out

want to

through it, Amanda,” I said, and she shook her head,

to pick

not,” she said, and

and give me

will try to make it right.” I pleaded with her, and she

compare me to her all the time,

talk about her; you call her name in your sleep,

to endure?

have done everything to fit into her

have been training

hard and am a work in progress, but you

are not helping me,

am going through the transition

and I buried my face in her neck close to my mark and sucked

I knew I was playing

me time,

I pleaded with her, and she

I said and kissed

growled, wanting her and I

I said

down her defences, and Black took

and we were trying to make her

woke up to someone banging on my

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

looked at the clock, and it was

wondered who would be knocking on my door

and I asked her to go

had bought a bigger bed for her room so

move her to the room I shared with Tamia, and I doubt

house was looking like the way

Tamia back this time; I just wanted to be sure she was genuinely

being forced by the wolf lord, I

deserved to be happy, even if it wasn’t

wore my shorts and advanced toward the

was shocked to

drunk and

let him into

eyes were swollen and red, and I wondered why he would run

went to get him joggers, and he wore them and sat on my

the matter with you?

long did it take you to get here?” I

and I knew that was the only explanation for how he could get here

taken over from Linda and become the new drunk

you?” I asked him, and he began to

shouldn’t have let my

was a horrible

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