Surrogate For Alpha Dom

I cry out as I’m pulled backwards – surprised more than hurt and suddenly I’m pressed against

him in the pouring rain. Roger holds me tight, one hand around my upper arm, the other wrapped

firmly around me, pressing my body to his

And the feel of him, of his skin hot against my own – my towel is gone, I have no idea where — I

cry harder at the feel of him and rest my forehead against his chest, because I know I can’t have it

– I can’t-

“Cora!” Roger shouts, above the wind and the rain. “What – Cora! What the hell are you doing?!”

“I can’t!” I sob. “I can’t do this, Roger! I can’t be with you like this, not if you’ll….you’ll never love

me! I can’t have you in half measures!” I look up at him then, into his face, realizing the truth of it

in that moment. “I can’t do this if you can’t take me for who I am! Human! Broken! Complicated,

difficult! Confused, and jealous, and mad pretty much all the time! If you can’t take me like that,” I

shout, begging now, “then let me go, Roger! Because I can’t –”

I glance back in the direction of the hotel, my sobbing breaths tearing at my lungs, “I can’t have

half of you. I can’t have – just…. lust. It will kill me! It will break my heart, and I’ll never survive it!”

With the last words I pound my free hand against his chest, my palm slapping wet against his

skin.

Roger stares down at me as I confess everything to him- my whole heart – listening to every

word. And then, when I’m done, when the words stop pouring from my mouth and all that’s left is

my panting breath, he tightens his arms around me, giving me an angry little shake. He clenches

that he’s mad – but I have

damn it, Cora,” Roger growls, glaring down at me.

up in his arms, the gesture not at all sweet or

of you – my whole life, I’ve been waiting

1. it. And I was an idiot” he continues, his voice breaking, “I hesitated, and I’ll regret it until the day I

because there was no denying that all I want – all I’ll ever want is this

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kisses me, his mouth hard on mine, and my body reacts instantly, my back arching

are around his

open to him as every piece of me – every molecule – gives

mine. Mine, something in me screams to the universe. And

cracking above us,

fervently too him and ravages my mouth with his kisses me like the world

it very well might be. The water rushes around his

away. But Roger is adamant against it and something fierce

it, that I’ve been a fool to

ones comes next.

face when Roger pulls away from me. “Come on,” he growls,

again as he turns back

his head at me, frustrated, and mutters

fervently, ignoring his insult, tucking my head against his shoulder and breathing hard as

above the

words with every step, something about insane women who run naked into storms and

better, because he’s met my sister, and madness is frequently genetic…

find myself smiling, laughing a little and

is about to find out

door to our motel room is hanging open, blowing in the wind,

he strides through the entrance, kicking the door

towards the bed. When we get there

mattress, a little angry and

I laugh again – laugh, a little recklessly, as I bounce against the

worn out motel bed. Laugh, because he’s so fucking mad at me, and

I want to tear him to pieces, and I