Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV :

When I saw that she had left, I was hit with the realization that I was a scum that never deserved her in the first place.

I knew she was better off without me, so I tucked my tail between my legs like goddamn bitch and and let her be.

Still, no matter how hard I try, I could never get her off my mind.

No matter how busy I was, how much money I was making, or how well the gallery was doing, all the successes in the world couldn't satisfy me.

"What you need is to get laid,"

Ally had been saying that since day one.

Sure, I’ve thought about getting laid before.

The gallery was a hotspot for art lovers, celebrities, and models.

There were plenty of times where I could’ve got myself an easy lay.

But every time I looked at a girl, all I could see was her glimmering eyes.

I'd look at a girl's lips and think, that’s not her lips.

I'd hear a girl’s laugh and I think, that’s not her laugh.

And all I wanted was her.

No one else but her.

Pathetic, I know.

She was the one for me, but I let her go.

When I saw that her plane had left, I thought to myself, maybe it was a sign.

People said that love is a feeling you feel or love is an action you take, but to me love is timing.

You could have all the feeling in the world and take all the actions you could take, but if the timing was off, it wouldn't happen.

The right person at the wrong time would still be the wrong person.

I guess what I meant to say was this: I was wrong for her.

She was right for me, she was perfect for me, but I wasn’t that guy for her.

That punk Tristan, no matter how much I hate the guy, was right.

I had hurt her so bad, she left an entire country to get away from me.

I was done forcing myself back into her life.

I've done that before, she gave me plenty of second chances, and all I did was ruin it.

I broke her heart so many times already, she didn’t deserve that shit.

So, I made a resolution that I wasn't gonna try and get her back.

If someday she'd come back and we meet again and the timing was right, maybe we were meant to be.

But if she went out there and found something better than what I could give her, then by all means.

"Is that your third glass already?"

I looked up from my glass of scotch and saw Ally standing at the doorway.

We just closed the gallery for the night and I decided to reward myself with a little scotch in the back office.

"Fourth.But I'm done now,"

I said as I put the bottle back in the bottom drawer.

Ally and I made a deal that I shouldn't be drinking too much.

Three glasses were my limit.

But today was a hard day, so I gave myself an extra push.

"Hey, lan, are you okay?" she tilted her head to the side and watched me intently.

She always knew when something wasn’t right.I couldn't get anything past her.

"It’s just one of those days,"I shrugged.

"You've been having a lot of that lately,"she commented.

That was a true observation.

Not sure why, but I’ve been dreaming a lot about Emma these days.

Thoughts of her kept me up all night.

Some nights I would wake up searching for her on my bed, but all I caught was empty air.

Guess I've just been missing her a lot more lately.

Ally walked over and reached for the top drawer.

She pulled out a clear tube with blue colored pills on the inside.

you want

probably her

he prescribed her some meds that would help her

pills as I

know what, give me that,"I said as I reached for

kinda strong,"she warned, but she was

maybe three of them

with the remaining shot of whiskey in

looked up at Ally and her face began

She was right.

That shit was strong.

next thing I knew, I had

woke up to hot

eyes were seeing things, and my body

I was completely delirious.

me a while to make

lying naked on

my bed, someone

and it was dimly lit, obviously, it wasn't my

was because she was leaning

length and a warm, wet mouth was sucking on the

for this girl and wiped a strand of hair away

me and I recognized those

take care of you,"she said.Not waiting for me to

from the tip down to the base, leaving hot, wet

a moment there, I

her mouth and I

I was seeing Emma.

Emma's lips on my

Those were Emma's hands.

those were Emma’s eyes looking back

so happy to see her, I let go

and down my length, taking me

I was

into her mouth and she swallowed

a long time, it

swallowing, she looked up at me and I realized

It wasn’t my Emma.

"Fuck, no!"

Ally off of me

wrong?"she was taken aback, sitting on the edge of the bed with

this is a

as my hand went to rub my

images from earlier tonight flooded my

blacking out in

Ally hailing a cab

lay me down on her bed and then

off her dress, she took off my shoes, then my belt, and everything else until I was butt

was still struggling with those images when I felt Ally’s hand on me

other hand unclasped

it!"I pushed

"Why?"she whined.

to be enjoying it

not who I want!"I hissed through gritted

on the floor, I used all my strength to roll to the

I slid my

was just sitting there with her chest completely

think it’s time for you

was laced with jealousy

over Richard?"I said as I slipped my shirt

I've always known he’s not the

"What do you mean?"

her face and she started moving towards me, saying, "Deep down inside, I've always known you're

"Ally..."I warned.

caught her hand as she was about to reach for

why Richard and I ended our engagement.Since we started working together, I never had time for him anymore.I stopped giving him attention,

strength, she lunged forward until her lips were inches away from

hand quickly went up to

her chest, right

the contact, but I

as soon as I could find

like what, in high school? You

you all

lan? Why am I here with you in this city doing this

you were done with the corporate world.You wanted

"You bought that?"she scoffed.

for you.I left Richard, I left

never

never asked me for it, but I wanna do it because I wanna be with you! That’s how much

didn’t expect

was one of

like family to me, I'd trust her with my

I was the same

reached for my face, saying, "I meant what I said that night at the soft launch...I love you, lan.Not just as

were pleading with

a deep breath and

grip her hand that was on my

"No, I can’t.I'm sorry,"