Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

and grabbed the guest list on

Emma,

Ally pressed on.

sounded worried when you thought I was her

are just shit right

sighed and threw the guest list back

say a

and stood up to her

and pulled out a bottle

old single malt scotch.My go

use some of

thought you don't drink

for me,"she poured a generous amount into one glass and gave it

it from

out for days, Ally made

weeks in the hospital

three months sober now, I was

 "Thanks,"

fiery warm liquid enter

"Whoa, slow down,"

watched me downed the entire

the table and let out a long, exasperated

a sip of

as she played with the drink in her

thought you two were going

with long distance.We don't talk as much anymore.I feel like I’m losing her.And the harder I try to grasp, the more she’s slipping away from me," the alcohol in my system was

lan.Maybe she’s not ready for such

sighed and stared at the bottom

It was empty again.

young, but she’s way

"What do you mean?"

and becoming more and I'm afraid I've passed my prime.I think I’m not enough for

can't be

"I don't know,"

long have you been

"For a while,"

never told

head and took

relationship.I wasn't completely honest with Richard and that’s the thing that ended

to tell her, Al? Sorry for not being man enough, but please

pathetic would that sound? I don’t wanna

told me earlier? She said I

be honest, you can

it because I was

like her, not

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

the world and see there’s plenty of

lan.You're a great guy.She’s lucky to have

in a comforting manner, but I shook my head

don’t know the

you never told

but I

unless I wanted trouble.But basically, I

high school when

realize she was that young, but the moment I laid eyes on her at that bar, I knew I had to

be into

was young and

was selfish

took her to the back alley and

I found out she was a student of mine, instead of running for the hills, I wanted

was a sick

be the mature adult,

the rules, I took her

stopped.I had my grip so tight around her,

raped by a dude because of

gave up on her future for

had the balls to end things and let her move on with her life, I had to come back

I couldn't

I was convinced that

used to go to church when

would recite ‘love is patient and love is

unkind? My love for her was nowhere near

proud and self-

wonder she

I was suffocating her.

you're having

the glass in my hand