Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

list on the table,

about Emma, isn’t

Ally pressed on.

when you thought I

well...things are just

sighed and threw the guest list

didn’t say a

me knowingly and stood up to her

walked towards a cabinet and pulled out a bottle

old single

you could use some of this,"she

thought you don't drink

for me,"she poured a generous amount into one glass

took it from

days, Ally made a

in the

months sober now, I was so proud

 "Thanks,"

took a big gulp and let the fiery warm liquid enter

"Whoa, slow down,"

watched me downed the entire thing

down on the table and let

sip of her own drink before pouring another generous amount

played

two were

don't talk as much anymore.I feel like I’m losing her.And the harder I try to grasp, the more she’s slipping away from me," the alcohol

not ready

and stared

It was empty again.

she’s way mature.I’m the problem

"What do you mean?"

growing and becoming more and I'm

be true,

"I don't know,"

you

"For a while,"

you never

and took

a relationship.I wasn't completely honest with Richard and that’s the thing that ended our engagement.Don’t

what am I supposed to tell her, Al? Sorry for not being

would that sound? I don’t wanna be

she told me earlier? She

honest, you can be

only did it because I was afraid I'd lose

like her, not

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

plenty of other

talking about, lan.You're a great guy.She’s lucky to

on my knee in a comforting

don’t know the

because you never told me the

but

wanted trouble.But basically, I was

high school when she first

eyes on her at that bar, I knew I had to

that would be into guys like

young and

was selfish

back alley and fiicked her next to

instead of running for the hills, I wanted her

was a sick son

was young and impressionable.I was supposed to be the mature adult, but I

all the rules, I took her again

stopped.I had my grip so tight around her, she was willing to

was almost raped by a dude because of

on her future

to end things and let her move on with her life, I had to come back in and forced myself into her life once

because I couldn't control

convinced that I

to church when

recite ‘love

why was my love this unkind? My love for her was nowhere near

proud

wonder she

I was suffocating her.

deep thoughts you're having there.Care to

the glass in my hand and