Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

and there was nothing else to

simple truth was that I didn’t

loves me, sure

see it

now was to get

but I wanted him to realize that what he was doing to me was

as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase

how I spent my birthday

was expecting to find the

and I

inside and saw

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked to

were both shocked to see each

here? I thought you and Sophie are coming

What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in

don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined

groaned in exhaustion.It had been

empty and I like the silence.Helps

gesturing to the laptop on

a lot of writing because he

"Oh,"

and I got up to my

not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna

on my hand, motioning for me to sit back

going on? You wanna talk

I burst out crying into his shoulder, snorting like

showed

him...he didn’t even call...and it's supposed

linked his arms around me and cooed me gently

because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna get in the

to New York City if he didn’t even

crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of

got bored with me or something.His

blowing my nose so gracefully into the

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

a thing together

You think he’s cheating

Ally filled my head and I shook my head

the dinner and he

lip and nodded my

not just about the dinner.It’s about every day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and even

never said anything to him

thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though

a sad

birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so much better than

took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why

birthday was the

trip to Princeton and he inspired me to apply to Ivy

he drove us to Philly

birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed in just one

don’t know

here and you had to hear all my sob

disturbing me at all.I've been looking at that word document for the past hour,

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

and the time showed that

it’s still technically

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

he got up and headed to

came back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them up

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me write

were

booze, especially to help me forget all

nodded my head vigorously at him and said, "Yes

ended up drinking throughout

TV and we used our matching onesie

morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell

groggily as the pounding on the door got

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

up from the couch and