Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

in front of me, she said, "Do you want some of this? It'll help you get a good night

probably

psychiatrist and he prescribed her some meds that would help her with

the pills as I thought

that,"I said

it's kinda strong,"she warned,

two or maybe three of them in

pills with the remaining shot

was done, I looked up at

She was right.

That shit was strong.

thing I knew, I had

woke up to

seeing things, and my

I was completely delirious.

a while

naked on a

my bed, someone

was in a bedroom and it was dimly lit, obviously, it wasn't

she was because she was leaning down and her long brown hair was covering

hard length and a warm, wet mouth

reached for this girl and wiped a strand of hair away from

at me and I recognized those eyes

of you,"she said.Not waiting for me to respond, her mouth

from the tip down to the base, leaving hot,

there,

fixed on her mouth and I was caught in

I was seeing Emma.

lips on

Those were Emma's hands.

Emma’s eyes

to see her, I let go of all

me deeper

I was

load of cum into her mouth and she swallowed all of

hadn't felt this way in a long time,

when she finished swallowing, she looked up

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

off of me

edge of the bed with

this is

groaned as my hand went to

images from

blacking out in the

hailing a cab

lay me down on her bed and

her dress, she took off my shoes, then my belt, and everything else until I

images when I felt

life and her other hand unclasped

pushed

"Why?"she whined.

be enjoying it

you're not who I want!"I hissed

all my

watched in silence as I slid my boxers and pants back

with her

you think it’s time for you

laced with jealousy and

take you to get over Richard?"I said as

long.I guess I've always known he’s

"What do you mean?"

her face and she started moving towards me, saying, "Deep down inside, I've always

"Ally..."I warned.

she was about to reach

true.I never told you this before, but you’re the reason why Richard and I ended our engagement.Since we started working together, I never had time for him anymore.I stopped giving him attention, and he figured it out.He knew I was still in love with you— am still in love

until her lips

quickly went up

her by her chest, right

at the contact, but I was only doing that to

and got up as

what, in high school? You can’t

love with you all this

am I here with you in this

wanted to

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

for you.I left Richard, I left my work,

I never asked

it because I wanna be with you!

I didn’t expect

thought of Ally was one of my

to me, I'd trust

the same thing

that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just as friends...Isn't there any way you can

were pleading with

breath

hand went to grip her hand that was on my face, and slowly I peeled

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"