Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

tube in front of me, she said, "Do you want some

was probably her

been seeing a psychiatrist and he prescribed her

pills as I thought about

me that,"I said as I reached for the

warned,

or maybe three of them in

the pills with the remaining

done, I looked up at

She was right.

That shit was strong.

the next thing I knew, I had blacked

up

was heavy, my eyes were seeing things,

I was completely delirious.

while

naked on a

bed, someone else’s

bedroom and it was dimly lit, obviously, it wasn't

my knee, and I couldn't see who she was because she was leaning down and her long brown hair was

length and a warm, wet

wiped a

at me and I recognized those eyes

care of you,"she said.Not waiting for me to respond,

down to the base, leaving

a moment there, I

were fixed on her mouth and I was caught in a

I was seeing Emma.

Emma's lips

Those were Emma's hands.

those were Emma’s eyes looking back

was so happy to see her,

head up and down my length, taking me deeper and deeper as her hand continued massaging the

seconds, I was

huge load of cum into her

a long time, it was

she looked up at me and I realized it

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

pushed Ally off

was taken aback, sitting on the edge of the bed with nothing but her bra and

is

as my hand went to rub

images from earlier tonight flooded my

out in

hailing a cab and taking me

lay me down on her bed and then she climbed on top

shoes, then my belt, and everything

was still struggling with those images when I felt Ally’s hand

other hand unclasped her

it!"I pushed her away

"Why?"she whined.

to be enjoying it five

I want!"I hissed through

all my strength

silence as I slid my boxers

with her

don’t you think it’s time for you to

was laced

get over Richard?"I said as I slipped my shirt back

always known he’s not the

"What do you mean?"

smile slowly curved up her face and she started moving towards me,

"Ally..."I warned.

caught her hand as she

I ended our engagement.Since we started working together, I never had time for him anymore.I stopped giving him attention, and he figured it out.He knew I was still in love

all her strength, she lunged forward until her lips were inches away from

quickly went up

her chest,

the contact, but I was only doing that to shove her

exasperation and got up as soon

like what, in high school? You

be in love with you all this

am I here with you in this city

world.You wanted to be an entrepreneur and start your

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

you.I left Richard,

I never asked

I wanna do it because

I didn’t expect that at

thought of Ally was one of my

family to me, I'd

was the same

what I said that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just as friends...Isn't there any way

eyes were pleading with

breath and exhaled a long

went to grip her hand that was on my face,

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"