Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

no distance between us and there was nothing

that I

me, sure he

the moment, I couldn't see it and I couldn't feel

now

but I wanted him to realize that

got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up three

was how I

the apartment door, I was expecting to find

lights were on and I heard the sound of

and saw Tristan

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked to see

both shocked to see

doing here? I thought you and Sophie

Aren't you supposed to be

talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined him on

my head back and groaned in exhaustion.It had been

because the apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps me get my

said, gesturing to the laptop on

writing because he worked in the school

"Oh,"

and I got up

me, I’m not gonna bother

on my hand, motioning for me to sit

You wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew something was

couldn't hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out crying into his

never showed

waited for him...he didn’t even call...and it's supposed

and cooed me gently as he

in the back seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and

would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation

a snorting and crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the table

he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me

my

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

thing together back in

saying? You think he’s cheating

Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping it would

happened? He never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t

lip and nodded my

dinner.It’s about every day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and

anything to him

it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with

out a sad smile and

you had a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so

year for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why

was always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him

road trip to Princeton and he inspired me to

on my graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped

a lot of expectations and they were all

don’t know

and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working," I said as

looking at that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

and the

still technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

up his face as he got up and

later, he came back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them up in the air and smiled

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me

were those stupid mocktails

use some booze, especially to help me forget all about this stupid

I nodded my head vigorously at him and said, "Yes

I ended up drinking throughout

of Law and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so

I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a sudden

pounding on the door got louder

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

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