Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

in front of me, she said, "Do you want some of this? It'll help you get a

was probably

a psychiatrist and he prescribed her some

glued to the pills as I thought

give me that,"I said

kinda strong,"she warned, but

popped two or maybe three of them

pills with the remaining shot of whiskey in

I was done, I looked up at Ally and her face began to

She was right.

That shit was strong.

thing I knew,

woke up to

were seeing things, and my body was 

I was completely delirious.

while

was lying naked on a

bed, someone else’s

it was dimly lit, obviously, it wasn't

couldn't see who she was because she was leaning down and her long brown hair was covering

and a warm,

reached for this girl and wiped a strand

up at me and I

me to

rolled from the tip down to the base,

a moment there, I

her mouth and I was caught in

I was seeing Emma.

was Emma's lips on

Those were Emma's hands.

eyes looking back at

was so happy to see her, I let go

head up and down my length, taking me deeper and deeper as her

seconds, I was

released a huge load of cum into her mouth and she swallowed

felt this way in a long time,

she finished swallowing, she looked up at me

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

pushed Ally off of

aback, sitting on the edge of

this is

my hand went to rub my

as images from earlier tonight

out in

a

me down on her bed and then she climbed on top of

taking off her dress, she took off my shoes, then

still struggling with those images when I

life and her other hand

it!"I pushed her

"Why?"she whined.

seemed to be enjoying it

not who I want!"I

floor, I used all my strength to roll

I slid my boxers and pants back

was just sitting there with her chest completely

a year, lan, don’t you think it’s time for

was laced with

long did it take you to get over Richard?"I said as

always known he’s

"What do you mean?"

face and she started moving towards me, saying, "Deep down

"Ally..."I warned.

hand as she

started working together, I never had time for

all her strength, she lunged forward until her lips were

hand quickly went up

by her chest, right on her

contact, but I was only doing that to shove her

sighed in exasperation and got up as soon as I could find my

like what, in high school? You can’t

in love with you

I here with you in this city doing this

world.You wanted to be an entrepreneur and

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

in Jersey for you.I left Richard,

never

but I wanna do it because

didn’t expect that at

thought of Ally was one

to me, I'd

was the same thing for

"I meant what I said that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just as friends...Isn't there any way you can see me the

eyes were pleading

breath and exhaled

that was on

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"