Surrogate For Alpha Dom

I cry out as I’m pulled backwards – surprised more than hurt and suddenly I’m pressed against

him in the pouring rain. Roger holds me tight, one hand around my upper arm, the other wrapped

firmly around me, pressing my body to his

And the feel of him, of his skin hot against my own – my towel is gone, I have no idea where — I

cry harder at the feel of him and rest my forehead against his chest, because I know I can’t have it

– I can’t-

“Cora!” Roger shouts, above the wind and the rain. “What – Cora! What the hell are you doing?!”

“I can’t!” I sob. “I can’t do this, Roger! I can’t be with you like this, not if you’ll….you’ll never love

me! I can’t have you in half measures!” I look up at him then, into his face, realizing the truth of it

in that moment. “I can’t do this if you can’t take me for who I am! Human! Broken! Complicated,

difficult! Confused, and jealous, and mad pretty much all the time! If you can’t take me like that,” I

shout, begging now, “then let me go, Roger! Because I can’t –”

I glance back in the direction of the hotel, my sobbing breaths tearing at my lungs, “I can’t have

half of you. I can’t have – just…. lust. It will kill me! It will break my heart, and I’ll never survive it!”

With the last words I pound my free hand against his chest, my palm slapping wet against his

skin.

Roger stares down at me as I confess everything to him- my whole heart – listening to every

word. And then, when I’m done, when the words stop pouring from my mouth and all that’s left is

my panting breath, he tightens his arms around me, giving me an angry little shake. He clenches

I can tell that he’s mad – but

Cora,” Roger growls, glaring down at me. “You’re

then he sweeps me up in his arms, the gesture not at all sweet or romantic – but possessive,

“All I’ve ever wanted is all of you – my whole life, I’ve been

1. it. And I was an idiot” he continues, his voice breaking, “I hesitated, and I’ll regret it until the day I

I want – all I’ll

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me, his mouth hard on mine, and my body reacts instantly, my back arching

pressing myself harder against him. My arms are around his neck, pulling him closer

piece of me – every molecule –

screams to the universe. And god damn

cracking above us, the rain pouring around us

my mouth with his kisses

might be. The water rushes around his

But Roger is adamant against it and something fierce

can weather it, that I’ve been a fool to run from this. That we can

ones comes next.

face when Roger pulls away from me. “Come

rain. Thunder cracks again as he turns back towards the safety of

inside. Now.” Then he shakes his head at me, frustrated, and mutters “you idiot.”

head against his shoulder and breathing hard as I

carry me back to the motel. Barely above the

with every step, something about insane women

met my sister, and madness is frequently

laughing a little and

neck. Because Roger is about to find out precisely how

motel room is hanging open, blowing in

it as he strides through the entrance, kicking the door shut behind

lock it as he moves steadily towards the bed. When we

little angry

again – laugh,

Laugh, because he’s so fucking mad at me, and me

him