Surrogate For Alpha Dom

I cry out as I’m pulled backwards – surprised more than hurt and suddenly I’m pressed against

him in the pouring rain. Roger holds me tight, one hand around my upper arm, the other wrapped

firmly around me, pressing my body to his

And the feel of him, of his skin hot against my own – my towel is gone, I have no idea where — I

cry harder at the feel of him and rest my forehead against his chest, because I know I can’t have it

– I can’t-

“Cora!” Roger shouts, above the wind and the rain. “What – Cora! What the hell are you doing?!”

“I can’t!” I sob. “I can’t do this, Roger! I can’t be with you like this, not if you’ll….you’ll never love

me! I can’t have you in half measures!” I look up at him then, into his face, realizing the truth of it

in that moment. “I can’t do this if you can’t take me for who I am! Human! Broken! Complicated,

difficult! Confused, and jealous, and mad pretty much all the time! If you can’t take me like that,” I

shout, begging now, “then let me go, Roger! Because I can’t –”

I glance back in the direction of the hotel, my sobbing breaths tearing at my lungs, “I can’t have

half of you. I can’t have – just…. lust. It will kill me! It will break my heart, and I’ll never survive it!”

With the last words I pound my free hand against his chest, my palm slapping wet against his

skin.

Roger stares down at me as I confess everything to him- my whole heart – listening to every

word. And then, when I’m done, when the words stop pouring from my mouth and all that’s left is

my panting breath, he tightens his arms around me, giving me an angry little shake. He clenches

he’s mad

it, Cora,” Roger growls, glaring down at me. “You’re my

arms, the gesture not at

conclusive, incensed. “All I’ve ever wanted is all of

1. it. And I was an idiot” he continues, his voice breaking, “I hesitated, and I’ll regret it until the day I

was no denying that all I want

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mine,

him. My arms are around his

piece of me – every molecule –

universe. And god

the universe responds, lightening cracking above us, the rain pouring around us as Roger

him and ravages my mouth with his kisses

pieces around us, which it very well might be. The water rushes around his ankles,

is adamant against it and something

a fool to

comes next.

Roger pulls away from me. “Come on,” he growls, his skin shivering

turns back towards the safety

he shakes his head at me, frustrated, and mutters “you idiot.”

nod fervently, ignoring his insult, tucking my head against his shoulder and breathing hard

me back to the motel. Barely above the sound of the storm, I hear

step, something about insane women who run naked into

because he’s met my sister, and madness is frequently

little and wrapping

Because Roger is about to find out precisely how crazy I can really be.

to our motel room is hanging open, blowing

pouring through it as he strides through the entrance, kicking

bothering to lock it as he moves steadily towards the bed. When we

little angry and not

laugh, a little recklessly, as I bounce against

of this worn out motel bed. Laugh, because he’s so fucking mad at me, and me at him, and

so mad at ourselves and I want to tear him to pieces, and I know he wants to