Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

want some of this? It'll

probably her

her some meds that would help her with

the pills as I

that,"I said as I

it's kinda strong,"she warned, but she was too

popped two or maybe three of them in

with the remaining shot

up at Ally and her face

She was right.

That shit was strong.

thing I knew, I had

up to

my eyes were seeing

I was completely delirious.

while to make sense

naked on

my bed, someone else’s

in a bedroom and it was dimly

she was because she was leaning down and her long brown hair was covering her

hand gripping my hard length and

for this girl and wiped a

and I recognized those

me to respond, her mouth was back on my

tip down to the base, leaving hot, wet trails of

there, I couldn’t

fixed on her mouth and I was

I was seeing Emma.

Emma's lips on

Those were Emma's hands.

eyes looking back at

her, I let go of all

her head up and down my length, taking me deeper and deeper as her hand continued

I was

into her

hadn't felt this way in a long time, it was

finished swallowing, she looked up at me and I

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

off

sitting on the edge of the bed with nothing but

this is a

hand went to

head was spinning as images from earlier tonight flooded my

remembered blacking out

Ally hailing a cab and taking

her bed and then she

then

with those images when I

stroking my length back to life and her other hand unclasped her bra, revealing her full

pushed her

"Why?"she whined.

to be enjoying it

you're not who I

I used all my strength to roll to

silence as I slid

there with her chest

almost a year, lan, don’t you think it’s time for you

laced with

you to get over Richard?"I said

guess I've always known he’s

"What do you mean?"

and she started moving towards me, saying,

"Ally..."I warned.

as she was about to

the reason why Richard and I ended our engagement.Since we started working together, I never had time for him anymore.I stopped giving

until her lips were inches away from

hand quickly went up to

by her chest, right on

the contact, but I was only doing that to shove her

got up as soon

in high school? You can’t

with you all this

lan? Why am I here with you in this city

said you were done with the corporate world.You wanted to be

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

in Jersey for you.I left Richard, I left my work,

never

but I wanna do it because

I didn’t expect that

always thought of Ally was one of

me, I'd

was the same thing for

and her hand reached for my face, saying, "I meant what I said that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just

eyes were pleading

deep breath and exhaled a

that was on my face, and slowly I peeled

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"