Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

us and there was

truth was that I

me,

at the moment, I couldn't see

all I wanted now was

wanted him to realize that what he

me, just as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took

I spent my

the apartment door, I was expecting to find the room

were on and I heard

saw Tristan sitting on

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked

both shocked to see each other

I thought you and Sophie are coming back next week?"I

you supposed to be in the

wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and

my head back and groaned in

early because the apartment's empty and I like the

to the

of writing because he worked in the school

"Oh,"

and I got

me, I’m not gonna bother

he pulled on my hand, motioning for me to sit back

on? You wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew

next thing I knew, I burst out crying into his

never showed

didn’t even call...and

around me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really

because he’s working towards his dreams and I

in between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation for something he won't

mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the

think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His

after blowing my nose so gracefully into

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled my

You think

Ian and Ally filled my head and I

never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got upset and you

bit my lip and nodded

have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always be on the phone with

to him all summer

didn’t wanna get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I

a sad smile

a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so much better

birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why we're so distant from each

for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him at that bar

a road trip to Princeton and he inspired me

my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and

I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed in just

Emma, I don’t know what else to say,"Tristan sighed

in here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be

document for the past

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

his head to see the clock, and the time showed

since it’s still technically your birthday,

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

crept up his face as he got up and headed to

six pack of beer.He lifted them up in the air

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write better,"he

all night were

use some booze, especially to help me forget all about this

nodded my head vigorously

up

Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so comfortable and

1.30 AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch

on the door

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

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