Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

grabbed the guest list on the table, "So we're

about Emma,

Ally pressed on.

thought I was her calling

well...things are just shit right

and threw the guest list back

say a

at me knowingly and stood up to her

pulled out a bottle

25 year old single

like you could use some of this,"she

thought you

a generous amount

it

Ally

in the hospital

now, I was so

 "Thanks,"

and let the fiery warm liquid enter my system.It

"Whoa, slow down,"

laughed drily as she watched me downed the entire thing

on the table

a sip of her own drink before pouring

she played with the

you two

I try

lan.Maybe she’s not ready for such

problem,"I sighed and stared at

It was empty again.

way

"What do you mean?"

"She’s always growing and becoming more and I'm afraid I've passed

be true,

"I don't know,"

long have you been

"For a while,"

you never

and

honest with Richard and that’s the thing that ended our engagement.Don’t make the same mistake

her, Al? Sorry for not being man enough, but please be with

sound? I don’t wanna

me earlier? She said I was

be honest,

it because I was

like her, not

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

afraid she’s gonna out into the world and see there’s plenty of

you talking about, lan.You're a great guy.She’s lucky to have you

put a hand on my knee in a comforting manner, but I

you don’t know

told me the

me plenty of times about Emma, but I

I wanted trouble.But basically, I was a

school when she first

but the moment I laid eyes on her at that

that would be into guys like me, but

was young

selfish and

took her to the back alley and fiicked her next

was a student of mine, instead of running for the hills, I

was a sick son

to be the mature adult, but I

rules, I

had my grip so tight around her, she was willing to do anything for

was almost raped by a dude because

almost gave up on her future for

move on with her life, I

I couldn't

because I was convinced that I

go to church when I

the priests would recite ‘love is patient and love

my love this unkind? My love for

proud and self-

she

I was suffocating her.

thoughts you're having there.Care to share?"Ally said

the glass in my hand and realized it was empty