Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

distance between us and there was

was that

me,

at the moment, I couldn't see it and

wanted now

was being petty, but I wanted him to realize that

just as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big

how I spent my birthday

the apartment door, I was

the lights were on and I heard the sound of

inside and saw Tristan

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked

both shocked to see each

thought you and Sophie are coming back

you supposed to

talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined

back and groaned

because the apartment's empty and I like the

gesturing to the laptop

of writing because he worked in

"Oh,"

got up to

gonna

wait,"he said and he pulled on my hand, motioning

talk about it?"Tristan

knew, I burst out crying into his shoulder,

never showed

waited for him...he didn’t even call...and it's

arms around me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm so sorry,

long, Tristan.I've been in the back seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his

out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend

grabbed the box of tissues on the table and handed it to

know what I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His priority

rant after blowing my

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

but they used to have a thing together

you saying? You think he’s cheating

don't think so...God, I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping it

what happened? He never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got upset and you

my lip and nodded my head

dinner.It’s about every day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always

never said anything to

the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but

let out a sad

a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so much

for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t

always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I

Princeton and he inspired

he

was, on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed

know

barging in here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working," I

that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a break," he said

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

to see the clock, and the time showed that it was

still technically your birthday,

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

as he got up

pack of beer.He

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me

some?"All I had all night were those stupid

help me forget all about

nodded my head vigorously

I ended up drinking throughout the

and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so comfortable and

1.30 AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch

on the door got louder

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

my relief, he got up from the couch