The Alpha Who Saved Me

CHAPTER 101

I was refusing to see Declan because I didn’t want any reminders of Gavin in the days

following his death, and the two of them are similar in the face. I thought it would hurt

seeing Declan because I miss Gavin so d*mn much. I’m always expecting him to walk

through the door or wake me up by making love to me or kissing the s*it out of me, but

there is nothing.

It wasn’t until I watched that video that he made for me that I was able to start putting

myself back together again. I don’t want to disappoint him and he’s right, our son needs

me to remind him of his daddy, and I need to show him how to be strong. How can I do

that if I hide away in my room? That’s not being a strong Alpha, and I want to make sure

that Gavin’s son is the best Alpha that he can be.

And so, I showered for the first time in days, and then I got

Enter title…

dressed in clean clothes. I’m wearing one of Gavin’s t-shirts tied at the waist, but it’s

clean and that’s all that matters. I start throwing orders around at border patrol, the

warriors, and the pack house staff, not in a mean way, but orders just the same.

It’s the time that I actually spend with my son that almost breaks me. Thinking about how

he was finally getting used to his daddy, only to have him ripped away from him as his

life is just beginning. I’m so glad that Sara ended Daniel, because I wouldn’t want to take

away someone’s mate like that, and I would have. I will always be indebted to her for

ending her own mate, and she will always have a spot in this family no matter what. It

takes a lot of courage. and strength to be able to kill your own mate, but a mother’s love

doesn’t end when they grow up; it lasts a lifetime.

After spending time with Ash, I lay him down for a nap and then head down to the office

to try and catch up on the finances and anything else that Spencer wasn’t able to get

done in the last few days. I’ve been in my office for about two hours now when I feel our

synced heartbeats just before the knock comes.

Declan brings Holden to try and cheer me up, and I can’t believe how much he’s grown.

Looking at the pup, a weird sense of knowledge about something that I can’t put my

finger on, comes over me, but then I push it aside as he asks about my son.

Linking Cici, I ask that she bring Ash to my office and then next thing I know, Declan is

pulling me into a hug. I freeze, I don’t want sympathy when I’m trying to be strong, but

then it’s like a cloak of some sort drapes itself around me, giving me comfort instead and

I wrap my own arms around his waist.

“I’m here, Quinn, I’m always here…just remember that.” He states, and I know the words

to ring true because that is who Declan is.

at his words, but

them as well. I can’t really explain it.

been calm in days. I should feel off

soon after Gavin has passed even if this isn’t what that is, but

within the hug, and I

few minutes, I pull away, though, when a thought

Declan and he doesn’t seem to mind that I broke contact, so I address an

about for the past hour, “I need your help with the Blue River

“Whatever it

even thinking about it and take him

him on my lap as I continue,

someone to take over as Alpha until Ash

first, but Demi doesn’t want anything to do with it,

be until

the true heir since Gavin was first born

heir would be Alpha over Gavin’s sibling.”

I think Ayden deserves some acknowledgement as being an Alpha’s son.”

try detangling Holden’s hand from

“Well if you

for standing by and not saying anything about the Alpha’s

By stripping his title, any heir of his will be stripped also, so it will

son to the Alpha, that title should belong to Ayden,

he wants it.”

agreeing to what he is saying, “I think we should talk to Demi as

out what to do about the two temporary positions.

the Blue River pack. that Gavin talked about often,

can check him out, see what he’s about and we

from there.”

good male and

the temporary Beta position goes, I think

“Have you talked to Aunt Sara about any of this? We may not

take over until Ash is

she will want to. Maybe

that both you and I will be there to

to talk

know how much she liked me before

her favorite person, and even though she would be

would be able to persuade her, not

involved as well.” I add as an

see what I can do.” He replies just as the door

Declan

him with Ash warms my heart and I know that

I say that Declan will be a great role model for our son.

just as I think this, and I smile as it caresses my skin, making me think of

Maybe he is with me, I think as I turn to the window and smile, ‘I love you, Gavin,’

think to myself and another breeze comes through, this time with a touch of warmth

know that he is

for supper, joining

Dr. Sands who will be staying on with us for a while until

with Langly. There’s laughter all around

to become depressed when I

doesn’t want that. Knowing that he is still with me, though, is

tremendously.

will you be doing about hiring a nanny once Sara goes back to

It’s Amelia that

haven’t even thought about it. I don’t want to

he’s

Sara asks softly, and

back at her.

“Of course, I will always take your

Sara, dear. After all, we are family now.” Her telling me this means a lot to

happened. Sara continues,

and it would be great to see uncle and nephew grow up

roof.”

last words.