Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

us and there was nothing

that

me,

couldn't see it and

now

petty, but I wanted him to realize

missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up three flights

I spent my

I was expecting to find the room

lights were on and I heard the sound

inside and saw Tristan sitting

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked

both shocked to see each

you doing here? I thought you and Sophie

here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with your

wanna talk about it,"I sighed

and groaned in exhaustion.It had been a

apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps me get

to the laptop on

doing a lot of writing

"Oh,"

I got up to

me, I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just

and he pulled on my hand, motioning for me to sit back

going on? You wanna talk

I burst out crying into his

showed up..."I

waited for him...he didn’t even call...and it's

his arms around me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm so

okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna get in

"But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time

grabbed the box of tissues on the table and handed

know what I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His priority is the gallery and this

my rant after blowing my nose so

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I

think he’s cheating

so...God, I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my

that's what happened? He never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got upset and you

lip and nodded

and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always be on the

anything to him all summer long?"he

anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him every day, I still

out a sad

shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so

the best boyfriend ever.Last year for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and

always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him at that bar in

trip to Princeton and he

for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and

I was, on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed in just

sorry, Emma, I don’t know what

hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re

been looking at that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a break," he

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

and

since it’s still technically

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

as he got

of beer.He lifted

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me write better,"he

had all night were those

could use some booze, especially to help me forget all

I nodded my head vigorously

ended up

we used our matching onesie

1.30 AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell

the pounding on the door got louder

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

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