Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate

have been with me through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what I did

shake off the fact that I caused That pain was a permanent fixture

every single time until there was nothing left to salvage,” I said and began

other than being

my best friend, but I was

along, and I

lift me up; she had my back and

made me happy and went out of her way to put a smile on

felt so

people, I was

around

that she was the cause of my pain and was trying

to forgive yourself,

and she has found love.” She said with

broke the hug, wiped away my tears,

I

forget I schooled

about the soon-to-be lady

Wolf Lord is madly in love with

presides over council

do whatever

went to the west unaccompanied to discuss peace with Alpha

Leo, and she

do the same?”

to hear that Tamia was free to move around, and she

you go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda

you, you will see them at the all-region games; I

I am

want, I know you won’t come around,” She said, and I

be due soon,” I said

to miss out

to

Amanda,” I

do not get to

all in or not,” she said, and I understood

stay and

to make it right.” I pleaded with her, and she looked around and wiped away

compare me to her all the

her; you call her name in your sleep,

you want me to endure? I never wanted this for

to fit

training since they took

studied hard and am a work in progress, but you are not encouraging me or giving me the

not helping

going through the

and I buried my face in her neck close to my mark and sucked gently, making her

playing dirty,

me

pleaded with her,

I said and

growled, wanting her and I let him slowly take

I said and

her defences, and Black

was our mate, and we were

woke up to someone

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

at the clock, and it was

knocking on my door late

asked her to go back

a bigger bed for her room so she could roll comfortably on the

to move her to the room I shared with Tamia, and I doubt

the way forward, but I would wait until

hoping to get Tamia back this time; I just wanted to be

by the wolf lord, I planned to help

to be happy, even if it wasn’t with

wore my shorts and

was shocked to

was drunk and

let him into my

he would

I went to get him joggers, and he wore

the matter with you? It

long did it take you to get here?” I asked him,

knew that was the only explanation

taken over from Linda and become the new drunk of our

I asked him, and he began to

shouldn’t have let my Linda

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