Surrogate For Alpha Dom

I cry out as I’m pulled backwards – surprised more than hurt and suddenly I’m pressed against

him in the pouring rain. Roger holds me tight, one hand around my upper arm, the other wrapped

firmly around me, pressing my body to his

And the feel of him, of his skin hot against my own – my towel is gone, I have no idea where — I

cry harder at the feel of him and rest my forehead against his chest, because I know I can’t have it

– I can’t-

“Cora!” Roger shouts, above the wind and the rain. “What – Cora! What the hell are you doing?!”

“I can’t!” I sob. “I can’t do this, Roger! I can’t be with you like this, not if you’ll….you’ll never love

me! I can’t have you in half measures!” I look up at him then, into his face, realizing the truth of it

in that moment. “I can’t do this if you can’t take me for who I am! Human! Broken! Complicated,

difficult! Confused, and jealous, and mad pretty much all the time! If you can’t take me like that,” I

shout, begging now, “then let me go, Roger! Because I can’t –”

I glance back in the direction of the hotel, my sobbing breaths tearing at my lungs, “I can’t have

half of you. I can’t have – just…. lust. It will kill me! It will break my heart, and I’ll never survive it!”

With the last words I pound my free hand against his chest, my palm slapping wet against his

skin.

Roger stares down at me as I confess everything to him- my whole heart – listening to every

word. And then, when I’m done, when the words stop pouring from my mouth and all that’s left is

my panting breath, he tightens his arms around me, giving me an angry little shake. He clenches

tell that he’s mad – but

glaring down at me. “You’re

gesture not at

incensed. “All I’ve ever wanted is all of you – my whole life,

1. it. And I was an idiot” he continues, his voice breaking, “I hesitated, and I’ll regret it until the day I

was no denying that all I want –

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his mouth hard on mine, and my body reacts instantly, my

him. My arms are around his neck, pulling

to him as every piece of

something in me screams to the universe. And god damn

the universe responds, lightening cracking above us, the rain pouring around us as

him and ravages my mouth with

pieces around us, which it very well might be. The water rushes around his ankles, threatening

sweep us away. But Roger is adamant against it and

that I’ve been a fool to

ones comes

face when Roger pulls away from

again as he turns back towards the safety

you inside. Now.” Then he shakes his head

fervently, ignoring his insult, tucking my head against his shoulder and breathing hard as I

above the sound of the storm, I hear him

with every step, something about insane women who run naked

better, because he’s met my sister, and madness

smiling, laughing a little and wrapping my

to find out precisely how crazy I can really be.

motel room is hanging open, blowing in

as he strides through the entrance, kicking

bothering to lock it as he moves steadily towards the bed. When

against the mattress, a little angry and

laugh again – laugh,

Laugh, because he’s so fucking mad at me, and

mad at ourselves and I want to tear him to pieces, and I know he wants to do