Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

distance between us and there was nothing else

truth was that I didn’t matter

me, sure

I couldn't see it and I couldn't

all I wanted now was to

to realize that what he was

that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat

how I spent my birthday

I opened the apartment door, I was expecting to

were on and I heard

inside and saw Tristan

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to

were both shocked to see each other

you and Sophie are

you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in the

talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined

my head back and groaned in exhaustion.It had been

the apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps me get my

said, gesturing to the laptop on the

doing a lot of writing because

"Oh,"

and I got up

me, I’m not gonna bother

said and he pulled on my hand, motioning for me

going on? You wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew

knew, I burst out crying into his shoulder,

showed up..."I

him...he didn’t even call...and it's supposed

his arms around me and cooed me gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm so

but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I

to catch my breath in between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have

box

got

rant after blowing my nose so gracefully into the

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled

are you saying? You think he’s cheating on

not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and

and he didn’t call

lip and nodded my head

any time together, and

you never said anything to him all

kept quiet because I didn’t wanna get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with him every day, I still

sad smile and

a shitty birthday and a shitty

on a

special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him at that bar in

to Princeton and he inspired me to apply to Ivy

birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped me move

birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were all crushed in just one

don’t know what else to say,"Tristan

sorry I came barging in here and you had to hear all

not disturbing me at all.I've been looking at that word document

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

clock, and the

still technically

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

up his face as he

later, he came back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them up

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me write better,"he

had all night were those stupid mocktails and sparkling

booze, especially to help

I nodded my head vigorously at him and said,

ended up drinking throughout

we

AM in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep

groggily as the pounding on the door got louder

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

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