Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

list on the

about Emma, isn’t

Ally pressed on.

thought I was

are just shit right

the guest list back on

say

looked at me knowingly and stood up to

out a bottle of whiskey and two

a Macallan 25 year old single malt scotch.My

use some of this,"she

you don't

amount into one glass

took it

for days, Ally

weeks in the hospital trying

was three months sober now, I was so proud of

 "Thanks,"

the fiery warm liquid enter my system.It was exactly what I needed

"Whoa, slow down,"

me downed the entire thing all

empty glass down on the table and let

some water into her glass and she took a sip of her own drink before pouring another generous amount of scotch

she played with

you two

try to grasp,

young, lan.Maybe she’s not ready for

and stared at the bottom of

It was empty again.

she’s way mature.I’m the

"What do you mean?"

off my drink again.  "She’s always growing and becoming more and I'm afraid I've passed my prime.I think I’m not

can't be true, can

"I don't know,"

have you been feeling

"For a while,"

never

my head and took

a relationship.I wasn't completely honest with Richard and that’s the

supposed to tell her, Al? Sorry for not being man

that sound? I

what she told me earlier? She

to be honest, you

I was afraid I'd

a girl like

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

afraid she’s gonna out into the world and see there’s plenty of other guys that are better than me...why

talking about, lan.You're a great

a hand on my knee in a comforting manner, but I shook my

don’t know the

told

me plenty of times about Emma, but I couldn't tell her

basically, I was

in high school when she first met me, innocent

eyes on her

look like the type that would be into

young

selfish

to the back alley and fiicked

she was a student of mine, instead of running for the hills, I wanted

a sick son of a

was young and impressionable.I was supposed to be the mature adult, but I couldn't

I took her again and

around her, she was

almost raped by a dude because

up on her future

her move on with her life, I had to come back in and forced myself into her

I

because I was convinced that I love

to go to

the priests would recite ‘love is

love this unkind? My love for her was nowhere

proud and self-

wonder she asked

I was suffocating her.

deep thoughts you're having there.Care to

at the glass in my hand and