Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

us and there

was that I didn’t

loves me, sure

the moment, I couldn't see it and I couldn't

now was to

I was being petty, but I wanted him to realize that what he was doing to me

was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big fat suitcase up

was how I spent my

apartment door, I was expecting to find the room dark

the lights were on and I heard the sound

and saw Tristan sitting on the

"Tristan?"I gaped.

looked shocked to see

to see each

here? I thought you and Sophie are coming back next week?"I

supposed to be

about it,"I sighed dramatically and joined

and groaned

the apartment's empty and I like

gesturing to the

of writing because he

"Oh,"

mouthed and I got up to

not gonna bother

on my hand, motioning for

talk about it?"Tristan

couldn't hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out crying

showed

call...and it's supposed to be

around me and cooed me gently

summer long, Tristan.I've been in the back seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I

my breath in between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with me.Why bother making a reservation for something he won't

snorting and crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues on the table and

he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with

after blowing my nose so

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

thing together back in

are you saying? You think

of Ian and Ally filled my head and I

and he didn’t call you, so you got

and nodded my

before that too.We barely have any time together, and

you never said anything to him all

in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I

out a sad

you had a shitty birthday and

he drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why we're so

was always a special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was

a road trip to Princeton and he inspired

birthday, he drove us to Philly and helped me move in to

my nineteenth birthday, I had a lot of expectations and they were

don’t know what

in here and you had to hear all

word document for the past hour, not doing anything.I need

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

see the clock, and the time showed

since it’s still technically

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

crept up his face as he got up and headed to

back with a six pack of beer.He lifted them up in the air

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me write

had all night were those stupid mocktails and

especially to help

vigorously at him and

ended up

Law and Order on TV and we

couch and

pounding on the door got louder and

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

up from the couch and staggered towards the