Tangled Love

My life is a complete mess. I don't have control over anything. Everything good slips away from my fingertips before I have a chance to keep hold of it forever. After spending years living in fear and unable to love or trust, I want it to end so I can be happy.

I don't stop walk until my chest and legs burn from the pain and I glance around, finding myself in the cemetery. I breathe in deeply, letting oxygen into my lungs and make my way along the route I have memorised.

I stop when I get to his grave and fall onto my knees, wiping the tears away. I don't want him to know I've been crying. I silently push away the branches and leaves, feeling guilty for abandoning him, Once I'm done, my fingers stroke over the carving - loving father. I let out a small sob, unable to control the pain anymore. It's taking over my chest, becoming unbearable.

If he was here, he'd tell me what to do. He always had a reasonable solution to everything. When he was alive, my life was full of love and happiness. It's crazy how one accident has the ability to change your entire life, rip away your happiness in seconds.

I sniffle, wiping away the tears on my cheeks. The wind whips around me harshly but I'm numb to the cold, numb to everything. Loneliness is a feeling I've

grown accustomed to but right now, it's hitting me harder than ever before.

"I just want you back Dad." I whisper, pulling my knees into my chest.

It's been hours.

Darkness surrounds me and everything is eerily quiet. I lay weak next to my fathers grave and feel comforted, almost as if his presence is around me. I feel my phone vibrate again and I pull it out of my back pockets, squinting at the brightness of the screen. Jake has messaged and rang me multiple times.

over his text, each one becoming more frantic.

me where you are.

my phone off.

to anyone. Right now all I want is to be left alone.

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Jake's POV-

phone as I wait for her reply. I check everywhere I can think of but she's nowhere to be found. My fists clench as I remember how Tobias made her feel. Overtime my

truth is I'm

experience when

never get close to a girl again, never let her into my heart but slowly Emily is breaking that vow. The pain in her eyes flashes through my

It's been

out of my jacket, frowning at the name on the

"Hello?" I answer.

the cemetery."

Amil's smooth voice

he know that?

 I ask him, a deep frown on my face. He

I wouldn't follow her