Surrogate For Alpha Dom

I cry out as I’m pulled backwards – surprised more than hurt and suddenly I’m pressed against

him in the pouring rain. Roger holds me tight, one hand around my upper arm, the other wrapped

firmly around me, pressing my body to his

And the feel of him, of his skin hot against my own – my towel is gone, I have no idea where — I

cry harder at the feel of him and rest my forehead against his chest, because I know I can’t have it

– I can’t-

“Cora!” Roger shouts, above the wind and the rain. “What – Cora! What the hell are you doing?!”

“I can’t!” I sob. “I can’t do this, Roger! I can’t be with you like this, not if you’ll….you’ll never love

me! I can’t have you in half measures!” I look up at him then, into his face, realizing the truth of it

in that moment. “I can’t do this if you can’t take me for who I am! Human! Broken! Complicated,

difficult! Confused, and jealous, and mad pretty much all the time! If you can’t take me like that,” I

shout, begging now, “then let me go, Roger! Because I can’t –”

I glance back in the direction of the hotel, my sobbing breaths tearing at my lungs, “I can’t have

half of you. I can’t have – just…. lust. It will kill me! It will break my heart, and I’ll never survive it!”

With the last words I pound my free hand against his chest, my palm slapping wet against his

skin.

Roger stares down at me as I confess everything to him- my whole heart – listening to every

word. And then, when I’m done, when the words stop pouring from my mouth and all that’s left is

my panting breath, he tightens his arms around me, giving me an angry little shake. He clenches

and I can tell that he’s mad – but I have no idea why.

glaring down at me. “You’re my fucking mate.” 5

up in his arms, the gesture not at all sweet or romantic –

wanted is all of you – my whole life, I’ve been waiting for

1. it. And I was an idiot” he continues, his voice breaking, “I hesitated, and I’ll regret it until the day I

I want – all I’ll ever

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then he kisses me, his mouth hard on mine, and my body reacts instantly, my back

pressing myself harder against him. My arms are around his neck,

of me – every molecule – gives

me screams to the universe. And god damn it, if I can have

cracking above us, the rain pouring around us as

ravages my mouth with

us, which it very well might be. The water rushes

Roger is adamant against it and something fierce within me sings that he

it, that I’ve been a fool to run from this.

ones comes

Roger pulls away

rain. Thunder cracks again as he turns back towards the safety

Then he shakes his head at me, frustrated, and mutters “you

ignoring his insult, tucking my head against his shoulder and breathing hard as I

back to the motel. Barely above the

about insane women who run naked

better, because he’s met my sister, and

shocked to find myself smiling, laughing a little

about to find out precisely how crazy I can really

our motel room is hanging open, blowing in the wind,

through the entrance, kicking the door shut

lock it as he moves steadily towards the

mattress, a little angry and not bothering to

laugh, a little recklessly, as I bounce against the tired

out motel bed. Laugh, because he’s so fucking mad at

him to pieces, and I know he