Surrogate For Alpha Dom

Cora

“It’s all right,” Roger says, his eyes going wide as he takes in my pale face, my scared expression and realizes that he’s freaked me out for the third or fourth time today. “It’s not – it’s not bad, I was just kind of a dick – it was a misunderstanding –”

“What?” I ask, more confused now than ever.

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“Listen,” he says, leaning in towards me. “Just let me tell you, all right? II was going to tell you at some point, definitely not like this but…” he sighs, looking into my face and then down at my stomach, and then back up into my eyes. “I think that… if we’re going to start on this new part

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of our lives – this parent thing – well,” he says, giving me a charming little half–smile and a

shrug. “We should be on the same page, right?”

I nod, agreeing, but looking at him a little askance. “Did you not think that we should…go into our mating? On the same page?”

He sighs and runs a hand through his hair. “It’s a little different, Cora – because it didn’t matter – I didn’t think we could have kids

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I frown at him – not mad or angry, but confused…

“Listen, let me just tell it,” he says, leaning forward and looking at me with pleading eyes.

“Okay,” I say, quite simply, taking his hands and leaning even closer to press a kiss to his mouthr letting him know that I’m listening with an open heart.

“Okay,” Roger says again, taking a deep breath before he begins. “Do you remember… when you and Ella went into the desert with her mother, Regina?”

“Reina,” I correct softly, and he laughs.

“Right,” he says, shaking his head. “Those names are so easy to mix up. Anyway – you three were out on your girls trip, and my choice was either to hang out with those priests in the temple, or go back on to the ship all alone.”

Ismirk at him, knowing precisely which one he chose. He sees my smile and laughs a little.

“Yeah,” he says, grinning at me. “I chose solitude. Or at least…I thought I did.”

someone on the

desert – honestly, a little pissed off at being left

I hear this, but I don’t interrupt.

at first I thought that I was just crazy or drunk I mean, the captain gave me a little of his

focus, and he looks at me

says, his voice faltering a little, looking down at

little breathless, but some part of

his eyes wide and still a little startled by the experience. “Your mother, Cora. Except…at the time, I didn’t know she was your

keep my face steady but honestly…some part of me is a little jealous. We all met the goddess that night in the temple with Ella – Roger met her, and me, but she had only

that she only spoke to Ella in the temple, and then went to Roger later that night

disappointed. Why does she want to talk to everyone but

murmurs, reaching forward and brushing my cheek with his thumb. “It’s half of why I didn’t want to tell you, Cora,” he continues, his

past my jealousy

bodily form,” he says, “like she did in the temple. Instead, it was just…a vision of sorts, more like the baptism but…not quite.” He shakes his head a little, at a loss

squeeze his hands again, letting him know that it’s okay. That he can tell me. So

not in war and politics, as my brother’s was – and you have to realize, that that was devastating to hear at the time, considering that we were in a war – and Dominic had just made me

on nothing else but

to know how to phrase it – because it wasn’t precisely words – but that for the future of the world, I had to

children, and being a dad, and raising my kids well to be leaders

And then I lean forward, finally getting it.

tightly. “And it fucking broke my heart to do it because I loved you I was obsessed with you, you know

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to me I didn’t even care

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dying to be a dad, not me

say again, my eyes going wide.

“I’m fucking it all up, Cora – I’m thrilled that you’re pregnant, and not just because the goddess told me to be. I want –” He pauses He pauses his confused language

me, pausing to ensure that I hear him,

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get it. Honestly, I’m kind of in the same boat – I was likewise unsure if I wanted kids. But the moment I really understood

nothing else I wanted in

me,” I whisper, “because you thought…my mom

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he again runs his hand through his hair. “I was totally freaked out I didn’t want to, but when a goddess tells you to do something you feel