Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

said, "Do you want some of this?

probably

prescribed her some meds

were glued to the pills as

know what, give me that,"I said as I

it's kinda strong,"she warned, but she was too

or maybe

with the remaining shot

done, I looked up at

She was right.

That shit was strong.

thing I knew,

up to

seeing things, and

I was completely delirious.

while to make sense

was lying naked

my bed, someone

bedroom and it was dimly lit, obviously, it

was a girl straddling my knee, and I couldn't see who she was because she was leaning down and her long brown hair was covering her

and a

hand reached for this girl and wiped a strand of hair away from her

at me and I recognized those

for me to respond,

tip down to

there, I couldn’t

fixed on her mouth and I was caught in

I was seeing Emma.

Emma's lips on my

Those were Emma's hands.

eyes looking back

was so happy to see her,

my length, taking me deeper and deeper as her hand continued

seconds, I was

of cum into

a long time,

when she finished swallowing, she looked up at

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

pushed Ally off of me

edge of the bed with

this is

groaned as my hand

spinning as images from earlier tonight

blacking out in the

hailing a cab and taking me

down on her bed and then

shoes, then my belt, and everything else until I was butt

still struggling with those images when I felt Ally’s hand on

back to life and her other hand unclasped her bra,

stop it!"I pushed her away

"Why?"she whined.

to be enjoying it five

who I want!"I hissed through

crumpled on the floor, I used all my strength to roll to the side and grabbed

as I slid

sitting there with

been almost a year, lan, don’t you think it’s time for you

tone was laced with

take you to get over Richard?"I said as I slipped my shirt

long.I guess I've always known

"What do you mean?"

slowly curved up her face and she started moving towards me, saying,

"Ally..."I warned.

caught her hand as she was about

working together, I never had time for him anymore.I stopped giving him attention, and he figured it out.He knew

all her strength, she lunged forward until her lips were inches away from

went up to

caught her by her chest, right

I was only doing that to shove her

sighed in exasperation and got up as

we fooled around, like what, in high school? You can’t

be in love with you all

here with you in this city doing this gallery

world.You wanted to be an entrepreneur and

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

left everything in Jersey for you.I left Richard, I left my work,

I never asked you

but I wanna do it because I wanna be with you!

expect

always thought of Ally was one of my

to me, I'd

the same

and her hand reached for my face, saying, "I meant what I said that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just as friends...Isn't there any way you can

eyes were

deep breath and

her hand that was on my face, and slowly I peeled

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"