Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

"Elliot...I...l.."

I took a deep breath and steadied myself, finally saying, "I'm sorry, but I can't give you an answer right now.This is a lot and it’s serious and I have to think about it first..."

"Oh,"his mouth formed an ‘O’ and the look of hope and excitement in his eyes faded into disappointment.

"I have no idea you're even considering something like this.You never even told me about it,"

I said to him.

"That's what I'm doing now, I'm telling you.This is what I want,"he paused for a beat before continuing, "Is this not what you want?"

"l...I mean, it’s a big step..."I stammered.

"I’m just turning twenty-two this year...and I may look like it, but I don’t feel like an adult.I still feel like I'm just a child and I don’t even know what my life is gonna be like a month from now.You know what I mean?"

"I understand,"

Elliott put his gaze down and sighed.

He closed the little velvet box and shoved it back into his jacket pocket.

The air suddenly felt cold and I could hear the faint whispers and murmurs of the people watching us.

I didn’t dare to look, I was afraid I'd be faced with judgmental eyes or pity smiles.

"Ehem,"

Tristan coughed awkwardly as he stepped towards us.

I was glad that he decided to come in at this point.

He was saving us from the awkward ‘now what’ conversation.

"You got your hot dogs?"I said to him.

"Yup..."he replied.

"So...uh, is there any other place we should go to before we head back?"I said to both Elliott and Tristan.

I was trying to make the situation as calm and as normal as possible, but Elliott wasn’t buying into it.

"I think I'll just go home,"he said, pausing for a moment before continuing, "You two can keep going, I'll take the train back.I could use the time to think,"

"Are you sure...?"I asked cautiously.

"Yes.I'll see you at home,"

he let out a small smile and leaned towards me for a kiss.

I didn’t move away, and I thought he was going to kiss me on the lips, but he kissed me on the cheek instead.

I didn't say another word.

I just watched quietly as Elliott turned around and walked out of the park.

Meanwhile, Tristan was studying my face intently and he let out a long deep sigh once Elliott was out of sight.

"Whoa, E, what in the world happened just now?"

"I don’t know, T.I don’t know where this is coming from.We never talked about marriage or anything like that.Elliott’s just always so...unpredictable," I started babbling out of control.

"It’s like Paris all over again.We never talked about being together, but suddenly he wants to come follow me to the States.And okay, so he wants to have a relationship with me, I can handle that.But this? A marriage? All of a sudden? Like...how?"

I only stopped talking to catch my breath.

Tristan fished out a bottle of water from his hot dog doggie bag and handed it to me, he knew full well that I was thirsty after all that ranting.

I quickly took it from him and gulped down half the bottle at one go.

All this talk about marriage was suddenly making me dizzy and dehydrated.

"I'm not ready for a marriage, T.I mean, look at me, I can barely walk in high heels!"

I continued the rant as Tristan laughed.

"I just got out a super heavy relationship with lan and all I wanted was something easy and light and fun, not a marriage!"

"To be fair, you and lan broke up, what almost two years ago?"

Tristan raised an eyebrow.

for almost a year.You can’t

but a marriage? Really?"I

of months!" Tristan wasn't buying

his eyes at me, he asked, "Is age really the thing that’s standing

been through this before, T.I know not to make the same mistake again twice,"I

you

Elliott's proposal is more of a Hail Mary to

you get that

faced

few times before saying, "With

bitterly and

he broke up with me because he thought he was doing me a favor.But being apart from each other, he realized

"And...what happened?"

to U Penn and started college, and he moved to New York City to start the gallery.And I guess you know the rest of

"I see..."

is not some Band-Aid you put on the relationship, thinking it's

a true

and

one of us is finding this situation amusing," I rolled

you gonna

I want to tell him, but I just don’t have the right words for now.But, I'll get there.I just need to take

quiet for a beat, but suddenly he said, "Hey

"Hmm?"

you love

"Of course!"

and

a yearlong relationship with a man I

lan together, and the way you look at him compared

Tristan argued.

lot

I stammered a little.

I love you and

way you love lan?"Tristan was quick to

"Exactly..."I admitted in defeat.

looked at me with an expression I

Why are you looking

I said love, not

just

me you're talking to.You don't have

face and

loud, that I was still hopelessly in love with a guy that left me almost

I gonna do? I’m

"If I say no to Elliott, it might be

I'm lying to myself and to him too, and that’s not

it’s not that I don't love

before, I'm scared of

the way he deserves to be loved,

things out? To

much.Does that sound

don't know, E.What if you never get

him as much as you

thing I'm afraid

didn’t have a comeback

continued walking

T, will you do me a favor?"I said after a

"Anything,"he said quickly.

homme? He’s alone in a foreign place, he

him company tonight? I just need to take a walk and reorganize

nodded reassuringly, "Sure,

"Thanks, T,"

he ran towards the direction that Elliott took, he turned back to me

each other,

and he nodded

second,

I was left alone with my loud,

about

at the street sign, I realized I was

much when your mind was clouded

my old ritual of

it down or anything, but it was all in

be honest, there were a lot more pros than cons to saying yes to

genuinely a really good guy

a stable