Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

and grabbed the guest list on the table, "So we're pretty

about Emma, isn’t

Ally pressed on.

worried when you thought I was

are just shit

threw the guest list back

didn’t say a

looked at me knowingly and stood up to

out a

25 year old

you could use some

thought you

for me,"she poured a generous amount into

it from

days, Ally made a

spent weeks in the hospital trying

months sober now, I

 "Thanks,"

took a big gulp and let the fiery warm liquid

"Whoa, slow down,"

watched me downed the

empty glass down on the table

a sip of her own drink before pouring another

played with

two were

I try to grasp, the more she’s slipping away from me," the alcohol

lan.Maybe she’s not ready for such

not the problem,"I sighed and stared at the

It was empty again.

young, but she’s way

"What do you mean?"

drink again.  "She’s always growing and becoming more and I'm afraid I've passed my prime.I

can't be true,

"I don't know,"

long have you

"For a while,"

never told

shook my head and

is the key to a relationship.I wasn't completely honest with Richard and that’s the thing that ended our engagement.Don’t make the same

what am I supposed to tell her, Al? Sorry for not being man enough,

that sound? I don’t wanna

what she told me

to be honest, you can be

only did it because I was afraid

girl like her, not in a million

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

afraid she’s gonna out into the world and see there’s plenty of

lan.You're a great guy.She’s lucky to

hand on my knee in a comforting

you don’t know the whole

you never told me the whole

asked me plenty of times about Emma, but I

I wanted trouble.But basically, I was

when she first met

was that young, but the moment I laid eyes on

didn't look like the type that would be into guys like me, but

young

selfish

alley and fiicked her next

of mine, instead of running for the hills, I wanted her

a sick son

young and impressionable.I was supposed to be the mature adult, but I

all the rules, I took her again and

tight around her, she was willing to

by a dude because

gave up on

move on with her life, I had to come back in and

because I couldn't

I was convinced that I love

used to go to church when I was

recite ‘love is patient and

my love this unkind? My love for her was nowhere near pure

was proud

she asked for

I was suffocating her.

you're having there.Care to

in my hand and