Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

us and

was that

loves me, sure

see it and I

all I wanted now was to

realize that what he was doing to

him to miss me, just as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase

I

door, I was expecting to find

the lights were on and I

inside and saw Tristan sitting

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to

were both shocked to see each other

are you doing here? I thought you

here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with your

about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined him on the

groaned in exhaustion.It had been a

because the apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps

to the laptop on the

a lot of writing because he

"Oh,"

and I got up to my

gonna bother you.I’m

on my hand, motioning for me to sit back

going on? You wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew something

hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out crying into

showed up..."I

him...he didn’t even call...and it's supposed to be my

arms around me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm

in the back seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because

out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation for something he won't even show up

the box of tissues on

what I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored

blowing my nose so

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

have a thing together back in high school,"I replied,

saying? You think he’s cheating on you

images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently,

happened? He never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you

lip and nodded my head

before that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always be on

never said anything to

the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it

sad smile

shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so much

boyfriend ever.Last year for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why we're

always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him

to Princeton and he inspired me to

graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped

lot of expectations and they were

Emma, I don’t know what else to say,"Tristan

to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working," I said as I straightened myself

looking at that word document for

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

see the clock, and the

it’s still technically your birthday, wanna

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

as he got

of beer.He lifted them up

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write better,"he

had all night were

especially to help me forget all about

vigorously

ended up drinking throughout the

TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so comfortable and

asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to

groaned groggily as the pounding on the door got louder and

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

relief, he got up from the