Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

no distance between us and there was nothing else

simple truth was that

me, sure he

couldn't see it and

now was

to realize that

me, just as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled

I spent

I opened the apartment door, I was expecting to find the room dark and

on and I heard the

walked inside and saw Tristan

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked

shocked to see

here? I thought you

What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with your boyfriend?"he asked

I don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined him

and groaned in exhaustion.It had been

the apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps me

the laptop on the coffee

of writing because he worked in the school

"Oh,"

and I got up to my

I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna get

and he pulled on my hand, motioning for

You wanna talk about it?"Tristan

couldn't hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out crying into his

showed up..."I

didn’t even call...and it's supposed

around me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm

been in the back seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna get in

would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with

and crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the table and

I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His priority is the

after blowing my nose

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

have a thing together back in high school,"I

You think he’s cheating on you with

Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping it

and he

lip and nodded my head

have any time together,

to him all summer

things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him every day, I still feel

sad smile and

shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so

me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why we're so distant from

thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him at that bar

we took a road trip to Princeton

on my graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he

I was, on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed in just one

don’t know what else to say,"Tristan

and you had to hear all my

disturbing me at all.I've been looking at that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a break," he

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

the clock, and the time showed that it

technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

he got

came back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me

I had all night were those stupid

especially to help me forget all about this stupid

nodded my head vigorously at him

I ended up drinking

we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so comfortable and

was about 1.30 AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a sudden loud knocking

the pounding on the

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

up from the