Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

distance between us and there was

truth was that I

loves me,

the moment, I couldn't see it

wanted now was

I wanted him to realize that what he was doing to me was

wanted him to miss me, just as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my

I spent my

I was

were on and I heard the sound

saw

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked

shocked to see each other

I thought you and

supposed to be

talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and

head back and groaned in exhaustion.It had been a

the apartment's empty and I like the

said, gesturing to the laptop on

writing because he worked

"Oh,"

I got

I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna get

and he pulled on my hand, motioning

wanna talk about

next thing I knew, I burst

never showed up..."I

even call...and

linked his arms around me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really

because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna get in the way of

to catch my breath in between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation for something he won't even show up

snorting and crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the table

anymore.I think he got bored with me

rant after blowing my nose so gracefully into

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

have a thing together back in

you saying? You think

don't think so...God, I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently,

He never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you got upset and you came

and nodded my head

about the dinner.It’s about every day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and

said anything to him all summer long?"he

quiet because I didn’t wanna get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him every day, I still feel so

let out a sad smile

you had a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so much better than

for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us

was the first time I met him at that bar in

my seventeenth birthday, we took a road trip to Princeton and he inspired me

eighteenth birthday, he drove

lot of expectations and they were all

know what else to say,"Tristan

barging in here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't

disturbing me at all.I've been looking at that word document for the past

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

see the clock, and the time showed that

technically

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

he got

back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them up in the

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me

some?"All I had all night were those

help me forget all

vigorously at him and

up drinking throughout

TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so

AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when

pounding on the

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

up from the couch and staggered towards the