Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

us and there was nothing else to

that

loves me, sure he

see it and I

now was to get

I wanted him to realize that what he was doing to me was

him.I got back to Philly late that night.I

was how I spent

apartment door, I was expecting to

and I heard the sound of the

inside and saw Tristan sitting

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked to

were both shocked to see

thought you and Sophie are coming back

you supposed to be in the city with your boyfriend?"he asked

I don't wanna talk about

groaned in exhaustion.It had been a

the apartment's empty and I

said, gesturing to the laptop on the coffee

writing because he worked in

"Oh,"

got up to

about me, I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna get

and he pulled on my hand, motioning for me to sit

You wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew something was

couldn't hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out

never showed up..."I

didn’t even call...and it's supposed

around me and cooed me gently as he said,

but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna get in

me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making

box of tissues on the table and handed it

I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His

my nose so gracefully into the tissue

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I

You think he’s cheating on you

think so...God, I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping

dinner and he didn’t call you, so you

lip and nodded my

that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always be on the phone with Ally

to

it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I

let out a sad smile and

a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so much

year for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us

was the first time I met him at that bar

trip to Princeton and he inspired me

birthday, he drove

I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed in

know what

and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't

all.I've been looking at that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a break," he

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

see the clock, and

it’s still technically

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

smirk crept up his face as he

back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them up in

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write

I had all night were those stupid

use some booze, especially to help me forget all

I nodded my head vigorously at him and said,

and I ended up drinking throughout

we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so

was about 1.30 AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep

groggily as the pounding on the door

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

from the couch