Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

no distance between us and

truth was that I

loves me,

I couldn't see it and I couldn't

now was

him to realize

him to miss me, just as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up

was how I spent my

door, I was expecting to find the

were on and I heard the

saw Tristan sitting on

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to see

both shocked to

you doing here? I thought you and Sophie

are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be

about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined him on

back and groaned in exhaustion.It had been

because the apartment's empty and

said, gesturing to the laptop on the coffee

of writing

"Oh,"

mouthed and I got up to

I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna get

pulled on my hand, motioning

on? You wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew something

burst out crying into his shoulder, snorting like a sad

never showed up..."I

call...and

me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm so sorry,

summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t

why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation for

box of tissues on the table and handed it

he got bored with me or something.His priority

blowing my nose so gracefully into the tissue

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

used to have a thing together back

are you saying? You think he’s cheating on you

and Ally filled my head and

showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got upset and you came

bit my lip and nodded

that too.We barely have any

you never said anything to him all

things

let out a sad

you had a shitty birthday and

used to be the best boyfriend ever.Last year for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why we're

sixteenth birthday was

Princeton and he inspired me to apply

my graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us

was, on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were

sorry, Emma, I don’t know what else

and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be

word document for the past hour, not

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

the clock, and

still technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

face as he got

back with a six pack of

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write

night were those stupid mocktails and

use some booze, especially to help

I nodded my head vigorously

I ended up drinking throughout

we used our matching onesie

in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me,

as the pounding on

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

relief, he got up from the