Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

the tube in front of me, she said, "Do you want some of

probably

a psychiatrist and he prescribed her some meds that would help her with sleeping and

pills

said as I

lightly, it's kinda strong,"she warned, but she

maybe three of them in my

the pills with the remaining

I was done, I looked up at Ally and her face began

She was right.

That shit was strong.

next thing I knew, I had

woke up to hot

was heavy, my eyes were seeing things, and

I was completely delirious.

while to make sense

naked

my bed,

it was dimly lit, obviously, it wasn't my

straddling my knee, and I couldn't see who she was because she was leaning down and her long brown hair was covering

gripping my hard length and a warm,

reached for this girl and wiped a strand of hair

at me and I recognized those

said.Not waiting for me to respond, her mouth was back on

tip down to the

there, I

were fixed on her mouth

I was seeing Emma.

was Emma's lips on

Those were Emma's hands.

eyes

see her, I let

length, taking me deeper and deeper as her hand continued massaging the

seconds, I

huge load of cum into her mouth and she swallowed

felt this way in a long time, it was

when she finished swallowing, she looked up at me and I

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

pushed Ally off

wrong?"she was taken aback, sitting on the edge of the bed with nothing but her bra

this is

groaned as my hand

spinning as images from earlier

out in the

remembered Ally hailing a cab and taking me

and then she

took off my shoes, then my belt, and everything

struggling with those images when I felt

to life and her other hand unclasped her bra, revealing her full set

stop it!"I pushed her away

"Why?"she whined.

seemed to be enjoying it five seconds

not who I want!"I hissed through

the floor, I used all my

watched in silence as I slid my boxers

sitting there with

been almost a year, lan, don’t you think it’s time for you to move

was laced

to get over Richard?"I said as I slipped my

always

"What do you mean?"

up her face and she started moving towards me, saying, "Deep down inside, I've always

"Ally..."I warned.

caught her hand as she

and I ended our engagement.Since we started working together, I never had time for him anymore.I stopped giving him attention, and he

until her lips were

hand quickly went up

caught her by her

contact, but I was

up as soon as I could find my

like what, in high school? You can’t possibly

in love with you all this time?"she

I here with you in

world.You wanted to be an

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

everything in Jersey for you.I left Richard, I left my work, I

I never

for it, but I wanna do it because I wanna

expect that at

Ally was one of my closest

to me, I'd trust her with my

thought I was the

I said that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just as friends...Isn't there any way you

were pleading with

breath and exhaled a

grip her hand that was on

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"