Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

and there

was that I

me,

I couldn't see it and I couldn't

all I wanted now was to get

but I wanted him to realize that what he was doing to me was hurting

late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up

how I spent my

I opened the apartment door, I was expecting to find the room

the lights were on and I heard the sound

and saw Tristan sitting on the

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked

to see each

you doing here? I thought you and Sophie are coming back

you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city

don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed

head back and groaned in

the apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps me get my

to the laptop

doing a lot of writing because he worked in the school

"Oh,"

mouthed and I got

me, I’m not gonna bother

my hand, motioning for me to sit back

wanna talk

it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out crying into his shoulder, snorting like

never showed

call...and

and cooed me gently

okay, because

my breath in between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a

grabbed the box of tissues on the table and handed it to

think he got bored with me or

rant after blowing my nose so gracefully

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled my eyes

You think he’s cheating on

don't think so...God, I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and

up for the dinner and he didn’t call you,

and

that too.We barely have any time together, and even

never said anything to him

get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get

let out a sad

you had a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so much better

for my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t

birthday was the first time I

trip to Princeton and he inspired me to apply

he drove us to Philly and helped me

on my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were all

I don’t know what else

your fault.I’m sorry I came barging in here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working,"

been looking at that word document

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

the clock, and the

it’s still technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

up his face as he got up and headed

six pack of beer.He lifted them up

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me write

night were

could use some booze, especially to help me forget

head vigorously at him

ended up drinking

watched a re-run of Law and Order on TV and we

morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to

on the

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

got up from the