Teacher's Girl (Aflyingwhale)

IAN’s POV : 

Fucking bullshit! I got in a car as fast as I could and drove until the bridge when I stopped myself.

She didn’t want me to come.

She wanted some space.

Punching the steering wheel in anger, I turned the car around and drove back.

We are ninety miles apart.

How much more space does she want? I didn’t understand this at all.

She chose to talk about big life decisions with that Tristan guy over me, her own fiancée.

What the hell? "I didn’t wanna tell you until I'm ready because I know you're gonna make my decisions for me,"

Her words were stinging in my ear.

What did that even mean? Was she saying that I was controlling? I tried to call her again, but her phone was off.

And even if she picked up the phone, I didn’t know what I would say to her.

She asked for space to think, goddamnit, why can't I be a mature person and give it to her? Suddenly, my phone started buzzing and I picked it up immediately.

My heart was racing at the thought that Emma was calling me back, maybe she was changing her mind? "Emma?!"

I said to the phone without even checking it.

"Hey, no it’s me, Ally,"the voice on the other line said.

"Oh,"I sighed as my shoulders slumped down in disappointment, "What's up, Al?"

"Where are you right now?"

"In the car,"

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere,"

I said simply.

"Oh...okay...well, I have some things I wanna discuss regarding the grand opening day.I was gonna see if I can come over to your place to talk about it, but it sounds like you're busy, so..."

"No, I can talk.I'll come to your place.I'm not far,"

"Really? Okay then.I'll see you in a bit,"

Turning off the call, I made a quick U-turn and drove towards Ally’s.

If I went home right now, I would just keep kicking myself in the head and replaying all the words Emma said to me.

That wasn't gonna do me any good.

I decided to give Emma her space and I would try her again tomorrow.

As of right now, I wanted to think about something else other than the looming space between Emma and I.

Going over to Ally’s and talking about work seemed like a better idea I reached Ally’s apartment within minutes.

Beaming with excitement, she opened the door for me and led us to the living room.

As much as I wanted to act like everything was okay, all I could muster was a half smile.

"So, listen, I wanna go through the guest list with you,"

Ally said as soon as we sat on the couch.

On the coffee table was a stack of papers and invitations to our gallery's grand opening.

"Our capacity is at 140 people.I know you said you don’t want more than 20 reporters, but I think we should have more.

There are at least 30 important media people from all the five boroughs,"

Ally was going on and on about the guest list and invites.

I nodded along like I was listening, but only half of me was there in that room.

The other half was still thinking about Emma and if I should have done something or said something else.

"What’s going on, lan? What’s on your mind?"

Ally said suddenly, pulling me out of my train of thought.

"Huh?"

"You can barely focus.Tell me, what’s wrong?"

"It's nothing,"

grabbed the guest list on the

about Emma,

Ally pressed on.

thought I was

well...things are just shit

guest list back on

say a

at me knowingly and stood

pulled out

old single

use some

you

for me,"she poured a generous amount

took it from her

drinking too much and blacking out for days, Ally made

spent weeks in the hospital trying to

three months sober now, I was so

 "Thanks,"

a big gulp and let the fiery warm liquid enter my system.It was exactly what I needed right

"Whoa, slow down,"

me downed the entire thing all at

the empty glass down on the table and let out

took a sip of her own drink before pouring another generous amount of scotch

she played with the

you two

hard with long distance.We don't talk as much anymore.I feel like I’m losing her.And the harder I try to grasp, the more

not ready for

sighed and stared at the

It was empty again.

way mature.I’m the

"What do you mean?"

again.  "She’s always growing and becoming more and I'm afraid I've passed my prime.I think I’m not enough for

be true,

"I don't know,"

have you been

"For a while,"

you never told

my head and took another big

relationship.I wasn't completely honest with Richard and that’s the thing that

her, Al? Sorry for not being man enough, but please be

I don’t wanna be

she told me earlier? She said

honest, you can

I was

a girl like her, not in a million

I admitted.

"That's not true,"Ally said.

my worst fear, Al.I'm afraid she’s gonna out into the world and see there’s plenty of other guys

are you talking about, lan.You're a great guy.She’s lucky to have you

a hand on my knee in a comforting manner, but I

know the

because you never told me

Emma, but I couldn't

wanted trouble.But basically,

was only in high school when she first met

she was that young, but the moment I laid eyes on her at that bar,

like the type that would be into guys like me,

young and

was selfish

I took her to the back alley and fiicked her next to a

I found out she was a student of mine, instead of running for the hills, I wanted her even

a sick son of

to be the mature adult, but I couldn't control

all the rules, I

so tight around her,

by a dude because

up on her future for

let her move on with her life, I had to come back in and forced myself into her

I couldn't control

I was convinced

to go to church when

the priests would recite ‘love is

My love for

proud

wonder she asked for

I was suffocating her.

you're having there.Care to share?"Ally said

my hand