Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

us and there was

simple truth was that I didn’t matter

loves me, sure he

I couldn't see it and

I wanted now was

but I wanted him to realize that what he was

I was missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I

how I spent

apartment door, I was expecting to find the room dark

I heard the sound

saw Tristan sitting on

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked to see

both shocked to

here? I thought you and Sophie

Aren't you supposed to be

I don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed

and groaned in

and I like the silence.Helps me get

said, gesturing to the laptop

writing because he worked

"Oh,"

mouthed and I got up to

me, I’m not gonna bother you.I’m

and he pulled on my hand, motioning for

talk about it?"Tristan knew something was

hold it anymore.The next thing I knew, I burst out

never showed

didn’t even call...and it's supposed to

around me and cooed me gently as he said,

seat all summer long, but that’s okay, because he’s

between sobs, "But why would he even bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even

and crying mess.Tristan grabbed the box of tissues

I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His priority is

after blowing my nose so

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

but they used to have a thing together back in high school,"I replied, and I rolled my eyes for added

think

hope not!" images of Ian and Ally

happened? He never showed up for the dinner and

and nodded my head

just about the dinner.It’s about every day and night before that too.We barely have any time

never said anything to him

in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I

let out a sad

had a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve

drove for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t

special thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met him at

we took a road trip to Princeton and he inspired me to apply to Ivy

my eighteenth birthday, he drove

birthday, I had a lot of expectations and

I don’t know what else

to hear all my sob

been looking at that word document for the past hour,

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

and the time showed that

since it’s still technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

as he got

six pack of

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me write better,"he

night were

help me forget all about this

I nodded my head vigorously at him

and I ended up

and Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so

the morning and I had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to

the pounding on

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

he got up from the couch