Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

between us and there

truth was that

loves me, sure

see it and I

now was to

him to realize that what he was doing

as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up three flights of

was how I spent my

I opened the apartment door, I was expecting to find the room dark

were on and I

saw Tristan sitting on the

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to

both shocked to see

doing here? I thought you and Sophie are

doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with your boyfriend?"he asked

story, I don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and

head back and groaned in exhaustion.It had

and I like the

gesturing to the laptop on

a lot of writing because he worked in the school

"Oh,"

and I got up to my

me, I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna get

he pulled on my

talk about it?"Tristan knew something

I burst out

never showed

him...he didn’t even call...and it's

arms around me and cooed me gently as

that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna get

"But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even

grabbed the box of tissues on the table and handed it to

got bored with me or something.His priority is the gallery and

after blowing my nose so gracefully into the

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

friends, but they used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled my eyes for added dramatic

are you saying? You think he’s

of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping it

the dinner and he

my lip and nodded my

every day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together,

you never said anything to him

quiet because I didn’t wanna get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him every day, I still

sad smile and

shitty birthday and

hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what

us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him at

to Princeton and he inspired me to

got engaged on my graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us

was, on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed in just one

Emma, I don’t know

fault.I’m sorry I came barging in here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be

looking at that word document for the past hour, not

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

and

still technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

crept up his face as he got

with a six pack of beer.He lifted

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write

I had all night were those

could use some booze, especially to help me forget all about this stupid

head vigorously at him

up drinking throughout the

Law and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they

morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when

groaned groggily as the pounding on the door got louder

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

relief, he got up from the couch and staggered