Shadows of Destiny

Chapter 61

Remorse ~Leo~ I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it.

Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day.

Most of the northern captives always do.

I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room.

I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there.

I was going to see Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself, Leo.

I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow.

She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable.

I have pleaded with you several times.

You have disgraced me and belittled me.

Most of the Lunas mock me now.

I do not have a title, and neither are we married.

Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia.

She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed.

(1 “Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda.

I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise.

She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first.

She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her.

I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak.

She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you.

You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed.

You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share.

I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her.

Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her.

I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden.

And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick, I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises.

I was her first, and I broke everything.

I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda.

She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant.

I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you.

It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came.

I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

not hate

time, but I can’t forgive

and I can never shake off the fact that

was nothing

because, other than being my wife,

was my best friend,

along, and

to lift me up; she had my back and looked

went out of her way to put a smile on

so alone in my

surrounded by people,

arms around

irony was that she was the cause of my pain and was trying

to forgive yourself,

found love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning she knew something I

broke the hug, wiped away my tears,

know this?” I asked her, and she

schooled in the

about the

Wolf Lord is madly

presides over council

do

to the west unaccompanied to

Leo,

we do the same?”

hear that Tamia was free to move around, and she

has let you go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said,

think I am lying to you, you will see them at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,” she said and

I

but until you get the closure you want, I know you won’t come around,” She said, and I stopped

due soon,” I said and placed my hand on

do not want to

want to be

it, Amanda,” I said, and she shook

to pick

either all in or not,” she said, and I understood what she was

and

pleaded with

me to her all

her; you call her name in your sleep, even when we

to

everything to fit into her

have been training since they took

in progress, but you are not encouraging me or giving me

not helping me,

going through

in her neck close

was playing dirty, but I was

give me

with her, and she refused weakly

said and kissed her

growled, wanting her and I let him slowly

I said and kissed

her defences, and

our mate, and we were trying to make her

someone banging on

Amanda was sleeping peacefully.

at the clock,

be knocking on my door

woke up, and I asked

room so she could roll comfortably on the

her to the room I shared

like the way forward, but I would

wasn’t hoping to get Tamia back this time; I just wanted to be

I suspected she was being forced by the wolf lord, I planned to help Devin take

even if

shorts and

was shocked to see

drunk

him into

swollen and red, and I wondered why he would run in wolf form from his territory

he out of his mind? I went to get him joggers, and he wore them and sat

is the matter with

you to get

and I knew that was the only explanation for how he could get here

seemed Kyle had taken over from Linda and

I asked him, and

have let my

a

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