Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

and there was nothing else to

truth was that I didn’t

me, sure

moment, I couldn't see it and I couldn't feel

now was to get

was being petty, but I wanted him to realize that what he was

wanted him to miss me, just as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase

I spent my

door, I was

I heard the sound

saw Tristan sitting on the

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked to see

both shocked to see each other

here? I thought you and Sophie are coming back

here? Aren't you supposed to

about it,"I sighed dramatically

groaned

empty and I like the silence.Helps me get my work

the

writing because he worked

"Oh,"

got

I’m not gonna bother

on my hand, motioning

on? You wanna talk about

couldn't hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out crying into his shoulder, snorting like a

never showed

him...he didn’t even call...and it's supposed to be my

his arms around me and cooed me gently as

all summer long, but that’s okay, because

City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a

snorting and crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on

doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with

blowing my nose so gracefully into the tissue

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

a thing together back in high school,"I

are you saying? You think he’s cheating

Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping it would

happened? He never showed up for the dinner and he

and nodded my head

about every day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and

anything to him

the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things

sad

and a shitty summer.You

and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why we're

always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time

road trip to Princeton

my graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped

I had a lot

I don’t know what else to

and you had to hear all my sob story.I

all.I've been looking at that word document for the past

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

his head to see the clock, and the time showed that it was

still technically

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

his face as he got

back with a six pack of beer.He lifted

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me

I had all night were those stupid mocktails and sparkling

especially to help me forget all

nodded my head vigorously at him and said, "Yes

up drinking

Law and Order on TV and we used our matching

was about 1.30 AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a sudden loud knocking

the pounding on the door got

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

relief, he got up from the couch