Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

us and there

that I

me,

the moment, I couldn't see it and I couldn't

wanted now was

him to realize that what he was doing

got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big

how I spent

opened the apartment door, I was expecting to find

and I heard the

and saw Tristan sitting on the

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to see

both shocked to see each

thought you and

here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with your boyfriend?"he

wanna talk about it,"I

groaned in

I came early because the apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps me get my work

to the laptop on the

a lot of writing because he worked in

"Oh,"

got up to my

I’m not gonna bother you.I’m

said and he pulled on my

talk about it?"Tristan knew

I burst out crying into his shoulder, snorting like a sad ugly

never showed up..."I

didn’t even call...and it's supposed to be my

gently as he said, "That really

because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t

between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a

a snorting and crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the table and handed it

think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His

my rant after blowing my

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

his best friends, but they used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled

think he’s cheating on you with

think so...God, I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I

and he didn’t call you, so you got upset and you came

bit my lip and nodded my head

dinner.It’s about every day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and even

anything to

get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was

sad smile

shitty birthday and

took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and

birthday was always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was

seventeenth birthday, we took a road trip to Princeton and he

on my graduation day and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us

had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed in just one

Emma, I don’t know what else

came barging in here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be

looking at that word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need a

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

and the time showed

since it’s still technically your birthday,

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

he got up and

with a six pack of beer.He lifted

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write better,"he

some?"All I had all night were those stupid mocktails and

use some booze, especially to help

head vigorously at him and

ended up drinking throughout

re-run of Law and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie

I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan

on the door got louder and

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

he got up from the couch and staggered