Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

and there was nothing else

simple truth was that

loves me, sure

at the moment, I couldn't see it and I couldn't feel

all I wanted now was to

wanted him to realize that what he was doing to me

was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my

was how I

I opened the apartment door, I was expecting to find the

on and I heard the sound of the

saw Tristan

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to

both shocked to see each

you and Sophie are coming back next

you supposed to be in the city with your boyfriend?"he

wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined him on

trashed my head back and groaned in exhaustion.It had been a

empty and I like the silence.Helps me get my

said, gesturing to the laptop

of writing

"Oh,"

and I got

me, I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just

he pulled on my hand, motioning for

going on? You wanna talk about

anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst

showed up..."I

call...and it's supposed

his arms around me and cooed me gently as he

summer long, Tristan.I've been in the back seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his

in between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why

box of tissues on the table and handed

he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got

after blowing my nose

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

his best friends, but they used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled

You think he’s cheating

of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping it would

happened? He never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got upset and you came

and nodded

too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always

said anything to

do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him every day,

let out a sad smile

shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve

and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why

always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him

trip to Princeton and

eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped me move in to

lot of expectations and they were all crushed

sorry, Emma, I don’t know what

had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be

disturbing me at all.I've been looking at that word document for the past hour,

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

to see the clock, and the time showed that it was 11:45

technically your birthday,

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

he

six pack of beer.He lifted

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write

all night were those stupid mocktails and sparkling

some booze, especially to help me forget all

nodded my head vigorously

I ended up drinking

and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so comfortable

was about 1.30 AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a sudden loud knocking woke

on the door got louder and

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

got up from the couch and staggered towards the