Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

between us and there was nothing

that I

loves me, sure

see it and

wanted now was to get

was being petty, but I wanted him to realize that what he was doing to

to miss me, just as much as I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase

how I spent

door, I was expecting to find the

I heard the sound of the

inside and saw Tristan sitting on

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to see

shocked to see

I thought you and Sophie are coming

you supposed to be in the city with

wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined

head back and groaned in exhaustion.It had been

apartment's empty and I like the silence.Helps me get my

the laptop on the coffee

a lot of writing because he worked in the

"Oh,"

mouthed and I got

gonna

said and he pulled on my hand, motioning for me to sit

wanna talk about it?"Tristan knew

knew, I burst out crying into his

showed

for him...he didn’t even call...and it's supposed to be

cooed me gently as he said, "That really sucks.I'm so sorry,

seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards

between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to

the box of tissues on the table

know what I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His priority is the gallery and this girl called

blowing my

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

they used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled my eyes for added dramatic

you saying? You think he’s cheating on you with

not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping it

and he didn’t call you, so you got

and nodded

too.We barely have any time together, and even we're together,

you never said anything to him

now things will get better, but

let out a sad smile

you had a shitty birthday and a

my birthday, he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what

special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the

road trip to Princeton

and for my eighteenth birthday, he

my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they

don’t know what else

fault.I’m sorry I came barging in here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working," I said

been looking at that word document for the past hour, not

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

see the clock, and the time showed

technically

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

as he got up

a six pack of beer.He lifted them

"You got beer?"I questioned.

helped me write better,"he

were those

use some booze, especially to help me forget all about this stupid

my head vigorously at him and said,

and I ended up drinking

re-run of Law and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because

in the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan

the pounding on

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

got up from the