Tattooed Luna Novel

Chapter 0371

“He wanted you to be strong and hold your own.”

“That is one way to look at it. The other would be he was mean and abused me.”

“Do you really think that was his true intention?” I asked.

“Do you really think whatever you are fighting with Colt about his true intention?” That stopped me in my tracks. The fork was half way to my mouth and now it just hung in the air. “It’s clear you been crying. There are two ways of looking at things. Are you only considering. your view or are you trying to see things from his perspective?”

The way she flipped that around was impressive. However, shel wasn’t wrong. Alec literally did everything he thought was needed. It might not have been enough but in his mind he did what he needed to. Would I have done anything differently? She was limited on her outings. Bodyguards and even closed her business.

Colt was doing everything he needed to. Although what I said wasn’t wrong, it was how I felt. Colt probably took that as I didn’t have any faith in him ability to protect me. Which, wasn’t true at all but Kris had faith she was safe too.

“So, do you feel like you are having a boy or girl?” Cassie pulled me out of my thoughts with a whole new topic.

“Actually, I am starting to have a feeling there are two in there.” That was the first time I said it out loud.

“Twins! That would be amazing. Why do you feel like that?” Cassie was smiling. Setting down her fork, she pushed her plate away and leaned back.
“Just a feeling I have. My stomach is much better than Kristen’s and she is a little ahead of me.”

“Everyone grows at different rates. I showed very early with you.” Cassie nodded as she spoke.

“I haven’t decided if I am enjoying this or not. It’s weird. My body isn’t really my body right now. Everything feels different. Things taste different, clothes fit different and I smell things differently. I don’t even recognize this person right now.”

“Pregnancy is both hard and beautiful. Some women actually hate being pregnant.”

“Really?”

“Oh yeah. Especially the ones that having bad morning sickness but some start swelling at eight weeks. It isn’t always sunshine and rainbows.”

“Did you enjoy being pregnant?” I asked.

“Well, that wasn’t exactly a high point in my life. I was happy I was pregnant but scared for your safety. I think I would have enjoyed being pregnant more if I was able to wear the cute pregnancy clothes and show my belly off at social events. Rip kept me in the bedroom and denied me access to the outside world. If I was able to get out, I was usually cleaning or something.

“Oh.” I wasn’t sure what to say.

“When you were born, my heart broke with how much I loved you. So perfect and tiny. Giving you to Zac was the hardest thing I have ever done and I’ve done some…..questionable things.”