Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

distance between us and there was nothing

simple truth was that

loves me,

at the moment, I couldn't see

all I wanted now was to

him to realize that what he was doing to me was

him to miss me, just as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat

I spent my

apartment door, I was

the lights were on and I heard the sound

saw Tristan

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to see

to

you doing here? I thought you and Sophie are coming back

to be

a long story, I don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and

trashed my head back and groaned in

empty and

to the laptop on the coffee

a lot of writing

"Oh,"

I got up to

I’m not gonna bother you.I’m

on my hand, motioning for

You wanna talk about it?"Tristan

hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out crying into his shoulder, snorting

never showed up..."I

didn’t even call...and

gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm

summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna get in the

why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even

mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the table and

got bored with me or something.His

continued my rant after blowing my

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

one of his best friends, but they used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled my eyes for added dramatic

think he’s

Ally filled my head and

the dinner and he didn’t

my lip and nodded my

night before that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always be

to him all summer

things will get better, but it never

a sad smile

had a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve

and took me on a road

sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him at that

to Princeton and he inspired me to apply

he drove

my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were

don’t know

all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working," I said as I

document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a break," he said

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

the clock, and the time showed that

since it’s still technically your birthday,

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

as he got up and

pack of beer.He lifted them

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me

all night were those stupid mocktails

some booze, especially to help me forget all about this stupid

head vigorously at him and said,

up drinking throughout the

and we used

on the couch and Tristan fell asleep

groggily as the pounding on the door got louder

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

got up from the