Surrogate For Alpha Dom

I cry out as I’m pulled backwards – surprised more than hurt and suddenly I’m pressed against

him in the pouring rain. Roger holds me tight, one hand around my upper arm, the other wrapped

firmly around me, pressing my body to his

And the feel of him, of his skin hot against my own – my towel is gone, I have no idea where — I

cry harder at the feel of him and rest my forehead against his chest, because I know I can’t have it

– I can’t-

“Cora!” Roger shouts, above the wind and the rain. “What – Cora! What the hell are you doing?!”

“I can’t!” I sob. “I can’t do this, Roger! I can’t be with you like this, not if you’ll….you’ll never love

me! I can’t have you in half measures!” I look up at him then, into his face, realizing the truth of it

in that moment. “I can’t do this if you can’t take me for who I am! Human! Broken! Complicated,

difficult! Confused, and jealous, and mad pretty much all the time! If you can’t take me like that,” I

shout, begging now, “then let me go, Roger! Because I can’t –”

I glance back in the direction of the hotel, my sobbing breaths tearing at my lungs, “I can’t have

half of you. I can’t have – just…. lust. It will kill me! It will break my heart, and I’ll never survive it!”

With the last words I pound my free hand against his chest, my palm slapping wet against his

skin.

Roger stares down at me as I confess everything to him- my whole heart – listening to every

word. And then, when I’m done, when the words stop pouring from my mouth and all that’s left is

my panting breath, he tightens his arms around me, giving me an angry little shake. He clenches

mad

damn it, Cora,” Roger growls, glaring down at

then he sweeps me up in his arms, the gesture not at all sweet

incensed. “All I’ve ever wanted is all of you – my whole life,

1. it. And I was an idiot” he continues, his voice breaking, “I hesitated, and I’ll regret it until the day I

was no denying that all I want – all I’ll ever want is this

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mouth hard on mine, and my body reacts instantly, my

against him. My arms are around

open to him as every piece of me – every molecule – gives in.

screams to the universe. And god

the universe responds, lightening cracking above us, the rain

fervently too him and ravages my mouth with his kisses me

very well might be. The water rushes around his ankles,

Roger is adamant against it and something

that I’ve been a fool to run

ones comes

away

rain. Thunder cracks again as he turns back

his head at me, frustrated,

ignoring his insult, tucking my head against his shoulder and breathing hard as

him carry me back to the motel. Barely above the sound of the storm, I hear him

words with every step, something about insane women who run

met my

myself smiling, laughing a little and wrapping my arms

Because Roger is about to find out precisely

blowing in the wind, but Roger ignores the rain

through the entrance,

he moves steadily towards

mattress, a little angry and not bothering

but I laugh again – laugh, a little recklessly,

out motel bed. Laugh, because he’s so fucking mad

at ourselves and I want to tear him to pieces, and I know he wants to do the