Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

grabbed the guest list on the table, "So we're pretty

about Emma, isn’t

Ally pressed on.

sounded worried when you thought I

just shit

threw the guest list back on the

didn’t say

at me knowingly and stood

and pulled out a bottle

Macallan 25 year old single malt scotch.My go to

like you could use some

thought you don't drink

me,"she poured a generous amount into one glass and gave it

took it from her

days, Ally made a deal with me not

weeks in the hospital trying

sober now,

 "Thanks,"

took a big gulp and let the fiery warm liquid enter my system.It was exactly what

"Whoa, slow down,"

as she watched me downed the entire thing all at

empty glass down on the table and let out

poured some water into her glass and she took a sip of her own drink before pouring

paradise?"she said as she played

two were

just hard with long distance.We don't talk as much anymore.I feel like I’m losing her.And the harder I try to

so young, lan.Maybe she’s not ready

stared at

It was empty again.

young, but she’s way mature.I’m the problem

"What do you mean?"

my drink again.  "She’s always growing and becoming more and I'm afraid I've passed

be

"I don't know,"

long have you been feeling this

"For a while,"

you never

my head and took another

wasn't completely honest with Richard and that’s the thing that ended our engagement.Don’t make the same mistake

her, Al? Sorry for not being man enough, but please be with me

pathetic would that sound? I don’t wanna

me earlier? She said

honest, you can be

because I

deserve a girl like her, not in

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

afraid she’s gonna out into the world and see there’s plenty of other guys that are better than me...why would a girl like her pick someone

a great guy.She’s lucky to have

knee in a comforting manner, but I shook my head and moved

you don’t know the whole

you never told

about Emma, but I couldn't

wanted trouble.But basically, I

when she first met me,

didn't realize she was that young, but the moment I laid eyes on her at that bar, I knew

type that would be into guys like me,

young and

selfish

alley and fiicked

out she was a student of mine, instead of running for the hills,

was a sick son of a

supposed to be the

rules, I took her

around her, she was willing to do anything

by a dude because of

on her future for me

her move on with her life, I had to come back in

because I couldn't control

was convinced that I

to church

recite ‘love is patient and love

love for her was nowhere

was proud and self-

wonder she asked for

I was suffocating her.

deep thoughts you're having there.Care to

my hand and