Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

tube in front of me, she said, "Do you want some of this? It'll help you get a good

probably her

psychiatrist and he prescribed her some meds

pills as I thought about her

me that,"I said as

lightly, it's kinda strong,"she warned, but she

popped two or maybe three of

pills with the remaining shot of whiskey

was done, I looked up at Ally and

She was right.

That shit was strong.

thing I knew, I had blacked out

up

my eyes were seeing things, and my body was 

I was completely delirious.

while to make sense

was lying naked on a

bed,

and it was

she was because she was leaning down and her long brown hair was covering her

and

hand reached for this girl and wiped

looked up at me and I

me to respond, her mouth was back on my length

tip down to the base, leaving hot,

moment there, I

eyes were fixed on her mouth and I was caught in

I was seeing Emma.

lips

Those were Emma's hands.

eyes looking

was so happy to see her, I let go of all

her head up and down my length, taking me deeper and deeper as

seconds, I was

load of cum into her

hadn't felt this way in a long time, it was

she looked up at me and I realized it

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

off of me

on the edge of the bed with nothing but her

is

my hand went

head was spinning as images from earlier tonight flooded

blacking out in

hailing a

her bed and then she climbed on top

off her dress, she took off my shoes, then

those images when I

to life and her other hand unclasped her bra, revealing her full set of

stop it!"I pushed

"Why?"she whined.

enjoying

not who I

used all my strength to

as I slid my boxers and pants back

there with

think

was laced with

get over Richard?"I said as I slipped

I've always known he’s not the

"What do you mean?"

and she started moving towards me, saying, "Deep down inside, I've always known

"Ally..."I warned.

her hand as she was about to

why Richard and I ended our engagement.Since we started working together, I never had time for him

she lunged forward until her lips were

quickly went

by her chest, right on her

but I was

exasperation and got up as soon

in high school? You

with you all this time?"she asked

I here with you

with the corporate world.You wanted to be an entrepreneur and

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

Jersey for you.I left Richard, I left my work, I

never asked

know.You never asked me for it, but I wanna do it because I wanna be with you! That’s how much I

I didn’t expect that

always thought of Ally was one of my

me, I'd trust her

thought I was the

meant what I said that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just as friends...Isn't there any way you can see me the same

were

a deep breath

grip her hand that was on my face, and slowly I

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"