Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA's POV 

We arrived at lan's family home, but we had to sneak ourselves in so we wouldn't wake up his mom.  I didn’t know much about lan and his family, he didn’t talk about them often.

All I knew was that his dad had passed away in a car accident and her mom never got remarried.

He also had a younger sister who was still in college.

 The house was a lovely two story white brick building.

The living room was filled with all sorts of pictures and memories of lan’s childhood, and I couldn't get enough of it.

lan was so, so adorable.

He played little league when he was 10, and there were pictures of him and his family when he was young scattered everywhere.

Weirdly enough, there weren't any pictures of him as a teenager though.

"Come here,"lan whispered, motioning for me to follow him up the stairs.

We made it to the second floor and he went into the first room up the stairs.I couldn't believe my eyes as I stepped inside the room.It was lan’s childhood bedroom.

There were posters of bands on the wall, his old comic books scattered on the desk, and a lot of art sketches everywhere.

I felt like I was meeting sixteen-year-old lan.

"I would have cleaned the room if I knew you were coming,"he joked as he watched my expression.

"This is fine.It’s great,"I said as I took note of all the books on his shelves.

"I can sleep on the couch if you want,"he motioned for the bed.

It was a queen-sized bed, big enough for two.So I quickly shook my head.

"You can sleep here too, if you want,"He didn't say anything but he nodded his head a little.

"I'll find you something to change,"he said as he turned for the dresser.

He pulled out a black t-shirt with The Ramones logo on it and handed it to me.

"Will this do?"he asked.

"Sure, thanks,"I said as I took the shirt.

He then raided the bottom drawer for some boxer shorts and handed one to me.

"Sorry, it’s all I got,"

"No worries,"

I paused for a beat before asking, "Uh, bathroom?"

He pointed to the en-suite door and I made my way inside.

It was funny.

lan had seen me naked before, but I was feeling embarrassed to change in front of him.  Why am I so nervous? After putting his t-shirt on me, I couldn't help but smile at my reflection.

I love seeing his oversized shirt draped on my body and I love that I could smell his scent with every breath I took.

When I finished changing and I cleaned up a bit, I opened the door and found lan already on the bed.

He was shirtless, he wore nothing but some joggers that hung low on his hips.

His toned and muscular body was leaning against the headboard and my eyes scanned the tattoos covering his arm and chest.

"You alright there?"he said suddenly, causing me to blush and look away.

"You're not gonna wear a shirt?"I asked

"My shirt looks better on you,"he smirked in reply.

Oh gosh, I’m a goner, aren't I? 

here,"he patted the empty

way over and as soon as I climbed onto the bed, lan pulled me in his arms and held me

to his chest and his arms circled me

kiss on the top of my head, and I could only close

to the side and opened my eyes, I was facing his bare chest and

had always wondered about it but I never got

this mean? Cogito

I am.It's a

the meaning for you? I mean, it must mean something, you had

and it’s already late.I

to.Plus, we have all the time in the world...or at least, six more hours,"I said and he let

"Okay..."

"I never told anyone this before, but there was a time in my life where I felt so hopeless and that life was so pointless.I was around 18 or 19.I thought about ending it all.But then, the fact that I was thinking at all about my existence tells me that I exist.And as long as I keep having questions and thinking about my existence, I can have a reason to keep living.So I got this tattoo as a reminder to keep thinking

his past, he always said it

old lan, alone in this room, contemplating on ending it

said and turned his

using my hand I reached for his face and turned it back

around today to tell me about

curved up his face as he

for my chin and he rubbed his thumb

"Llove you, Emma,"

 My mind went blank

that at all and I never knew

warm and big and butterflies were flying

stop myself from smiling even when

could do at this point was to look up at him and say, "I love you too, lan Hayes,"  The next thing I knew, his

kissed so many times before already, but this

was like our souls were finally freed after

made out for the longest time, just savoring each other through

on

kissing the sweet spot on

other and we wanted to

made love

love’ because now I finally knew what

just having sex because we both knew it came from

the sight of the sun rising behind lan’s gorgeous

couldn't keep my eyes

long time, we lay facing each other but none

didn’t want to blink

I had ever

the

signs of lan’s body next to mine, but there was nothing but

around the room—I was completely alone in

of my phone buzzing

staggered up the bed and grabbed the vibrating device, and I almost choked

of missed calls and messages

if we were still going to drive back today at 10

them up and told them everything was fine and that we were still going to go

shared my location with them and they were on their way to pick

my phone away and went to the en-suite to find my

out of lan’s shirt, but I didn’t wanna

I wore my jeans and

so it wouldn't be too

called out from the

walked out instinctively and

a plain white shirt

come I didn’t hear it? "lan, why didn’t you

said as I scrambled

I'm stealing your

"Keep

hoping you’d miss the time and stay for another day.Shameless of me.I know,"I smiled at his

be told, I was

okay.I understand

wish I can keep you around a little longer.My