Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

she said, "Do you want some of

was probably her

psychiatrist and he prescribed her some meds that would help her

eyes were glued to the pills as I

that,"I said as

lightly, it's kinda strong,"she warned,

had already popped two or maybe

pills with the remaining shot of

done, I looked up at Ally and her

She was right.

That shit was strong.

thing I knew,

up to

seeing things,

I was completely delirious.

a while to make sense of

lying naked on a

bed,

it was dimly

couldn't see who she was because she was leaning down and her long brown hair was

I felt a hand gripping my hard length and a warm, wet

and wiped a strand of hair away from

up at me and I recognized those eyes

care of you,"she said.Not waiting for me to respond, her mouth was back on my length

the tip down to the base, leaving hot,

a moment there, I

on her mouth and I was

I was seeing Emma.

was Emma's lips on my

Those were Emma's hands.

those were Emma’s eyes

was so happy to see her, I let go of

my length, taking me deeper and deeper as her hand continued massaging the

I was a

huge load of cum into her mouth and she swallowed all

felt this way in a long time, it

looked up

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

pushed Ally off of

the edge of the bed

is a

groaned as my hand

images from earlier tonight flooded my

remembered blacking out in the

remembered Ally hailing a cab and taking me

on her bed and then she climbed on top of

she took off my shoes, then my belt, and everything else until I was butt

was still struggling with those images when

life and her other hand unclasped her bra, revealing her full set of breasts as they

pushed her away

"Why?"she whined.

be enjoying it five seconds

I want!"I hissed through gritted

clothes all crumpled on the floor, I used all my

silence as I slid

with her

been almost a year, lan, don’t you think

tone was laced

you to get over Richard?"I said as

I've always known he’s not the

"What do you mean?"

started moving towards me, saying, "Deep down inside, I've always known you're

"Ally..."I warned.

she was about to

together, I never had time for him anymore.I stopped giving him attention, and he figured it out.He knew I was still in love with you— am

until her lips were inches

quickly went up to stop

her chest, right on her

lightly at the contact, but I was only doing that

sighed in exasperation and got up as soon

fooled around, like what, in high school? You can’t possibly

with you all

am I here with you in this city

you were done with the corporate world.You wanted to be an

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

left everything in Jersey for you.I left Richard, I left my work, I left my

I never asked you

never asked me for it, but I wanna do it because I wanna be with you!

didn’t expect that

Ally was

to me, I'd trust her

the same thing

bed and her hand reached for my face, saying, "I meant what I said that night at the

were pleading with

breath and exhaled a long

was on my face, and slowly I

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"