Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

list on the table, "So we're pretty

about Emma, isn’t

Ally pressed on.

sounded worried when you thought I was her

are just shit

the guest

didn’t say a

and stood up to her

out

25 year old single malt

like you could use some of

you

amount into one glass and

it

and blacking out for days, Ally made a

spent weeks in the hospital trying

months sober now, I was so proud

 "Thanks,"

liquid enter my system.It was exactly what I

"Whoa, slow down,"

she watched me

the empty glass down on the table and

her glass and she took a sip of her own drink before pouring another generous amount of scotch

paradise?"she said as she played with the drink in

you two

feel like I’m losing her.And the harder I try to grasp, the more she’s slipping away from me," the alcohol in my system was making my

so young, lan.Maybe she’s not ready for such a

not the problem,"I sighed and stared at the bottom of

It was empty again.

she’s way mature.I’m the problem

"What do you mean?"

"She’s always growing and becoming more and I'm afraid

be true, can

"I don't know,"

you been feeling this

"For a while,"

you never told

and took

the key to a relationship.I wasn't completely honest with Richard and that’s the thing that ended our engagement.Don’t make the

for not being man enough,

that sound? I don’t wanna

me

be honest,

I

girl like her, not

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

she’s gonna out into the world and see there’s plenty of other guys that are better than me...why

lan.You're a great guy.She’s lucky to

on my knee in a comforting manner, but I

know the whole

because you never told me the whole

me plenty of times about Emma, but I couldn't tell her

wanted trouble.But basically, I was a

was only in high school when she first met me, innocent

was that young, but the moment I laid eyes on her at that bar, I knew I had to

type that would be into guys like me, but I was

was young and

was selfish

the back alley and fiicked her next to a

mine, instead of running for

sick son of

supposed to be the

rules, I took

had my grip so tight around her, she was willing to do anything for

was almost raped by

gave up on

when I finally had the balls to end things and let her move on with her life, I had to come back in and forced

I couldn't

was convinced

go to church when

priests would recite ‘love is patient and love is

why was my love this unkind? My love for her was nowhere

was proud and

she

I was suffocating her.

deep thoughts you're having

down at the glass in my hand and realized it