Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

distance between us and there was nothing else

was that

loves me,

couldn't see it

all I wanted now

I wanted him to realize that

Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat

how I

I opened the apartment door, I was expecting to

were on and I heard the sound of

and saw Tristan

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked

both shocked to see each other

I thought you and Sophie are coming back

doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with your

a long story, I don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and

head back and groaned in exhaustion.It had been a long

and I like the silence.Helps me get

gesturing to the laptop

doing a lot of writing because

"Oh,"

got up to

not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna

said and he pulled on my hand, motioning for me to

You wanna talk about it?"Tristan

next thing I knew, I burst out crying

showed

didn’t even call...and it's supposed to be my

his arms around me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really

long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna

catch my breath in between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time

the box of tissues on the table and handed

I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me

rant after blowing my nose so gracefully into

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

used to have a thing together back in high

you saying? You think he’s cheating

don't think so...God, I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping it would

up for the dinner and he didn’t call you,

and nodded my head

barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always

said anything to him all summer

thought by now things will

let out a sad smile

and a shitty summer.You deserve so

birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened

birthday was always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the

took a road trip to Princeton and he inspired me to

day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped me move in to the

I was, on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they

Emma, I don’t know what else

and you had to hear all

looking at that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a break," he

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

the clock, and the time showed that

still technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

he got up and

back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them up in the air

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me

all night were those stupid mocktails and

use some booze, especially to help

vigorously

I ended up drinking

Law and Order on TV and we used our matching

the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a

on the door got louder and

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

up from the couch and staggered towards the