Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

said, "Do you want some of this?

was probably

seeing a psychiatrist and he prescribed her

glued to the pills

what, give me that,"I said as I reached for the

kinda strong,"she warned, but

two or maybe three

remaining shot

I looked up at Ally

She was right.

That shit was strong.

thing I knew, I

woke up

my eyes were seeing things, and my body was  rendered

I was completely delirious.

took me a while to make sense

lying naked on a

my bed, someone else’s

in a bedroom and it was dimly lit, obviously, it

I couldn't see who she was because she was leaning down and her long brown

I felt a hand gripping my hard length and a warm,

and wiped a strand of

and I

me to respond, her mouth

down to the base, leaving hot,

a moment there,

her mouth and

I was seeing Emma.

was Emma's lips on

Those were Emma's hands.

were Emma’s eyes looking

happy to see her, I let go

up and down my length, taking me deeper and deeper as her hand

I was a

load of cum into her

in a long time,

swallowing, she looked up

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

off of

of

is

groaned as my hand went to rub my

spinning as images from earlier tonight flooded

remembered blacking out in

hailing a cab and taking

down on her bed and then she climbed on top of

taking off her dress, she took off my shoes, then my belt, and everything

images when I felt Ally’s hand on

she started stroking my length back to life and her other

it!"I pushed her away

"Why?"she whined.

seemed to be enjoying it five seconds

who I want!"I hissed through

all crumpled on the floor, I used all my strength to

watched in silence as I slid

was just sitting there with her

you think it’s

tone was laced with jealousy and

did it take you to get over Richard?"I said as I slipped my shirt

too long.I guess I've always known

"What do you mean?"

slowly curved up her face and she started moving towards me,

"Ally..."I warned.

as she was

together, I never had time for him anymore.I stopped giving him attention, and he figured it out.He knew I was still in love with you— am still in love

she lunged forward until her

went up

by her chest,

the contact, but I was only doing that to shove her

got up as soon as I

we fooled around, like what, in high school? You

in love with you

you think, lan? Why am I here with you in this city doing

done with the corporate world.You wanted to be an entrepreneur and start your

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

left everything in Jersey for you.I left Richard, I left

I never asked you

know.You never asked me for it, but I wanna do it because I wanna be

expect

was one

was like family to me, I'd trust her with my

I was the same thing

she got up from the bed and her hand reached for my face, saying, "I meant what I said that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just as friends...Isn't there any way you can see me the same

were

breath and exhaled

grip her hand that was on my face, and

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"