Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA's POV 

We arrived at lan's family home, but we had to sneak ourselves in so we wouldn't wake up his mom.  I didn’t know much about lan and his family, he didn’t talk about them often.

All I knew was that his dad had passed away in a car accident and her mom never got remarried.

He also had a younger sister who was still in college.

 The house was a lovely two story white brick building.

The living room was filled with all sorts of pictures and memories of lan’s childhood, and I couldn't get enough of it.

lan was so, so adorable.

He played little league when he was 10, and there were pictures of him and his family when he was young scattered everywhere.

Weirdly enough, there weren't any pictures of him as a teenager though.

"Come here,"lan whispered, motioning for me to follow him up the stairs.

We made it to the second floor and he went into the first room up the stairs.I couldn't believe my eyes as I stepped inside the room.It was lan’s childhood bedroom.

There were posters of bands on the wall, his old comic books scattered on the desk, and a lot of art sketches everywhere.

I felt like I was meeting sixteen-year-old lan.

"I would have cleaned the room if I knew you were coming,"he joked as he watched my expression.

"This is fine.It’s great,"I said as I took note of all the books on his shelves.

"I can sleep on the couch if you want,"he motioned for the bed.

It was a queen-sized bed, big enough for two.So I quickly shook my head.

"You can sleep here too, if you want,"He didn't say anything but he nodded his head a little.

"I'll find you something to change,"he said as he turned for the dresser.

He pulled out a black t-shirt with The Ramones logo on it and handed it to me.

"Will this do?"he asked.

"Sure, thanks,"I said as I took the shirt.

He then raided the bottom drawer for some boxer shorts and handed one to me.

"Sorry, it’s all I got,"

"No worries,"

I paused for a beat before asking, "Uh, bathroom?"

He pointed to the en-suite door and I made my way inside.

It was funny.

lan had seen me naked before, but I was feeling embarrassed to change in front of him.  Why am I so nervous? After putting his t-shirt on me, I couldn't help but smile at my reflection.

I love seeing his oversized shirt draped on my body and I love that I could smell his scent with every breath I took.

When I finished changing and I cleaned up a bit, I opened the door and found lan already on the bed.

He was shirtless, he wore nothing but some joggers that hung low on his hips.

His toned and muscular body was leaning against the headboard and my eyes scanned the tattoos covering his arm and chest.

"You alright there?"he said suddenly, causing me to blush and look away.

"You're not gonna wear a shirt?"I asked

"My shirt looks better on you,"he smirked in reply.

Oh gosh, I’m a goner, aren't I? 

the empty space next

soon as I climbed onto the bed, lan pulled me in his arms and

his chest and his arms circled me

soft kiss on the top of my head, and I could only close my eyes as he felt

my eyes, I was facing his

wondered about it but I never got a chance

this mean? Cogito Ergo

I am.It's a

I mean, it must mean something,

a long story and it’s already late.I don’t know if you wanna

in the world...or at least, six more hours,"I said and he let out

"Okay..."

took a deep breath before continuing, "I never told anyone this before, but there was a time in my life where I felt so hopeless and that life was so pointless.I was around 18 or 19.I thought about ending it all.But then, the fact that I was thinking at all about my existence tells me that I exist.And as long as I keep having questions and thinking about my existence, I can have a reason to keep living.So I got this tattoo as a reminder to keep thinking and keep going,"  I didn’t know

never talked to me about his past, he

was breaking at the thought of eighteen year old lan, alone in this room, contemplating on ending it

stupid.It's whatever,"he said and turned

deep,"I said quickly, using my hand I

you're still around today

up his face as he heard my response.And his smile

for my chin and he rubbed his thumb gently

"Llove you, Emma,"

 My mind went blank for a

at all and I never knew how four little words could hold so

felt warm and big and butterflies were flying

smiling even when I bit

could do at this point was to look up at him and say, "I love you too, lan Hayes,"  The

before already, but

like our souls were finally freed after being

time, just savoring each

on his chest and rock

stop kissing the sweet spot on my

had hours left for each other and we wanted to make sure that

made love that

use the words ‘ made love’ because now I finally knew

came from a place of

the sight of the sun rising behind lan’s gorgeous

couldn't keep my eyes open for another

a long time, we lay facing each other but

we didn’t want to blink and

was...the sweetest thing that I had ever

eyes next, the sun was already high up

lan’s body next to mine, but there was nothing

jerked up and looked around the room—I was

could hear the sound of my phone buzzing from

vibrating device, and I almost choked on air as I saw the time, it was

calls and messages all from

still going to drive back today at

and told them everything was fine and that we were still going to

with them and they were

phone away and

lan’s shirt, but I didn’t wanna take it

jeans and kept his t-shirt on

the shirt together so it wouldn't be too baggy over my

out from the

walked out instinctively and found him

dressed, wearing a plain white shirt and

take a shower and how come I didn’t hear it? "lan, why didn’t you wake me? I

as I scrambled to

your shirt, by

  "Keep it,"he

you, you look so tired.And I was hoping you’d miss the time and stay for another day.Shameless of me.I know,"I

be told, I was hoping the

okay.I understand the

around a little longer.My mom really wants to