Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

us and

was that I didn’t matter

loves me, sure

see it and I

now

wanted him to realize that what he was doing to

him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to

I spent my

door, I was expecting to find the room

the lights were on and I heard the

saw Tristan sitting on the

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked to see

shocked to see

here? I thought you and Sophie are coming back

you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be

I don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed

my head back and groaned

empty and I like the silence.Helps me get

gesturing to the laptop on

of writing

"Oh,"

got up to my

about me, I’m not gonna bother you.I’m

said and he pulled on my hand, motioning for me to sit

wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew

hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out crying into his shoulder, snorting like a

never showed up..."I

even call...and it's supposed to be

cooed me gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm so sorry,

the back seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I

to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation for something

crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the table and handed it

love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His priority is

my nose so gracefully into the

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

his best friends, but they used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I

saying? You think

so...God, I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my

never showed up for the dinner and he didn’t call you, so you

my lip and nodded my

not just about the dinner.It’s about every day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together, he’d always be

never said anything to him all summer

in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him every day,

sad smile and

and a shitty summer.You deserve

and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why we're so distant

thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him at

my seventeenth birthday, we took a road trip to Princeton

graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped me move

I was, on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot

Emma, I don’t know what

fault.I’m sorry I came barging in here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working," I said as

disturbing me at all.I've been looking at that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

see the clock, and the time showed that it was

technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

up his face as he got up and headed

pack of

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write better,"he

all night were those stupid

some booze, especially to help me forget

my head vigorously at him and

up drinking throughout the

of Law and Order on TV and we used

morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me, when a sudden

the pounding on

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

he got up from