Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate

you have been with me through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for

and I can never shake off the fact that I caused That pain was a permanent fixture

nothing left to salvage,” I said

out my hurt because, other than being my wife, Tamia

thought Casper was my best friend, but I

along, and I took her

was always there to lift me up; she had my back and looked out for

went out of her way to put a smile

so alone in

by people, I was lonely

around me and let me

was that she was the cause of my

have to

and she has found love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning she knew something I

my tears, and looked

I asked her, and

forget I schooled in the

is talking about the soon-to-be lady

Lord is madly in love with

over

can do

went to the west unaccompanied

has moved on Leo, and

do the

that Tamia was free to move around, and she did not bother to come and see me so we could talk

do the same,” Amanda said, and I shook

them at the all-region games; I am sure you will

me, I am going back

closure you want, I know you won’t come around,”

I said and placed my hand on

do not want to miss out on

want to

hold your hand through it, Amanda,” I said, and she shook her head, wiping

get to pick and

either all in or not,” she said, and I understood what she was

and

will try to make it right.” I pleaded with her,

compare me to her all the

her; you call her name in your

want me to endure? I never wanted this for

done everything to fit

training since they took

a work in progress, but you are not encouraging me or giving me the support

not helping

am going through the

my face in her

playing dirty,

give me time,

I pleaded with her, and she refused weakly with a

I said and

and I let him

said and kissed

her defences, and Black took

was our mate, and we were trying

to someone

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

the clock,

who would be knocking on

up, and I asked her to go back to

had bought a bigger bed for her room so

I shared with

house was looking like the way forward, but I would wait

back this time; I

by the wolf lord, I planned to

be happy, even if it wasn’t

shorts and advanced toward the

to see

drunk

him into my

eyes were swollen and red, and I wondered why he would run in wolf form from his territory to

went to get him joggers, and he wore them and

the matter with you?

you to get here?” I asked

that was the only explanation

Kyle had taken over from Linda

matter with you?” I asked him,

shouldn’t have let my

was a

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