Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

distance between us and there

that I didn’t matter

loves me,

the moment, I couldn't see it and I couldn't

now

petty, but I wanted him to realize that what he

late that night.I

was how I spent

I was expecting to find

lights were on and I heard the

saw Tristan sitting on the

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked

both shocked to see each

here? I thought you

What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to

talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined

my head back and groaned in

empty and

said, gesturing to the laptop on the

lot of writing because he worked

"Oh,"

I got up to my

not gonna

wait,"he said and he pulled on my hand, motioning for me to

You wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew

I burst

never showed up..."I

didn’t even call...and it's supposed to be

and cooed me gently as he said, "That really

but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna get in the way of

"But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation for something he won't even show up

the box of tissues

he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or

my rant after blowing my

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

but they used to have a thing together back in

you saying? You think he’s cheating

don't think so...God, I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally

up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got

lip and

barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always be

said anything to him all

because I didn’t wanna get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will

sad smile and

and a shitty summer.You deserve so

boyfriend ever.Last year for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and

a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him

took a road trip to Princeton and he inspired me

he drove us to Philly and helped me move in to

here I was, on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and

I don’t know what else to say,"Tristan

to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working," I said as I straightened myself

at that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

the clock, and the time showed that it was 11:45

since it’s still technically

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

face as he

with a six pack of beer.He lifted them up in the air

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write better,"he

had all night were those stupid

to help

vigorously at

I ended up drinking throughout

watched a re-run of Law and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so

morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a sudden loud knocking

as the pounding on the

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

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