Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

grabbed the guest list on the table,

about Emma, isn’t

Ally pressed on.

worried when you thought I was

just shit right

guest list

say a

at me knowingly and stood up

towards a cabinet and pulled out a bottle of whiskey

a Macallan 25 year old single malt

use

thought you don't

me,"she poured a generous amount into one

took it from

and blacking out for days, Ally made a deal with me not to drink

weeks in the hospital trying to

now, I

 "Thanks,"

gulp and let the fiery warm liquid

"Whoa, slow down,"

she watched me downed the

the table and let out a long,

glass and she took a sip of her own

played with the drink in her

you two were going

try to grasp, the more she’s slipping away from me," the alcohol in my system was

so young, lan.Maybe she’s not ready for

stared at the bottom of my

It was empty again.

she’s way

"What do you mean?"

off my drink again.  "She’s always growing and becoming more and I'm afraid I've passed my prime.I think I’m not enough

can't be true,

"I don't know,"

you been feeling this

"For a while,"

you never

my head and took another

wasn't completely honest with Richard and that’s

Al? Sorry for not being man enough, but please be with

sound? I

told me earlier? She said

honest, you can

I was afraid I'd

like her, not

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

there’s plenty of other

you talking about, lan.You're a great guy.She’s

in a comforting manner, but I shook

know the whole

told me

me plenty of times about Emma, but

unless I wanted trouble.But basically, I

in high school when she first met me,

the moment I laid eyes on her at that bar, I knew

type that would be into guys like me, but I was

young

selfish

her to the back alley and fiicked her next to

I found out she was a student of mine, instead of running for the hills, I wanted her even

a sick son of

supposed to be the mature adult, but I couldn't control

rules, I took her

had my grip so tight around

was almost raped by a dude because

almost gave up on

to end things and let her move on with her life, I had to come back in

because I

I was convinced that

to

priests would recite ‘love

this unkind? My love for her

proud and

wonder she asked for

I was suffocating her.

thoughts you're having there.Care

looked down at the glass in my hand