Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

between us and

simple truth was that I didn’t matter

loves me,

I couldn't see

all I wanted now was

him to realize that what he was doing

got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up three flights

was how I spent

the apartment door, I was expecting to find

I heard

saw Tristan sitting

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to see

shocked to see each

you doing here? I thought you

are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with your boyfriend?"he asked

don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined him

and groaned in exhaustion.It

early because the apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps me get

gesturing to the laptop on the coffee

doing a lot of writing because he

"Oh,"

got

worry about me, I’m not gonna

pulled on my hand, motioning for me to sit back

talk

I knew, I burst

never showed up..."I

waited for him...he didn’t even call...and

linked his arms around me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm

in the back seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working

if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation for something he won't even

crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the

I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His priority is the

after blowing my nose so gracefully into the

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

friends, but they used to have a thing together back

are you saying? You think he’s cheating

Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping

that's what happened? He never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got

my lip and nodded my

barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always

you never said anything to him all summer

get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though

out a sad smile

you had a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so much better than

be the best boyfriend ever.Last year for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now

thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met

to Princeton and he inspired me to apply to

my graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped me move in to

nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed in just

sorry, Emma, I don’t know what else to say,"Tristan

I came barging in here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working,"

all.I've been looking at that word document for the past

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

the clock, and the

since it’s still technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

as he got up and

of beer.He lifted them up in the

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me write better,"he

I had all night were those stupid

some booze, especially to help me forget all about this stupid

I nodded my head vigorously at

and I ended up

Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so comfortable

about 1.30 AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a sudden loud knocking woke

the pounding on the

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

got up from the