Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

muttered and grabbed the guest list on

Emma, isn’t

Ally pressed on.

worried when you thought

are just

sighed and threw the guest list back on the

didn’t say a

looked at me knowingly and

pulled out a

25 year old single malt

could use some of this,"she

thought you don't

for me,"she poured a generous amount into one glass and gave it

took it

for days, Ally made a deal with me not to drink

the

three months sober now, I was

 "Thanks,"

fiery warm liquid enter my

"Whoa, slow down,"

laughed drily as she watched me

glass down on the table and let out a long,

a sip of her own drink before pouring another generous amount of

said as she played with the

two were

distance.We don't talk as much anymore.I feel like I’m losing her.And the harder I try to

young, lan.Maybe she’s not ready for such

problem,"I sighed and stared at the bottom

It was empty again.

way

"What do you mean?"

becoming more

be

"I don't know,"

you

"For a while,"

you never told

my head and took another

with Richard and that’s the thing that ended our engagement.Don’t make the

am I supposed to tell her, Al? Sorry for not being man enough, but please be

that sound? I don’t

what she told me

honest, you can

I was afraid I'd

never deserve a girl like her, not

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

she’s gonna out into the world and see there’s plenty of other guys that are better than me...why would a girl like her pick someone like

about, lan.You're a great guy.She’s

hand on my knee in a comforting manner, but I

know the whole

told

me plenty of times about Emma, but I couldn't

basically, I was a

in high school when she first met me, innocent and

moment I laid eyes on her at that bar,

be into guys like me, but I was

was young

was selfish

alley and fiicked her next to

was a student of mine, instead of running

sick son of

and impressionable.I was supposed to be the mature

I took her again

never stopped.I had my grip so tight around her, she was willing to do anything

almost raped by a

on her future for

had the balls to end things and let her move on with her life, I had

I

convinced

to go to church when

the priests would recite ‘love is

love this unkind? My love for her was nowhere near pure and

was proud and

she asked

I was suffocating her.

you're having there.Care

at the glass in my