Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

muttered and grabbed the guest list on the table, "So we're pretty

about Emma, isn’t

Ally pressed on.

you thought I was

well...things are just

and threw the guest list back

didn’t say a

knowingly and stood up to her

a cabinet and pulled out a bottle of whiskey

Macallan 25 year old

you could use some

you don't drink

amount into one glass and gave it to

it

Ally made a deal with me not to

in the hospital trying to

now,

 "Thanks,"

took a big gulp and let the fiery warm liquid enter my system.It was exactly what I

"Whoa, slow down,"

as she watched me downed

glass down on the

a sip of her own drink before pouring another generous amount of scotch into

as she played

you two were

with long distance.We don't talk as much anymore.I feel like I’m losing her.And the harder I try to grasp, the more she’s slipping away from

not ready for such

sighed and stared at the

It was empty again.

way mature.I’m the

"What do you mean?"

always growing and becoming more and I'm afraid I've passed my prime.I think I’m not enough for

can't be true,

"I don't know,"

have you been feeling this

"For a while,"

you never told

head and took another

and that’s the thing that ended our engagement.Don’t make

to tell her, Al? Sorry for not being man

that sound? I don’t wanna be that

she told me

to be honest, you can be

only did it because I was afraid

deserve a girl like her,

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

there’s plenty of

a great

comforting manner, but

don’t know

you never told

Emma, but I

trouble.But basically, I

was only in high school when she first met me, innocent and

realize she was that young, but the moment I laid eyes on her at that

like the type that would be into guys like

was young and

selfish

to the back alley and

instead of running for the hills,

a sick son of a

to be the mature adult, but

I took her again

so tight around her, she

by a dude because of

almost gave up on her future for

balls to end things and let her move on with her life, I had to come back in

I couldn't

because I was convinced

to church

would recite ‘love is patient and

My love for her was

was proud and self-

wonder she

I was suffocating her.

you're having there.Care to share?"Ally

at the glass in my hand and realized it was