Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

between us and there was nothing else to

truth was that I

me, sure he

moment, I couldn't see it and

wanted now was to get

I wanted him to realize that what he

missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up three

I

I opened the apartment door, I was expecting to find the

I

saw Tristan sitting

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked

shocked to

I thought you and Sophie are

here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with

don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined him

my head back and groaned in

came early because the apartment's empty and I

said, gesturing to the laptop

doing a lot of writing because he worked in

"Oh,"

got

not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna get

wait,"he said and he pulled on my hand, motioning for me

You wanna talk

couldn't hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out crying into his shoulder, snorting like a sad

never showed up..."I

him...he didn’t even call...and it's

me and cooed me gently as he

because he’s working towards his dreams and I

why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation for something he won't even show

was a snorting and crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the table

think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me

my rant after blowing my nose

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

friends, but they used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled my

think he’s cheating on

images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my

happened? He never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got upset and you

my lip and nodded my head

too.We barely have any time together, and even

you never said anything to

the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him

a sad smile

a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so

my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what

us.My sixteenth birthday was the first

took a road trip to Princeton and he

for my eighteenth birthday, he

had a lot of expectations and

I don’t know what

and you had to hear all my sob

disturbing me at all.I've been looking at that word document for the past hour,

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

and the time

since it’s still technically your birthday, wanna

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

as he got up and

he came back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write

had all night were

booze, especially to help me forget all about this stupid

my head vigorously

ended up

Law and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they

on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a sudden loud knocking

on the door got louder

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

from the couch and