Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

distance between us and there was nothing else to

truth was that I didn’t

loves me,

see it and

now

I was being petty, but I wanted him to realize

got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up three flights of

how I spent my

opened the apartment door, I was expecting to find the room dark and

on and I

and saw Tristan

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked

were both shocked to see each other

doing here? I thought you and Sophie are

here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with your boyfriend?"he

a long story, I don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and

groaned in

and I like the silence.Helps me get my

gesturing to the laptop

lot of writing because

"Oh,"

and I got up to my

about me, I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna get some

he pulled on my

wanna talk about it?"Tristan

I knew, I burst out crying into his shoulder, snorting like

never showed

waited for him...he didn’t even call...and it's supposed

cooed me gently as he said, "That

all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and

New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making

the box of tissues on

know what I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored

my nose so gracefully

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

a thing together back in high school,"I replied,

are you saying? You think he’s cheating on you

hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head

never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got upset and you came

bit my lip and

that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d

you never said anything to him all summer

I didn’t wanna get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him every day, I still

out a sad smile

sucks.Sorry you had a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve

year for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to

special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time

took a road trip to Princeton and he inspired me to apply

my graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to

lot of expectations and they were all

Emma, I don’t know what else

your fault.I’m sorry I came barging in here and you had to hear all my

word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a break," he said

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

see the clock, and the time showed

it’s still technically your birthday, wanna

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

crept up his face as he got up and headed to the

came back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write

had all night were those stupid mocktails and sparkling

use some booze, especially to help

nodded my head vigorously at

ended up

TV and we used our matching onesie

was about 1.30 AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when

the pounding on the door got louder and

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

got up from