Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

said, "Do you want some of this? It'll help you get a good night

was probably her

had been seeing a psychiatrist and he prescribed her some meds that would help her with

glued to the pills

what, give me that,"I said

strong,"she warned, but she was too

already popped two or maybe three of

downed the pills with the remaining shot of whiskey in

I was done, I looked up at Ally and her face began

She was right.

That shit was strong.

thing I knew, I had blacked

woke up

were seeing things,

I was completely delirious.

a while

lying naked on

bed, someone else’s

and it was dimly

there was a girl straddling my knee, and I couldn't see who she was because she was leaning down and her long brown

a hand gripping my hard length and

girl and wiped a strand of hair away from

at me and I

okay, I'll take care of you,"she said.Not waiting for me to respond, her mouth

tongue rolled from the tip down to the base, leaving hot, wet

a moment there,

her mouth

I was seeing Emma.

lips

Those were Emma's hands.

those were Emma’s eyes looking

was so happy to see her,

her head up and down my length, taking me deeper and

seconds, I

into her mouth and she swallowed

hadn't felt this way in a long time,

she looked up at me and I realized it wasn't

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

pushed Ally off of me

of

is a

groaned as my hand

images from earlier tonight flooded

blacking out in the

Ally hailing a cab and taking

down on her bed and then she climbed on top of

my shoes, then my belt, and everything else until I

those images when I felt Ally’s

to life and her other hand unclasped her bra, revealing her full set of breasts as they

pushed her away

"Why?"she whined.

to be enjoying it

who I want!"I hissed through

crumpled on the floor, I used all my strength to roll to the side and grabbed them

as I slid my boxers and pants

sitting there with her chest completely bare to

been almost a year, lan, don’t you think it’s time for you to move

was laced with

it take you to get over Richard?"I said as

guess I've always known he’s

"What do you mean?"

curved up her face and she started moving towards me, saying,

"Ally..."I warned.

hand as she was about

the reason why Richard and I ended our engagement.Since we started working together, I never had time for him

she lunged forward until her lips were inches

quickly went up

her by her chest, right on her

I was only doing that to

exasperation and got up as soon as

fooled around, like what, in high school?

love with you all this

am I here with you in this city doing

corporate world.You wanted to be an entrepreneur

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

for you.I left Richard, I left my work, I left

I never asked

it because I wanna be with you! That’s how much

expect that

Ally was one of my

to me, I'd trust

the

she got up from the bed and her hand reached for my face, saying, "I meant what I said that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just as

eyes were pleading

took a deep breath and exhaled

was on my face, and slowly I

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"