Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

and there was nothing else to

truth was that

loves me, sure

see it and I

I wanted now

I was being petty, but I wanted him to realize that what he

to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up

I spent

I opened the apartment door, I was expecting

and I heard the sound of

saw Tristan sitting on the

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked

were both shocked to see

here? I thought you and Sophie are coming back next week?"I

you supposed to be in the city with your boyfriend?"he

wanna talk about

my head back and groaned in exhaustion.It had been a long

the apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps me

gesturing to the laptop on the

doing a lot of writing

"Oh,"

mouthed and I got up

about me, I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna get

pulled on my hand, motioning for me to sit back

You wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew something was

burst out crying into his

showed

him...he didn’t even call...and it's

arms around me and cooed me gently as he

that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t

me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation

snorting and crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the table and

know what I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me

continued my rant after blowing my nose so gracefully

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

of his best friends, but they used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled my

are you saying? You think he’s cheating on you with

images of Ian and Ally filled my head

and he didn’t

my lip and nodded my

day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always be on the phone with Ally talking about

never said anything to

thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him every day, I

a sad smile and said,

a shitty birthday and a

be the best boyfriend ever.Last year for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why

always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time

seventeenth birthday, we took a road trip to Princeton and he inspired me to

and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped

I was, on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed

sorry, Emma, I don’t know what else to say,"Tristan sighed

hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working," I

me at all.I've been looking at that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a break," he

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

head to see the clock, and the time showed

still technically your birthday, wanna

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

he got

pack of beer.He lifted them up in the air

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me

I had all night were those stupid mocktails and

especially to help

my head vigorously at him

I ended up

Law and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas

on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a

groaned groggily as the pounding on the door got

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

he got up from