Surrogate For Alpha Dom

I cry out as I’m pulled backwards – surprised more than hurt and suddenly I’m pressed against

him in the pouring rain. Roger holds me tight, one hand around my upper arm, the other wrapped

firmly around me, pressing my body to his

And the feel of him, of his skin hot against my own – my towel is gone, I have no idea where — I

cry harder at the feel of him and rest my forehead against his chest, because I know I can’t have it

– I can’t-

“Cora!” Roger shouts, above the wind and the rain. “What – Cora! What the hell are you doing?!”

“I can’t!” I sob. “I can’t do this, Roger! I can’t be with you like this, not if you’ll….you’ll never love

me! I can’t have you in half measures!” I look up at him then, into his face, realizing the truth of it

in that moment. “I can’t do this if you can’t take me for who I am! Human! Broken! Complicated,

difficult! Confused, and jealous, and mad pretty much all the time! If you can’t take me like that,” I

shout, begging now, “then let me go, Roger! Because I can’t –”

I glance back in the direction of the hotel, my sobbing breaths tearing at my lungs, “I can’t have

half of you. I can’t have – just…. lust. It will kill me! It will break my heart, and I’ll never survive it!”

With the last words I pound my free hand against his chest, my palm slapping wet against his

skin.

Roger stares down at me as I confess everything to him- my whole heart – listening to every

word. And then, when I’m done, when the words stop pouring from my mouth and all that’s left is

my panting breath, he tightens his arms around me, giving me an angry little shake. He clenches

and I can tell that he’s mad

it, Cora,” Roger growls, glaring down at me. “You’re my fucking

then he sweeps me up in his arms, the gesture

incensed. “All I’ve ever wanted is all of you – my whole

1. it. And I was an idiot” he continues, his voice breaking, “I hesitated, and I’ll regret it until the day I

there was no denying that all I want – all I’ll ever want is

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kisses me, his mouth hard on mine, and my body reacts instantly, my back

arms are around his neck, pulling him closer to

every piece of me –

me screams to the universe. And god damn it,

responds, lightening cracking above us, the rain pouring around us as Roger

him and ravages my mouth with his kisses me like the world is falling

pieces around us, which it very well might be. The water rushes

it and something fierce within me sings that he

been a fool to run from this. That we can face this storm,

comes next.

is on his face when Roger pulls away from me. “Come on,” he growls,

as he turns

shakes his head at me, frustrated, and

insult, tucking my head against his shoulder and

him carry me back to the motel. Barely above the sound of the storm, I hear him growling

insane women who run naked into

he’s met my sister, and madness is frequently genetic… 1

shocked to find myself smiling, laughing a little and wrapping my arms more tightly around

out precisely how

to our motel room is hanging open, blowing in the wind, but Roger

he strides through the entrance, kicking the door shut behind

to lock it as he moves steadily towards the bed. When we get there he

a little angry

I laugh again – laugh, a little

because he’s so fucking

tear him to pieces,