Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

EMMA’s POV : 

By 9 PM, I gave up.

I never felt so humiliated in my life.

I asked for the check and paid for the four glasses of mocktail I had and left a nice tip for my waiter.

The hostess smiled a sad smile as she saw me walking out of the restaurant alone.

I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I went back to the apartment because I didn't know where else to go.

I saw my reflection in the mirror when I walked in and I looked so pathetic.

I did my hair and make up, I put on a dress and everything, only to be stood up by him at my birthday.

I was angry, embarrassed, and frustrated.

But mostly I was sad.

I thought tonight would be special, but no.

It was just any other day for Ian.

He had other things that were more important and I just had to take the back seat.

Feeling stupid, I took off the dress and put on an oversized sweater instead.

Tears were running down my face and it totally ruined my make up, but who cares? It wasn’t like it was important anyway.

I scrubbed my make up off angrily and pulled my hair into a messy ponytail.

I looked around the empty apartment and I debated on what to do.

I could stay here and wait until he gets home and hear about how sorry he was that he missed my birthday dinner, and tomorrow he'll go to work and ignore me again completely.

Or… I could pack my bags and leave.

There was a train running between Philly and New York City every day and if I leave now, I could make it before the last train leaves.

I didn’t think too much about it, I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't believe what I'm saying, but I needed some space away from him.

It would be better for us both.

My heart was hurting too much and I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I quickly packed my bags and I wrote him a note.

Dear Ian, You don’t have to apologize.

I know you're busy and I'm not a priority at the moment, and that’s okay, I understand.

But I think it’s best I leave so you can focus on your work.

No hard feelings.

Emma.

It sounded petty, but whatever.

I was too upset to be nice.

My uber was now waiting for me downstairs and I took a moment for one last glimpse of the apartment.

Leaving the spare key on the kitchen counter, I turned off the lights and closed the door shut.

I turned off my phone for the rest of the night.

I didn’t wanna hear any more ‘I'm sorry’ or ‘I'll make it up to you’.

I had enough of his empty promises.

I was tired of all that.

I put up with it all summer long and I needed an out.

At least when we were far away and he was busy with work, I didn’t have to feel this hurt because I could blame the distance.

between us and there

that I didn’t matter

loves me, sure

couldn't see it and I

wanted now was

to realize that what he

missing him.I got back to Philly late that night.I took a cab to my new apartment and hauled my big

I spent my

the apartment door, I was expecting to find the room

were on and I heard

walked inside and saw

"Tristan?"I gaped.

shocked to

to see each other

I thought you

What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in the city with

story, I don't wanna talk about it,"I sighed dramatically and

and groaned in exhaustion.It had

came early because the apartment's empty and

gesturing to the laptop on the

writing because he worked in

"Oh,"

mouthed and I got up

worry about me, I’m not gonna bother you.I’m just gonna get some

said and he pulled on my hand, motioning for me to sit back

talk about it?"Tristan knew something

next thing I knew, I burst out crying into his shoulder,

never showed

call...and it's supposed to

his arms around me and cooed me gently as he said,

okay, because he’s working towards his dreams and I didn’t wanna get

bring me out to New York City if he didn’t even have the time to spend with

box of tissues on the table and handed it to

I think? I think he doesn’t love me anymore.I think he got bored with me or something.His priority

blowing my nose

"Who's Ally?"he asked.

they used to have a thing together

You think

I hope not!" images of Ian and Ally filled my head and I shook my head violently, hoping it would

dinner and he didn’t

lip and nodded my head

day and night before that too.We barely have any time together, and even we're

never said anything to him all summer long?"he

I didn’t wanna get in the way ..but...I can’t do it anymore.I thought by now things will get better, but it never does.Even though I was with

out a sad

sucks.Sorry you had a shitty birthday and a shitty summer.You deserve so much

for hours and took me on a road trip.I don’t know what happened to us now and why we're

thing for us.My sixteenth birthday was the first time I met

birthday, we took a road trip to Princeton

and for my eighteenth birthday, he drove us to

had a lot of expectations and they were all

I don’t know what else to say,"Tristan sighed

here and you had to hear all my sob story.I shouldn't be disturbing you, you’re working," I said as I

at all.I've been looking at that word document for

"Are you sure?"

"Yes,"

clock, and the

still technically your

"How?"

I stifled a laugh.

crept up his face as he got up and headed to the

with a six pack of beer.He lifted them up

"You got beer?"I questioned.

me write better,"he

all night were

use some booze, especially to help me forget

I nodded my head vigorously at him and said, "Yes

I ended up drinking

Order on TV and we used our matching onesie pajamas because they were so comfortable

had fallen asleep on the couch and Tristan fell asleep next to me,

pounding on the door got

"Who is that?"I croaked.

"I don't know,"Tristan replied.

up from the couch and